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Hello, testing.
One, two...
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Go-go juice.
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- Hi.
- Or motion lotion.
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Beaver.
Female.
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Welcome to manned
space exploration.
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The Mercury spacecraft is six feet
in diameter and nine feet tall.
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Cos I don't like your face.
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Hey.
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Hey, come 'ere.
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I want...
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I want you to see something.
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Kurt's brain was just
constantly going.
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He was always thinking
about something.
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I mean, there was always
something going on.
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You could just see it.
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Party on, Wayne.
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It was awe-inspiring, but it was like,
"Oh, well, I guess I'm not... " You know?
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"I guess I'm not all that special. "
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But, you know...
But then, as I grew up,
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I'm, like, I'm so glad I don't...
I never got that genius brain.
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Maybe he just felt praise was
hard for him to take, maybe,
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and he didn't know
how to handle that.
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So he would downplay
it all the time.
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But that was his goal, was to
get to as perfect as he could.
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As good as he could get.
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Write as well as he could,
sing as well as he could,
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play as well as he could.
And then when it all came together...
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It's so... I can't sit...
It's too painful.
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This is too painful.
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You're gonna make it, man.
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With the support of his friends
and family, he's gonna make it.
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And you see the art,
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I mean, a lot of his messages
are as plain as day.
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You just... I'm not even gonna say
what they are, but you can see it.
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And it's all there. And, you know,
in 20/20 hindsight, you're like,
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"Oh, my God, why didn't I see that?"
Or, "I should've said something. "
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But, you know, it's like...
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Some say love
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It is a river
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When I was an alien
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Cultures weren't opinions
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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A better way
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Never met a wise man
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If so, it's a woman
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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A better way
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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A better way
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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When I'm there
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Gotta find a way, a better way
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Well, America was booming after the
war and everybody had everything.
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Even if you didn't have much,
you still had enough.
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Aberdeen was a logging town
and a mill town.
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And it was booming.
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Wake up, little Susie
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You saw everybody downtown
paying their bills or shopping.
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It was a lovely, awesome place
to raise children.
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My kids loved that town.
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Wake up, little Susie, and weep
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The movie's over, it's four o'clock
and we're in trouble deep
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Wake up, little Susie
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Wake up, little Susie
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So, Don was working at a
gas station over in Hoquiam.
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You know, he had the black
horn-rimmed glasses
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and his ears kind of
stuck out a little
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and he had the crew cut,
and that's not good on anybody.
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I kind of helped him
with everything.
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He didn't really know what
he was doing with style.
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I guess, like,
we were more friends.
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I didn't know what falling in love was,
so I had never experienced it.
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So I just thought because
I liked him, I loved him.
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And so he got me an engagement
ring and we got engaged.
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You know, it was fun!
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I mean, it was like, "OK,
all those problems are behind me. "
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"Now I'm gonna have babies!"
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And I just couldn't wait
to get pregnant.
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I mean, that was the goal.
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And so I went to Dr Ehrhart
and he said, "You're so young. "
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"You just need to get... get on
your feet with being a housewife. "
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And, you know,
I just didn't listen to anybody.
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I used to think,
"Why did I marry Don Cobain?"
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And I was, like, no, everything
really did happen for a reason.
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Kurt had to be born.
It was... it was a must.
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He was the first grandchild
on both sides.
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Everybody was coming
overconstantly.
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I can't even describe
what a magnet he was.
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People just came to him.
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I was head over heels in
love with that child.
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He was so kind and so
worried about people.
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You know, if they were OK,
or if somebody got hurt.
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And then, on top of that,
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he started singing
and playing guitar.
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And once he could draw,
he drew all the time.
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- Let's sing now, Mom.
- OK. Say who you are.
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Who are you?
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Who are you, Kurt?
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Who are you?
Who are you?
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Goodbye!
I'm Kurt Cobain.
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- Yay!
- Yay! Go! Go!
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Kurt, he was full of energy.
Always busy.
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And I had this old rocking chair
in the corner of the front room.
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He'd be upside down
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with his head hanging off
where your legs would be
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and his feet up on the back
of the rocking chair
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going 90 miles an hour in it.
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Going so fast and it would be
hitting the back of the wall,
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and he'd be repeating everything
verbatim off Sesame Street.
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Would you like
to hear my voice
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Sprinkled with emotion
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And I thought,
"Before I have this next baby,
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we've gotta try to get this one
to calm down. "
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So I take him to the paediatrician,
Dr Fulton.
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He did a rapid eye movement test
with a flashlight in his eyes,
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and he went,
"OK, we got trouble here. "
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And he said, "OK,
I'm gonna give you this tablet. "
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And I believe it was
something like Ritalin.
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So I gave it to him that night and,
oh, my God!
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He just went off the rails.
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If I had to lose a mile
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If I had to touch feelings
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I would lose my soul
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The way I do
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I don't have to think
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#I only have to do it
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The results are always perfect
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And that's old news
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Would you like
to hear my voice
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#Sprinkled with emotion
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Kurt, he was hyper.
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Full of energy.
Always busy.
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You know, jumping off of things,
knocking things over.
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Anything that had to do
with being a normal child.
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And Don, he didn't know
how to handle that.
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He was one of those
kind of people
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that just thought that children
should be seen and not heard
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and shouldn't cause any trouble.
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I mean, he belittled
and ridiculed Kurt.
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And Kurt would be ashamed.
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I mean, it really hurt him
to be embarrassed.
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Then, I don't know.
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I just... I started to mature.
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You know, I started getting older,
and kind of looking back at...
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Kind of the song that may
have even stirred this in me,
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Is That All There Is?
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You know, is this my life?
I haven't done anything with my life.
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In those days,
people didn't get divorced.
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I mean, I didn't know anybody
that was divorced.
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You just... you were in the soup.
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You didn't think about divorce.
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Kurt was nine at the time.
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And everybody was
talking about it.
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It just embarrassed him to death
that we had gotten divorced.
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He took light bulbs
out of all the lights
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and locked the baby-sitter and Kim
outside and just became really unruly.
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And I said, "This is not going
to happen any more. "
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And so I took him over
to his dad's house.
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She couldn't handle him.
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So, I took him.
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I liked it, really,
you know, having him,
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him and I together like that.
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And I think there's one thing
that I said at one time
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that I was never gonna
get married again.
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And I think he took
that for a word.
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Then I met Jennifer
and we got married
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and, you know, he had a stepbrother
and a sister and then our son, Chad.
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He wanted to be in
a family, period.
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And I felt that just
from the beginning.
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The game nights that we had,
that was really important to him.
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You know, if we didn't want to do it
on a Wednesday night,
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you know, he'd say,
"Nope! We have to. That's what we... "
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He just... I could feel that he
just really liked that time,
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but he always wanted to win.
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And if he didn't win, he was mad.
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He wanted to be
the most loved
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and it just wasn't
the ideal world
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that he thought a
family should be.
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So, he just decided he wasn't
gonna do anything anybody said.
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He'd just lay on the
couch and watch TV.
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Go down in his room
and play the guitar.
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And then he started just doing
really mean things to the kids.
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And then, it just got so...
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I think it was kind of
my fault in a way
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because I couldn't deal
with it any more.
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And I told Don he was gonna
have to get out of the house.
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He went to Wendy's
brother's for a while.
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And with my mom and dad,
he even lived with them for a while,
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you know, then he'd come back
to us and still have problems.
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It was like nobody...
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After a couple of weeks,
they wanted him out.
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I think the sad part
of the whole thing
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is that Kurt just really wanted
to be with his mom.
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Underneath the bridge
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The tarp has sprung a leak
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And the animals I've trapped
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Have all become my pets
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And I'm living off of grass
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And the drippings
from the ceiling
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It's OK to eat fish
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Cos they don't
have any feelings
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Something in the way
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Something in the way, yeah
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Something in the way
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Something in the way, yeah
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He just was in so much pain
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that he, you know,
took it out on his mom
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and took it out on his dad
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and took it out
on his siblings.
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But it's almost
like he didn't...
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He didn't feel worthy because
he was rejected, basically.
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And I don't know
how anybody deals
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with having your whole family
reject you.
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Like most babies
smell like butter
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His smell smelled
like no other
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He was born scentless
and senseless
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He was born a
scentless apprentice
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Go away
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Get away
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Go away
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In a community that stresses
macho male sexual stories
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as the highlight of
all conversation,
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I was an underdeveloped,
immature little dude that never got laid
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and was constantly razzed.
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Oh, poor little kid.
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It bothered me, probably more so
because I was horny
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and frequently had to
make up stories like,
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"Oh, when I went on vacation,
I met this chick
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and we fucked and she loved it,"
etcetera, etcetera.
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This typical pubescent problem
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was an effector in the
height of my problems
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with my father and stepmom.
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You know, the typical
wicked-stepmom story.
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And so, I moved to
both grandparents'
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and four sets of aunts' and uncles'
and so forth and so on within the year.
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And in eighth grade, my mom
had no choice to take me in
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because my dad
packed my stuff
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and drove me to her house in
the morning and left me there.
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She was pissed.
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I accumulated quite a healthy complex,
not to mention a complexion.
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Then one day, I discovered the most
ultimate form of expression ever:
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Marijuana.
Oh, boy! Pot.
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I could escape all day long and not
have routine nervous breakdowns.
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Trevor was a guy I hated but
resorted to becoming friends with
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because he was the only person
I could get pot from.
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He was the kingpin.
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Trevor, Ace, John and Darren,
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all white-trash, lowlife scum
of the earth, according to the jocks,
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had been going to this girl's house
after school, and they invited me.
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We got to the door and
a very fat girl let us in.
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It wasn't obvious to me
for over an hour
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that this girl seemed
kind of quiet
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until one of the guys pointed out
that she was in a special ed class.
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I'm sure a lot of kids would call her
a retard and some just slow,
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and at the time, and still to this day,
I would call her quiet and illiterate
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but not retarded.
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The object of the guys who had been
going there for the past month
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was to steal booze from the downstairs
basement den of her house.
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While others distracted her,
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one would go down and take a fifth
and then exit out the downstairs.
00:21:06.470 --> 00:21:08.415
So we'd do this routine
every otherday
00:21:08.555 --> 00:21:11.126
and got away with it for, oh,
about a month.
00:21:12.351 --> 00:21:13.545
And during that month
00:21:13.686 --> 00:21:16.507
happened to be the epitome of my
mental abuse from my mother.
00:21:17.523 --> 00:21:21.129
It turned out that pot didn't help me
escape my troubles too well any more,
00:21:21.277 --> 00:21:23.677
and I was actually enjoying
doing rebellious things
00:21:23.821 --> 00:21:26.642
like stealing booze and
busting store windows,
00:21:26.782 --> 00:21:27.976
and nothing ever mattered.
00:21:28.117 --> 00:21:29.596
I decided within the next month,
00:21:29.743 --> 00:21:31.847
I'll not sit on my roof
and think about jumping,
00:21:31.996 --> 00:21:34.942
but I'll actually kill myself.
And I wasn't going out of this world
00:21:35.082 --> 00:21:37.903
without actually knowing
what it was like to get laid.
00:21:42.047 --> 00:21:44.902
So one day after school,
I went to the girl's house alone
00:21:45.050 --> 00:21:47.621
and invited myself in and she
offered me some Twinkies
00:21:47.761 --> 00:21:50.286
and I sat on her lap
and I said, "Let's fuck. "
00:21:50.431 --> 00:21:52.911
And I touched her tits and
she went into her bedroom
00:21:53.058 --> 00:21:54.707
and got undressed in front of me,
00:21:54.852 --> 00:21:57.423
and I watched and realised
that it was actually happening.
00:21:57.563 --> 00:21:59.383
So I tried to fuck her
but didn't know how
00:21:59.523 --> 00:22:01.844
and asked her if she'd
ever done this before.
00:22:01.984 --> 00:22:04.555
And she said, "A lot of times,"
mainly with her cousin.
00:22:05.112 --> 00:22:06.716
I got grossed out very heavily
00:22:06.864 --> 00:22:10.721
with how her vagina smelled
and her sweat reeked, so I left.
00:22:10.868 --> 00:22:13.439
My conscience grew to where
I couldn't go to school for a week,
00:22:13.579 --> 00:22:16.651
and when I went back,
I got in-house suspension for skipping,
00:22:16.790 --> 00:22:18.485
and that day,
the girl's father came in
00:22:18.625 --> 00:22:21.651
screaming and accusing someone
of taking advantage of his daughter.
00:22:23.172 --> 00:22:25.993
And so during lunch, a rumour started,
and by the next day,
00:22:26.133 --> 00:22:28.738
everyone was waiting for me
to yell and cuss and spit at me,
00:22:28.886 --> 00:22:31.411
calling me "the retard fucker".
00:22:32.806 --> 00:22:34.831
I couldn't handle the ridicule,
00:22:34.975 --> 00:22:38.047
so I got high and drunk and
walked down to the train tracks
00:22:38.187 --> 00:22:41.133
and laid down and put two big pieces
of cement on my chest and legs
00:22:41.273 --> 00:22:43.753
and I waited for the
11 o'clock train.
00:22:44.568 --> 00:22:47.548
And the train came closer
and closer and closer,
00:22:47.696 --> 00:22:51.894
and it went on the next track
besides me instead of over me.
00:22:53.952 --> 00:22:56.682
The tension from school
had an effect on me
00:22:56.830 --> 00:22:59.560
and the train scared me enough
to try to rehabilitate myself,
00:22:59.708 --> 00:23:03.906
and my lifting weights and mathematics
seemed to be improving,
00:23:04.046 --> 00:23:05.820
so I became less manically depressed,
00:23:05.964 --> 00:23:08.944
but still never had any friends
because I...
00:23:09.093 --> 00:23:12.540
I hated everyone,
for they were so phoney.
00:23:35.536 --> 00:23:38.858
When Kurt was about 15,
he moved back in with Mom and I.
00:23:38.997 --> 00:23:40.601
It was a struggle.
00:23:40.749 --> 00:23:43.104
You know, it was still him
wanting to rebel
00:23:43.252 --> 00:23:46.358
and getting stoned and
going out with his friends
00:23:46.505 --> 00:23:48.985
and not wanting to,
you know, do chores
00:23:49.133 --> 00:23:54.036
and, you know, he was always
wanting to, like, just do his own thing.
00:23:55.347 --> 00:23:56.666
He wanted normalcy.
00:23:56.807 --> 00:23:59.628
He wanted the mom, the dad
and the kids, and everything happy.
00:23:59.768 --> 00:24:04.546
But then, he didn't,
cos he kinda fought against it.
00:24:04.690 --> 00:24:07.090
So he fought against
what he really wanted.
00:24:08.277 --> 00:24:11.257
- Hello? Hello?
- You still there?
00:24:11.405 --> 00:24:13.760
Yeah. I'm putting you on
speaker phone, though.
00:24:13.907 --> 00:24:16.262
OK. Are you recording this
or writing it down?
00:24:16.410 --> 00:24:18.059
Yeah, I'm recording and writing.
00:24:19.580 --> 00:24:23.186
People don't realise where we
really came from, you know?
00:24:23.333 --> 00:24:25.904
What an isolated
hellhole it really is.
00:24:26.044 --> 00:24:29.571
I mean, if witch burnings had been,
like, legal, we'd all be dead now.
00:24:29.715 --> 00:24:31.194
- You know?
- Fuck, yeah.
00:24:31.800 --> 00:24:33.870
Did you ever see that movie
"Over the Edge"?
00:24:34.011 --> 00:24:35.581
- Yeah!
- I mean, God!
00:24:35.721 --> 00:24:38.042
That movie had such
an effect on me.
00:24:38.182 --> 00:24:41.413
OK, you guys. You are to take
these home to your parents.
