WEBVTT 00:00:50.375 --> 00:02:30.957 ..:: ارائه شده توسط وب سايت بلبل جان ::.. ‏.:: www.bolboljan.net ::. 00:02:50.375 --> 00:02:51.957 Who are you? 00:02:52.291 --> 00:02:55.457 l'm your husband. Ben. 00:02:56.541 --> 00:02:57.957 What? 00:02:58.583 --> 00:03:00.415 We got married in 1999. 00:03:01.708 --> 00:03:03.124 That's 14 years ago. 00:03:03.375 --> 00:03:04.790 Uh... 00:03:05.083 --> 00:03:07.082 Christine, you're 40. 00:03:23.791 --> 00:03:25.624 You had an accident. 00:03:26.541 --> 00:03:29.624 lt was a bad accident. You had head injuries. 00:03:30.958 --> 00:03:32.665 And you have problems remembering things. 00:03:33.666 --> 00:03:35.790 What things? What... 00:03:36.541 --> 00:03:39.665 Everything. You store up information for a day 00:03:40.083 --> 00:03:41.999 and when you wake up in the morning, it's all gone, 00:03:42.083 --> 00:03:43.874 you're back to your early 20s. 00:03:51.916 --> 00:03:53.499 lt'll be okay. 00:03:54.458 --> 00:03:56.457 Just... trust me. 00:03:56.541 --> 00:03:58.082 - l'm scared. - l know. 00:03:58.166 --> 00:03:59.665 l know, it's all right. 00:04:00.875 --> 00:04:02.290 l love you. 00:04:09.875 --> 00:04:11.874 l love you, Christine. 00:04:15.583 --> 00:04:17.665 We've been married for 14 years. 00:04:18.958 --> 00:04:21.165 We met during your last term at King's. 00:04:21.708 --> 00:04:23.124 You were doing an MA in History 00:04:23.208 --> 00:04:25.165 and we got married a couple of years after that. 00:04:25.250 --> 00:04:26.999 l'd have been perfectly happy with the registry office... 00:04:27.083 --> 00:04:30.457 ...but you wanted a white wedding. 00:04:30.541 --> 00:04:32.790 l hated every moment of it 00:04:33.250 --> 00:04:35.457 until l saw you walking down the aisle. 00:04:35.541 --> 00:04:37.165 ls every day like this? 00:04:39.208 --> 00:04:40.874 ls every day the same? 00:04:42.958 --> 00:04:45.790 That's just a list of everything you might need. 00:04:46.291 --> 00:04:47.707 And where you'll find it. 00:04:47.791 --> 00:04:50.290 Aspirin, first aid, sanitary towels, toiletries. 00:04:50.375 --> 00:04:52.207 Couple of things you're allergic to. 00:04:52.500 --> 00:04:53.957 And, uh... 00:04:54.041 --> 00:04:57.207 Well, it's a list of things to do. You like to keep busy. 00:04:57.625 --> 00:04:59.249 "Pack bag." 00:04:59.333 --> 00:05:00.999 Today's our anniversary. 00:05:01.833 --> 00:05:03.124 l'm taking you away. 00:05:03.208 --> 00:05:05.624 - Tonight. After work. - Where? 00:05:06.750 --> 00:05:09.082 That's a surprise. 00:05:09.166 --> 00:05:10.874 A nice one. 00:05:11.333 --> 00:05:13.874 You'll understand when we get there, l promise. 00:05:18.166 --> 00:05:19.957 l love you, Christine. 00:06:25.583 --> 00:06:26.999 Christine? 00:06:27.083 --> 00:06:28.499 Yes? 00:06:28.791 --> 00:06:30.499 lt's Dr Nasch. 00:06:30.791 --> 00:06:33.624 That'll mean nothing to you, l know, but don't worry. 00:06:34.041 --> 00:06:37.040 We've been doing some work on your memory. All right? 00:06:37.958 --> 00:06:40.790 Trying to figure out precisely what's caused your problem 00:06:40.875 --> 00:06:43.165 and whether there's anything we can do to fix it. 00:06:43.250 --> 00:06:45.499 Ben didn't say anything about this. 00:06:46.708 --> 00:06:48.707 l'm not certain that Ben knows. 00:06:50.250 --> 00:06:51.832 l don't understand. 00:06:53.041 --> 00:06:55.957 Christine, l want you to do something for me. 00:06:56.625 --> 00:06:59.832 l want you to open the wardrobe in your bedroom. 00:07:00.916 --> 00:07:03.499 Your wardrobe in the bedroom. 00:07:11.166 --> 00:07:12.832 We're looking for something. 00:07:13.333 --> 00:07:17.332 Hidden at the bottom of the wardrobe, at the back, in a drawer. 00:07:19.125 --> 00:07:21.832 - What am l looking for? - We're looking for a shoe box. 00:07:22.416 --> 00:07:24.540 - Can you see it? - No. 00:07:25.000 --> 00:07:27.415 The right-hand wardrobe nearest the bathroom. 00:07:40.083 --> 00:07:41.957 Have you found the camera, Christine? 00:07:43.833 --> 00:07:45.249 Yes. 00:07:45.416 --> 00:07:49.999 On the top, right-hand side of the camera is a power button. 00:07:50.583 --> 00:07:52.499 l want you to switch the camera on. 00:07:52.625 --> 00:07:55.415 Now l want you to hit the "play" button on the back of the camera. 00:07:59.083 --> 00:08:01.457 My name is Christine, Christine Lucas. 00:08:01.541 --> 00:08:03.957 l'm 40 years old and l'm an amnesiac. 00:08:05.125 --> 00:08:07.707 Tonight, as l sleep, my mind 00:08:07.791 --> 00:08:09.040 will erase everything, 00:08:09.125 --> 00:08:10.832 everything that l know today. 00:08:11.375 --> 00:08:13.332 Everything that l did today. 00:08:13.916 --> 00:08:16.999 And l will wake up tomorrow, like l did this morning, 00:08:17.083 --> 00:08:20.374 thinking that l have my whole life ahead of me. 00:08:20.458 --> 00:08:21.915 And the truth is... 00:08:22.000 --> 00:08:24.874 The truth is half my life is over. 00:08:26.500 --> 00:08:28.624 Oh, shit. He's coming. 00:08:40.833 --> 00:08:42.082 Admittedly, 00:08:42.166 --> 00:08:45.124 this isn't a run-of-the-mill doctor-patient relationship. 00:08:46.750 --> 00:08:49.332 Picking you up at home, driving you to my office. 00:08:49.416 --> 00:08:52.207 Seeing you without your husband's knowledge. 00:08:57.166 --> 00:08:58.624 Are you all right? 00:09:22.375 --> 00:09:27.040 l saw you in the park six months ago, quite by chance. 00:09:27.375 --> 00:09:28.665 You'd been referred to me by a colleague 00:09:28.750 --> 00:09:31.707 but l'd had absolutely no luck getting hold of you. ln fact, 00:09:32.291 --> 00:09:35.082 l recognised you from your photograph in the file. 00:09:36.375 --> 00:09:38.749 l explained that l was a neuropsychologist 00:09:38.833 --> 00:09:43.624 and that l was preparing a paper on atypical psychogenic amnesia, 00:09:43.708 --> 00:09:48.207 and that l was prepared to treat you on a pro bono basis. 00:09:49.833 --> 00:09:51.540 You agreed to give me the telephone numbers 00:09:51.625 --> 00:09:53.165 you had written in your diary. 00:09:59.166 --> 00:10:00.832 l called you a few days later. 00:10:02.500 --> 00:10:04.290 You didn't remember meeting me, of course, 00:10:04.375 --> 00:10:06.082 but you did consent to see me again. 00:10:06.875 --> 00:10:08.290 Later that day you told me 00:10:08.375 --> 00:10:11.040 you'd mentioned the possibility of further treatment to Ben, 00:10:12.583 --> 00:10:13.999 who made it very clear to you 00:10:14.083 --> 00:10:16.207 you'd received extensive attention in the past 00:10:17.208 --> 00:10:20.207 and it had done nothing other than to upset you. 00:10:20.291 --> 00:10:21.707 After you. 00:10:27.125 --> 00:10:28.957 l want you to keep a visual diary. 