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[DISTANT TRAFFIC AMBIENCE]

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[PHONE LINE RINGING]

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JOE:
Hey, Lola.

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Checking in from Idaho.

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Other than my right foot being
one gigantic blister, I'’m okay.

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I'’ll just have to fight
through it.

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Fight it out, will it out.

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I'’ll call you again
from Twin Falls, okay?

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I miss you.
Hug Joseph for me.

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[TRUCK HORN BLARES]What the fuck?

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Fucking-- You motherfucker!

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Hey, you all right?

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Yeah, I'’m all right.

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See, that'’s why you need
to do what Mom tells you to do.

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Walk against the traffic.What?

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You'’re 15, all right?
I'’m 45.

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You think I don'’t know
what I'’m doing out here?

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No I don'’t.
That'’s why I'm with you.

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[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]

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We...we have with us
tonight Joe Bell,

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all the way
from La Grande, Oregon.

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Joe'’s here to talk to us tonight
about tolerance.

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Let'’s, uh,
give him a round of applause.

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[APPLAUSE]

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JOE:
Uh...

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Good afternoon.
Thanks for having me here.

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Uh...

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I jotted down
a couple of things

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I want to chat
with you guys about, um...

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You know, a lot of people
don'’t think it's a big deal

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to make fun of other people...

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um, who are different
from you.

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You know, bullying
and intolerance

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can have a deadly effect.

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And I'’m here because
I'’m walking across America

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on behalf of my son, Jadin,

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to speak out against bullying.

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All right?
Now it'’s important--

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Is it okay
if I take this?

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I don'’t want to break it.[FEEDBACK SQUEALS]

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You know, it'’s important
for people to understand,

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or understand how hurtful it
is to harass and torment people

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who aren'’t the same as you.

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And that understanding begins
at home

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with the parents
and families.

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All right?

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Parents out there, just let
your kids be who they are,

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and it'’ll all be fine.

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You tell them you love them
no matter what, all right?

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Because that'’s what they need
to know.

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All right?

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Anybody have any questions
for me?

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No?

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Okay, well please
follow me on Facebook

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and share my message
with your friends.

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Thank you, guys.

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[APPLAUSE]

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Thank you.

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[GROANS]

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Shit. Hey!

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JADIN:
Yeah? Why won'’t this thing work?

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[LAUGHS]
Come on.

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You need any help?

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I'’m done now.

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I'’m useless.Get in, get in, get in.

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[JADIN GRUNTS]

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JADIN:
I'’m laying here with you?

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Yeah. You'’re stuck with me.

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Get your feet off my pillow!

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[JADIN LAUGHS]JOE: Oh, shit! Whoa!

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[VEHICLES PASSING]

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[SIGHS]

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JADIN:
What was that last night, huh?

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"Understanding
begins at home"?

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Whose home? Not ours.

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JOE:
That'’s the way it was.

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JADIN:
No, not for me it wasn'’t.

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"Just be who you are
and it'’ll all be fine."

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How can you say that
when you know it'’s a lie?

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Look at that resolution
on this bad boy.

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I see it.Huh?

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Big TV.Oh, yeah.

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Hey, don'’t worry,

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the washing machine'’s
coming next.

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[LAUGHS]
Yeah, I'’m not gonna
hold my breath on that!

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Hey, I'’m getting one of these.Don'’t hook up the VHS.

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We ain'’t gonna use
that shit.

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Well, there'’s plenty of holes
back there.

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Hey.LOLA: What?

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Get out of the way, man.

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All right, what can I get
anybody?

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Hey, come on. Hey.What?

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Sit with me for a few minutes
and enjoy this.

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No, game time'’s in an hour.
The food can wait, come on.

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JADIN:
Hey, Dad, can I talk to you
for a minute?

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What?LOLA: He needs to talk to you.

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Honey, I'’m talking to you.Can I please talk to you just--?

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Now?Yes, now.