00:24:41.560 --> 00:24:44.131
It's to let them know about
a special emergency meeting
00:24:44.271 --> 00:24:46.091
to discuss the problems
about you people.
00:24:46.231 --> 00:24:47.300
I love that movie.
00:24:47.441 --> 00:24:49.341
I always wanted to do that
in front of you.
00:24:49.485 --> 00:24:52.932
Me, too. I tried, you know.
I wanted to be a vandal,
00:24:53.071 --> 00:24:56.143
and I wanted to hold everyone
captive in the school.
00:24:56.283 --> 00:24:58.638
Everybody that's ever messed
with me in one room.
00:24:58.785 --> 00:25:00.980
That'd be just about
everybody in town.
00:25:01.121 --> 00:25:03.225
We should go down there
and tell them all to go to hell.
00:25:03.373 --> 00:25:04.943
- Yeah!
- Come on, man!
00:25:08.587 --> 00:25:12.068
I don't know how many of us
are willing to admit
00:25:12.216 --> 00:25:16.323
just how deep in trouble some
of the kids in this city are.
00:25:22.059 --> 00:25:24.209
Has anyone ever sat down
and talked to these kids?
00:25:24.353 --> 00:25:27.083
I talk to them six hours a day
until I'm blue in the face.
00:25:27.231 --> 00:25:29.711
I spend more time with your
kids than you people do.
00:25:29.858 --> 00:25:31.962
You think those kids are
interested in learning?
00:25:32.110 --> 00:25:34.431
You ought to come in and see
what goes on in the classroom.
00:25:34.571 --> 00:25:36.801
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
00:25:37.282 --> 00:25:39.675
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
00:25:39.921 --> 00:25:42.534
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
00:25:42.889 --> 00:25:45.880
Wouldn't you believe it
It's just my luck
00:25:47.943 --> 00:25:49.780
No recess!
00:25:51.171 --> 00:25:53.196
No recess!
00:25:54.007 --> 00:25:55.486
No recess!
00:25:55.634 --> 00:25:57.784
Most of the teachers, God...
00:25:57.928 --> 00:26:00.453
The last couple of years of school
in the mid-eighties,
00:26:00.597 --> 00:26:03.248
there was so much Reagan
propaganda going on.
00:26:03.392 --> 00:26:06.793
This teacher would just
go off on it every day.
00:26:07.688 --> 00:26:10.668
Practise your piano.
00:26:10.816 --> 00:26:13.512
- You need practice on it.
- Go to hell!
00:26:13.652 --> 00:26:15.677
Burn the place to the
fucking ground.
00:26:15.821 --> 00:26:17.766
Yeah!
00:26:17.906 --> 00:26:19.555
No recess!
00:26:21.118 --> 00:26:23.598
No recess!
00:26:24.162 --> 00:26:26.062
No recess!
00:26:26.206 --> 00:26:28.811
High school's such a
worthless fucking nothing.
00:26:28.959 --> 00:26:30.859
God, what torture, you know?
00:26:31.003 --> 00:26:34.154
No, I quit the last two
months of school.
00:26:34.298 --> 00:26:36.277
I was so withdrawn
by that time,
00:26:36.425 --> 00:26:39.246
and I was so antisocial that I
was almost insane, you know?
00:26:39.386 --> 00:26:42.970
I felt so different and so crazy
that people just left me alone.
00:26:43.098 --> 00:26:44.827
No recess!
00:26:58.905 --> 00:27:00.975
Did Kurt find the underground
00:27:01.116 --> 00:27:02.811
or did the underground find him?
00:27:03.869 --> 00:27:07.020
I think he went in search of it
and I think they found each other.
00:27:08.123 --> 00:27:13.356
He was searching for whatever
made him feel like he wasn't alone
00:27:13.503 --> 00:27:15.277
and that he wasn't so different.
00:27:17.007 --> 00:27:19.658
When did you first
hear punk rock?
00:27:19.801 --> 00:27:23.202
You know, I'd wanted to
hear punk rock forever.
00:27:23.347 --> 00:27:26.327
Of course, they didn't have it
in our record shop in Aberdeen.
00:27:26.475 --> 00:27:30.206
But then finally, Buzz Osborne,
who'd been a friend of mine off and on,
00:27:30.354 --> 00:27:31.958
made me a couple of
compilation tapes.
00:27:35.067 --> 00:27:38.047
And I was completely
blown away.
00:27:39.363 --> 00:27:41.809
I would lip sync to those
tapes and I wore them out
00:27:41.948 --> 00:27:45.304
and I'd play them every day, you know.
It was the greatest thing.
00:27:48.288 --> 00:27:50.859
It expressed the way
I felt socially and politically
00:27:50.999 --> 00:27:55.231
and it was the anger that I felt,
the alienation.
00:27:57.673 --> 00:28:02.656
And I realised that this is what
I've always wanted to do.
00:28:11.645 --> 00:28:14.466
Fill me in on your new vision
00:28:14.606 --> 00:28:17.461
Wake me up with indecision
00:28:17.609 --> 00:28:20.430
Help me trust your
mighty wisdom
00:28:20.570 --> 00:28:23.892
Yes, I eat cow, I am not proud
00:28:27.285 --> 00:28:31.233
Just the fact that we were actually
playing music live in a room,
00:28:31.373 --> 00:28:34.979
it was amazing. It was, like,
the most incredible thing I've ever done.
00:28:37.087 --> 00:28:38.941
Easy in an easy chair
00:28:40.006 --> 00:28:41.542
Poop as hard as rock
00:28:43.135 --> 00:28:44.864
I don't like you anyway
00:28:46.096 --> 00:28:47.870
Seal it in a box
00:28:50.392 --> 00:28:54.123
If we played together in the
house for a couple of hours
00:28:54.271 --> 00:28:57.752
and if two people stopped by,
we considered that a gig, you know.
00:28:57.899 --> 00:28:59.628
A show.
That was good enough.
00:28:59.776 --> 00:29:02.097
We had an audience
of two people, you know.
00:29:02.237 --> 00:29:05.593
Locals who hated our guts and
thought it was terrible music.
00:29:17.753 --> 00:29:21.780
I think I was 18 or 19 years old
and Kurt was, like, 17.
00:29:22.549 --> 00:29:26.781
But he liked punk rock music, and so
that, you know, piqued my interest.
00:29:27.721 --> 00:29:30.121
And then I noticed
what a good artist he was.
00:29:30.265 --> 00:29:33.621
And so he was working
at the time as a janitor,
00:29:33.769 --> 00:29:36.920
but he'd always have to, like,
do some kind of art,
00:29:37.063 --> 00:29:39.258
usually defacing something.
00:29:39.900 --> 00:29:41.549
He never had, like, idle hands.
00:29:42.027 --> 00:29:45.053
It just came out of him.
He had to express himself.
00:29:48.867 --> 00:29:51.939
Well, who taught you how
to play guitar anyway?
00:30:21.817 --> 00:30:24.513
Brilliant.
Brilliant improvisational.
00:30:24.653 --> 00:30:27.099
Wow, Jerry Garcia
would really like this.
00:30:27.239 --> 00:30:29.343
- I'm gonna send him a tape.
- Send it to Jerry.
00:30:29.491 --> 00:30:32.096
You just have to sprinkle it
with patchouli orsomething.
00:30:32.244 --> 00:30:33.814
He'll dig right into it.
00:30:45.590 --> 00:30:46.943
Wait, wait, wait.
Ready?
00:30:50.595 --> 00:30:53.826
You alcoholics.
Film in the dark, you dick!
00:31:17.163 --> 00:31:19.643
Pick me, pick me, yeah
00:31:21.042 --> 00:31:23.363
Live alone, lone single
00:31:25.046 --> 00:31:28.630
At least, at least, yeah
00:31:28.758 --> 00:31:32.364
Everyone is hollow
00:31:32.512 --> 00:31:36.243
At least, at least, yeah
00:31:36.391 --> 00:31:39.417
Everyone is playing
00:31:40.395 --> 00:31:42.750
Pick me, pick me, yeah
00:31:44.065 --> 00:31:47.887
You can even...
00:31:50.530 --> 00:31:54.307
Yeah
00:31:54.451 --> 00:31:57.272
Dive, dive, dive
00:31:57.412 --> 00:32:01.940
Dive in me
00:32:02.334 --> 00:32:05.189
Dive, dive, dive
00:32:05.337 --> 00:32:08.363
Dive in me
00:32:09.799 --> 00:32:11.699
Dive in me
00:32:13.178 --> 00:32:15.078
Dive in me
00:32:17.098 --> 00:32:20.454
Dive in me
00:32:41.456 --> 00:32:44.562
He really didn't want to live
with his mom or his dad.
00:32:44.709 --> 00:32:46.438
He wanted to be on his own.
00:32:46.586 --> 00:32:49.532
So he moves into this dump.
00:32:49.673 --> 00:32:51.026
He wasn't making
a lot of money,
00:32:51.174 --> 00:32:55.907
and I think he was scared,
not being able to pay his own way.
00:32:56.054 --> 00:33:01.208
And in the hallway outside the apartment,
it was completely graffitied.
00:33:01.351 --> 00:33:04.172
Scooby Doo.
Rocky and Bullwinkle.
00:33:04.312 --> 00:33:06.883
But it was pornographic.
00:33:07.023 --> 00:33:10.254
There was just no way he was
gonna be the nine-to-five work guy
00:33:10.402 --> 00:33:13.132
that comes home with the briefcase
and wife cooks him dinner.
00:33:13.279 --> 00:33:15.474
I mean, that just wasn't ever
gonna happen.
00:33:15.615 --> 00:33:17.890
But he wanted some
type of connection.
00:33:18.034 --> 00:33:19.934
This is love, this is love.
00:33:20.078 --> 00:33:22.729
This is shitting and pissing
and fucking all over each other.
00:33:22.872 --> 00:33:24.601
Licking and spitting up
Gerber baby food.
00:33:24.749 --> 00:33:29.106
Not worrying if the plastic tarp
is on the floor cos, baby, this is love.
00:33:32.841 --> 00:33:36.868
Well, I know some people
will say that...
00:33:37.012 --> 00:33:39.162
that I treated Kurt maternally,
took care of him.
00:33:39.305 --> 00:33:41.660
But I like to think it was more
I was trying to nurture him
00:33:41.808 --> 00:33:43.287
rather than take care of him.
00:33:43.435 --> 00:33:45.835
Trying to nurture who he was
and get him to...
00:33:45.979 --> 00:33:47.924
let him do his art,
let him do his music
00:33:48.064 --> 00:33:51.648
and encourage him to get better
at it as opposed to trying to stifle it.
00:33:51.776 --> 00:33:54.097
But also not try to be the mom,
00:33:54.237 --> 00:33:59.265
but trying to be a nurturing
girlfriend or friend.
00:34:01.911 --> 00:34:05.495
We met at a party and, you know,
I liked him. I had a crush on him.
00:34:05.623 --> 00:34:07.272
And then finally
someone told him,
00:34:07.417 --> 00:34:09.521
"Don't you get that she likes you?"
or something.
00:34:09.669 --> 00:34:11.318
Cos he was just kinda
clueless about it.
00:34:21.848 --> 00:34:25.670
I liked that he was funny.
He made me laugh.
00:34:25.810 --> 00:34:28.415
He wasn't afraid to be,
you know, goofy or silly.
00:34:30.023 --> 00:34:33.800
But mostly we just had
a good time hanging out.
00:34:35.403 --> 00:34:39.055
I think he might have been a bit angry
at the way he was treated at school
00:34:39.199 --> 00:34:41.770
and angry with his mom
and with his dad.
00:34:44.412 --> 00:34:47.484
I think it was not so much that it
was hard for him to accept love
00:34:47.624 --> 00:34:50.855
but the fact that maybe he
was afraid of getting hurt.
00:34:52.921 --> 00:34:55.651
He was living in this tiny
little house in Aberdeen.
00:34:55.799 --> 00:34:59.383
I just said, "Why don't you just
move in with me and be in Olympia?"
00:34:59.511 --> 00:35:01.581
So we moved in together.
00:35:03.848 --> 00:35:06.078
It was nice to have someone
to share the evening with
00:35:06.226 --> 00:35:07.955
as well as the daytime.
00:35:08.103 --> 00:35:10.583
Sitting on the couch at the same time,
each reading a book.
00:35:10.730 --> 00:35:12.584
It was just...
you kind of felt grown up
00:35:12.732 --> 00:35:15.383
as opposed to just being still,
you know, a teenager.
00:35:42.220 --> 00:35:44.324
I'd like to think he was happy.
00:35:44.472 --> 00:35:46.417
We were very much
in love with each other,
00:35:46.558 --> 00:35:48.753
and, like I said,
I just tried to support him
00:35:48.893 --> 00:35:50.918
because he wanted
to be a musician.
00:35:51.062 --> 00:35:53.383
He wanted, you know,
to get his band going.
00:35:53.523 --> 00:35:56.924
He was ambitious. He didn't want to
just be playing in a bar band, you know,
00:35:57.068 --> 00:36:00.014
and play music that way.
He wanted to be a success.
00:36:00.155 --> 00:36:02.635
Good luck, good luck, man.
Good luck.
00:36:02.782 --> 00:36:04.556
Part the Red Seas.
00:36:11.791 --> 00:36:13.110
Shut the fuck up!
00:36:23.428 --> 00:36:26.704
Bell on door clanks, come on in
00:36:26.848 --> 00:36:30.124
Floyd observes my hairy chin
00:36:30.268 --> 00:36:33.465
Sit down in the chair,
don't be afraid
00:36:33.605 --> 00:36:36.927
Steamed hot towel on my face
00:36:39.152 --> 00:36:42.163
I was shaved
00:36:42.465 --> 00:36:45.629
I was shaved
00:36:45.856 --> 00:36:48.971
I was shaved
00:36:57.212 --> 00:37:00.613
Barney ties me to the chair
00:37:00.757 --> 00:37:04.204
I can't see, I'm really scared
00:37:04.344 --> 00:37:07.745
Floyd breathes hard,
I hear a zip
00:37:07.889 --> 00:37:10.665
Pee-pee pressed
against my lips
00:37:14.103 --> 00:37:17.145
I was shamed
00:37:17.482 --> 00:37:20.646
I was shamed
00:37:21.018 --> 00:37:24.750
I was shamed
00:37:46.302 --> 00:37:48.372
OK, thanks, everybody, for coming.
00:38:08.533 --> 00:38:10.387
When I met him,
he was a handyman.
00:38:10.535 --> 00:38:12.685
And then he got a
job as a janitor,
00:38:12.829 --> 00:38:16.777
cleaning, like, doctor's offices and
dentist's offices and things like that.
00:38:16.916 --> 00:38:22.149
But, yeah, he just ended up not
having another job after that.
00:38:22.797 --> 00:38:26.073
- So who would support him?
- Me.
00:38:26.926 --> 00:38:30.327
And what would he do all day
while you were at work?
00:38:30.471 --> 00:38:33.417
It was funny cos sometimes he'd just
sit there and watch TV for four hours
00:38:33.558 --> 00:38:34.957
and you'd think he
wasn't creating,
00:38:35.101 --> 00:38:38.173
but he'd be playing guitar while he was
doing that or think up stuff later
00:38:38.313 --> 00:38:40.668
and then you'd go out for a few
hours and you'd come back
00:38:40.815 --> 00:38:43.921
and there was a painting on the wall or
there's a big comic strip or whatever;
00:38:44.068 --> 00:38:46.673
he wrote a song, you know,
and recorded it.
00:38:50.199 --> 00:38:53.145
...described them
arriving at this scene...
00:38:53.286 --> 00:38:56.892
This is, like, fucking rad,
you know.
00:38:57.040 --> 00:39:00.191
Co-o-o-ol.