00:10:30.791 --> 00:10:32.031 l've set the time and the date, 00:10:32.041 --> 00:10:34.499 l've put in the biggest memory chip l can find. 00:10:35.125 --> 00:10:38.249 lt'll allow you to hold on to the previous day's memories. 00:10:38.333 --> 00:10:40.707 And even if the periods before and after the attack 00:10:40.791 --> 00:10:43.665 remain blank, at least this will bring some continuity... 00:10:43.750 --> 00:10:45.165 Attack? 00:10:46.333 --> 00:10:47.915 What attack? 00:10:48.666 --> 00:10:50.082 Ten years ago... 00:10:51.333 --> 00:10:53.207 you were found on an industrial estate 00:10:54.000 --> 00:10:55.582 not far from here. 00:10:56.333 --> 00:10:58.665 According to the medical report, 00:10:58.750 --> 00:11:02.957 your injuries were commensurate with repeated blows to the head. 00:11:07.041 --> 00:11:09.957 No. No, my husband said that l had an accident. 00:11:10.166 --> 00:11:11.624 l'm sure of it. 00:11:11.708 --> 00:11:13.665 l have a copy of the medical report here. 00:11:16.000 --> 00:11:18.999 Some newspaper articles. Mostly tabloid. 00:11:22.333 --> 00:11:24.749 There's very little information about the actual attack. 00:11:24.833 --> 00:11:26.874 "Left for dead"? 00:11:27.958 --> 00:11:29.832 Someone tried to kill me? 00:11:31.958 --> 00:11:33.957 Who? Who tried to kill me? 00:11:35.250 --> 00:11:36.665 No one knows. 00:11:37.166 --> 00:11:39.165 - What? - No one but you. 00:11:47.666 --> 00:11:50.374 l don't think Ben should know about the camera. 00:11:51.333 --> 00:11:52.957 lt's your diary. 00:11:53.750 --> 00:11:55.999 l think it's important you don't feel... 00:11:56.083 --> 00:11:58.124 constrained by the thought of Ben checking up 00:11:58.208 --> 00:12:00.124 on your innermost thoughts and feelings. 00:12:20.000 --> 00:12:22.915 lf l don't tell Ben, how will l know the camera even exists? 00:12:24.250 --> 00:12:26.749 You could hide it at the bottom of your wardrobe. 00:12:26.958 --> 00:12:28.374 At the back. 00:12:29.416 --> 00:12:32.207 l'll call you in the morning to remind you. 00:12:34.666 --> 00:12:36.415 Was that a yes or a no? 00:12:42.166 --> 00:12:43.665 l want to get well. 00:12:54.125 --> 00:12:57.082 ♫ You still wanna be just friends 00:12:58.125 --> 00:13:01.999 ♫ But how can we still be friends when seeing you... 00:13:05.458 --> 00:13:07.915 ♫ And there ain't nothing l can do about it 00:13:21.708 --> 00:13:23.165 My name... 00:13:23.250 --> 00:13:26.082 My name is Christine Lucas. l'm 40, 40 years old 00:13:26.166 --> 00:13:27.582 and l'm an amnesiac. 00:13:28.375 --> 00:13:30.874 ♫ Get out my life why don't ya, babe? 00:13:31.166 --> 00:13:36.124 Tonight, as l sleep, my mind will erase everything l know, 00:13:36.208 --> 00:13:38.832 everything l did today. And l will wake up tomorrow... 00:13:41.375 --> 00:13:43.540 And the truth is half my life is over. 00:13:44.375 --> 00:13:45.790 And l... 00:13:53.791 --> 00:13:55.707 Oh, shit. He's coming. 00:14:05.666 --> 00:14:07.082 Christine? 00:14:53.041 --> 00:14:55.040 We've been married for 14 years. 00:14:57.416 --> 00:14:59.457 We met during your last term at King's. 00:15:00.250 --> 00:15:01.665 You were doing an MA in History. 00:15:01.750 --> 00:15:03.957 We got married a couple of years after that. 00:15:04.041 --> 00:15:06.707 l still teach at a school round the corner. 00:15:08.250 --> 00:15:10.290 l'm the head of the chemistry department. 00:15:13.875 --> 00:15:15.624 What do l do? 00:15:16.708 --> 00:15:18.499 You stay at home. 00:15:18.583 --> 00:15:20.540 What, l don't do anything? l don't... 00:15:20.625 --> 00:15:24.999 l don't study? l don't work from home? l just sit around all day? 00:15:25.291 --> 00:15:27.165 You store up information for a day. 00:15:28.083 --> 00:15:30.415 And when you wake up in the morning, it's all gone. 00:15:31.666 --> 00:15:33.915 You're back to your early 20s, Chris. 00:15:39.250 --> 00:15:42.540 And tonight, as l sleep, my mind... 00:15:42.625 --> 00:15:45.332 My mind will erase everything that l know, 00:15:45.416 --> 00:15:47.499 everything that l did today. 00:15:47.583 --> 00:15:50.415 And l will wake up tomorrow, like l did this morning, 00:15:50.500 --> 00:15:53.457 thinking that l have my whole life ahead of me. 00:15:55.250 --> 00:15:59.082 God, without this, l would believe anything that he says. Anything. 00:15:59.166 --> 00:16:01.124 That you had a car accident? 00:16:03.208 --> 00:16:05.332 l wonder what else he lies about? 00:16:06.625 --> 00:16:08.265 lf we want to keep this between ourselves, 00:16:08.333 --> 00:16:11.957 l can't risk calling on the house phone when Ben's home. 00:16:12.333 --> 00:16:14.249 Why is he hiding the attack? 00:16:15.458 --> 00:16:17.374 Perhaps it's just easier. 00:16:20.375 --> 00:16:22.040 - God! - Sorry. 00:16:25.583 --> 00:16:28.415 l wish l wasn't so frightened all of the time. 00:16:28.500 --> 00:16:30.374 Do you really think this is a good idea? 00:16:30.458 --> 00:16:32.040 There are plenty of case histories of patients 00:16:32.125 --> 00:16:34.082 going back to where they suffered trauma. 00:16:34.875 --> 00:16:37.249 Actually, it's very rarely effective. 00:16:38.291 --> 00:16:39.749 So why are we doing it? 00:16:40.416 --> 00:16:42.790 We're building trust. 00:16:55.833 --> 00:16:57.165 Hang on a minute. 00:16:57.250 --> 00:16:59.332 - Mr Nancarrow? - Yeah. 00:16:59.666 --> 00:17:01.540 l'm Dr Nasch, we spoke on the phone. 00:17:02.291 --> 00:17:03.915 Dr Nasch, yeah. 00:17:04.000 --> 00:17:05.415 l'll have to call you back. 00:17:16.333 --> 00:17:17.832 Careful. 00:17:25.916 --> 00:17:27.874 Got quite a fright when l first saw you. 00:17:31.125 --> 00:17:32.540 Here, just down here. 00:17:34.666 --> 00:17:36.207 That's where l found you. 00:17:38.375 --> 00:17:41.165 Would you describe exactly what you saw? 00:17:41.250 --> 00:17:43.170 l don't know, it was a long time ago. 00:17:43.875 --> 00:17:45.374 Well, just tell us what you remember. 00:17:45.541 --> 00:17:47.040 l'd just come off shift. 00:17:48.250 --> 00:17:50.665 Miss Lucas was naked. 00:17:51.000 --> 00:17:53.415 - Naked? - Apart from a sheet. 00:17:53.833 --> 00:17:55.290 A bed sheet or a plastic sheet? 00:17:56.000 --> 00:17:57.415 l'd have said if it was plastic. 00:17:57.625 --> 00:17:59.332 Where did l come from? 00:17:59.833 --> 00:18:01.457 You couldn't remember. 00:18:01.875 --> 00:18:04.415 You were very confused. 00:18:04.958 --> 00:18:06.457 There was blood. 00:18:07.875 --> 00:18:09.290 My blood? 00:18:09.750 --> 00:18:11.165 Where? 00:18:11.750 --> 00:18:13.124 Everywhere. 00:18:22.791 --> 00:18:24.790 What was l doing by the airport? 00:18:27.833 --> 00:18:30.790 Well, there are a lot of hotels in the area. 00:18:32.083 --> 00:18:33.499 Dozens. 00:18:33.958 --> 00:18:35.957 Hotels? 