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You'’ve got to be shitting me.
All right, then, talk to me.

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Can we please talk outside
or out back?

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You gotta be shitting me.
Hey, don'’t touch the remote.

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All right.

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Well?

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Well?Can you just give me a second.

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That goddamn TV ain'’t gonna
watch itself.

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Well, Mom already knows.

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Knows what? What?

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Knows that I'’m getting picked
on by these guys at school.

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Why is that?

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I don'’t know,
because I'’m not like them?

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It'’s gotta be more than that.
That doesn'’t make sense.

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Why aren'’t you like them?Because I'’m just--

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I'’m different. I'm just...Because why?

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Because I'’m not like them.That'’s not an answer, Jadin.

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Doesn'’t make any sense.Because I'’m gay.

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You remember when I took
you boys to the Y?

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Hmm?I put boxing gloves on you both

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and made you duke it out.

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You need to know how to clean
anybody'’s clock.

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Anybody that messes with you.
Didn'’t I teach you anything?

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I don'’t want to spend
my high school

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duking it out with guys
who just don'’t agree with me.

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I can fight someone
one on one,

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but I can'’t fight
an entire school.

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Well, if I got to go down there
and kick the fuck

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out of them little
sons of bitches, I will!

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You know what? We'’re gonna let
nature take its course.

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All right?

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This isn'’t anybody else's
business anyway, is it?

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Don'’t talk about it
with the other kids.

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Or with other people.
You mind your own damn business.

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It'’ll all be fine.
It'’ll work itself out.

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LOLA:
Joe.

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JOE: What?It'’s not gonna work itself out.

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JOE: What am I supposed to do?Not talking about it

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is not gonna help.JOE: It'’s gonna be fine.

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LOLA: None of this is his fault.JOE: I didn'’t say that it was.

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LOLA:
The only thing he needs to know
is that his family loves him.

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This family loves you.You'’re stating the obvious here.

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LOLA:
It'’s not that obvious.
You can say it too, you know.

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JOE:
He knows I love him.

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I love you. You...

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You know that.

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Are we done here now?

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JIMMY:
Here you go.

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You fucking with my settings?

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JIMMY:
I was just trying to see
if I could figure it out.

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Lola!

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[SNIFFLES]

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I'’m getting a beer.

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[FRIDGE DOOR OPENS]

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JIMMY:
Hey, just don'’t get all
bent out of shape about it, Joe.

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He'’s just a kid.

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JOE:
What'’s that supposed to mean?

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I mean, so he'’s playing
a little grab-ass,

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stirring up some trouble.
It'’s not a big deal.

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What are you trying to say,
this is a phase?

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The point is, I know
what he'’s in for now, all right?

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I just don'’t want him out there
damn near broadcasting it.

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You know where we live.JIMMY: I know.

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I'’m just saying, kids are
designed to drive you nuts.

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[LAUGHS]
He might just grow out of it.

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MARCIE & JADIN:
Go, Cougars!

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Let'’s go, Cougars!

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Let'’s go, Cougars!

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What in the hell?
Hey, Lola, come here.

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LOLA: What?Come here!

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I'’m coming. What is it?

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You tell me.
What is this?

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What? He'’s practicing
his cheers.

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He'’s just going to do his cheers
out there in the front yard?

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We told him he could
join the squad--

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But in the front yard?

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Let him be, Joe.
It'’s his first game this week.

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Why not?Hell no, hell no. No, no, no.

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LOLA:
Joe-- Joe.

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Mm-hmm.LOLA: Joe.

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JOE: Front yard.Oh, for God'’s sakes.

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Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go!Hey, son?

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Yeah?Could you--?

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Would you mind practicing
in the backyard?

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It'’s hard for me
to hear the TV.

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What?

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You'’re out in front here
yelling.

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And I can'’t hear
the television.

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Can you not just turn it up?Don'’t tell me what to do.

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Your mother and I been
supporting this cheerleading,

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but you need to practice
in the backyard.