00:39:02.128 --> 00:39:04.824
Where's the m-m-m-m...
00:39:04.964 --> 00:39:10.197
M - m - m - m - m - m...
00:39:13.306 --> 00:39:16.378
I could be a girl,
she can breed me
00:39:16.517 --> 00:39:20.248
I can be a boy,
she could break free
00:39:20.396 --> 00:39:22.170
I don't even care
00:39:22.315 --> 00:39:23.589
We could be all three
00:39:23.733 --> 00:39:27.430
She said
00:39:27.904 --> 00:39:31.510
Warm babies on my cold feet
00:39:31.657 --> 00:39:33.682
at the end of my bed.
00:39:36.079 --> 00:39:38.309
I want you to see something.
00:39:38.456 --> 00:39:40.651
Shh!
They're in the house.
00:39:40.792 --> 00:39:42.066
They're in the house.
00:39:42.210 --> 00:39:44.314
Some highlights follow,
00:39:44.462 --> 00:39:47.784
but we warn that viewers may find
parts of the footage disturbing.
00:39:47.924 --> 00:39:49.619
The object of the exercise
00:39:49.759 --> 00:39:52.580
is to observe the monster
for as long as possible.
00:39:52.720 --> 00:39:55.996
Think I'll go for a walk
outside now
00:39:56.140 --> 00:39:58.961
The summer sun's
calling my name
00:40:02.647 --> 00:40:06.424
I hear you now, I just
can't stay inside all day, d-d-day
00:40:06.567 --> 00:40:08.467
A person who is
success-minded
00:40:08.611 --> 00:40:10.636
has a success consciousness and...
00:40:10.780 --> 00:40:14.102
- Everybody's smiling
- ... success awareness.
00:40:14.242 --> 00:40:15.937
Into the sunshine
00:40:16.661 --> 00:40:18.561
Why is that so groovy?
00:40:26.838 --> 00:40:30.631
She should have
been a son
00:40:44.272 --> 00:40:45.876
Hello?
00:40:46.858 --> 00:40:50.009
No, she's not.
She went to work.
00:40:51.529 --> 00:40:52.928
Alright.
00:40:59.078 --> 00:41:00.431
Bass part.
00:41:03.249 --> 00:41:07.606
Na, na-na na, na-na na,
na-na na
00:43:20.052 --> 00:43:21.826
A person who is success minded
00:43:21.971 --> 00:43:25.623
has a success consciousness
and suc-suc-suc-suc-suc...
00:43:26.517 --> 00:43:28.587
Boy, am I gonna
wake you up.
00:43:28.728 --> 00:43:30.582
N - N - N - N -
Now c'mon.
00:43:30.730 --> 00:43:33.802
You know this is really the
best way to start your day.
00:43:33.941 --> 00:43:36.842
Now don't think about anything else
but getting that body in shape
00:43:36.986 --> 00:43:38.305
cos you deserve it.
00:43:38.446 --> 00:43:41.768
Now hold the stomach in. C'mon.
Gimme some good posture.
00:43:41.907 --> 00:43:44.762
Hold your head up high.
Tighten those buns.
00:43:44.910 --> 00:43:49.358
Get ready because this is for you!
00:44:01.302 --> 00:44:03.372
She said she'd take
me anywhere
00:44:03.512 --> 00:44:05.286
She'd take me anywhere
00:44:05.431 --> 00:44:06.967
#As long as she stays with me
00:44:07.099 --> 00:44:09.169
She said she'd take
me anywhere
00:44:09.310 --> 00:44:10.880
She'd take me anywhere
00:44:11.020 --> 00:44:12.669
As long as I stayed clean
00:44:12.813 --> 00:44:15.356
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:44:15.646 --> 00:44:18.320
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:44:18.540 --> 00:44:21.178
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:44:21.483 --> 00:44:24.316
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:44:25.863 --> 00:44:28.189
This song has two notes.
00:44:31.707 --> 00:44:33.311
That's it.
00:44:33.459 --> 00:44:35.905
This note and this note.
00:44:47.264 --> 00:44:49.494
She said she'd take
me anywhere
00:44:49.684 --> 00:44:51.003
She'd take me anywhere
00:44:51.143 --> 00:44:52.792
As long as she stays with me
00:44:52.937 --> 00:44:55.292
She said she'd take
me anywhere
00:44:55.439 --> 00:44:56.758
She'd take me anywhere
00:44:56.899 --> 00:44:58.673
As long as I stayed clean
00:44:58.818 --> 00:45:01.371
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:01.510 --> 00:45:04.112
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:04.376 --> 00:45:07.024
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:07.255 --> 00:45:09.908
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:10.175 --> 00:45:12.754
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:12.917 --> 00:45:15.659
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:15.860 --> 00:45:18.522
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:18.786 --> 00:45:23.162
Kiss, kiss Molly's lips
00:45:35.438 --> 00:45:38.339
Look at these losers.
00:45:38.482 --> 00:45:41.508
Bunch of long-haired
fuckin' sissies, man.
00:45:46.782 --> 00:45:48.511
Hi, my name is Dana.
00:45:48.659 --> 00:45:53.141
I caught Nirvana in their dressing
room on their recent tour.
00:45:53.289 --> 00:45:55.393
At what point are you
on this tour right now?
00:45:55.541 --> 00:45:58.567
We're at the point of
kicking each other's ass.
00:45:58.711 --> 00:46:01.657
I would imagine that the constant
party atmosphere on the road
00:46:01.797 --> 00:46:04.243
would create a great deal of
physical and mental stress.
00:46:04.383 --> 00:46:05.611
How do you deal with it?
00:46:05.760 --> 00:46:09.457
We prepared for the rock and
roll lifestyle. We can kick it, man.
00:46:09.597 --> 00:46:12.498
You know what? We should move in
our stuff before it starts raining.
00:46:12.641 --> 00:46:14.085
Yeah.
00:46:15.144 --> 00:46:18.875
A hundred percent humidity
here in Fort Worth, Texas.
00:46:19.023 --> 00:46:20.877
Does success ever frighten you?
00:46:21.025 --> 00:46:23.380
Go in the van!
Hey!
00:46:23.527 --> 00:46:26.473
No, because we actually want
to become more successful
00:46:26.614 --> 00:46:28.844
so we can have a
comfortable life.
00:46:33.829 --> 00:46:35.399
OK, man.
Take it away, buddy.
00:46:35.539 --> 00:46:39.487
Don't worry about me. I know this is
kind of a strange angle, but it'll work.
00:46:41.545 --> 00:46:45.868
Yes. That's a big camera, man.
That's not...
00:46:46.425 --> 00:46:49.656
How would you describe the music
you play and the things you do?
00:46:49.804 --> 00:46:53.001
Well, the things we do is just,
00:46:53.140 --> 00:46:57.247
we play a very powerful,
high-energy type of rock and roll.
00:46:57.394 --> 00:47:01.216
We move around on
stage a lot, and...
00:47:01.357 --> 00:47:04.838
Just scream with an abandon,
I guess.
00:47:04.985 --> 00:47:06.805
What makes you
want to be Nirvana?
00:47:06.946 --> 00:47:09.176
What makes us want
to be Nirvana?
00:47:09.323 --> 00:47:13.271
We're Nirvana because we're
not Aerosmith or something.
00:47:13.410 --> 00:47:17.141
Or the Vegetables.
Or...
00:47:18.582 --> 00:47:20.311
What's the future of Nirvana?
00:47:20.459 --> 00:47:23.314
The future of Nirvana?
I don't know.
00:47:23.462 --> 00:47:25.692
Hopefully try to write
some more good songs.
00:47:25.840 --> 00:47:27.944
That's all we care about
is writing good music.
00:47:28.092 --> 00:47:31.744
If we get popular or not,
it doesn't matter.
00:47:31.887 --> 00:47:34.788
The music's more important.
00:47:34.932 --> 00:47:38.038
We don't have any more songs,
so this is the last one.
00:48:01.584 --> 00:48:07.159
Would you believe me when I tell you
You are the queen of my heart?
00:48:08.090 --> 00:48:11.116
Please don't deceive me
when I hurt you
00:48:11.260 --> 00:48:13.785
Just ain't the way it seems
00:48:15.472 --> 00:48:18.678
Can you feel my love buzz?
00:49:16.283 --> 00:49:20.606
I remember the first review
Nirvana ever got
00:49:20.746 --> 00:49:24.227
was for the Love Buzz/Big Cheese
single we did,
00:49:24.375 --> 00:49:28.527
and it was in this hip magazine out of
Michigan these scenesters were doing,
00:49:28.671 --> 00:49:30.320
and they gave us
a bad review.
00:49:30.464 --> 00:49:33.786
They said it was like Lynyrd
Skynyrd but without the flares.
00:49:33.926 --> 00:49:37.453
Kurt was really hurt with that
and he was telling me that.
00:49:37.596 --> 00:49:40.121
He goes... And I said,
"Don't worry about it. "
00:49:40.265 --> 00:49:43.587
"That's just... they're just scenesters,
they're hipsters or... "
00:49:43.727 --> 00:49:45.376
You know, "Screw them!"
or whatever.
00:49:45.521 --> 00:49:49.673
But, you know,
Kurt hated being humiliated.
00:49:49.817 --> 00:49:51.170
He hated it.
00:49:51.318 --> 00:49:52.797
He hated it!
00:49:52.945 --> 00:49:58.178
If he ever thought he was humiliated,
then you'd see the rage come out.
00:49:59.368 --> 00:50:01.598
And so he was also
very careful about,
00:50:01.745 --> 00:50:06.023
and stubborn about how the way the
art and the work was presented
00:50:06.166 --> 00:50:07.940
because he didn't want
to be humiliated.
00:50:08.085 --> 00:50:11.612
I could be humiliated, like...
I humiliate myself or whatever.
00:50:11.755 --> 00:50:14.576
But not Kurt.
No.
00:50:25.102 --> 00:50:27.297
He had really violent
dreams a lot.
00:50:27.438 --> 00:50:29.884
People would be breaking
into his house, trying to kill him,
00:50:30.024 --> 00:50:31.173
and he'd have to stab them.
00:50:31.316 --> 00:50:33.887
Once in a while it might be his
family who was trying to kill him.
00:50:34.028 --> 00:50:35.427
But that was just really rare.
00:50:35.571 --> 00:50:39.177
Usually it was someone else coming
after him that he didn't know.
00:50:39.324 --> 00:50:41.929
I asked... I thought he should
try to talk to someone,
00:50:42.077 --> 00:50:45.661
but without, you know, much money,
that really wasn't gonna happen.
00:50:50.335 --> 00:50:54.863
Kurt would get stomach aches
a lot and say his stomach hurt.
00:50:55.007 --> 00:50:57.532
You know, he'd be feeling fine
and then he'd get out of the car
00:50:57.676 --> 00:51:00.122
and just be, like,
"I gotta throw up. "
00:51:00.262 --> 00:51:04.540
I know he went to the doctor once
or twice, but it didn't really work.
00:51:10.689 --> 00:51:13.135
Most of the time,
I sing right from my stomach.
00:51:13.275 --> 00:51:15.675
Right where my stomach pain is.
00:51:17.196 --> 00:51:20.677
Every time I've had an endoscope,
they'd find a red irritation.
00:51:26.163 --> 00:51:28.609
I would sing and cough up blood.
00:51:28.749 --> 00:51:31.354
It's, like, this is no way
to live a life.
00:51:31.502 --> 00:51:35.575
I love to play music but
something's not right.
00:51:35.714 --> 00:51:37.614
So I decided to medicate myself.
00:52:06.411 --> 00:52:08.356
How much of that
pain would you say
00:52:08.497 --> 00:52:10.897
actually fuels what you're
writing and playing?
00:52:11.041 --> 00:52:12.815
See, that's a scary question
00:52:12.960 --> 00:52:16.862
because I think it probably helps,
you know.
00:52:17.005 --> 00:52:21.203
But I would give up everything
to have good health.
00:52:21.343 --> 00:52:26.872
But then again, I'm always afraid
that if I lost the stomach problem,
00:52:27.015 --> 00:52:29.916
I might not be as creative.
00:52:32.104 --> 00:52:35.301
There's a journal entry where
Kurt mentions doing heroin
00:52:35.440 --> 00:52:39.024
for the first time in 1987
when he was living with you.
00:52:39.153 --> 00:52:40.347
See, he never told me that.
00:52:40.487 --> 00:52:43.684
He totally had kept that from me cos
I totally would've talked him out of it.
00:52:43.824 --> 00:52:46.270
In fact, he used to make fun of
some of the people in Seattle
00:52:46.410 --> 00:52:49.561
that were using that and
say it was really stupid.
00:52:49.705 --> 00:52:52.651
Cos I've been told before that he
was doing it when we were dating,
00:52:52.791 --> 00:52:56.443
but I'm, like, he didn't do
it around me, ever.
00:52:56.587 --> 00:52:59.158
I never found anything, so...
00:53:08.432 --> 00:53:10.206
I can't really say exactly
why we broke up.
00:53:10.350 --> 00:53:12.045
I just know that we
were fighting more
00:53:12.186 --> 00:53:15.792
and he was staying away
from the house more.
00:53:15.939 --> 00:53:19.261
I think he just pretty much didn't
love me as much as he used to.
00:53:19.401 --> 00:53:23.553
Or felt... He just felt like maybe
he was moving ahead and I wasn't.
00:53:31.788 --> 00:53:33.892
Kurt Cobain's here.
00:53:34.041 --> 00:53:36.771
You know,
Kurt Cobain from Aberdeen.
00:53:38.212 --> 00:53:41.488
- What's going on, baby?
- Not a damn thing.
00:53:41.632 --> 00:53:44.112
You called up and said,
"I wanna play some songs. "
00:53:44.259 --> 00:53:46.489
So I said, "Rockin' good news!"
00:53:46.637 --> 00:53:48.411
Bloody brilliant!
00:53:49.598 --> 00:53:51.919
I just wrote most of the lyrics
this evening.
00:53:52.059 --> 00:53:55.506
- In the car, on the way up here?
- While I was driving with one foot.
00:53:55.646 --> 00:53:58.752
- Uh-huh?
- Yeah, that's what I did.
00:53:58.899 --> 00:54:01.754
I just thought I would just
come here and say hi.
00:54:01.902 --> 00:54:03.676
Well, let her rip.
00:54:06.406 --> 00:54:09.682
OK, is there any major-label
interest in you at the present?
00:54:09.826 --> 00:54:11.521
- Can you say?
- Not at the moment.
00:54:11.662 --> 00:54:14.017
Anybody not affiliated with CBS.
00:54:14.164 --> 00:54:15.734
Would you consider changing?
00:54:15.874 --> 00:54:19.571
We're considering it because we
wanna get as much as we can.
00:54:21.421 --> 00:54:23.400
Well, you're this
interesting mix of,
00:54:23.548 --> 00:54:25.903
as you say, you're one of the
laziest people you know,
00:54:26.051 --> 00:54:28.906
but you're also ambitious
for a lazy person.
00:54:29.054 --> 00:54:30.498
You think so?
00:54:33.642 --> 00:54:36.293
How does it feel to be surrounded
by so many people
00:54:36.436 --> 00:54:39.462
telling you that you soon
are doing very well?
00:54:39.606 --> 00:54:43.713
I think it's embarrassing to
have so many expectations.
00:54:43.860 --> 00:54:45.964
A totally superficial label
to put on a band,
00:54:46.113 --> 00:54:48.434
to state that they're
the next big thing.
00:54:48.573 --> 00:54:51.269
Because, you know,
that's not our goal in the first place.
00:54:51.410 --> 00:54:56.063
People are putting that tag on us
without us really wanting to do that.
00:54:56.206 --> 00:54:57.685
You're not prepared forthat?