00:18:36.875 --> 00:18:38.790 lt would explain the bed sheet. 00:18:39.458 --> 00:18:41.957 l live here. Why would l be staying in a hotel? 00:18:45.500 --> 00:18:47.207 All sorts of reasons. 00:18:52.166 --> 00:18:55.874 The medical examination indicated recent sexual intercourse. 00:18:58.916 --> 00:19:01.082 There was no trace of semen 00:19:01.166 --> 00:19:04.999 or anything to help the police identify the man you slept with. 00:19:07.791 --> 00:19:09.415 Was l raped? 00:19:10.458 --> 00:19:14.415 The police report suggested not. 00:19:17.000 --> 00:19:19.207 l'm married. l don't think l would be the kind of person 00:19:19.291 --> 00:19:20.957 who would cheat on my husband. 00:19:23.916 --> 00:19:25.832 How do you know? 00:19:32.708 --> 00:19:34.665 Whatever happened that night, 00:19:37.333 --> 00:19:39.290 whatever l've done, 00:19:42.333 --> 00:19:44.165 l have to remember. 00:19:45.458 --> 00:19:47.124 l know l do. 00:19:47.375 --> 00:19:49.082 l have to, for us. 00:19:52.916 --> 00:19:54.332 For us. 00:20:35.250 --> 00:20:36.665 Chris? 00:21:37.541 --> 00:21:38.957 No. 00:21:41.625 --> 00:21:42.625 No! 00:22:23.458 --> 00:22:25.999 Christine, could you open your eyes, please? 00:22:26.541 --> 00:22:29.290 We're going to show you some pictures. And l want you to look at each one 00:22:29.375 --> 00:22:31.165 and tell yourself what or who it is. 00:22:32.583 --> 00:22:34.290 Go ahead. 00:23:11.583 --> 00:23:12.999 Are you okay? 00:23:20.083 --> 00:23:22.290 Some of the photographs were taken from random, 00:23:22.375 --> 00:23:23.957 others from your file. 00:23:24.958 --> 00:23:27.290 This caused distinct neural excitation. 00:23:31.833 --> 00:23:33.915 Who is she? 00:23:35.750 --> 00:23:37.957 Did l have a friend? 00:23:38.041 --> 00:23:40.415 Of course. You had a lot. You were very popular. 00:23:41.666 --> 00:23:43.540 With red hair? 00:23:46.250 --> 00:23:48.374 - Not that l recall. - Called Claire. 00:23:49.625 --> 00:23:52.540 Claire? lt doesn't ring a bell. Why? 00:23:54.375 --> 00:23:56.040 You're absolutely certain? 00:23:56.250 --> 00:23:58.707 Well, l mean, it's possible. You had a lot of friends. Why? 00:24:01.458 --> 00:24:03.415 lt's just, l, uh... 00:24:03.666 --> 00:24:05.082 l had a memory. 00:24:05.333 --> 00:24:06.749 A memory? 00:24:09.500 --> 00:24:12.207 Mmm, well, sort of. l guess. 00:24:12.958 --> 00:24:14.957 That's great. What kind of memory? 00:24:15.916 --> 00:24:19.249 Claire. She had red hair. She was a friend. 00:24:19.666 --> 00:24:21.499 A good friend, l think. 00:24:22.208 --> 00:24:23.790 Well, l mean... 00:24:24.541 --> 00:24:27.624 l suppose you might have done, once. Years ago. 00:24:29.000 --> 00:24:30.415 Claire... 00:24:31.000 --> 00:24:32.749 There might have been a Claire. 00:24:33.458 --> 00:24:34.957 A friend from college. 00:24:35.916 --> 00:24:36.999 There was a girl you were close to. 00:24:37.083 --> 00:24:39.665 l mean, she might have been called Claire. 00:24:39.750 --> 00:24:41.499 So what happened to her? 00:24:43.750 --> 00:24:45.165 What? 00:24:46.875 --> 00:24:49.207 This isn't the first time you've remembered Claire. 00:24:51.791 --> 00:24:53.499 l don't understand. 00:24:54.083 --> 00:24:55.790 lt's not something we talk about. 00:24:57.166 --> 00:24:58.582 Why not? 00:24:59.666 --> 00:25:01.332 You drifted apart. 00:25:02.708 --> 00:25:04.040 Why? 00:25:04.125 --> 00:25:06.874 A couple of years after your accident, she moved away. 00:25:06.958 --> 00:25:09.165 - Where to? - Canada, l think. 00:25:09.250 --> 00:25:10.665 You think? 00:25:10.750 --> 00:25:12.332 Truth is it didn't really matter to you where she went. 00:25:12.416 --> 00:25:13.707 You couldn't remember her from one day to... 00:25:13.791 --> 00:25:15.749 lt matters. lt matters now. 00:25:22.166 --> 00:25:24.165 Don't say l didn't warn you. 00:25:37.750 --> 00:25:39.457 l keep them in my study. 00:25:45.250 --> 00:25:46.915 You hide them? 00:25:47.583 --> 00:25:49.207 They upset you. 00:25:49.500 --> 00:25:51.040 You hide a piece of my past from me? 00:25:51.125 --> 00:25:52.665 - To protect you. - From what? 00:25:54.583 --> 00:25:55.999 She couldn't handle it, Chris. 00:25:56.083 --> 00:25:57.915 She couldn't handle knowing that 1 5 minutes after she left, 00:25:58.000 --> 00:25:59.790 you had no idea she even existed. 00:26:02.083 --> 00:26:04.374 After a while, she stopped calling or even... 00:26:06.458 --> 00:26:10.624 - She wasn't the only one, Chris. - How can l trust you if you lie to me? 00:26:13.291 --> 00:26:16.249 l live with you. With this. 00:26:17.291 --> 00:26:19.332 Sometimes, when the truth is painful or complicated, 00:26:19.416 --> 00:26:20.624 l don't always have the strength. 00:26:20.708 --> 00:26:22.790 Usually l do, but not always. l'm sorry. 00:26:23.750 --> 00:26:26.915 - So, what, you edit my life? - This isn't just about you! 00:26:27.375 --> 00:26:29.124 Sometimes this is a question of what l can handle 00:26:29.208 --> 00:26:31.124 and l can't always handle everything! 00:26:31.958 --> 00:26:33.457 Not every day. 00:26:34.875 --> 00:26:37.457 Sometimes we both need a day off. 00:26:45.208 --> 00:26:46.665 He's keeping Claire from you. 00:26:46.750 --> 00:26:49.290 He says he's protecting you but he... 00:26:50.083 --> 00:26:51.582 Don't trust him. 00:26:51.666 --> 00:26:53.249 Don't trust Ben. 00:27:21.541 --> 00:27:23.540 - Hello? - Christine? 00:27:24.125 --> 00:27:26.082 Hello, it's Dr Nasch. 00:27:26.916 --> 00:27:30.457 You won't remember me, but we've been meeting almost every day 00:27:30.541 --> 00:27:32.707 for the last few weeks... A camera... 00:27:32.791 --> 00:27:34.249 lt's in a shoe box 00:27:34.333 --> 00:27:37.165 somewhere on the bottom shelf of the cupboard nearest the bathroom. 00:27:37.375 --> 00:27:39.332 He's keeping Claire from you. 00:27:39.583 --> 00:27:41.332 He says he's protecting... 00:27:42.166 --> 00:27:43.582 Claire... 00:27:43.666 --> 00:27:44.999 He's keeping Claire... 00:27:45.083 --> 00:27:48.540 He says he's protecting you, but he's keeping Claire from you. 00:27:48.625 --> 00:27:52.749 Don't trust Ben. 00:28:15.375 --> 00:28:16.375 Bastard. 00:29:14.083 --> 00:29:15.707 Are you all right? 00:29:17.166 --> 00:29:18.749 l'm pregnant. 00:29:45.583 --> 00:29:47.583 "When you wake up in the morning, Pooh, 00:29:47.875 --> 00:29:50.290 "what's the first thing you say to yourself?" 00:29:50.833 --> 00:29:54.582 "'What's for breakfast?' What do you say, Piglet?" 00:29:58.958 --> 00:30:02.665 "l say, 'l wonder what's going to happen exciting today?"' 00:30:08.416 --> 00:30:10.040 - We have a child. - Chris... 