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[WHISPERING]
What'’s his problem?

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Why can'’t we just
practice in the front?

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Get your ass
in the backyard now.

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Can'’t you ever
just shut the fuck up

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and do what you'’re told?

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I thought my home life
was unstable.

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Go ahead. Follow Marcie.

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You better tell Marcie to stop
running her mouth,

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or I'’m gonna put a foot
in her ass.

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Oh, okay.

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JOE:
Come here. Come sit with me.

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I'’m doing my crossword.

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JOE:
I'’m going to try to be better.

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I love you.

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I love you too.

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I know.

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JADIN:
I got to give you credit, Dad.
At least you'’re persistent.

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JOE:
Well, I'’m walking all this way

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because that'’s where you told us
you wanted to live, remember?

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JADIN:
Oh, yeah. New York City.

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JOE:
Yeah, your big dream.

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Mm-hmm. I mean,
obviously.

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Why obviously?

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Why not? Think about it,
if you were me,

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would you rather live
in La Grande or New York City?

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Well, I bet you'’ll feel more
comfortable in New York.

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Yeah. I'’m sure you're right.
That'’s the point.

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All right, well,
just for the record,

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I happen to love
La Grande.

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So, you know,
why don'’t you just--?

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Okay, no, uh-uh.
There'’s no comparison.

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There'’s no comparison.Well, I...

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Okay, what does La Grande have?

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Nothing. Exactly.
What does New York have?

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It has every kind
of food,

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every kind of people,
every kind of pizza.

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We got pizza in La Grande.

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It'’s got skyscrapers
and Broadway and...Stefani.

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I mean, hello?
Stefani.

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Who'’s Stefani?

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Stefani Joanne Angelina
Germanotta.

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What? Who is that?

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Gaga, Dad.Oh.

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Lady Gaga.

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Yeah, yeah.And, you know, of course--

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Of course she'’s proud
of how she grew up.

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I mean, she grew up
in New York.

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Only a New Yorker
could write that song.

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Well, don'’t start.

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Oh, come on.
You know you love it.

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Oh, Lord, please...

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♪ My mama told me
When I was young ♪

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♪ We'’re all born
Superstars ♪

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♪ Da, da, da, da, da, da

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♪ She rolled my hair
And put my lipstick on ♪

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♪ In the glass of her boudoir

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♪ She said there'’s nothing wrong
With loving who you are ♪

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♪ She said, '’cause he made you
Perfect, babe ♪

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♪ So keep your head up, girl
And you'’ll go far ♪

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♪ Listen to me when I say

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♪ You'’re beautiful in your way ♪

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♪ '’Cause God makes
No mistakes ♪

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♪ I'’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way ♪

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What?

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Well, don'’t look
so surprised.

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Excuse me, I didn'’t know
you knew the words.

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Well, you blast that shit
so loud,

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you think I didn'’t pick up
a thing or two?

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Wow. Okay.I'’m one of them--

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What do you call it?
"I'’m a monster."

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Okay."I'’m a monster."

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All right a little--Yeah. Yeah.

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Excuse me,
it'’s a little monster,

00:14:20.642 --> 00:14:22.383
to be correct.[LAUGHS] Little monster.

00:14:22.426 --> 00:14:24.602
Yeah, you know what? All right,
even I'’ll admit it, okay?

00:14:24.646 --> 00:14:25.908
It'’s a little catchy.Yes, it is.

00:14:25.952 --> 00:14:27.605
Don'’t hide yourself in regret.

00:14:27.649 --> 00:14:29.477
BOTH:
Just love yourself
and you'’re set.

00:14:29.520 --> 00:14:31.435
♪ I'’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way ♪

00:14:31.479 --> 00:14:32.915
All right.We'’re not doing that again.

00:14:32.959 --> 00:14:35.787
All right, now,
sing me something I like.

00:14:35.831 --> 00:14:37.050
Give me a little
Willie Nelson.