00:54:57.833 --> 00:55:00.654
Not prepared? Nope.
Because we're not going to be.
00:55:00.794 --> 00:55:04.742
We're prepared to destroy
our careers if it happens.
00:55:08.510 --> 00:55:10.239
I'm so happy
00:55:10.387 --> 00:55:13.993
Cos today I've found my friends
00:55:14.141 --> 00:55:16.120
They're in my head
00:55:16.268 --> 00:55:18.042
I'm so ugly
00:55:18.186 --> 00:55:21.963
But that's OK, cos so are you
00:55:22.107 --> 00:55:23.756
We've broken our mirrors
00:55:23.900 --> 00:55:25.800
Sunday morning
00:55:25.944 --> 00:55:29.266
Is everyday for all I care
00:55:29.406 --> 00:55:31.727
And I'm not scared
00:55:31.867 --> 00:55:33.687
Light my candles
00:55:33.827 --> 00:55:36.933
In a daze cos I've found God
00:55:37.080 --> 00:55:39.942
Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:55:40.868 --> 00:55:44.238
Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:55:44.741 --> 00:55:47.285
Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:55:48.652 --> 00:55:52.157
Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:55:52.511 --> 00:55:55.982
Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:55:56.358 --> 00:56:00.277
Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:56:00.597 --> 00:56:02.243
Yeah
00:56:02.784 --> 00:56:04.677
I'm so lonely
00:56:04.750 --> 00:56:08.609
But that's OK,
I shaved my head
00:56:08.737 --> 00:56:10.682
And I'm not sad
00:56:10.822 --> 00:56:12.642
And just maybe
00:56:12.783 --> 00:56:16.514
I'm to blame for all I've heard
00:56:16.661 --> 00:56:18.105
But I'm not sure
00:56:18.246 --> 00:56:19.270
I'm so excited
00:56:19.414 --> 00:56:22.941
I am Kurt.
I play guitar and I sing.
00:56:23.085 --> 00:56:24.985
And I am Dave.
And I play drums.
00:56:25.128 --> 00:56:27.608
And I sing sometimes
but not that often.
00:56:27.756 --> 00:56:29.781
I'm Chris and I play bass.
00:56:29.925 --> 00:56:31.244
And I don't sing, thank God!
00:56:31.593 --> 00:56:37.452
Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:56:37.599 --> 00:56:40.750
Alright, Nirvana's joined us in the
studio tonight. New Music Hour.
00:56:40.894 --> 00:56:44.421
We've got Krist Novoselic,
we've got Kurt Cobain and Dave Grohl.
00:56:44.564 --> 00:56:48.261
Their upcoming release Nevermind
comes out the 24th of this month,
00:56:48.402 --> 00:56:50.222
and you guys'll be
doing an in-store
00:56:50.362 --> 00:56:53.138
at the Beehive Music and Video
in the University District.
00:56:53.281 --> 00:56:55.932
So go out, meet the band.
That's at seven to nine.
00:56:57.160 --> 00:57:00.891
I like it,
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:01.039 --> 00:57:04.736
I miss you,
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:04.876 --> 00:57:08.698
I love you,
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:08.839 --> 00:57:12.570
I killed you,
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:12.717 --> 00:57:16.448
I like it,
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:16.596 --> 00:57:20.373
I miss you,
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:20.517 --> 00:57:23.951
I love you,
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:24.156 --> 00:57:25.603
I killed you,
00:57:25.691 --> 00:57:31.227
I'm not gonna crack
00:57:39.119 --> 00:57:43.317
End of July or August, he's home.
00:57:43.457 --> 00:57:46.483
And he comes downstairs and
he's in his little whitey tighties.
00:57:46.626 --> 00:57:48.651
No shirt.
Barefoot.
00:57:48.795 --> 00:57:52.947
No pants other than his undies and...
Very Don Cobain.
00:57:53.091 --> 00:57:55.070
That's anotherthing
I got sick of looking at.
00:57:55.218 --> 00:57:58.073
And he's standing there with this tape
in his hand. I go, "What's that?"
00:57:58.221 --> 00:58:01.201
And he goes, "It's the master cut
to my new album. "
00:58:01.349 --> 00:58:02.543
"Can I put it on the stereo?"
00:58:02.684 --> 00:58:04.629
And I go,
"Yeah! And turn it up! Up, up, up. "
00:58:04.769 --> 00:58:06.748
Because I listen to
music really loud.
00:58:06.897 --> 00:58:10.378
And I look at him and I go,
"Oh, my God!"
00:58:10.525 --> 00:58:12.880
"Oh, my God!"
And I almost start crying.
00:58:13.028 --> 00:58:17.977
I mean, not from happiness.
From fear. It was fear.
00:58:18.575 --> 00:58:20.155
And I just went...
00:58:20.802 --> 00:58:25.698
"This is going to
change everything. "
00:58:25.727 --> 00:58:27.821
And I said...
00:58:28.398 --> 00:58:32.974
"You better buckle up,
cos you are not ready for this. "
00:58:41.306 --> 00:58:44.127
And for someone like yourself,
when you're, sort of,
00:58:44.267 --> 00:58:45.666
let's say your dreams come true,
00:58:45.810 --> 00:58:48.540
all the worst aspects of them
come true as well.
00:58:48.688 --> 00:58:52.340
It's, like, be careful what you wish for.
You're gonna get it.
00:58:52.484 --> 00:58:53.508
Yeah.
00:58:53.652 --> 00:58:58.009
How do you sort of deal
with the pull-apart;
00:58:58.156 --> 00:59:00.681
you know, being pulled apart
by stuff like that?
00:59:01.993 --> 00:59:04.268
I don't know if I expressed
that the right way or not.
00:59:04.412 --> 00:59:05.891
Well...
00:59:07.123 --> 00:59:08.351
Er...
00:59:15.173 --> 00:59:19.200
Load up on guns
00:59:19.344 --> 00:59:21.824
Bring your friends
00:59:21.972 --> 00:59:25.328
It's fun to lose
00:59:25.475 --> 00:59:28.831
And to pretend
00:59:28.979 --> 00:59:32.210
She's over-bored
00:59:32.357 --> 00:59:35.679
And self-assured
00:59:35.819 --> 00:59:37.343
Oh no,
00:59:37.374 --> 00:59:42.461
I know a dirty word
00:59:42.554 --> 00:59:46.353
Hello, hello
00:59:46.496 --> 00:59:50.023
Hello, how low?
00:59:50.166 --> 00:59:53.772
Hello, hello
00:59:53.920 --> 00:59:57.321
Hello, how low?
00:59:57.465 --> 01:00:02.073
Hello, hello
01:00:02.429 --> 01:00:05.910
With the lights out
01:00:06.057 --> 01:00:09.504
It's less dangerous
01:00:09.644 --> 01:00:12.966
Here we are now
01:00:13.106 --> 01:00:16.507
Entertain us
01:00:16.651 --> 01:00:20.052
I feel stupid
01:00:20.196 --> 01:00:23.643
And contagious
01:00:23.783 --> 01:00:27.139
Here we are now
01:00:27.287 --> 01:00:30.768
Entertain us
01:00:30.915 --> 01:00:34.362
A mulatto
01:00:34.502 --> 01:00:38.086
An albino
01:00:38.214 --> 01:00:41.798
A mosquito
01:00:41.926 --> 01:00:45.703
My libido
01:00:46.028 --> 01:00:48.880
A denial
01:00:49.203 --> 01:00:52.787
A denial
01:00:53.354 --> 01:00:56.778
A denial
01:00:57.200 --> 01:01:00.892
A denial
01:01:01.342 --> 01:01:05.793
A denial
01:01:06.056 --> 01:01:10.380
A denial
01:01:15.710 --> 01:01:17.905
OK, and cut.
01:01:19.464 --> 01:01:21.034
Alright, that's a wrap.
01:01:33.436 --> 01:01:39.196
Hey, man, if this bird goes down,
this is the safest place to be.
01:01:39.734 --> 01:01:43.215
Right in the tail,
where the bathroom is.
01:01:44.656 --> 01:01:46.430
As soon as you walked
on this plane
01:01:46.574 --> 01:01:50.226
I took one gander at you and
I saw nothing but trouble.
01:01:50.370 --> 01:01:52.315
Ha!
Bah!
01:01:52.455 --> 01:01:53.934
See if you can try and do it.
01:01:54.082 --> 01:01:58.280
Me and my sidekick Tree Frog Johnson
here is gonna rip you a new butthole.
01:01:58.503 --> 01:02:01.279
- Is this time ourtime?
- What a sensitive man.
01:02:01.423 --> 01:02:03.744
Cos it says it's, like,
almost three in the morning.
01:02:03.883 --> 01:02:06.363
Time flies when you're
having fun.
01:02:29.784 --> 01:02:31.729
I don't care,
I don't care, I don't care
01:02:31.870 --> 01:02:35.351
I don't care, care,
care if it's old
01:02:35.498 --> 01:02:37.523
I don't mind,
I don't mind, I don't mind
01:02:37.667 --> 01:02:41.114
I don't mind, mind,
don't have a mind
01:02:41.254 --> 01:02:43.324
Get away, get away,
get away
01:02:43.465 --> 01:02:46.866
Get away, away,
away from your home
01:02:47.010 --> 01:02:49.080
I'm afraid, I'm afraid,
I'm afraid
01:02:49.220 --> 01:02:52.292
I'm afraid, afraid of a ghost
01:02:52.432 --> 01:02:53.785
Even if you have
01:02:53.933 --> 01:02:54.957
Even if you need
01:02:55.101 --> 01:02:56.580
I don't mean to stare
01:02:56.728 --> 01:02:58.264
We don't have to breed
01:02:58.396 --> 01:02:59.670
We could plant a house
01:02:59.814 --> 01:03:01.213
We could build a tree
01:03:01.357 --> 01:03:02.710
I don't even care
01:03:02.859 --> 01:03:04.929
We could have all three,
she said
01:03:05.069 --> 01:03:06.093
99 X.
01:03:06.237 --> 01:03:08.182
That Nirvana stuff you
played last night?
01:03:08.323 --> 01:03:11.303
If I wanted to request one of their
songs now, could you play it?
01:03:11.451 --> 01:03:14.352
You don't have any bootleg
CDs of Nirvana?
01:03:14.496 --> 01:03:16.100
Could you play some Nirvana?
01:03:16.247 --> 01:03:18.602
Right here, a world premiere video
from Nirvana.
01:03:18.750 --> 01:03:19.944
Smells Like Teen Spirit.
01:03:21.920 --> 01:03:23.239
Even if you have
01:03:23.379 --> 01:03:24.732
Even if you need
01:03:24.881 --> 01:03:26.234
I don't mean to stare
01:03:26.382 --> 01:03:27.861
We don't have to breed
01:03:28.009 --> 01:03:29.203
What do we say?
01:03:29.344 --> 01:03:32.074
We're Nirvana and this
is The Week in Rock.
01:03:34.057 --> 01:03:36.753
Hey, all you people staying
up late on a Sunday night.
01:03:36.893 --> 01:03:38.793
Slack off!
You don't need your job.
01:03:38.937 --> 01:03:42.839
Don't say, "Yes, sir. Yes, ma'am. "
Say, "Cram it!"
01:03:42.982 --> 01:03:46.088
Don't show up tomorrow,
call in sick, cos this is Nirvana,
01:03:46.236 --> 01:03:48.557
- and you're watching...
- 120 Minutes.
01:03:48.696 --> 01:03:51.301
- On...
- MTTV.
01:04:02.877 --> 01:04:04.105
Even if you have
01:04:04.254 --> 01:04:05.573
Even if you need
01:04:05.713 --> 01:04:07.066
I don't mean to stare
01:04:07.215 --> 01:04:08.489
We don't have to breed
01:04:08.633 --> 01:04:09.986
We could plant a house
01:04:10.134 --> 01:04:11.453
We could build a tree
01:04:11.594 --> 01:04:12.913
I don't even care
01:04:13.054 --> 01:04:15.625
We could have all three,
she said
01:04:15.765 --> 01:04:19.997
She said
01:04:20.144 --> 01:04:23.250
The hottest new rock band in the country
right now may well be Nirvana.
01:04:23.398 --> 01:04:24.968
The hottest band
at the moment.
01:04:25.108 --> 01:04:27.258
The band it seems everybody's
talking about.
01:04:27.402 --> 01:04:30.348
People, like, really seem to be
getting into Nirvana right now.
01:04:30.488 --> 01:04:32.058
Do you see when you go out
and play shows
01:04:32.198 --> 01:04:33.927
that the crowds are
getting different?
01:04:34.075 --> 01:04:37.932
- Isn't it pretty overwhelming?
- Everybody wants to be hip.
01:04:38.079 --> 01:04:40.809
- And so that's what it is, then?
- Everyone wants to be accepted.
01:05:03.855 --> 01:05:06.551
Yeah?
OK. Cool.
01:05:06.691 --> 01:05:10.297
I've just heard that you've sold
600,000 albums in the United States.
01:05:10.445 --> 01:05:12.470
Does that make it platinum,
something like that?
01:05:12.614 --> 01:05:14.150
It makes it gold.
01:05:14.282 --> 01:05:17.137
It makes it a free gift to
my motherfor Christmas.
01:05:17.285 --> 01:05:18.934
- Exactly!
- Don't have to pay for a gift.
01:05:19.078 --> 01:05:22.229
What's Mom getting for Christmas?
I guess she's getting a gold record.
01:05:22.373 --> 01:05:24.728
Does that mean you guys
are, like, rich now?
01:05:24.876 --> 01:05:29.904
Hell, no! We're so far
from having any money.
01:05:30.048 --> 01:05:32.619
I mean, we get per diem, I guess.
01:05:32.759 --> 01:05:34.579
Do you care what critics think?
01:05:34.719 --> 01:05:37.244
I've never heard as many
sort of glowing criticism...
01:05:37.388 --> 01:05:40.585
- Oh, glowing!
- Does that make you feel good?
01:05:40.725 --> 01:05:44.582
Well, I mean, it's better than
being slammed, that's forsure.
01:05:44.729 --> 01:05:45.753
But, you know,
01:05:45.897 --> 01:05:49.424
if I was reading the same thing about
another band, I wouldn't believe it.
01:05:49.567 --> 01:05:50.591
No way.
01:05:50.735 --> 01:05:52.714
I'm not gonna believe
some journalist
01:05:53.512 --> 01:05:59.188
that's just spewing about some band
that he thinks changed his life or...
01:06:00.244 --> 01:06:01.893
You can't believe
everything you read.
01:06:02.038 --> 01:06:05.815
I mean, all you have to do is...
Music is a personal experience.
01:06:05.959 --> 01:06:09.656
You put the music on and
whatever you get out of it,
01:06:09.796 --> 01:06:11.115
you know, if it's good or bad.
01:06:11.255 --> 01:06:14.611
If it's bad, you don't like it,
you just walk away from it, you know.
01:06:14.759 --> 01:06:17.034
And if it's good,
it works for you...
01:06:17.720 --> 01:06:20.700
- You know this lighter...
- What the hell.
01:06:26.854 --> 01:06:29.379
There are probably a lot of kids
who hear your songs
01:06:29.524 --> 01:06:32.755
and actually feel, like, kinship,
01:06:32.902 --> 01:06:36.053
whether you're having trouble
with parents or with school
01:06:36.197 --> 01:06:39.644
or, you know, the usual
dysfunctional stuff that happens.
01:06:39.784 --> 01:06:41.012
But when you're up there,
01:06:41.160 --> 01:06:43.811
do you have any sense
of who you're playing to?
01:06:43.955 --> 01:06:46.526
I'm playing to kids in general.
01:06:46.666 --> 01:06:49.738
I mean, it doesn't matter
where they come from.