00:30:10.125 --> 00:30:12.415 We have a child, a little boy, don't we? 00:30:12.500 --> 00:30:13.915 Don't we? 00:30:14.666 --> 00:30:22.666 Where is he? 00:30:28.958 --> 00:30:31.665 - Come inside. Come inside. - No. Where is he? 00:30:31.750 --> 00:30:33.350 l can't talk to you standing in the rain. 00:30:33.375 --> 00:30:36.874 Why are you hiding him from me? Where is my son? 00:30:37.166 --> 00:30:38.915 - l'm not hiding. Come inside, please. - Where is he? 00:30:39.000 --> 00:30:41.040 - Would you just come inside now... - No, l'm not coming inside! 00:30:41.125 --> 00:30:43.999 Come here... Come here. Come here and l'll tell you, l'll tell you. 00:30:44.083 --> 00:30:45.624 - Come here. - Where... 00:30:46.041 --> 00:30:48.332 He died. We have a son but he's dead. He died. 00:30:48.500 --> 00:30:50.874 - No! - He died. Please. 00:30:51.333 --> 00:30:53.165 No! 00:30:53.250 --> 00:30:54.624 Chris... 00:30:54.708 --> 00:30:56.624 Chris, here. Come on. 00:31:04.291 --> 00:31:05.749 How? 00:31:07.000 --> 00:31:08.415 Meningitis. 00:31:12.250 --> 00:31:13.665 How old? 00:31:14.041 --> 00:31:15.457 Eight. 00:31:17.125 --> 00:31:19.624 Adam died about three weeks before his ninth birthday. 00:31:37.666 --> 00:31:40.165 l keep these in the garage for safety. 00:31:44.708 --> 00:31:46.665 There are some things it wouldn't be good for you to stumble on 00:31:46.750 --> 00:31:48.165 when you're by yourself, Christine. 00:31:48.583 --> 00:31:50.624 Some things it's better l explain to you. 00:31:55.000 --> 00:31:56.832 This is Adam as a baby. 00:32:07.291 --> 00:32:08.915 That's my baby? 00:32:10.958 --> 00:32:12.457 Adam. 00:32:18.958 --> 00:32:22.540 He would have been about three months old there. 00:32:22.625 --> 00:32:26.124 - When was he born? - August 4th, 1 999. 00:32:38.958 --> 00:32:40.374 Adam. 00:32:44.666 --> 00:32:46.499 Adam Thomas Lucas. 00:32:51.166 --> 00:32:52.957 Beautiful. 00:33:09.875 --> 00:33:12.082 "l am sick, please come home." 00:33:13.875 --> 00:33:15.082 Where was l? 00:33:15.541 --> 00:33:17.707 ln and out of hospitals. 00:33:24.250 --> 00:33:26.207 - Chris. - No. 00:33:29.416 --> 00:33:32.624 l can't do it. l can't do this, l'm so sorry. 00:33:40.416 --> 00:33:42.707 Ben's been through all this before. 00:33:43.083 --> 00:33:44.915 His grief isn't new. 00:33:45.916 --> 00:33:47.665 But it's new for me. 00:33:53.916 --> 00:33:55.957 And it'll be new tomorrow. 00:33:57.000 --> 00:34:00.290 And it'll be new the next day and it'll be new the next day 00:34:00.375 --> 00:34:02.999 and the next, and the next and every day. 00:34:04.000 --> 00:34:06.415 Every day for the rest of my life. 00:34:22.750 --> 00:34:24.207 No! 00:34:43.541 --> 00:34:45.874 His grief isn't new. Mine is. 00:34:47.208 --> 00:34:48.624 Mine is. 00:34:51.291 --> 00:34:55.040 This isn't new for him. His grief isn't new. Mine is. 00:34:57.791 --> 00:34:59.207 Mine is. 00:35:02.000 --> 00:35:03.915 And it'll be new tomorrow. 00:35:05.041 --> 00:35:06.749 And it'll be new the next day 00:35:06.833 --> 00:35:09.499 and it'll be new the next day and the next and the next 00:35:09.583 --> 00:35:11.082 and every day. 00:35:12.000 --> 00:35:14.415 Every day for the rest of my life. 00:36:21.125 --> 00:36:25.665 - Did you know about Adam? - We've spoken about Adam. 00:36:27.416 --> 00:36:30.832 Maybe Ben's right. Maybe it's better l don't know. 00:36:40.208 --> 00:36:42.082 Can we just sit here a while? 00:36:45.583 --> 00:36:47.249 Of course. 00:36:57.166 --> 00:36:58.832 Should l tell Ben? 00:37:02.166 --> 00:37:03.624 About us? 00:37:05.958 --> 00:37:07.624 About the therapy? 00:37:21.541 --> 00:37:25.415 Was l a good mother? l mean, before the injury. 00:37:27.916 --> 00:37:29.915 You were a wonderful mother. 00:37:34.958 --> 00:37:38.082 lt must have been awful for him, me not knowing who he was. 00:37:44.041 --> 00:37:45.957 You loved Adam very much. 00:38:07.250 --> 00:38:10.207 l understand why you would hide this from me, l do. 00:38:11.000 --> 00:38:13.790 And you've probably lived through this more times than you can bear. 00:38:13.875 --> 00:38:15.582 And l understand there must be days when you say, 00:38:15.666 --> 00:38:18.499 "l can't, l can't go through this again." 00:38:20.208 --> 00:38:23.582 But if you care about this marriage, and l have to assume you do, 00:38:23.666 --> 00:38:27.040 never try to hide my son from me again. 00:38:30.375 --> 00:38:37.249 l'm sorry. 00:39:14.333 --> 00:39:15.832 Adam? 00:39:35.083 --> 00:39:36.332 Mike. 00:39:45.666 --> 00:39:48.540 Good morning, Christine. lt's Dr Nasch. 00:39:49.541 --> 00:39:51.957 l'm a neuropsychologist at University College, London, 00:39:52.041 --> 00:39:54.121 and l've been calling you every morning to remind you 00:39:54.166 --> 00:39:57.707 to look for the camera hidden in the back of your wardrobe. 00:39:58.333 --> 00:40:00.415 You've been keeping a video diary... 00:40:00.916 --> 00:40:03.874 Get ready, then l can come and pick you up from home. 00:40:12.291 --> 00:40:13.707 Mike. 00:40:13.916 --> 00:40:15.332 What? 00:40:15.416 --> 00:40:18.207 l'm not sure but l think that's his name. 00:40:20.083 --> 00:40:21.499 Whose name? 00:40:24.166 --> 00:40:26.665 The man who did this to me. 00:40:28.416 --> 00:40:30.374 Come here. 00:40:31.625 --> 00:40:33.040 Come on. 00:40:33.833 --> 00:40:35.665 Come here, come on. lt's okay. 00:40:36.458 --> 00:40:38.249 lt's okay. 00:40:53.875 --> 00:40:56.540 You're the only one who makes me feel good. 00:40:58.625 --> 00:41:01.165 l want you to feel good. 00:41:19.625 --> 00:41:20.665 Christine, l'm sorry. 00:42:07.625 --> 00:42:10.207 Christine, my name is Dr Nasch. 00:42:11.458 --> 00:42:13.749 - l know. - How do you feel? 00:42:14.875 --> 00:42:16.290 Shitty. 00:42:16.666 --> 00:42:18.415 l only administered a mild sedative. 00:42:18.500 --> 00:42:21.457 Just something to calm you down, not put you to sleep. 00:42:23.208 --> 00:42:25.499 - l remember. - You were confused. 00:42:26.666 --> 00:42:28.165 We call it confabulation, 00:42:28.250 --> 00:42:31.290 your imagination filling in the gaps in your memory, 00:42:31.375 --> 00:42:34.415 turning me into the man who did this to you. Do you understand? 00:42:34.500 --> 00:42:35.915 Ah... 00:42:36.166 --> 00:42:38.249 - l want to talk to Ben. - No. 00:42:39.541 --> 00:42:41.207 No, l just found something out 00:42:41.291 --> 00:42:43.171 and l need to talk to you about it face-to-face. 00:42:43.666 --> 00:42:45.582 Christine... 00:42:46.500 --> 00:42:48.165 lt's about Ben. 00:43:04.000 --> 00:43:05.457 Who were you talking to? 00:43:06.875 --> 00:43:08.290 When? 00:43:08.958 --> 00:43:11.332 When l called earlier. lt went straight to voicemail. 00:43:11.416 --> 00:43:13.457 Oh, l was trying to call you. 00:43:22.333 --> 00:43:24.540 My name is Christine, Christine Lucas. 00:43:24.625 --> 00:43:27.290 l'm 40 years old and l'm an amnesiac. 