00:14:46.363 --> 00:14:48.888
Oh, man. Smells good.

00:14:56.417 --> 00:14:57.984
Hey.

00:14:58.027 --> 00:14:59.681
MOLLY:
Well, if it ain'’t Grizzly Adams

00:14:59.724 --> 00:15:01.596
washed up on my doorstep.

00:15:01.639 --> 00:15:03.076
[SIGHS]

00:15:03.119 --> 00:15:05.121
Joe, is it?JOE: Joe it is.

00:15:05.165 --> 00:15:08.342
Heard all about you, Joe.
You'’re all over TV.

00:15:08.385 --> 00:15:11.606
You'’re in luck.
We got the finest food in Utah.

00:15:11.649 --> 00:15:14.087
Good, because I'’m starving.What'’ll it be?

00:15:14.130 --> 00:15:16.263
Uh, I'’ll have your special
and a coffee.

00:15:16.306 --> 00:15:17.525
MOLLY:
Be right back.

00:15:20.006 --> 00:15:21.529
ANNOUNCER [ON TV]:
...same sex marriage...

00:15:21.572 --> 00:15:22.922
Oh, God.

00:15:22.965 --> 00:15:25.359
Fucking queens
are everywhere now.

00:15:25.402 --> 00:15:28.188
Hey, sweetheart, can you turn
that fairy shit off, please?

00:15:28.231 --> 00:15:30.190
MOLLY:
There'’s ignorant folks
everywhere.

00:15:32.235 --> 00:15:33.933
Don'’t you pay them no mind.

00:15:36.805 --> 00:15:37.937
Yeah.

00:15:41.288 --> 00:15:44.073
Hey, my name'’s Joe Bell.

00:15:44.117 --> 00:15:46.162
Overheard you
talking over here.

00:15:46.206 --> 00:15:48.991
I'’m on a walk for change
for my son Jadin.

00:15:49.035 --> 00:15:50.340
And, uh...

00:15:50.384 --> 00:15:51.602
I'’d like you to check out

00:15:51.646 --> 00:15:53.126
our message of inclusion.

00:15:53.169 --> 00:15:55.519
Appreciate it if you get
a chance, thanks.

00:15:55.563 --> 00:15:56.956
I'’ll pass on the meal.

00:16:01.134 --> 00:16:03.484
MAN:
I don'’t know what the fuck
that'’s all about.

00:16:03.527 --> 00:16:04.920
[LAUGHS]

00:16:06.922 --> 00:16:09.838
Dad.Don'’t start your shit, Jadin.

00:16:11.883 --> 00:16:13.755
Dad!What?

00:16:13.798 --> 00:16:16.410
Giving them a card and running
away isn'’t gonna change shit.

00:16:16.453 --> 00:16:18.455
I'’m sorry,
but it'’s not.

00:16:18.499 --> 00:16:20.022
I don'’t know if you
realize this or not,

00:16:20.066 --> 00:16:21.241
but this is America, okay?

00:16:21.284 --> 00:16:22.590
And they'’re Americans.

00:16:22.633 --> 00:16:24.331
They are entitled
to their own opinion.

00:16:24.374 --> 00:16:25.854
Okay, I'’m starving
my ass off, okay?

00:16:25.897 --> 00:16:27.377
I just wanted
to finish my meal

00:16:27.421 --> 00:16:29.597
and get back on the road
and on my walk.

00:16:29.640 --> 00:16:31.164
Which I am doing for you,
remember?

00:16:31.207 --> 00:16:33.079
I mean, what else the hell--

00:16:33.122 --> 00:16:35.385
What else in the hell do you
expect from me, for chrissakes?

00:16:35.429 --> 00:16:37.605
The people that come
to your talks aren'’t the issue.

00:16:37.648 --> 00:16:39.128
They are.

00:16:39.172 --> 00:16:40.825
Really?

00:16:40.869 --> 00:16:43.002
Guys like that and their kids.
That'’s the issue.