01:06:49.877 --> 01:06:51.526
We have the same problems
01:06:51.671 --> 01:06:54.777
and we all basically have the
same thoughts, you know?
01:07:09.939 --> 01:07:13.386
One baby to another says
01:07:13.526 --> 01:07:17.110
I'm lucky to have met you
01:07:17.238 --> 01:07:19.968
I don't care what you think
01:07:20.116 --> 01:07:23.017
Unless it is about me
01:07:24.078 --> 01:07:29.835
It is now my duty to
completely drain you
01:07:31.066 --> 01:07:33.823
I travel through a tube
01:07:33.963 --> 01:07:36.739
And end up in your infection
01:07:39.302 --> 01:07:42.078
Chew your meat for you
01:07:42.221 --> 01:07:45.497
Pass it back and forth
01:07:45.641 --> 01:07:48.997
In a passionate kiss
01:07:49.145 --> 01:07:51.796
From my mouth to yours
01:07:51.939 --> 01:07:54.134
I like you
01:07:54.275 --> 01:07:57.301
You guys don't like explaining
anything to do with your music.
01:07:57.445 --> 01:07:59.595
What's the problem with
going on camera and just...
01:07:59.739 --> 01:08:02.139
There's nothing to be said.
It's all in the music, man.
01:08:02.283 --> 01:08:04.387
It's all in the music.
It's all in the meat!
01:08:04.535 --> 01:08:06.810
You don't think that people
that are fans of you
01:08:06.954 --> 01:08:10.151
would like to hear what you had
in mind, maybe? Or what you were...
01:08:10.291 --> 01:08:13.021
I'd rather hear what they
have in mind, you know?
01:08:13.169 --> 01:08:14.864
Like, how they interpret it.
01:08:18.841 --> 01:08:21.036
In Teen Spirit,
you seem to complain
01:08:21.177 --> 01:08:23.077
about the apathy
of our generation.
01:08:23.221 --> 01:08:25.997
And do you share this lack
of engagement yourself?
01:08:26.140 --> 01:08:28.415
- What, being apathetic?
- Yeah.
01:08:28.559 --> 01:08:31.414
- Sure.
- Why?
01:08:31.562 --> 01:08:35.510
Why?
Because we sleep too much.
01:08:39.487 --> 01:08:43.309
- I mean, just say it.
- Just read it.
01:08:43.908 --> 01:08:46.103
Hello!
Stay tuned for more...
01:08:46.244 --> 01:08:51.477
...ew, Nirvana on ABC in concert!
01:08:51.624 --> 01:08:53.273
- You want to do more?
- One more?
01:08:53.417 --> 01:08:54.566
Yeah, do one more.
01:09:01.676 --> 01:09:04.577
With eyes so dilated
01:09:04.720 --> 01:09:07.416
I've become your pupil
01:09:08.683 --> 01:09:11.789
You've taught me everything
01:09:11.936 --> 01:09:15.667
Probably the biggest band in the world
right now, please welcome Nirvana!
01:09:15.815 --> 01:09:17.214
Nirvana are real.
01:09:17.358 --> 01:09:20.088
There's nothing pretentious about
them or anything like that.
01:09:20.236 --> 01:09:23.387
They're world famous, you know.
Everyone wants to see Nirvana.
01:09:23.531 --> 01:09:25.806
Kurt Cobain, he's so beautiful!
01:09:26.742 --> 01:09:30.064
Sloppy lips to lips
01:09:30.204 --> 01:09:32.775
You're my vitamins
01:09:32.915 --> 01:09:36.191
I like you
01:09:39.172 --> 01:09:41.652
Interviews are worthless.
Let's go!
01:09:41.799 --> 01:09:44.871
- What do you think about interviews?
- What do I think?
01:09:45.011 --> 01:09:47.616
Did you hear my reaction when
he asked me if I wanted to do one?
01:09:47.763 --> 01:09:50.709
- Yes.
- I said, "no. "
01:10:04.238 --> 01:10:06.092
I'm a hardcore Nirvana fan myself.
01:10:06.240 --> 01:10:08.970
Yeah? Is this a disease you've
had long? Any cure for it?
01:10:09.118 --> 01:10:10.972
He's talking from his experiences.
01:10:11.120 --> 01:10:12.815
He's talking from his experience?
01:10:12.955 --> 01:10:15.560
- Well, he's got lousy experience, sir.
- It was not his goal
01:10:15.708 --> 01:10:18.859
to make millions of dollars when he made
the stuff. He's writing about his life.
01:10:19.003 --> 01:10:21.574
Well, his life needs to see
a therapist or a minister,
01:10:21.714 --> 01:10:24.114
and it doesn't need to be
on millions of CDs
01:10:24.258 --> 01:10:26.112
for kids to listen to
and identify with
01:10:26.260 --> 01:10:29.366
and have more of their despair
and their hopelessness emphasised
01:10:29.513 --> 01:10:31.367
by the tragedy of
this man's life.
01:11:20.690 --> 01:11:23.261
I guess each individual
is gonna deal with it
01:11:23.401 --> 01:11:26.381
the way they're gonna deal with it.
I get, you know...
01:11:26.529 --> 01:11:29.180
It was kind of traumatic to
be famous all of a sudden,
01:11:29.323 --> 01:11:31.928
especially coming from
this complete obscurity
01:11:32.076 --> 01:11:34.601
and just being the, like,
number-one band in the world.
01:11:34.745 --> 01:11:37.896
So I do things like withdraw,
drink, you know.
01:11:38.040 --> 01:11:43.160
I'm lucky. I had beer and wine,
you know. Kurt had heroin.
01:11:47.008 --> 01:11:49.283
Given how volatile
and complicated
01:11:49.427 --> 01:11:52.248
things were for Kurt
around that time,
01:11:52.388 --> 01:11:57.337
why do you think he chose that moment
to start his relationship with Courtney?
01:11:59.270 --> 01:12:03.468
I went... I had this relationship
with this person, this woman.
01:12:03.607 --> 01:12:07.885
And I just kind of wanted to
build this home for myself,
01:12:08.029 --> 01:12:12.637
cos my home, growing up,
had fallen apart,
01:12:12.783 --> 01:12:14.102
so I wanted to build a home.
01:12:14.243 --> 01:12:17.440
And I think that Kurt
wanted to do that, too.
01:12:17.580 --> 01:12:22.062
He wanted to build a home because
his home and his family fell apart.
01:12:22.209 --> 01:12:26.737
So when Courtney came
into his life, they had...
01:12:26.881 --> 01:12:31.113
She was interesting,
she was artistic, intellectual.
01:12:31.260 --> 01:12:33.615
And, you know,
she did drugs, too.
01:12:33.763 --> 01:12:38.416
But that was all part of the
package of building a home.
01:12:41.645 --> 01:12:44.876
Check, check, check,
check, check, check, check.
01:12:45.024 --> 01:12:47.845
Let's watch theirsound check,
shall we?
01:12:47.985 --> 01:12:51.637
Maybe it'll bug them and
they'll play really bad.
01:12:54.075 --> 01:12:57.283
So you're having a relationship
with the guitar player?
01:12:58.038 --> 01:12:59.960
No?
01:13:00.289 --> 01:13:03.565
It was a short love affair?
01:13:03.709 --> 01:13:07.941
I don't know what it was.
Honestly.
01:13:08.089 --> 01:13:11.411
- It's over?
- I think, yeah.
01:13:11.550 --> 01:13:15.748
- What happened?
- I don't care.
01:13:22.561 --> 01:13:24.756
We're making a movie.
01:13:24.897 --> 01:13:27.422
- Did you curl your hair?
- You don't like it?
01:13:27.566 --> 01:13:29.136
It's nicer when it's straight
01:13:29.276 --> 01:13:31.255
because it doesn't make
your face look so round.
01:13:31.404 --> 01:13:33.178
Oh, my God!
01:13:34.115 --> 01:13:35.719
Hello?
01:13:35.866 --> 01:13:39.267
How is it on stage?
Is it clear on stage?
01:13:52.258 --> 01:13:55.659
Now, if she ever
comes down now
01:13:55.803 --> 01:13:57.782
If she ever comes down now
01:13:57.930 --> 01:14:00.581
If she ever comes now
01:14:00.724 --> 01:14:04.125
Now, if she ever
comes down now
01:14:04.270 --> 01:14:06.170
If she ever comes down now
01:14:06.313 --> 01:14:08.838
If she ever comes now
01:14:08.983 --> 01:14:12.931
Aah, she looks so good
01:14:13.070 --> 01:14:16.096
Aah, she's made
out of wood
01:14:16.240 --> 01:14:19.437
She says, "Oh"
01:14:38.554 --> 01:14:40.704
He was super cute,
01:14:40.848 --> 01:14:43.328
but he carried himself like
someone who didn't know that.
01:14:43.476 --> 01:14:44.829
And that was part
of the charm.
01:14:45.686 --> 01:14:49.838
He didn't know that he was a
better-looking guy than Brad Pitt.
01:14:49.982 --> 01:14:52.633
We got on like a house
on fuckin' fire.
01:14:52.776 --> 01:14:55.023
One caveat.
01:14:55.176 --> 01:15:00.207
I had already done heroin,
beat the thing, had a rule,
01:15:00.242 --> 01:15:03.743
I loved it still, but I didn't have
a fantasy that he had.
01:15:03.871 --> 01:15:05.850
He had a fantasy.
His fantasy was,
01:15:05.998 --> 01:15:09.445
"I'm gonna get to three million dollars,
then I'm gonna be a junkie. "
01:15:09.585 --> 01:15:12.156
That was his...
those are his words.
01:15:29.021 --> 01:15:31.876
Come as you are
01:15:32.024 --> 01:15:33.878
As you were
01:15:34.026 --> 01:15:37.382
As I want you to be
01:15:37.947 --> 01:15:41.895
As a friend
01:15:42.034 --> 01:15:45.856
As an old enemy
01:15:45.996 --> 01:15:49.727
Take your time, hurry up
01:15:49.875 --> 01:15:51.604
The choice is yours
01:15:51.752 --> 01:15:53.606
Don't be late
01:15:53.754 --> 01:15:57.076
There he is, he's against the wall.
Oh, my God!
01:15:57.216 --> 01:15:59.821
He's totally trapped back there.
01:16:02.638 --> 01:16:04.287
Is it fun to be famous?
01:16:04.431 --> 01:16:06.706
People who are really famous
01:16:06.850 --> 01:16:09.125
end up total recluses
01:16:09.270 --> 01:16:13.047
and they don't do anything.
That sucks.
01:16:13.941 --> 01:16:19.140
And I swear that
I don't have a gun
01:16:19.280 --> 01:16:22.567
No, I don't have a gun
01:16:22.939 --> 01:16:26.991
No, I don't have a gun
01:16:58.235 --> 01:17:00.526
Memoria
01:17:00.787 --> 01:17:04.212
Memoria
01:17:04.497 --> 01:17:07.908
Memoria
01:17:08.424 --> 01:17:12.068
Memoria
01:17:14.085 --> 01:17:19.780
And I swear that
I don't have a gun
01:17:19.923 --> 01:17:23.054
No, I don't have a gun
01:17:23.318 --> 01:17:26.913
No, I don't have a gun
01:17:27.292 --> 01:17:30.806
No, I don't have a gun
01:18:00.714 --> 01:18:03.444
The money,
the attention, the hype.
01:18:03.592 --> 01:18:05.412
Kurt Cobain,
an overnight spokesman
01:18:05.552 --> 01:18:07.031
for many disaffected
young people.
01:18:07.179 --> 01:18:09.124
A spokesman for a generation.
01:18:09.264 --> 01:18:11.960
To his generation, he's the closest
they have to John Lennon.
01:18:12.101 --> 01:18:16.208
The money, the attention,
the hype, the hysteria.
01:18:20.734 --> 01:18:24.932
It's not my fault.
I never wanted the fame.
01:19:33.766 --> 01:19:36.337
Seattle's own Nirvana
finds itself at the very top
01:19:36.477 --> 01:19:39.549
of Billboard's pop albums chart
with its album Nevermind,
01:19:39.688 --> 01:19:43.169
while guitarist Kurt Cobain just
got engaged to Courtney Love,
01:19:43.317 --> 01:19:45.888
front woman of an
LA band called Hole.
01:19:46.445 --> 01:19:47.924
According to Rolling Stone,
01:19:48.071 --> 01:19:51.598
Cobain fell ill with a stomach problem
during their tour of four continents
01:19:51.742 --> 01:19:54.017
and had to cancel a number
of dates in England.
01:19:54.161 --> 01:19:56.516
There's been speculation
of summer tour plans,
01:19:56.663 --> 01:19:59.609
but so far only the next
Reading Festival in August.
01:19:59.750 --> 01:20:02.230
Nirvana is now retreating
from doing interviews.
01:20:02.377 --> 01:20:04.277
Whether it's a reaction
to too much too soon,
01:20:04.421 --> 01:20:06.821
the band would rather
their music speak for itself
01:20:06.965 --> 01:20:09.286
than be knighted as spokesmen
for a generation.
01:20:11.345 --> 01:20:13.495
Right after you
guys got married,
01:20:13.639 --> 01:20:17.416
they were the biggest band in the world,
and Kurt decided to take six months off.
01:20:17.559 --> 01:20:21.916
So, officially, in the story
that's out in the world,
01:20:22.064 --> 01:20:25.044
he took six months off
of their touring schedule?
01:20:25.192 --> 01:20:28.047
He could've toured the world
and made a shitload of money.
01:20:28.195 --> 01:20:29.173
Oh, I see.
01:20:29.321 --> 01:20:32.347
It seemed he wanted to stay in an
apartment with you and do heroin.
01:20:32.491 --> 01:20:35.471
Yeah, he wanted to stay in an
apartment and do heroin and paint.
01:20:35.619 --> 01:20:38.645
And play his guitar.
That's what he wanted to do.
01:20:51.677 --> 01:20:53.281
Hi.
01:20:58.600 --> 01:21:00.079
Hi.
01:21:12.948 --> 01:21:15.803
This is our house.
This is where we live.
01:21:15.951 --> 01:21:18.772
I know it looks disgusting now,
but sometimes it's nice.
01:21:18.912 --> 01:21:22.018
I have to really clean it,
cos no one else fucking does.
01:21:22.165 --> 01:21:24.645
OK, this is the toilet.
01:21:24.793 --> 01:21:26.397
This is...
01:21:27.170 --> 01:21:28.865
- This is me.
- Courtney.
01:21:29.006 --> 01:21:31.986
- Hello?
- Do we have a turkey baster?
01:21:32.134 --> 01:21:35.160
What?
01:21:35.304 --> 01:21:39.377
Why do you think that everyone thinks
you're the good one and I'm the bad one?
01:21:39.516 --> 01:21:42.337
Because I know how
to use my illusion.
01:21:42.477 --> 01:21:44.957
Where are you going?
01:21:45.105 --> 01:21:51.010
I'm going into my living room!
I paid for this.
01:21:51.153 --> 01:21:52.882
Put on the dancing
merry chimp!
01:21:56.742 --> 01:22:01.020
So is this the living room that that guy
described in Rolling Stone magazine?
01:22:01.163 --> 01:22:05.771
Nothing but a Twin Reverb amp
and teddy bears to keep him company.
01:22:07.377 --> 01:22:09.356
- Where's Eric?
- The chimp.
01:22:11.465 --> 01:22:13.990
Hi, honey.
01:22:14.134 --> 01:22:16.329
- Hi.
- I love you, love.
01:22:16.470 --> 01:22:19.450
You are so cute.
Here, Eric, you film for a while.
01:22:20.599 --> 01:22:23.796
This is the Kurt Cobain
action figure.
01:22:24.728 --> 01:22:26.958
Secret coded message
in his guitar.