00:43:27.375 --> 00:43:31.207 Tonight, as l sleep, my mind will erase everything... 00:43:31.291 --> 00:43:34.207 This isn't new for him. His grief isn't new. Mine is. 00:43:34.541 --> 00:43:36.207 You're vulnerable. 00:43:37.666 --> 00:43:40.915 Vulnerable patients often develop feelings for their psychiatrists. 00:43:41.000 --> 00:43:43.165 lt's common. 00:43:44.083 --> 00:43:47.582 What's less common nowadays is when those feelings are reciprocated. 00:43:52.500 --> 00:43:55.207 We call it counter-transference. lt's unprofessional. 00:43:57.708 --> 00:43:59.665 Completely unprofessional. 00:44:00.166 --> 00:44:02.332 On my video, l say that you're my only hope. 00:44:03.333 --> 00:44:06.540 l'm referring you to an excellent neuropsychiatrist at St Thomas's. 00:44:07.541 --> 00:44:09.832 l say that we're making progress. 00:44:10.291 --> 00:44:14.874 Christine, l can't go on treating you. lt wouldn't be ethical. 00:44:14.958 --> 00:44:16.874 - Please. - Christine. 00:44:18.750 --> 00:44:22.457 She works out of the university department at King's College. 00:44:22.541 --> 00:44:24.021 - She's very good. - l don't want her. 00:44:24.041 --> 00:44:25.832 l want you. You're fixing me. 00:44:27.416 --> 00:44:29.207 When l called you this morning, 00:44:30.375 --> 00:44:32.499 you'd already watched your video diary. 00:44:34.375 --> 00:44:35.915 You remembered. 00:44:38.541 --> 00:44:41.124 Yes. Yes! 00:44:41.416 --> 00:44:43.207 Unfortunately, what you remember one day 00:44:43.291 --> 00:44:45.540 you may not necessarily remember the next. 00:44:46.583 --> 00:44:48.082 Even the most significant things. 00:44:49.708 --> 00:44:51.374 What things? 00:44:53.958 --> 00:44:58.207 Ben had you transferred from the psychiatric hospital in 2007 00:44:58.291 --> 00:45:01.124 to an adult community care centre. 00:45:01.208 --> 00:45:03.957 l rang the administrator the other day to arrange a visit. 00:45:04.291 --> 00:45:08.499 lt seems your friend Claire has been trying to get in touch. 00:45:10.375 --> 00:45:12.082 This is her number. 00:45:19.416 --> 00:45:22.957 The administrator asked how you were and l told her. 00:45:23.041 --> 00:45:24.999 She became extremely confused. 00:45:26.416 --> 00:45:27.749 Why? 00:45:27.875 --> 00:45:29.832 Well, according to her records, 00:45:32.166 --> 00:45:33.749 Ben divorced you four years ago. 00:45:39.708 --> 00:45:42.124 Hi, you've reached Claire. Leave a message. 00:45:42.541 --> 00:45:43.999 Claire, it's, uh... 00:45:44.083 --> 00:45:45.707 lt's Christine Lucas. 00:45:46.583 --> 00:45:49.290 Um, l really need to talk to you. 00:45:49.375 --> 00:45:51.335 Can you call me, please? My number is, uh, zero... 00:46:08.125 --> 00:46:11.290 - We're divorced, aren't we? - Who told you? 00:46:12.375 --> 00:46:15.040 Who told me? No one. l'm remembering things. 00:46:15.125 --> 00:46:16.374 - Really? - Yes. 00:46:16.458 --> 00:46:17.915 - You sure? - Yes. 00:46:18.208 --> 00:46:20.790 - You're remembering an awful lot lately. - Stay away. 00:46:22.208 --> 00:46:24.249 Just tell me the fucking truth. 00:46:24.541 --> 00:46:26.540 Why did you divorce me? 00:46:27.708 --> 00:46:29.874 - Why did you divorce me? - You want the truth? 00:46:29.958 --> 00:46:31.374 - Yes. - l'll tell you the truth! 00:46:31.458 --> 00:46:38.832 We had a little boy. 00:46:39.500 --> 00:46:42.915 And he got very sick very suddenly and we lost him. 00:46:51.583 --> 00:46:54.040 l walked away. l was in bits. 00:47:01.541 --> 00:47:03.457 l came back and l'm here. 00:47:06.583 --> 00:47:09.207 l'll never leave you, Chris. Never. 00:47:13.833 --> 00:47:15.415 l'm sorry. 00:47:50.833 --> 00:47:52.290 Hello? 00:47:52.458 --> 00:47:53.957 Chrissy? 00:47:58.250 --> 00:47:59.832 Claire? 00:47:59.958 --> 00:48:02.374 Oh, my God, Chrissy, darling, is that really you? 00:48:07.083 --> 00:48:08.749 Yes, it's me. 00:48:11.083 --> 00:48:13.207 You call me Chrissy. 00:48:14.750 --> 00:48:17.415 l kept ringing the care centre. Did they tell you? 00:48:17.500 --> 00:48:20.540 They gave me your old address and all my letters were returned. 00:48:21.541 --> 00:48:23.290 Every day, every single day, 00:48:23.375 --> 00:48:26.457 l've been waiting for this phone to ring, hoping it might be you. 00:48:28.125 --> 00:48:31.207 They, um... They told me that you moved away. 00:48:31.291 --> 00:48:32.707 - Moved away? - Yes. 00:48:32.791 --> 00:48:34.540 - Whatever gave you that idea? - Um... 00:48:34.625 --> 00:48:37.832 Oh, my God, Chrissy. l've missed you so much. 00:48:37.916 --> 00:48:40.749 - Oh... - How are you? 00:48:42.541 --> 00:48:44.165 Um... 00:48:44.250 --> 00:48:47.415 Well, l can't remember a fucking thing but otherwise l'm fine. 00:48:50.458 --> 00:48:52.582 - Where are you? - Um... 00:48:53.333 --> 00:48:55.749 l'm at home. l'm with Ben. 00:48:57.125 --> 00:48:59.999 And l really need to see you. Can l see you? 00:49:00.875 --> 00:49:02.457 Yeah. Um... 00:49:02.541 --> 00:49:05.082 l'd rather not come to you, Chris. 00:49:05.583 --> 00:49:06.790 Why? 00:49:06.875 --> 00:49:09.915 lt's difficult to explain over a phone... 00:49:10.500 --> 00:49:12.957 How about we meet at the Observatory? 00:49:13.875 --> 00:49:14.999 Um... 00:49:15.083 --> 00:49:16.790 - The Observe... - ln Greenwich. 00:49:16.875 --> 00:49:18.540 l could be there in an hour. 00:49:21.625 --> 00:49:23.582 Will you be okay? 00:49:29.833 --> 00:49:32.499 Yes, l'm fine and l'll be there. 00:50:07.791 --> 00:50:09.374 Chrissy? 00:50:11.833 --> 00:50:14.499 Chrissy, darling, it's me, Claire. 00:50:16.333 --> 00:50:24.290 Claire. 00:50:25.375 --> 00:50:26.874 Oh... 00:50:29.000 --> 00:50:30.790 l remember you. 00:50:37.875 --> 00:50:39.374 Yeah? 00:50:42.125 --> 00:50:43.624 Oh... 00:50:43.958 --> 00:50:46.290 l've missed you, l've missed you, l've missed you! 00:50:46.375 --> 00:50:48.124 l remember you. 00:50:49.875 --> 00:50:52.290 l've missed you so much. 00:50:53.708 --> 00:50:55.124 Oh... 00:50:55.208 --> 00:50:57.540 This is amazing. 00:51:01.583 --> 00:51:03.624 Was l a good mother? 00:51:03.708 --> 00:51:07.540 Oh, Chrissy. Nobody was more loved than Adam. 00:51:08.083 --> 00:51:10.915 Ben used to rush home from work just to see his little boy. 00:51:11.291 --> 00:51:13.832 Adam was so like him at that age. 00:51:14.541 --> 00:51:17.207 Even then he was just as handsome as his daddy. 00:51:21.750 --> 00:51:23.957 Who did this to me? 00:51:27.666 --> 00:51:29.999 Things were tough. 00:51:30.916 --> 00:51:33.290 You were juggling looking after Adam 00:51:33.375 --> 00:51:35.374 and starting a new teaching job. 00:51:37.250 --> 00:51:38.874 You and Ben were arguing a lot. 00:51:39.375 --> 00:51:42.457 l said l'd look after Adam two afternoons a week. 00:51:43.875 --> 00:51:47.832 After a month or so back at work, you seemed to get better, you... 00:51:49.083 --> 00:51:51.499 You even started dressing differently. 