00:16:43.045 --> 00:16:44.829
I hate to break it to you,

00:16:44.873 --> 00:16:47.310
but we wouldn'’t be hauling
our asses cross-country on foot

00:16:47.354 --> 00:16:50.009
if you'’d actually done what I
told you to in the first place.

00:16:50.052 --> 00:16:52.707
You told me to fight,
which you didn'’t do.

00:16:52.750 --> 00:16:54.361
And?You'’re a hypocrite.

00:16:54.404 --> 00:16:56.232
I'’m the hypocrite?Don'’t want to be a hypocrite,

00:16:56.276 --> 00:16:58.017
then go back in there
and kick their asses.

00:16:58.060 --> 00:17:00.193
Oh, I'’m sorry, give them
another card and say bye.

00:17:13.336 --> 00:17:14.816
[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]

00:17:33.530 --> 00:17:35.489
Yes, I agree.

00:17:35.532 --> 00:17:36.881
Very, very.

00:17:36.925 --> 00:17:38.448
Oh, who are we
talking about?

00:17:55.552 --> 00:17:57.598
They'’re so loud.

00:17:57.641 --> 00:18:00.296
Oh, my gosh,
he'’s so hot.

00:18:03.169 --> 00:18:04.692
Guys, guys, guys.

00:18:05.780 --> 00:18:06.955
[LAUGHS]Yeah.

00:18:13.048 --> 00:18:15.050
[BELL RINGS]

00:18:20.316 --> 00:18:21.839
You guys want to come over?

00:18:21.883 --> 00:18:23.145
[GRUNTS]MARCIE: Jerk!

00:18:23.189 --> 00:18:24.755
First down, faggot!

00:18:24.799 --> 00:18:27.584
COLLEEN:
You guys are such assholes.

00:18:27.628 --> 00:18:28.977
BOYD:
Takes one to know one.

00:18:35.201 --> 00:18:36.724
[GIGGLING AND LAUGHING]

00:18:42.947 --> 00:18:45.341
[DANCE MUSIC BLARING]

00:18:45.385 --> 00:18:46.864
Chug, chug!

00:18:48.866 --> 00:18:50.520
[LAUGHS]

00:19:01.096 --> 00:19:02.489
Get a drink.

00:19:03.968 --> 00:19:05.492
I do.Really?

00:19:05.535 --> 00:19:07.058
[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]

00:19:27.035 --> 00:19:28.689
GIRL:
She has had so many drinks.

00:19:40.788 --> 00:19:42.311
Wanna smoke?

00:19:50.276 --> 00:19:52.234
COLLEEN: Go, go.Right now?

00:19:52.278 --> 00:19:54.193
Yes, go. Hurry.Okay.

00:20:09.643 --> 00:20:10.818
[CLEARS THROAT]

00:20:21.307 --> 00:20:22.525
I didn'’t know
you smoked.

00:20:22.569 --> 00:20:25.093
Yeah, we'’re not
supposed to.

00:20:27.226 --> 00:20:28.792
Don'’t tell coach, okay?

00:20:28.836 --> 00:20:31.012
Don'’t worry,
your secret'’s safe with me.

00:20:39.716 --> 00:20:40.891
Is it?

00:20:45.287 --> 00:20:46.419
Yeah.

00:21:08.484 --> 00:21:09.833
[GLASS BOTTLE CLATTERS]

00:21:09.877 --> 00:21:11.531
You jerk, where are you
taking me?

00:21:21.889 --> 00:21:23.412
MARCIE:
You kissed a football player?

00:21:23.456 --> 00:21:25.588
Mm-hmm.

00:21:25.632 --> 00:21:29.026
Uh, no, technically
he'’s a running back.

00:21:29.070 --> 00:21:30.593
What'’s that?

00:21:30.637 --> 00:21:33.770
I don'’t know, actually.

00:21:33.814 --> 00:21:36.338
This is, like, the stuff
dreams are made of.