01:22:27.105 --> 01:22:30.381
Kurt, I think he looks remarkably
a lot like you. Look at that.
01:22:30.525 --> 01:22:32.220
I've had that since I was a child.
01:22:32.361 --> 01:22:36.969
And he's playing what looks
to be a sort of Mosrite-y, vintage...
01:22:37.115 --> 01:22:39.640
Come into the breakfast nook!
01:23:08.939 --> 01:23:11.510
- Are you filming us?
- Uh-huh.
01:23:12.818 --> 01:23:17.221
She gives me everything
01:23:18.198 --> 01:23:22.020
And tenderly
01:23:23.245 --> 01:23:27.477
The kiss my lover brings
01:23:28.083 --> 01:23:31.439
She brings to me
01:23:31.586 --> 01:23:34.987
And I love her
01:23:38.176 --> 01:23:42.624
Bright are the
stars that shine
01:23:43.181 --> 01:23:46.833
Dark is the sky
01:23:48.145 --> 01:23:52.377
I know this love of mine
01:23:53.108 --> 01:23:56.134
Will never die
01:23:56.278 --> 01:23:59.600
And I love her
01:24:03.243 --> 01:24:07.100
A love like ours
01:24:07.873 --> 01:24:11.650
Will never die
01:24:12.794 --> 01:24:15.299
As long as I
01:24:15.523 --> 01:24:19.383
Hold you near me
01:24:35.609 --> 01:24:37.463
Did you guys want
to have a baby?
01:24:37.611 --> 01:24:39.010
Oh, God, yes.
01:24:39.154 --> 01:24:43.386
Yes, we wanted to have a baby.
And I conceived Frances in December.
01:24:43.533 --> 01:24:46.058
So I was pregnant
when I got married, yes.
01:24:46.203 --> 01:24:47.227
We were all we had,
01:24:47.370 --> 01:24:52.854
so making a family as fast as possible
was, you know, important. You know?
01:24:53.001 --> 01:24:55.856
So, I mean, if I had
had more time,
01:24:56.004 --> 01:24:59.155
I'm telling you, I'd have
had more kids with him.
01:25:00.509 --> 01:25:02.784
Why do you feel so bad?
01:25:04.930 --> 01:25:06.750
- Why?
- Uh-huh.
01:25:07.849 --> 01:25:12.297
Because I want to.
It's my fault.
01:25:12.437 --> 01:25:16.510
- All my fault.
- You're beautiful.
01:25:16.650 --> 01:25:18.754
- I think you're really cute.
- Thank you.
01:25:18.902 --> 01:25:24.181
So do a lot of Sassy readers.
I married Bobby Sherman.
01:25:24.324 --> 01:25:26.098
Do you think they
do this to me?
01:25:26.243 --> 01:25:27.221
What?
01:25:27.369 --> 01:25:30.190
Do you think they do this to
me when they read Sassy?
01:25:32.624 --> 01:25:35.525
Girls don't masturbate
over their teen idols.
01:25:35.669 --> 01:25:36.647
They don't?
01:25:36.795 --> 01:25:39.821
No. They make up more intricate,
schematic plans.
01:25:39.965 --> 01:25:42.195
Girls are a lot more
complex than boys.
01:25:42.342 --> 01:25:44.116
You don't know what
girls do to each other.
01:25:44.261 --> 01:25:46.115
- Yes, I do.
- No, you don't.
01:25:46.263 --> 01:25:47.241
They're vicious.
01:25:47.389 --> 01:25:49.619
It's, like, you can know about
crafty girls all you want,
01:25:49.766 --> 01:25:53.042
but I wouldn't let you go
on tour with crafty girls
01:25:53.186 --> 01:25:55.666
because fucking doesn't
fucking matter, man.
01:25:55.814 --> 01:25:57.634
They...
They...
01:26:00.318 --> 01:26:04.266
They diss me.
They diss me all the time.
01:26:04.406 --> 01:26:08.012
I'd be fat. I can't... I know,
it's not even like I can't trust you.
01:26:08.160 --> 01:26:10.060
It's just you can't trust men
in general,
01:26:10.203 --> 01:26:13.684
even, even if they're new men
and they're you.
01:26:13.832 --> 01:26:18.531
Even if they're like you,
you still can't trust them.
01:26:18.670 --> 01:26:21.616
I understand what you're
trying to say, but I don't agree.
01:26:21.756 --> 01:26:26.830
I'm a new man. I'm a man for the '90s.
I'm Ward Cleaver.
01:26:26.970 --> 01:26:29.541
And then, you being you,
you'd be all sensitive,
01:26:29.681 --> 01:26:33.412
and you'd go, "How are we
gonna tell Courtney?"
01:26:33.560 --> 01:26:35.755
Meanwhile, I've ruined my career,
ruined my life,
01:26:35.896 --> 01:26:37.466
become the most hated woman
in America.
01:26:37.606 --> 01:26:39.631
You were already the most
hated woman in America.
01:26:39.774 --> 01:26:40.923
What?
01:26:41.067 --> 01:26:44.093
You and Roseanne Barr tied for being
the most hated woman in America.
01:26:44.237 --> 01:26:45.716
OK, I married Bobby Sherman,
01:26:45.864 --> 01:26:48.389
I'm the most hated woman,
ruined my body,
01:26:48.533 --> 01:26:53.015
not played the Reading Festival this
year when I could've kicked your ass.
01:26:53.163 --> 01:26:55.267
You should still play
the Reading Festival.
01:26:55.415 --> 01:26:57.861
Oh, yeah. So I should just play
the Reading Festival.
01:26:58.001 --> 01:27:00.026
- Dive into the crowd.
- Right, that's right.
01:27:00.170 --> 01:27:03.992
Shoot off a gun,
light yourself on fire.
01:27:04.132 --> 01:27:09.661
Everyone wants to see this.
And this is only half of it.
01:27:09.804 --> 01:27:13.501
- The rest is yet to come.
- Look. Moustache!
01:27:13.642 --> 01:27:15.587
I kind of like that.
01:27:16.269 --> 01:27:18.749
Free moustache rides!
01:27:19.606 --> 01:27:22.052
It's a womb broom.
01:27:22.192 --> 01:27:25.172
- Keep it, please!
- OK!
01:27:25.320 --> 01:27:27.174
- Just keep it for the night.
- No way!
01:27:27.322 --> 01:27:29.973
Please, Kurt, you need...
This is the...
01:27:30.116 --> 01:27:35.645
Outshined, outshined,
outshined!
01:27:35.789 --> 01:27:37.233
This is the look of Aberdeen.
01:27:37.374 --> 01:27:39.695
Come on, look at the camera!
01:27:41.002 --> 01:27:43.903
I was in Vietnam,
you weren't in Vietnam.
01:27:44.047 --> 01:27:46.151
I was in Vietnam!
01:27:46.299 --> 01:27:48.950
Look at my large breasts.
01:27:49.594 --> 01:27:51.198
"Dearest Sassy,
01:27:51.346 --> 01:27:55.419
and whoever else is responsible for
the Kurt Cobain-Courtney pig story. "
01:27:55.558 --> 01:27:59.881
"Your story in April's Sassy about
Kurt Cobain and that Courtney hag
01:28:00.021 --> 01:28:01.625
truly made me want to vomit. "
01:28:01.773 --> 01:28:04.799
"First of all, what could have been
a beautiful interview experience
01:28:04.943 --> 01:28:07.389
with Kurt Cobain,
the god of love in human form,
01:28:07.529 --> 01:28:11.761
was totally ruined by nasty old dirty
Ms Love running her big fat mouth. "
01:28:11.908 --> 01:28:13.808
"Who cares about her
stupid Victorian house
01:28:13.952 --> 01:28:17.308
or her sucky band or how she
was so obnoxious and pushy
01:28:17.455 --> 01:28:19.980
that she scared poor Kurt
into going out with her?"
01:28:20.125 --> 01:28:23.105
"Secondly, you guys are supposed
to be understanding and all that,
01:28:23.253 --> 01:28:25.574
so what possessed you to be
so insensitive to those of us
01:28:25.714 --> 01:28:27.818
who would lick the ground
Kurt Cobain walked on?"
01:28:27.966 --> 01:28:30.070
"You could have just mentioned
the vile Courtney,
01:28:30.218 --> 01:28:33.415
but oh no, you went so far as to
show her kissing Kurt. Blech!"
01:28:33.555 --> 01:28:36.410
"I will never forgive you.
Never, never, never!"
01:28:36.558 --> 01:28:41.291
"Sincerely disillusioned with life,
Stacy, the Kurt slave. "
01:28:41.438 --> 01:28:43.417
And there's a little happy
face on the bottom.
01:28:43.565 --> 01:28:46.545
"Happy face. This is not currently me,
thanks to you. "
01:28:47.152 --> 01:28:52.761
Why don't you interview us?
"Kurt and Courtney: Sassy II. "
01:28:54.159 --> 01:28:57.606
How does it feel to be fast?
01:28:57.746 --> 01:29:00.067
Like, in the fast lane?
01:29:02.125 --> 01:29:06.607
At the height of
their drug abuse...
01:29:06.755 --> 01:29:08.700
Damn, if I wasn't
so needle sick,
01:29:08.840 --> 01:29:11.946
I'd be on tour with
Guns N' Roses right now.
01:29:14.471 --> 01:29:17.827
Me and Axl would be whooping it up,
snake dancing across speakers.
01:29:17.974 --> 01:29:22.422
Snake dancing across the stage
together singing Nazareth songs.
01:29:22.562 --> 01:29:25.668
But I'm too goddamn
needle sick, man.
01:29:25.815 --> 01:29:27.919
Are you fucked up, baby?
01:29:33.114 --> 01:29:36.561
You will see, you and me
01:29:36.701 --> 01:29:40.228
Kurt, please, be with me
01:29:44.151 --> 01:29:47.483
I want to be
your girlfriend
01:29:47.629 --> 01:29:50.876
Let me just be
your girlfriend
01:29:51.053 --> 01:29:54.244
Let me just be
your girlfriend
01:29:54.279 --> 01:29:57.704
Well, I put it in my ass
and it kind of was painful
01:29:57.847 --> 01:30:01.499
Well, I put it in my anus
and that was heinous
01:30:01.643 --> 01:30:04.464
I put it in my anus
and it kind of was heinous
01:30:04.604 --> 01:30:08.301
But I put it in my belly
and it kind of was smelly
01:30:08.441 --> 01:30:11.717
And I want to be
your girlfriend
01:30:11.861 --> 01:30:15.183
I want to be your girlfriend
01:30:15.323 --> 01:30:18.554
I want to ride your
bratmobile, baby
01:30:18.701 --> 01:30:21.852
I want to know how
you really feel, yeah
01:30:21.996 --> 01:30:24.772
I want to ride in
your bratmobile
01:30:24.916 --> 01:30:28.272
I want to shoot up
in your bratmobile
01:30:28.420 --> 01:30:32.527
Cos put it in my butt
and we're having sex, but...
01:30:32.674 --> 01:30:36.747
I did do heroin when I was
pregnant, and then I stopped.
01:30:36.886 --> 01:30:39.332
And I knew she would be fine.
01:30:39.472 --> 01:30:40.951
Come on!
01:30:41.099 --> 01:30:44.546
So, he was never concerned
that our child would have...
01:30:44.686 --> 01:30:47.507
I assured him that I
was built like an oxen
01:30:47.647 --> 01:30:51.378
and could carry this pregnancy to
term and not have any problems.
01:30:51.526 --> 01:30:53.756
But, you know,
I was a young woman.
01:30:53.903 --> 01:30:56.133
The pregnancy isn't the problem.
01:30:56.281 --> 01:31:01.514
It's the being around a junkie while
I'm pregnant when I'm a junkie, too,
01:31:01.661 --> 01:31:03.561
and I know the minute
that baby's out,
01:31:03.705 --> 01:31:07.106
I'm gonna go shoot up
in celebratory fashion.
01:31:07.250 --> 01:31:09.730
You know what I mean?
Like, that was our lifestyle.
01:31:19.429 --> 01:31:21.499
Ten wars ago,
01:31:21.639 --> 01:31:24.039
the sea monkeys were present.
01:31:24.184 --> 01:31:27.460
The sea monkeys were hatched
and it begins,
01:31:27.604 --> 01:31:30.209
and he said,
"You little girl. "
01:31:30.815 --> 01:31:32.259
They found the little girl
01:31:32.400 --> 01:31:36.552
stewing under his yellow
cigarette-stained fingernails.
01:31:38.865 --> 01:31:43.347
And if you say your prayers
01:31:43.495 --> 01:31:47.943
You will make God happy
01:31:48.082 --> 01:31:52.439
And if you do what's true
01:31:52.587 --> 01:31:57.160
You will make me happy
01:31:57.300 --> 01:32:01.703
I'll keep you in a jar
01:32:01.846 --> 01:32:06.294
And you will seem happy
01:32:06.434 --> 01:32:10.837
I'll give you breathing holes
01:32:10.980 --> 01:32:16.634
You will think
you're happy now
01:34:25.823 --> 01:34:28.644
Does that get to you,
to read things, like, you know,
01:34:28.785 --> 01:34:31.765
you're dying of smack addiction
or shit like that?
01:34:31.913 --> 01:34:33.983
Yeah, it makes you feel
like the kid in school
01:34:34.123 --> 01:34:36.068
who gets picked
on all the time.
01:34:36.209 --> 01:34:39.281
Or it makes you feel
like the school slut.
01:34:39.420 --> 01:34:41.775
Party on, Wayne.
01:34:42.799 --> 01:34:44.448
I feel like people
want me to die
01:34:44.592 --> 01:34:47.413
because it'd be the classic
rock and roll story.
01:35:13.913 --> 01:35:16.484
I would like to officially
and publicly announce
01:35:16.624 --> 01:35:18.694
that this is our last show.
01:35:19.669 --> 01:35:23.025
There's been some pretty extreme
things written about us,
01:35:23.172 --> 01:35:27.575
especially my wife, and she thinks
everybody hates her now.
01:35:27.719 --> 01:35:32.622
So why don't you give her a message
and say, "Courtney, we love you"?
01:35:32.765 --> 01:35:36.792
OK? Ready?
On the count of three.
01:35:36.936 --> 01:35:38.836
One, two, three...
01:35:38.980 --> 01:35:42.086
Courtney, we love you!
01:35:42.233 --> 01:35:43.586
Thanks.
01:35:57.707 --> 01:36:02.656
When I was an alien
01:36:02.795 --> 01:36:07.619
Cultures weren't opinions
01:36:07.759 --> 01:36:12.742
Gotta find a way,
a better way, when I'm there
01:36:12.889 --> 01:36:17.622
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
01:36:17.769 --> 01:36:22.672
Gotta find a way, a better way,
when I'm there
01:36:22.815 --> 01:36:26.888
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
01:36:37.955 --> 01:36:42.813
#Just because you're paranoid
01:36:42.960 --> 01:36:48.080
#Don't mean they're
not after you
01:36:48.216 --> 01:36:52.604
Gotta find a way, a better way,
when I'm there
01:36:53.108 --> 01:36:58.011
Gotta find a way, a better way,
when I'm there
01:36:58.046 --> 01:37:02.813
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
01:37:03.045 --> 01:37:08.092
Gotta find a way, a better way,
a better way
01:38:29.734 --> 01:38:31.679
Hi.
01:38:31.819 --> 01:38:35.175
Hi.
How you doing?
01:38:36.657 --> 01:38:38.193
Are you getting suspicious
01:38:38.326 --> 01:38:41.181
with this weird electronic device
in your face?
01:38:41.329 --> 01:38:46.232
Staring right at it. Wait,
what do you see in there? Nothing.
01:38:46.709 --> 01:38:51.658
Would you show your butt for the cam...?