00:51:52.333 --> 00:51:54.749 l didn't realise what it was at the time. 00:51:54.833 --> 00:51:56.540 l met someone? 00:51:57.250 --> 00:51:58.832 l asked you. 00:52:01.000 --> 00:52:04.207 You denied it at first but you knew l wasn't stupid. 00:52:05.750 --> 00:52:07.540 We had an argument. 00:52:08.250 --> 00:52:10.165 Eventually, you told me the truth. 00:52:10.250 --> 00:52:11.790 l didn't tell you his name? 00:52:11.875 --> 00:52:13.915 You wouldn't give me any details about him. 00:52:14.250 --> 00:52:15.915 Did Ben know? 00:52:16.166 --> 00:52:17.874 Not until the police found you. 00:52:18.125 --> 00:52:19.999 Oh, Jesus. 00:52:21.125 --> 00:52:23.207 Oh, poor Ben. 00:52:23.291 --> 00:52:24.790 l had to tell him, Chrissy. 00:52:24.875 --> 00:52:27.499 l'd already told the police. l had no choice. 00:52:28.208 --> 00:52:30.707 No wonder he keeps lying to me. 00:52:30.791 --> 00:52:32.415 Well, that's Ben. 00:52:32.958 --> 00:52:35.165 - Protecting you. - Maybe. 00:52:36.333 --> 00:52:39.749 Or maybe he thinks we just can't come to terms with the truth. 00:52:40.416 --> 00:52:42.136 l mean, he still lies to me about the attack 00:52:42.208 --> 00:52:43.790 and he never talks to me about you. 00:52:46.083 --> 00:52:47.540 Well... 00:52:48.666 --> 00:52:53.249 There's a reason why he doesn't talk about me to you. 00:52:54.291 --> 00:52:55.749 Why? 00:52:57.458 --> 00:52:59.457 After your accident, 00:53:00.375 --> 00:53:02.582 l tried to help out. 00:53:02.666 --> 00:53:05.332 You can imagine how hard it was for Ben looking after Adam. 00:53:05.666 --> 00:53:07.540 l did what l could. 00:53:08.708 --> 00:53:10.207 We spent a lot of time together. 00:53:10.500 --> 00:53:12.582 One day, after visiting you, he just... 00:53:13.833 --> 00:53:16.499 collapsed. He said he couldn't go on any more. 00:53:18.000 --> 00:53:19.582 l... 00:53:20.541 --> 00:53:22.457 l put my arms around him. 00:53:22.916 --> 00:53:24.832 We got carried away. 00:53:25.500 --> 00:53:27.582 lt only happened once. 00:53:29.583 --> 00:53:31.415 l felt so bad. 00:53:32.333 --> 00:53:34.415 We both felt so bad. 00:53:35.375 --> 00:53:37.665 l decided l owed it to both of you to stay away 00:53:37.750 --> 00:53:39.540 so l just... 00:53:41.458 --> 00:53:43.207 disappeared. 00:53:45.791 --> 00:53:47.374 l'm so sorry. 00:53:50.625 --> 00:53:53.540 Well, you can hardly blame us, Christine, after your affair. 00:53:54.333 --> 00:53:56.415 You don't know how lucky you are. 00:53:56.500 --> 00:53:59.332 You have never known how lucky you are to have Ben. 00:54:01.125 --> 00:54:03.249 - l have to go. - Oh, Chrissy... 00:54:03.333 --> 00:54:05.415 - Ben will be home soon and... - Please. 00:54:05.500 --> 00:54:08.249 - He'll worry if l'm not there. - Look, just wait. 00:54:11.416 --> 00:54:14.582 Ben sent this to me shortly before you separated. 00:54:16.000 --> 00:54:19.290 He asked me to give it to you if you were ever well enough to read it. 00:54:23.208 --> 00:54:25.249 l'm so glad that you are. 00:54:25.541 --> 00:54:28.332 l don't expect you to believe me but l care about you, Christine. 00:54:28.916 --> 00:54:30.374 A lot. 00:54:32.583 --> 00:54:34.249 lt's all right. 00:54:44.583 --> 00:54:46.249 "My darling Christine, 00:54:48.083 --> 00:54:50.415 "l can't bear to say the words 00:54:50.916 --> 00:54:53.332 "but l have decided to leave you. 00:54:53.791 --> 00:54:56.957 "l've tried so hard to find another way, Chris. 00:54:57.458 --> 00:54:59.207 "Please believe me. 00:55:00.750 --> 00:55:02.707 "You loved Adam, 00:55:03.583 --> 00:55:05.957 "even if you couldn't consciously remember him. 00:55:06.833 --> 00:55:09.540 "He would run into your arms and you would pick him up 00:55:10.291 --> 00:55:12.915 "and for a while, you sensed who he was. 00:55:14.291 --> 00:55:15.790 "Then you started to believe 00:55:15.875 --> 00:55:18.915 "that Adam had been taken away from you when he was a baby. 00:55:19.583 --> 00:55:22.582 "Every time you saw him, you thought it was for the first time. 00:55:24.916 --> 00:55:28.165 "l'd ask him to tell you when he last saw you, and he'd say, 00:55:28.958 --> 00:55:30.707 "'Yesterday, Mummy.' 00:55:30.791 --> 00:55:32.999 "But you wouldn't believe him. 00:55:33.583 --> 00:55:36.749 "One day you attacked me, grabbed Adam and ran. 00:55:37.250 --> 00:55:39.207 "He started screaming. 00:55:39.291 --> 00:55:42.415 "Later, l tried to explain but he didn't understand. 00:55:42.500 --> 00:55:44.790 "He became frightened to come and see you. 00:55:46.625 --> 00:55:50.124 "l left it a few days and then called to find out how you were. 00:55:50.208 --> 00:55:52.415 "They said you were happy. 00:55:53.458 --> 00:55:56.332 "When l asked them if you remembered us, 00:55:56.416 --> 00:55:58.165 "they said no. 00:56:01.041 --> 00:56:03.665 "l love you so much, Chris. 00:56:03.750 --> 00:56:07.457 "l love you more than l love anything or anyone in this world. 00:56:08.583 --> 00:56:11.207 "But our son is only eight years old. 00:56:12.750 --> 00:56:15.082 "He's desperately unhappy, Chris. 00:56:15.875 --> 00:56:19.374 "And l just can't put him through that kind of trauma again. 00:56:20.958 --> 00:56:23.582 "l want you both to be happy, 00:56:23.666 --> 00:56:27.040 "even if you can only find that happiness without us. 00:56:28.125 --> 00:56:30.540 "Forgive me. Ben." 00:56:36.958 --> 00:56:38.915 l forgive you. 00:56:40.125 --> 00:56:42.207 Can you forgive me? 00:56:45.916 --> 00:56:49.290 You're my lover. You're my protector. 00:56:49.916 --> 00:56:53.082 And my life is nothing, nothing without you. 00:56:56.833 --> 00:57:00.124 By the time you see this, you will know everything. 00:57:02.750 --> 00:57:06.832 And you will know that there is nothing inside me for you now but love. 00:57:10.000 --> 00:57:13.540 And the hope that we can finally find a way to truly be together. 00:57:16.250 --> 00:57:17.790 Hello? 00:57:19.333 --> 00:57:20.832 Chris? 00:57:21.166 --> 00:57:22.665 l forgive you. 00:57:24.750 --> 00:57:26.999 Can you forgive me? 00:57:27.083 --> 00:57:31.040 You're my lover. You're my protector. You're my... You're my everything. 00:57:31.125 --> 00:57:34.249 So by the time you see this, you will know everything. 00:57:34.333 --> 00:57:35.749 You will know that there... 00:57:36.916 --> 00:57:38.716 No, l want you to watch it from the beginning. 00:57:39.083 --> 00:57:41.415 What do you mean, "you will know everything"? 00:57:45.458 --> 00:57:48.332 l've been seeing a doctor, Dr Nasch. 00:57:49.333 --> 00:57:51.082 For a few weeks. 