00:21:36.382 --> 00:21:37.600
I know.

00:21:37.644 --> 00:21:39.080
How was the kiss?

00:21:39.123 --> 00:21:40.560
Can we not talk
about this right now?

00:21:40.603 --> 00:21:42.301
You wanna go to my room
and talk about this?

00:21:42.344 --> 00:21:44.520
Yeah, I want to talk about this.
I want to talk about this.

00:21:44.564 --> 00:21:47.044
Warmer?Okay, come on.

00:21:47.088 --> 00:21:51.135
ANNOUNCER [OVER P.A.]:
Second and ten
on the 45-yard line.

00:21:51.179 --> 00:21:52.746
[EXCITED SHOUTING]

00:21:54.400 --> 00:21:56.706
Here we go, Cougars.
Here we go.

00:21:57.968 --> 00:22:00.231
[CHEERING]

00:22:00.275 --> 00:22:02.625
Let'’s go, Cougars!

00:22:05.585 --> 00:22:07.369
Let'’s go...

00:22:07.413 --> 00:22:09.197
COACH:
Do a good job, Chance. Let'’s go.

00:22:09.240 --> 00:22:11.547
JADIN:
Come on, Chance! Go, number 5!

00:22:11.591 --> 00:22:13.462
Whoo!

00:22:16.160 --> 00:22:17.727
Whoo!

00:22:17.771 --> 00:22:20.121
Yeah! Whoo!

00:22:24.604 --> 00:22:27.694
Hey, Bell,
did you forget your skirt?

00:22:29.435 --> 00:22:30.871
Whoo!

00:22:35.005 --> 00:22:36.355
Hey, ass bandit!

00:22:40.576 --> 00:22:41.838
Is that a boy down there?

00:22:41.882 --> 00:22:45.059
What the hell
is the school thinking?

00:22:45.102 --> 00:22:46.277
PLAYER:
Hike!

00:23:00.248 --> 00:23:01.728
ANNOUNCER:
Touchdown, Cougars!

00:23:01.771 --> 00:23:03.120
[ALL CHEER]

00:23:15.306 --> 00:23:17.396
A 30-yard pass to number 40...

00:23:17.439 --> 00:23:20.050
CHEERLEADERS [CHANTING]:
Let'’s go, Cougars!

00:23:20.094 --> 00:23:22.401
Let'’s go, Cougars!

00:23:23.532 --> 00:23:26.143
Let'’s go, Cougars!Whoo!

00:23:32.933 --> 00:23:34.717
[CELL PHONE VIBRATES]

00:23:36.110 --> 00:23:37.459
[HIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYING
OVER PHONE]

00:24:04.138 --> 00:24:06.096
I saw what they said about you.

00:24:08.447 --> 00:24:10.274
Doesn'’t it bother you
what people say?

00:24:13.887 --> 00:24:15.192
Words can'’t hurt me.

00:24:17.064 --> 00:24:20.328
I'’m tougher than I look,
okay?

00:24:40.304 --> 00:24:41.697
JADIN:
Look at these mountains.

00:24:41.741 --> 00:24:42.959
They'’re so steep.

00:24:43.003 --> 00:24:44.308
Yeah.

00:24:44.352 --> 00:24:47.007
If we had more time,
we'’d hike them.

00:24:47.050 --> 00:24:48.574
You can see why
I always wanted you

00:24:48.617 --> 00:24:50.401
to go hunting and fishing
with me.

00:24:50.445 --> 00:24:52.839
Take you up there and get you
away from everything down below.

00:24:52.882 --> 00:24:54.536
Yeah, real macho stuff.

00:24:54.580 --> 00:24:56.451
I was just trying to be
a decent parent.

00:24:56.495 --> 00:24:57.931
I mean, I thought
being out in the wild

00:24:57.974 --> 00:24:59.149
would help you be a man.

00:25:01.021 --> 00:25:03.197
What does that mean to you,
"be a man"? I'’m just curious.