Oh, a little wet, OK. A little pee.
01:38:51.797 --> 01:38:54.743
That is most definitely amphibian.
01:38:55.801 --> 01:38:57.120
Don't look at me.
Don't...
01:38:57.261 --> 01:38:59.331
Frances, this is your real problem.
01:38:59.472 --> 01:39:01.497
Everywhere Daddy looks,
you won't look.
01:39:01.641 --> 01:39:04.747
- Hi, hi.
- Look at Dad.
01:39:22.954 --> 01:39:27.027
This is the happiest baby I've
ever seen. Don't you think?
01:39:27.166 --> 01:39:31.739
No! No, she's got lots of
things in store for her.
01:39:31.879 --> 01:39:34.700
You want to be a star
for a while and I'll film?
01:39:34.840 --> 01:39:36.068
You want to be the star?
01:39:41.138 --> 01:39:43.959
Fly.
Want to fly?
01:39:44.100 --> 01:39:47.126
Fly?
01:39:48.479 --> 01:39:49.832
Nose.
01:39:50.773 --> 01:39:52.343
Tastes good?
01:39:57.863 --> 01:40:01.594
Want to barf in my mouth again?
Three times is the charm.
01:40:03.160 --> 01:40:05.390
- Are you getting all this?
- Yes!
01:40:05.538 --> 01:40:08.109
- Aren't we lucky?
- I know.
01:40:46.245 --> 01:40:48.816
Are you worried about
the kind of mistakes
01:40:48.956 --> 01:40:51.436
that might have been made
when you were growing up
01:40:51.584 --> 01:40:55.566
that sort of impacts on how
you deal with her situation?
01:40:55.713 --> 01:41:00.741
No. My father and I are
completely different people.
01:41:00.885 --> 01:41:06.369
I know that I'm capable of showing
a lot more affection than my dad was.
01:41:06.515 --> 01:41:09.837
I mean, even if Courtney
and I were to get a divorce,
01:41:09.977 --> 01:41:13.629
I would never allow us
to be in a situation
01:41:13.773 --> 01:41:18.051
where there are bad vibes
between us in front of her.
01:41:18.194 --> 01:41:20.264
If there's anything
we're determined to do,
01:41:20.404 --> 01:41:23.384
it's to give Frances
as much love as we can.
01:41:23.532 --> 01:41:29.311
I mean, if anything is going to stop me
from pursuing this rock and roll thing,
01:41:29.455 --> 01:41:30.774
it's going to be her
01:41:30.915 --> 01:41:34.737
because I don't want her to
be screwed up because of it.
01:41:35.836 --> 01:41:38.191
I don't know what's going to
happen in the next few years.
01:41:38.339 --> 01:41:39.738
It's kind of scary.
01:41:52.937 --> 01:41:56.009
- I dropped it.
- Mommy's loud.
01:41:56.148 --> 01:41:59.345
I'm loud.
Oh, who's a big crybaby?
01:41:59.485 --> 01:42:02.761
Oh, look at that.
She's... She's kind of upset!
01:42:02.905 --> 01:42:06.557
OK, let's get her naked.
That's what I want. I want you naked.
01:42:06.700 --> 01:42:10.022
Nirvana, who the fuck
do you think you are?
01:42:10.162 --> 01:42:12.232
- Ew!
- Seeing your interviews
01:42:12.373 --> 01:42:17.401
makes me think you guys are the most
immature pieces of trash ever made.
01:42:17.545 --> 01:42:19.445
If you assholes could
ever write anything
01:42:19.588 --> 01:42:22.864
that could come close to anything
Guns N' Roses has written,
01:42:23.008 --> 01:42:24.282
maybe you could talk.
01:42:24.426 --> 01:42:27.827
But until you sell a few
billion more albums,
01:42:27.972 --> 01:42:30.668
take your head out of your
asses and smell the air.
01:42:30.808 --> 01:42:33.288
It smells like Guns N' Roses.
01:42:33.435 --> 01:42:37.462
Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.
01:42:37.606 --> 01:42:39.801
OK, enough of cute voices.
01:42:39.942 --> 01:42:42.012
Leave me alone,
I have to read this now.
01:42:42.153 --> 01:42:44.178
Especially you!
Don't look at me.
01:42:44.321 --> 01:42:47.142
Don't look at me.
Hey, yeah.
01:43:07.636 --> 01:43:11.288
In an isolation tank
01:43:11.432 --> 01:43:16.005
on 50 hits of Demerol,
01:43:16.145 --> 01:43:18.340
as New Age music
01:43:18.480 --> 01:43:23.088
poisons the scarce, humid air.
01:43:56.727 --> 01:44:00.254
Tonight from Hollywood,
we bring you a most unusual broadcast,
01:44:00.397 --> 01:44:01.796
starring a famous radio couple
01:44:01.941 --> 01:44:05.092
who have never before appeared
in a story of this kind.
01:44:32.554 --> 01:44:35.375
This is Kurt Cobain.
01:44:35.516 --> 01:44:38.041
I have a lot of things
to say to you.
01:44:38.185 --> 01:44:41.006
A lot of fucking things
to say to you.
01:44:41.146 --> 01:44:44.218
You parasitic little
fucking cunt.
01:44:44.358 --> 01:44:46.804
You're not writing
about my band.
01:44:46.944 --> 01:44:51.677
You're writing about how
jealous you are of my wife.
01:44:51.824 --> 01:44:56.272
You have absolutely no fucking
idea what you're doing.
01:44:56.412 --> 01:44:58.812
You will find out.
01:44:58.956 --> 01:45:04.440
I don't care if this is a recorded threat.
I'm at the end of my rope.
01:45:04.586 --> 01:45:07.237
I've never been more
fucking serious in my life.
01:46:56.323 --> 01:46:59.850
Everything we do to develop
personal courage, confidence,
01:46:59.993 --> 01:47:02.018
and belief in our own abilities.
01:47:02.162 --> 01:47:04.232
Make your determination
so strong
01:47:04.373 --> 01:47:07.399
that it will eliminate any
situation or circumstance
01:47:07.543 --> 01:47:09.989
which stands in the
way of your goal.
01:47:10.838 --> 01:47:12.817
Check, check, check, check, check.
01:48:13.275 --> 01:48:15.755
This looks just like
the Metallica video.
01:48:15.903 --> 01:48:18.383
This is part of your
rockumentary.
01:48:18.530 --> 01:48:19.974
I think this album is a...
01:48:20.115 --> 01:48:22.811
It really expresses
the way we feel inside.
01:48:22.951 --> 01:48:24.976
You can't just do what
you do on stage.
01:48:25.120 --> 01:48:27.099
You can't.
You're making an album.
01:48:38.175 --> 01:48:40.951
Frances!
Frances, Frances, Frances!
01:48:41.845 --> 01:48:43.198
Ah!
01:48:45.682 --> 01:48:47.456
OK, OK.
01:48:47.601 --> 01:48:50.456
I have to... They're calling me.
I have to work now. Take care, baby.
01:48:50.604 --> 01:48:53.926
Well, rock on!
Daddy's got to go rock!
01:49:06.119 --> 01:49:09.816
Teenage angst
has paid off well
01:49:09.957 --> 01:49:14.030
Now I'm bored and old
01:49:14.169 --> 01:49:17.866
Self-appointed judges judge
01:49:18.006 --> 01:49:20.611
More than they
have sold
01:49:22.135 --> 01:49:25.992
If she floats
then she is not
01:49:26.139 --> 01:49:30.041
A witch like we
had thought
01:49:30.185 --> 01:49:33.712
A down payment on another
01:49:33.855 --> 01:49:38.258
One at Salem's Lot
01:49:38.402 --> 01:49:41.428
You said before, let's make a record
to lose most of your audience.
01:49:41.572 --> 01:49:43.802
I was in the beginning,
about a year and a half ago.
01:49:43.949 --> 01:49:45.723
I was completely fed up
with the whole thing.
01:49:45.867 --> 01:49:48.017
I didn't want to be
a rock star at all.
01:49:48.161 --> 01:49:50.641
It was just...
It was freaking me out, you know?
01:49:50.789 --> 01:49:54.373
But I've had two years
to recuperate.
01:49:55.043 --> 01:50:00.401
That legendary divorce
is such a bore
01:50:02.467 --> 01:50:05.914
As my bones grew
they did hurt
01:50:06.054 --> 01:50:08.705
They hurt really bad
01:50:09.600 --> 01:50:12.956
I tried hard to have a father
01:50:13.103 --> 01:50:16.834
But instead I had a dad
01:50:16.982 --> 01:50:20.383
I just want you to know that I
01:50:20.527 --> 01:50:24.111
Don't hate you any more
01:50:24.239 --> 01:50:27.686
There is nothing I could say
01:50:27.826 --> 01:50:31.227
That I haven't thought before
01:50:32.421 --> 01:50:35.870
Serve the servants, oh no
01:50:36.112 --> 01:50:39.834
Serve the servants, oh no
01:50:39.918 --> 01:50:42.621
Serve the servants
01:50:42.771 --> 01:50:48.492
That legendary divorce
is such a bore
01:50:57.939 --> 01:50:59.588
Nirvana's third album,
In Utero,
01:50:59.733 --> 01:51:01.507
a record with a decidedly
hard-edged sound,
01:51:01.652 --> 01:51:03.802
courtesy of maverick producer,
Steve Albini,
01:51:03.945 --> 01:51:07.176
will make its debut at number one
on Monday's new Billboard pop chart.
01:51:07.741 --> 01:51:11.063
Nirvana will be starting a US tour
at the Arizona State Fair.
01:51:23.465 --> 01:51:27.492
Happy birthday to you
01:51:27.636 --> 01:51:32.335
Happy birthday, dear Frances
01:51:32.474 --> 01:51:36.672
Happy birthday to you
01:51:38.021 --> 01:51:42.253
You're one!
You're one! One year old!
01:51:43.485 --> 01:51:45.931
- OK, what's this?
- We got something to do.
01:51:46.071 --> 01:51:50.053
This is great!
Alright!
01:51:50.200 --> 01:51:53.397
Kurt! You can't leave!
Come back!
01:51:55.372 --> 01:51:57.397
Would you like some cake?
01:51:58.792 --> 01:52:01.113
I'm not opening this
till you come back.
01:52:08.593 --> 01:52:11.949
- Kurt?
- I'm bored.
01:52:12.097 --> 01:52:15.578
Kurt?
It's Frances's first haircut.
01:52:15.726 --> 01:52:19.173
Alright, I'm going to take the
chair out. Put her on the throne.
01:52:19.312 --> 01:52:20.631
Let me do that.
01:52:20.772 --> 01:52:22.421
Should I do it right here?
01:52:23.650 --> 01:52:26.596
Kurt? Sit her on the throne.
Where's the scissors? You got 'em?
01:52:26.737 --> 01:52:29.183
- Somebody's gotta hold her.
- I can do it.
01:52:29.322 --> 01:52:31.643
No, I'm doing the haircut.
Yes, I am!
01:52:31.783 --> 01:52:33.262
You aren't very
still with her.
01:52:33.410 --> 01:52:35.389
Yes, I am.
I'm doing the haircut.
01:52:38.248 --> 01:52:40.227
I don't really talk, just...
01:52:40.375 --> 01:52:42.104
Jesus Christ.
01:52:42.711 --> 01:52:44.565
- OK.
- You are such a good baby.
01:52:44.713 --> 01:52:46.487
Shall I go down
and get a bowl?
01:52:46.631 --> 01:52:50.328
Will you try and find the
classical station on there?
01:52:50.469 --> 01:52:52.790
This is your Cartier comb.
01:52:52.929 --> 01:52:55.705
That's right.
01:53:02.731 --> 01:53:05.757
You haven't been eating a lot.
You don't feel like a bloated child.
01:53:05.901 --> 01:53:08.927
Yeah, you gotta force
her to eat lately.
01:53:09.070 --> 01:53:10.514
She's been sick.
01:53:10.655 --> 01:53:12.976
Well, you really have
to force her to eat.
01:53:13.116 --> 01:53:14.652
She's not...
She's not motivated.
01:53:14.785 --> 01:53:17.891
We don't have any milk
in the house either.
01:53:18.038 --> 01:53:21.144
I'm tired of telling everyone.
01:53:24.044 --> 01:53:25.397
It's, like, a big deal.
01:53:25.545 --> 01:53:29.367
I'm so tired.
Can't keep my eyes open.
01:53:29.508 --> 01:53:30.577
Stop it!
01:53:30.717 --> 01:53:34.369
Kurt, you don't want our daughter
to see you behaving like this, on drugs.
01:53:34.513 --> 01:53:38.836
- I'm not on drugs! I'm tired!
- Do you have more teeth?
01:53:44.272 --> 01:53:47.002
See? See?
Wife beating.
01:53:48.026 --> 01:53:49.675
Here we go.
01:53:54.991 --> 01:53:58.313
Oh, my pretty girly locks!
01:53:58.453 --> 01:54:01.433
You look so gorgeous.
You won't be able to believe it.
01:54:01.581 --> 01:54:06.154
You won't be able
to believe it.
01:54:06.294 --> 01:54:10.025
Amazing grace!
01:54:10.173 --> 01:54:14.826
How sweet the sound
01:54:14.970 --> 01:54:19.683
That saved a wretch...
01:54:19.903 --> 01:54:24.456
like me
01:54:25.355 --> 01:54:30.752
I once was lost
01:54:31.611 --> 01:54:37.186
But now am found
01:54:37.325 --> 01:54:39.850
Was blind
01:54:39.995 --> 01:54:45.900
But now I see
01:54:51.548 --> 01:54:55.996
It just...
Every week, it got worse.
01:54:56.136 --> 01:55:00.209
And sometimes he would come home,
I think, to hide.
01:55:00.348 --> 01:55:01.884
And it was really bad.
01:55:02.017 --> 01:55:07.876
He started getting sores and he was
losing weight and nodding out and...
01:55:09.065 --> 01:55:11.841
I was pretty sure
he knew I knew,
01:55:11.985 --> 01:55:16.137
but I decided one time
to just confront him.
01:55:16.281 --> 01:55:19.307
And so I went up
to his bedroom,
01:55:19.451 --> 01:55:21.430
and he was sitting
on the side of the bed.
01:55:21.578 --> 01:55:24.399
And he was crying because
I had just arrived,
01:55:24.539 --> 01:55:28.316
and he knew it was
breaking my heart.
01:55:29.586 --> 01:55:31.235
But I...
And I talked to him about it
01:55:31.379 --> 01:55:34.701
and everything that I had
learned about heroin.
01:55:34.841 --> 01:55:36.911
And I asked him if
he was at the stage
01:55:37.052 --> 01:55:40.533
where he was addicted
to also the needle prick.
01:55:40.680 --> 01:55:43.285
And he burst into tears.
01:55:45.226 --> 01:55:47.501
And he...
he was just ashamed.
01:56:15.757 --> 01:56:19.534
One of the songs that actually,
I really liked on In Utero,
01:56:19.678 --> 01:56:23.910
but which you took off,
was I Hate Myself and Want to Die.
01:56:24.057 --> 01:56:27.413
How literal is that song
in terms of the title?
01:56:27.560 --> 01:56:31.087
As literal as a joke can be,
I mean...
01:56:31.231 --> 01:56:32.926
Nothing more than a joke.
01:56:33.066 --> 01:56:35.296
What kind of... who were you
playing the joke on?
01:56:35.443 --> 01:56:38.048
Cos I have to admit,
my first reaction was, you know,
01:56:38.196 --> 01:56:40.767
either this is really
intensely satirical
01:56:40.907 --> 01:56:43.853
or there's some really
dark shit happening here.
01:57:09.978 --> 01:57:13.254
I'm really thankful
for a lot of things.