00:57:52.791 --> 00:57:54.790 He gave me the camera. 00:57:57.000 --> 00:58:00.124 He's been calling me every morning to remind me. 00:58:01.291 --> 00:58:03.082 Why would you do that? 00:58:04.125 --> 00:58:05.582 To hold on to my memories. 00:58:05.666 --> 00:58:07.346 No, l mean, why would you keep it a secret? 00:58:07.416 --> 00:58:09.415 Because l wasn't sure if l could trust you. 00:58:13.125 --> 00:58:15.499 - l know now l can. - Are you having an affair? 00:58:15.583 --> 00:58:18.957 No. 00:58:19.041 --> 00:58:21.332 l know how much l hurt you. 00:58:21.875 --> 00:58:25.540 l know what it's taken for you to forgive me and l... 00:58:25.625 --> 00:58:29.249 l understand why you left. l understand everything now. 00:58:29.625 --> 00:58:31.207 Ben... 00:58:32.083 --> 00:58:35.874 You're so good to me. l love you. l love you so... 00:58:53.000 --> 00:58:54.749 He did what? 00:58:55.250 --> 00:58:56.999 Let me talk to him. 00:58:57.083 --> 00:58:59.999 He, uh... He left. 00:59:01.375 --> 00:59:03.290 l'm going to call him. 00:59:04.000 --> 00:59:05.540 l don't think that's a good idea. 00:59:05.625 --> 00:59:07.082 Look, l love you both. 00:59:07.166 --> 00:59:08.874 God. 00:59:11.083 --> 00:59:12.707 l'll call you right back. 00:59:23.083 --> 00:59:24.915 Ben hit me. 00:59:25.625 --> 00:59:27.290 l, um... 00:59:27.375 --> 00:59:30.540 told him everything and he hit me. 00:59:32.500 --> 00:59:34.957 And nothing can alter that, so... 00:59:37.916 --> 00:59:38.957 Ah... 00:59:42.916 --> 00:59:45.332 - Hello? - l spoke to Ben. 00:59:46.666 --> 00:59:49.582 He says he's been living alone, Chris. 00:59:50.041 --> 00:59:51.124 What? 00:59:51.208 --> 00:59:54.832 Ben says he hasn't seen you for four years. 00:59:54.916 --> 00:59:56.624 Christine, 00:59:57.458 --> 00:59:59.457 describe Ben to me. 01:00:02.166 --> 01:00:05.249 - What? - Describe Ben to me. 01:00:05.583 --> 01:00:07.124 What does he look like? 01:00:07.208 --> 01:00:08.915 ls he tall? 01:00:11.625 --> 01:00:13.124 Yes. 01:00:13.208 --> 01:00:14.790 Black hair? 01:00:17.083 --> 01:00:20.415 No. No, he has brown hair. 01:00:22.583 --> 01:00:24.540 Does he have a scar? 01:00:26.166 --> 01:00:29.332 - A scar? - Yeah. He had a skiing accident. 01:00:29.416 --> 01:00:32.332 He should have a scar across the right side of his face. 01:00:49.125 --> 01:00:50.707 Chrissy? 01:00:54.000 --> 01:00:56.999 No. No, he doesn't. 01:00:57.166 --> 01:00:58.582 Ben doesn't have a scar. 01:01:02.208 --> 01:01:03.874 The man you're living with, 01:01:04.250 --> 01:01:06.207 l don't know who he is, Christine. 01:01:07.000 --> 01:01:09.790 But it's not Ben! 01:01:44.875 --> 01:01:46.165 Help me. 01:01:46.250 --> 01:01:49.457 l need your address, Christine. l need to know where you're living. 01:01:51.083 --> 01:01:53.665 l can't... l can't remember. 01:02:01.166 --> 01:02:03.207 l'll be right out. 01:02:04.000 --> 01:02:07.207 Find out quickly and l'll call you back on your mobile. 01:05:13.500 --> 01:05:15.082 Who are you? 01:05:15.500 --> 01:05:18.165 l'm your husband. Ben. 01:05:27.500 --> 01:05:29.749 - Christine? - Yes? 01:05:29.833 --> 01:05:33.082 lt's Dr Nasch. That'll mean nothing to you, l know... 01:05:33.166 --> 01:05:34.832 We've been doing some work on your memory. 01:05:34.916 --> 01:05:37.624 Trying to figure out precisely what... Have you found the camera, Christine? 01:05:37.708 --> 01:05:39.124 Yes. 01:05:39.208 --> 01:05:41.249 Watch it and l'll call you back. 01:05:41.333 --> 01:05:44.124 You're my lover. You're my protector. 01:05:44.583 --> 01:05:46.874 My life is nothing without you. 01:05:48.041 --> 01:05:50.790 By the time you see this, you will know everything 01:05:50.875 --> 01:05:55.207 and you will know that there is nothing inside me for you now but love. 01:05:57.916 --> 01:06:02.124 And the hope that we can finally find a way to truly be together. 01:06:26.833 --> 01:06:28.249 Hello? 01:06:28.333 --> 01:06:31.665 Christine, it's me. ls everything okay? 01:06:32.583 --> 01:06:34.707 Everything's fine. 01:06:41.416 --> 01:06:42.999 Ben? 01:06:43.750 --> 01:06:46.582 Sorry, yes, l heard. l'm in traffic. 01:06:50.125 --> 01:06:52.415 Just wanted to make sure you remembered to pack 01:06:52.500 --> 01:06:54.165 for our anniversary. 01:06:55.250 --> 01:06:56.874 To pack? 01:06:57.958 --> 01:07:01.124 - l wrote it on the board in the kitchen. - Yes, l remember. 01:07:01.750 --> 01:07:03.374 Ben... 01:07:05.666 --> 01:07:07.457 l love you. 01:07:09.583 --> 01:07:12.040 l love you, too, Christine. 01:07:41.958 --> 01:07:44.957 Dr Nasch, please come to main reception. 01:07:45.041 --> 01:07:47.332 Dr Nasch, please come to main reception. 01:07:58.666 --> 01:08:00.207 Dr Nasch? 01:08:01.666 --> 01:08:03.082 Can l help you? 01:08:06.500 --> 01:08:07.915 l'm Ben Lucas. 01:08:09.875 --> 01:08:12.832 Oh, Mr Lucas. How's Christine? 01:08:14.166 --> 01:08:15.749 How is she? 01:08:17.791 --> 01:08:20.332 Stay the fuck away from my wife. 01:09:11.000 --> 01:09:13.665 - ls this really our anniversary? - Yes. 01:09:17.958 --> 01:09:20.165 Our wedding anniversary? 01:09:21.041 --> 01:09:22.499 No. 01:09:23.208 --> 01:09:25.457 lt's a different kind of anniversary. 01:09:58.208 --> 01:10:00.374 Why have you brought me here? 01:10:25.041 --> 01:10:26.457 l want you to remember. 01:10:27.208 --> 01:10:31.374 Oh, Mike, l can't do this, l can't. l'm married. 01:10:31.458 --> 01:10:33.165 Oh, Mike, l can't. 01:10:33.958 --> 01:10:35.665 How about this? 01:10:37.666 --> 01:10:45.207 Mike? 01:10:48.291 --> 01:10:49.749 Where's Ben? 01:10:50.333 --> 01:10:52.124 Ben left you. 01:10:56.791 --> 01:10:58.332 l didn't. 01:10:58.708 --> 01:11:00.665 l stayed close by. 01:11:01.333 --> 01:11:04.582 Watching over you. Protecting you. 01:11:04.916 --> 01:11:07.082 - Protecting me? - Mmm. 01:11:07.166 --> 01:11:10.665 While your so-called husband left you to rot in a care home, 01:11:10.750 --> 01:11:13.540 l watched you wither and die, day by day. 01:11:14.750 --> 01:11:17.040 l couldn't stand it any longer. 01:11:18.625 --> 01:11:20.374 l had to get you out of there. 01:11:21.083 --> 01:11:22.707 They let you take me home? 01:11:22.791 --> 01:11:25.999 False documents and a fake smile. l got you out in half an hour. 01:11:28.000 --> 01:11:29.624 Do you honestly think l'd have got away with this 01:11:29.708 --> 01:11:31.588 if anyone else gave a shit about you, Christine? 01:11:33.625 --> 01:11:36.290 You know, this whole Ben charade wasn't the point. 01:11:36.375 --> 01:11:42.499 The point... 01:11:45.583 --> 01:11:47.665 ...was to care for you. 01:11:48.416 --> 01:11:51.999 Was to look after you. Was to love you. 01:11:58.083 --> 01:12:01.790 l honestly meant to tell you the truth but you were so distraught and then... 01:12:03.333 --> 01:12:06.374 then the lie just got bigger and bigger... 