00:25:03.240 --> 00:25:05.373
I did the same thing for Joseph
for the same reason,

00:25:05.416 --> 00:25:06.896
and he'’s not gay.

00:25:06.940 --> 00:25:09.420
It didn'’t matter to you
what I was okay with,

00:25:09.464 --> 00:25:11.640
especially after you started
your cheerleading thing.

00:25:11.684 --> 00:25:14.034
I mean, Dad, some men
like cheerleading

00:25:14.077 --> 00:25:15.514
and some men like hiking.

00:25:15.557 --> 00:25:16.993
And I think if we'’re...

00:25:17.037 --> 00:25:18.821
I don'’t know,
if we'’re being honest,

00:25:18.865 --> 00:25:21.563
you were never really okay
with me cheerleading, were you?

00:25:21.607 --> 00:25:22.825
No, if we'’re being honest,

00:25:22.869 --> 00:25:24.218
if you thought
you could handle it,

00:25:24.261 --> 00:25:25.436
I knew different.

00:25:27.613 --> 00:25:31.181
I mean, you saw me cheer,
like, once?

00:25:31.225 --> 00:25:34.402
The one time you did, you left.What?

00:25:34.445 --> 00:25:36.447
People were calling me names
and throwing stuff at me,

00:25:36.491 --> 00:25:38.232
and you got up and left.I was afraid for you.

00:25:38.275 --> 00:25:40.669
We were all afraid for you.

00:25:54.640 --> 00:25:58.034
LOLA [ON PHONE]:
Well, I worked
two shifts today.

00:26:00.254 --> 00:26:04.563
And then I came home
to do some laundry,

00:26:04.606 --> 00:26:07.740
and the laundry machine
finally just fucking died.

00:26:09.263 --> 00:26:10.656
But with a whole load
of clothes in,

00:26:10.699 --> 00:26:12.483
it wouldn'’t drain.

00:26:12.527 --> 00:26:15.225
I mean, it was...
it was such a mess.

00:26:15.269 --> 00:26:16.705
Well, I'’m sorry about all that,

00:26:16.749 --> 00:26:18.968
but there'’s not much
I can do from out here.

00:26:19.012 --> 00:26:20.796
[LAUGHING]

00:26:22.363 --> 00:26:24.060
There'’s really not much
you could do

00:26:24.104 --> 00:26:26.585
if you were standing
right in front of me.

00:26:26.628 --> 00:26:28.282
[LAUGHING]

00:26:28.325 --> 00:26:29.588
[SIGHS]

00:26:29.631 --> 00:26:30.763
I'’m right about that.

00:26:31.938 --> 00:26:34.549
You know you should just
call us

00:26:34.593 --> 00:26:38.901
at the same time every week,
you know?

00:26:38.945 --> 00:26:42.775
Just set it so we know
that we'’re gonna hear from you.

00:26:42.818 --> 00:26:45.516
Look, Lola...

00:26:45.560 --> 00:26:47.518
I'’m afraid for Joseph
with you drinking again.

00:26:47.562 --> 00:26:50.478
I mean, I want to trust things
are okay while I'’m gone,

00:26:50.521 --> 00:26:52.611
but you'’re damn near
slurring every other word.

00:26:52.654 --> 00:26:54.917
Joseph doesn'’t need to see that.LOLA: Wait, what? Wait.

00:26:54.961 --> 00:26:56.615
What is-- What is--
What is so difficult

00:26:56.658 --> 00:26:57.877
about what I just asked?

00:26:57.920 --> 00:26:59.269
Well, I know
that you drink a lot,

00:26:59.313 --> 00:27:01.054
and so does Marcie
and Joseph.

00:27:01.097 --> 00:27:02.708
Can'’t you just stop
with one damn drink?

00:27:02.751 --> 00:27:04.318
What, you gotta have
five or ten of them?

00:27:04.361 --> 00:27:07.190
Joe, you'’re not here.