01:57:13.398 --> 01:57:16.253
My family, my child,
01:57:16.985 --> 01:57:22.719
and every month, I come to
more optimistic conclusions.
01:57:22.866 --> 01:57:26.063
Do you find that you're
getting happier in general?
01:57:27.704 --> 01:57:30.400
I hope I don't become
so blissful that I lose...
01:57:30.540 --> 01:57:31.893
Become boring?
01:57:32.042 --> 01:57:37.275
Yeah, become boring, or I lose my edge,
or whatever it is, you know?
01:57:37.422 --> 01:57:40.653
And who knows? I don't have
any new songs right now,
01:57:40.800 --> 01:57:43.576
so I'm starting from scratch
for the first time.
01:57:43.720 --> 01:57:45.494
Tabula rasa.
Ought to be interesting.
01:57:45.638 --> 01:57:46.866
Yeah.
01:57:47.015 --> 01:57:49.210
Is there a little fear
of the unknown?
01:57:49.350 --> 01:57:51.671
Yeah.
Definitely.
01:57:53.396 --> 01:57:56.092
Check, check, check,
check, check, check.
01:57:57.776 --> 01:58:01.758
Turn both guitars down now.
They're too loud.
01:58:02.530 --> 01:58:06.011
Scott, you know that
goofy ass stuff
01:58:06.159 --> 01:58:09.936
that they have at music stores
called Finger Ease?
01:58:10.080 --> 01:58:12.059
It's like an anal gel.
01:58:12.207 --> 01:58:15.404
If I could just put some
on this string.
01:58:15.543 --> 01:58:18.523
Yeah, it's called Finger Ease.
Yeah, it's like a roll-on.
01:58:18.671 --> 01:58:23.279
So I just need it on one string.
God, I'm being picky today.
01:58:24.636 --> 01:58:25.660
Amy!
01:58:28.139 --> 01:58:29.959
Will you guys, like...
01:58:30.100 --> 01:58:33.456
Will you and Janet and everybody
that I know sit in the front
01:58:33.603 --> 01:58:35.332
so I can look at you?
01:58:35.480 --> 01:58:37.880
Cos I hate strangers.
01:58:38.733 --> 01:58:41.088
One, two, three.
01:58:47.617 --> 01:58:49.187
Thank you.
01:58:52.997 --> 01:58:54.567
Any requests?
01:58:54.707 --> 01:58:56.982
- Teen Spirit.
- Sliver.
01:58:57.127 --> 01:58:59.322
Drain You.
01:59:00.463 --> 01:59:01.737
Serve the Servants.
01:59:01.881 --> 01:59:05.362
Remember the little black bird
on Davey and Goliath?
01:59:05.510 --> 01:59:06.613
The little what?
01:59:06.761 --> 01:59:09.161
Black bird on Davey and Goliath
singing Kumbaya.
01:59:09.305 --> 01:59:11.250
No, I don't remember
the little bird.
01:59:11.391 --> 01:59:14.713
Remember that really evil episode
where he was really mad at this kid
01:59:14.853 --> 01:59:17.003
and he had all these visions
of how he was going to...
01:59:17.147 --> 01:59:19.502
"First, I'm going to
take him up to a hill
01:59:19.649 --> 01:59:23.176
and tie him to a tree
and tar and feather him!"
01:59:23.319 --> 01:59:26.516
It was evil.
That wasn't Christian at all!
01:59:45.091 --> 01:59:49.323
What else should I be?
01:59:49.470 --> 01:59:52.450
All apologies
01:59:53.850 --> 01:59:56.956
What else should I say?
01:59:58.229 --> 02:00:01.335
Everyone is gay
02:00:02.650 --> 02:00:05.801
What else should I write?
02:00:07.030 --> 02:00:09.976
I don't have the right
02:00:11.409 --> 02:00:14.310
What else should I be?
02:00:15.830 --> 02:00:19.186
All apologies
02:00:21.336 --> 02:00:23.406
In the sun
02:00:23.546 --> 02:00:27.323
In the sun I feeI as one
02:00:27.926 --> 02:00:33.080
In the sun
02:00:33.223 --> 02:00:35.373
Married
02:00:37.852 --> 02:00:40.047
Buried
02:00:42.273 --> 02:00:44.173
Married
02:00:46.736 --> 02:00:48.806
Buried
02:00:48.947 --> 02:00:51.017
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
02:00:59.916 --> 02:01:03.417
All in all is all we are
02:01:03.560 --> 02:01:07.867
All in all is all we are
02:01:07.973 --> 02:01:12.096
All in all is all we are
02:01:12.232 --> 02:01:16.502
All in all is all we are
02:01:16.779 --> 02:01:21.005
All in all is all we are
02:01:21.265 --> 02:01:25.516
All in all is all we are
02:01:25.665 --> 02:01:29.940
All in all is all we are
02:01:30.307 --> 02:01:34.492
All in all is all we are
02:01:35.114 --> 02:01:38.443
All in all is all we are
02:01:38.478 --> 02:01:41.101
- What do you want?
- I don't know.
02:01:41.249 --> 02:01:43.319
Do you want to go
play someplace?
02:01:43.459 --> 02:01:46.189
- Yeah.
- What do you want to do?
02:01:46.337 --> 02:01:49.067
I'm gonna play tape recorders.
02:01:59.142 --> 02:02:01.622
- Frances?
- Christmas Day, 1993.
02:02:01.769 --> 02:02:03.964
Frances Bean Cobain.
02:02:05.815 --> 02:02:08.545
I'm thirsty.
02:02:11.362 --> 02:02:13.637
Yabba dabba doo!
02:02:13.781 --> 02:02:15.806
This is nice!
02:02:16.743 --> 02:02:19.598
Johnny Rotten, Leonard Cohen,
Led Zeppelin and the Beatles.
02:02:19.746 --> 02:02:21.065
That's you.
02:02:22.790 --> 02:02:24.610
Did you say Bob Dylan?
02:02:24.751 --> 02:02:28.824
You don't tell stories the way he does,
but... I mean...
02:02:28.963 --> 02:02:30.908
You mean, like this?
02:02:31.215 --> 02:02:35.788
Every... now and then...
02:02:35.928 --> 02:02:39.329
things I know about.
02:02:40.433 --> 02:02:41.752
Seen it, done it.
02:02:45.480 --> 02:02:48.381
I feel kind of happy right now.
02:02:48.524 --> 02:02:50.094
Yeah, I do, too.
02:02:52.987 --> 02:02:55.933
We're all sensitive to
ridicule and shame.
02:02:56.657 --> 02:03:00.104
But it seemed to me,
having gone through his materials,
02:03:00.244 --> 02:03:03.395
that he was hyper-sensitive,
02:03:03.539 --> 02:03:05.359
felt criticism, felt praise,
02:03:05.500 --> 02:03:08.105
felt things a little more intensely.
02:03:08.252 --> 02:03:11.278
Probably.
You know, he was so sensitive
02:03:11.422 --> 02:03:16.997
that one time that I thought about
cheating on him, he fucking must...
02:03:17.136 --> 02:03:18.956
he must have been
psychic or something.
02:03:19.097 --> 02:03:22.419
I thought about it.
I didn't do it, but I thought about it.
02:03:22.558 --> 02:03:24.253
You never cheated on Kurt?
02:03:24.394 --> 02:03:26.589
No, but I almost did one time,
and he knew it.
02:03:26.729 --> 02:03:28.503
And I don't know
how he knew it.
02:03:28.648 --> 02:03:30.422
I have no idea how he knew it.
02:03:30.566 --> 02:03:34.889
I didn't... the plan didn't
ever go anywhere.
02:03:35.029 --> 02:03:37.509
So, it was just...
nothing happened,
02:03:37.657 --> 02:03:41.860
but I was tired and I am...
02:03:42.279 --> 02:03:44.870
And... I... I'm not...
02:03:44.956 --> 02:03:47.481
I wasn't as monogamous
as he is.
02:03:47.625 --> 02:03:51.209
I'm a big flirt.
So, I flirt with chairs.
02:03:51.337 --> 02:03:53.658
But I never,
never cheated on him.
02:03:53.798 --> 02:03:56.824
But I certainly thought about it
one time in London.
02:03:57.385 --> 02:03:58.955
And I could've done it.
02:03:59.095 --> 02:04:00.697
And the...
02:04:00.955 --> 02:04:05.541
the response to it was... um,
he took 67 Rohypnols
02:04:05.576 --> 02:04:09.045
and ended up in a coma because
I thought about cheating on him.
02:04:09.188 --> 02:04:11.383
I mean, fuck!
You're kidding.
02:04:12.692 --> 02:04:15.889
I didn't even make
the phone call to do it.
02:04:16.028 --> 02:04:19.634
So why do you think he chose
that night to try to take his life?
02:04:19.782 --> 02:04:21.636
Was it because he felt rejected?
02:04:22.910 --> 02:04:27.643
I think he would see it more as
like severe betrayal than rejection,
02:04:27.790 --> 02:04:29.234
you know what I mean?
02:04:51.814 --> 02:04:54.760
My girl, my girl
02:04:54.901 --> 02:04:57.973
Don't lie to me
02:04:58.112 --> 02:05:03.015
Tell me where did
you sleep last night?
02:05:04.118 --> 02:05:07.440
In the pines, in the pines
02:05:07.580 --> 02:05:10.686
Where the sun
don't ever shine
02:05:10.833 --> 02:05:16.066
I would shiver the
whole night through
02:05:17.882 --> 02:05:20.658
My girl, my girl
02:05:20.801 --> 02:05:23.873
Where will you go?
02:05:24.013 --> 02:05:29.133
I'm going where the
cold wind blows
02:05:30.728 --> 02:05:33.834
In the pines, in the pines
02:05:33.981 --> 02:05:37.303
Where the sun
don't ever shine
02:05:37.443 --> 02:05:42.346
I would shiver the
whole night through
02:05:43.991 --> 02:05:49.720
Her husband was
a hard-working man
02:05:50.221 --> 02:05:55.814
Just about a
mile from here
02:05:57.338 --> 02:06:03.291
His head was found
in a driving wheel
02:06:03.593 --> 02:06:09.244
But his body never
was found
02:06:10.726 --> 02:06:13.832
My girl, my girl
02:06:13.980 --> 02:06:17.131
Don't lie to me
02:06:17.275 --> 02:06:22.303
Tell me where did
you sleep last night?
02:06:23.906 --> 02:06:27.137
In the pines, in the pines
02:06:27.285 --> 02:06:30.482
Where the sun
don't ever shine
02:06:30.621 --> 02:06:36.392
I would shiver the
whole night through
02:06:36.879 --> 02:06:40.442
My girl, my girl
02:06:40.590 --> 02:06:43.741
Where will you go?
02:06:43.884 --> 02:06:49.038
I'm going where the
cold wind blows
02:06:50.516 --> 02:06:53.838
In the pines, in the pines
02:06:53.978 --> 02:06:57.050
Where the sun don't shine
02:06:57.189 --> 02:07:01.262
I'd shiver
02:07:02.111 --> 02:07:04.682
The whole
02:07:06.782 --> 02:07:07.967
Night...
02:07:08.089 --> 02:07:11.439
through
02:07:11.549 --> 02:07:14.644
through
02:07:44.403 --> 02:07:46.132
Thank you.
02:08:17.895 --> 02:08:20.216
Ain't it a shame to go
fishing on a Sunday
02:08:20.356 --> 02:08:22.301
Ain't it a shame?
02:08:22.441 --> 02:08:24.511
Ain't it a shame to go
fishing on a Sunday
02:08:24.652 --> 02:08:26.677
Ain't it a shame?
02:08:26.821 --> 02:08:28.675
Ain't it a shame to go
fishing on a Sunday
02:08:28.823 --> 02:08:31.098
When you got Monday,
Tuesday, Wednesday
02:08:31.242 --> 02:08:33.062
Oh, Thursday, Friday, Saturday
02:08:33.202 --> 02:08:35.147
Ain't it a shame?
02:08:35.287 --> 02:08:37.232
Ain't it a shame to have
a drink on a Sunday
02:08:37.373 --> 02:08:39.273
Ain't it a shame?
02:08:39.417 --> 02:08:41.487
Ain't it a shame to have
a drink on a Sunday
02:08:41.627 --> 02:08:43.652
Ain't it a shame?
02:08:43.796 --> 02:08:45.696
Ain't it a shame to have
a drink on Sunday
02:08:45.840 --> 02:08:48.070
When you got Monday,
Tuesday, Wednesday
02:08:48.217 --> 02:08:49.912
Oh, Thursday, Friday, Saturday
02:08:50.052 --> 02:08:52.084
Ain't it a shame?
02:08:52.237 --> 02:08:55.848
Ain't it a shame?
02:08:56.122 --> 02:09:00.985
Ain't it a shame?
02:09:02.648 --> 02:09:05.128
Ain't it a shame?
02:09:05.276 --> 02:09:08.803
Shame, shame, shame!
02:09:49.779 --> 02:09:52.009
Load up on guns
02:09:52.156 --> 02:09:53.851
Bring your friends
02:09:53.991 --> 02:09:57.973
It's fun to lose
and to pretend
02:09:58.120 --> 02:10:02.318
She's over-bored
and self-assured
02:10:02.458 --> 02:10:06.229
Oh no,
I know a dirty word
02:10:06.296 --> 02:10:10.239
Hello, hello, hello,
how low?
02:10:10.423 --> 02:10:14.168
Hello, hello, hello,
how low?
02:10:14.384 --> 02:10:18.555
Hello, hello, hello,
how low?
02:10:18.588 --> 02:10:21.459
Hello, hello, hello
02:10:21.602 --> 02:10:23.422
With the lights out
02:10:23.562 --> 02:10:25.541
It's less dangerous
02:10:25.689 --> 02:10:27.589
Here we are now
02:10:27.733 --> 02:10:29.633
Entertain us
02:10:29.777 --> 02:10:31.631
I feel stupid
02:10:31.779 --> 02:10:33.724
And contagious
02:10:33.864 --> 02:10:35.764
Here we are now
02:10:35.908 --> 02:10:37.808
Entertain us
02:10:37.952 --> 02:10:39.726
A mulatto
02:10:39.870 --> 02:10:41.770
An albino
02:10:41.914 --> 02:10:43.859
A mosquito
02:10:43.999 --> 02:10:47.230
My libido, yeah!
02:10:48.420 --> 02:10:49.569
Hey
02:10:52.383 --> 02:10:54.078
Hey
02:11:26.542 --> 02:11:28.487
With the lights out
02:11:28.627 --> 02:11:30.481
It's less dangerous
02:11:30.629 --> 02:11:32.483
Here we are now
02:11:32.631 --> 02:11:34.531
Entertain us
02:11:34.675 --> 02:11:36.575
I feel stupid
02:11:36.719 --> 02:11:38.539
And contagious
02:11:38.679 --> 02:11:40.624
Here we are now
02:11:40.764 --> 02:11:42.538
Entertain us
02:11:42.683 --> 02:11:44.628
A mulatto
02:11:44.768 --> 02:11:46.542
An albino
02:11:46.687 --> 02:11:48.666
A mosquito
02:11:48.814 --> 02:11:50.668
My libido
02:11:50.816 --> 02:11:52.461
A denial
02:11:52.688 --> 02:11:54.476
A denial
02:11:54.742 --> 02:11:56.489
A denial
02:11:56.751 --> 02:11:58.704
A denial
02:11:58.965 --> 02:12:00.852
A denial
02:12:00.991 --> 02:12:02.817
A denial
02:12:02.953 --> 02:12:04.696
A denial
02:12:04.854 --> 02:12:06.721
A denial
02:12:07.059 --> 02:12:11.533
A denial
02:12:12.051 --> 02:12:25.983
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