01:12:08.333 --> 01:12:10.874 You know what? l'm sick of explaining. 01:12:10.958 --> 01:12:13.040 And l'm tired of lying. 01:12:15.708 --> 01:12:18.665 That's why l brought you here. To put an end to this. 01:12:20.375 --> 01:12:23.790 We're going to leave here, not as Christine and Ben 01:12:23.875 --> 01:12:25.499 but as Christine and Mike. 01:12:25.583 --> 01:12:27.040 l can't keep doing this. 01:12:27.833 --> 01:12:30.665 Well, call Ben and tell him the truth. 01:12:34.333 --> 01:12:36.665 - No. - Tell him. 01:12:36.791 --> 01:12:38.999 Don't be ridiculous. l can't do that. 01:12:39.083 --> 01:12:40.249 Then l will. 01:12:41.958 --> 01:12:43.624 lf l were Ben, l'd want to know. 01:12:43.708 --> 01:12:45.124 Don't be a prick, Mike. 01:12:49.250 --> 01:12:50.665 You did this. 01:12:53.833 --> 01:12:54.874 No. 01:12:57.250 --> 01:12:58.790 No! No! 01:12:58.875 --> 01:13:00.582 What did you expect me to do? 01:13:00.666 --> 01:13:02.665 l tried talking to you, you wouldn't listen. 01:13:02.916 --> 01:13:04.707 l'd never hurt you. 01:13:06.291 --> 01:13:07.571 l hate myself for what happened. 01:13:11.166 --> 01:13:13.499 lt's all right. Please don't leave. 01:13:15.416 --> 01:13:17.832 l'm scared. 01:13:22.166 --> 01:13:24.415 Don't leave. 01:13:30.708 --> 01:13:32.332 Go. 01:13:33.291 --> 01:13:34.707 Go, then. 01:13:35.250 --> 01:13:36.332 Thank you. 01:13:39.541 --> 01:13:42.082 What did you have to go and do that for? You see, this is what l'm talking about. 01:13:42.166 --> 01:13:44.165 This is what happens! 01:13:45.500 --> 01:13:48.749 - God, l'm sorry. - And will you stop fucking apologising! 01:13:52.166 --> 01:13:54.665 l just don't want to be Ben any more. 01:13:55.916 --> 01:13:58.707 Nothing... l've nothing to live for except for you. 01:14:01.333 --> 01:14:02.915 Understand? 01:14:06.250 --> 01:14:07.499 Please let me go. 01:14:07.583 --> 01:14:10.582 No, we leave together or we don't leave at all. 01:14:14.750 --> 01:14:21.624 Now... 01:14:22.166 --> 01:14:23.582 No more guilt. 01:14:28.375 --> 01:14:29.832 No more grief. 01:14:32.208 --> 01:14:33.874 No more battles to fight. 01:14:47.541 --> 01:14:48.999 Now... 01:14:50.708 --> 01:14:52.457 You're free. 01:15:00.333 --> 01:15:01.957 Come here. 01:15:03.833 --> 01:15:06.082 Come on. 01:15:09.083 --> 01:15:10.499 Come. 01:15:19.416 --> 01:15:20.874 Here. 01:15:26.458 --> 01:15:28.082 Come here. 01:15:33.041 --> 01:15:34.582 Kiss me. 01:15:43.291 --> 01:15:44.874 Again. 01:15:56.833 --> 01:15:58.499 Forget Ben. 01:15:59.541 --> 01:16:01.249 He's forgotten you. 01:16:02.458 --> 01:16:04.374 You must forget Adam. 01:16:05.250 --> 01:16:07.124 He's forgotten you. 01:16:08.458 --> 01:16:10.415 Adam's forgotten you. 01:16:11.333 --> 01:16:15.082 Adam? 01:16:21.625 --> 01:16:23.290 My son is alive? 01:16:48.541 --> 01:16:49.790 Ah! 01:16:55.625 --> 01:16:58.624 We leave together or we don't leave at all. 01:16:58.875 --> 01:17:01.082 Do you understand me? 01:17:01.750 --> 01:17:03.540 Let me go, please. Let me go. 01:17:37.500 --> 01:17:38.915 Ah! 01:18:19.458 --> 01:18:24.082 My name is Christine Lucas. l'm 40 years old and l'm an amnesiac. 01:18:24.166 --> 01:18:28.332 Tonight, as l sleep, my mind will erase everything that l know, 01:18:28.416 --> 01:18:30.915 everything that l did today. 01:18:31.000 --> 01:18:33.540 And l will wake up tomorrow like l did this morning, 01:18:33.625 --> 01:18:36.374 thinking that l have my whole life ahead of me. 01:18:38.541 --> 01:18:40.707 And the truth is, the truth is 01:18:40.791 --> 01:18:44.457 l will never let anyone take my life from me again. 01:18:44.541 --> 01:18:48.165 And l will not wake up tomorrow thinking that my son is dead. 01:18:48.833 --> 01:18:54.415 l will not. 01:19:24.083 --> 01:19:25.832 Christine? 01:19:28.333 --> 01:19:30.832 Christine, my name is Dr Nasch. 01:19:30.916 --> 01:19:33.957 l'm a neuropsychologist. l treated you for several weeks. 01:19:37.791 --> 01:19:40.332 But l'm not here today as your doctor, 01:19:41.375 --> 01:19:43.374 l'm here as a friend. 01:19:45.791 --> 01:19:49.290 You have two cracked ribs, mild concussion, 01:19:50.041 --> 01:19:51.665 so you'll need someone to keep an eye on you 01:19:51.750 --> 01:19:53.374 but you're going to be fine. 01:19:54.041 --> 01:19:56.332 Your friend Claire is coming by this afternoon 01:19:56.416 --> 01:19:58.665 to pick you up, to take you home with her. 01:20:02.583 --> 01:20:04.332 Do you remember Claire? 01:20:12.625 --> 01:20:14.207 Red hair. 01:20:17.291 --> 01:20:18.999 That's very good. 01:20:21.250 --> 01:20:23.207 And you're safe now. 01:20:23.666 --> 01:20:26.165 The man that did this to you is in police custody. 01:20:26.250 --> 01:20:28.790 He's going to be in prison for a very long time. 01:20:32.083 --> 01:20:34.332 Can you recall anything at all about last night? 01:20:46.750 --> 01:20:49.332 Christine, l've brought you a visitor. 01:20:49.791 --> 01:20:53.457 l'm hoping this may be the breakthrough we've been looking for. 01:21:02.625 --> 01:21:04.499 That gentleman is Ben. 01:21:05.875 --> 01:21:08.582 You were married but you've been apart for four years. 01:21:28.666 --> 01:21:30.665 She's awake. 01:21:31.125 --> 01:21:32.749 Thank you. 01:21:46.333 --> 01:21:47.957 Christine. 01:21:49.125 --> 01:21:50.665 lt's Ben. 01:21:53.291 --> 01:21:55.040 Your Ben. 01:21:59.666 --> 01:22:02.749 lf l'd have known you were in any kind of danger, 01:22:03.125 --> 01:22:05.749 l'd never have stayed away. 01:22:06.750 --> 01:22:08.499 l had to. 01:22:11.083 --> 01:22:13.124 For Adam's sake. 01:22:28.958 --> 01:22:30.082 He's our son, Chris. 01:22:35.750 --> 01:22:38.082 And he loves you very much. 01:22:40.541 --> 01:22:42.415 We both do. 01:23:54.375 --> 01:23:59.832 Hi. 01:24:09.541 --> 01:24:11.165 l'm Adam. 01:24:16.000 --> 01:24:17.457 Adam. 01:24:25.083 --> 01:24:26.415 "When... 01:24:26.500 --> 01:24:28.060 "When you wake up in the morning, Pooh, 01:24:28.125 --> 01:24:30.624 "what's the first thing you say to yourself?" 01:24:35.208 --> 01:24:36.790 "l say... 01:24:39.041 --> 01:24:40.999 "'What's for breakfast?' 01:24:42.625 --> 01:24:44.707 "What do you say, Piglet?" 01:24:48.208 --> 01:24:50.499 "l say... l say... 01:24:52.375 --> 01:24:56.165 "'l wonder what's going to happen exciting today?"' 01:25:04.041 --> 01:25:05.915 You remembered. 01:25:08.500 --> 01:25:10.124 Oh... 01:25:13.208 --> 01:25:20.332 Adam. 01:25:23.083 --> 01:25:31.083 l remember. 01:25:49.916 --> 01:25:51.499 Adam. 01:25:52.583 --> 01:25:54.582 My Adam. 01:25:56.583 --> 01:26:15.582 جديدترين اخبار فيلم و سريال در کانال تلگرام و اینستاگرام سايت .:: @bollbolljan_com ::.