00:27:07.234 --> 00:27:10.411
You have no idea
what'’s going on.

00:27:10.454 --> 00:27:12.152
No idea.

00:27:17.723 --> 00:27:19.638
So, what are you gonna do?
You gonna go to bed?

00:27:19.681 --> 00:27:21.378
Oh, no, I dipped into
our retirement savings

00:27:21.422 --> 00:27:22.945
so I could splurge
on a presidential suite

00:27:22.989 --> 00:27:24.164
at the Bear River Inn.

00:27:30.431 --> 00:27:32.389
Right.

00:27:32.433 --> 00:27:35.044
Well, love you.

00:27:35.088 --> 00:27:36.263
I love you.

00:27:47.143 --> 00:27:50.059
Hey. Hey.

00:27:50.103 --> 00:27:51.321
What?Come here.

00:27:51.365 --> 00:27:52.714
What?It'’s gold!

00:27:52.758 --> 00:27:54.498
[LAUGHS]
Gold, baby!

00:27:54.542 --> 00:27:56.152
JADIN: What?JOE: Whoo!

00:27:56.196 --> 00:27:59.242
Green gold, baby.
Look at these bad boys.

00:27:59.286 --> 00:28:01.418
Look at the size of them. Huh?

00:28:01.462 --> 00:28:03.246
Is that asparagus?Oh, man.

00:28:03.290 --> 00:28:05.596
I'’m gonna grill them up on
the fire, you are gonna love it.

00:28:05.640 --> 00:28:07.163
Ain'’t nothing better
than wild asparagus.

00:28:07.207 --> 00:28:09.035
Oh, that smells so good.BOTH: Oh, yeah.

00:28:09.078 --> 00:28:10.732
That'’s the real deal
right there, baby.

00:28:10.776 --> 00:28:13.430
JADIN: Yeah, man.JOE: This is green gold. Whoo!

00:28:23.005 --> 00:28:24.485
Nothing better.

00:28:24.528 --> 00:28:26.313
Right out of the ground.
Taste that.

00:28:30.709 --> 00:28:32.362
That'’s so good.

00:28:32.406 --> 00:28:33.886
Give me more of that.
You'’re hogging it.

00:28:33.929 --> 00:28:35.322
I haven'’t had a bite yet.

00:28:35.365 --> 00:28:37.019
[LAUGHS]What the heck?

00:28:37.063 --> 00:28:38.804
Here, get one.Just make sure it'’s cooked.

00:28:38.847 --> 00:28:40.153
I don'’t want you eating
nothing raw.

00:28:44.113 --> 00:28:47.203
You know, this is the one thing
you can cook.

00:28:56.386 --> 00:28:58.475
Did you ever wish
that I wrestled?

00:28:58.519 --> 00:29:00.869
No. You didn'’t want to wrestle,
you didn'’t have to wrestle.

00:29:02.349 --> 00:29:04.351
JADIN:
Joseph'’s gotten really good.

00:29:04.394 --> 00:29:06.179
You know why'’s good at it?Why?

00:29:06.222 --> 00:29:07.746
Because he works hard at it.

00:29:07.789 --> 00:29:09.530
You put the time in...

00:29:10.879 --> 00:29:13.664
you get good at whatever
you work hard at.

00:29:13.708 --> 00:29:15.014
That'’s all about sacrifice.

00:29:19.148 --> 00:29:20.671
Trying to get
this one big one here.

00:29:22.978 --> 00:29:24.763
[♪♪]

00:29:32.553 --> 00:29:34.294
Whoo!

00:29:34.337 --> 00:29:35.904
Yeah, buddy!

00:29:40.953 --> 00:29:42.955
Let'’s go, Cougars,
let'’s go!

00:29:42.998 --> 00:29:46.872
Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go!
Come on!

00:29:46.915 --> 00:29:49.439
Come on. Come out here.
It feels great.

00:29:49.483 --> 00:29:51.615
Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go!
Argh.

00:29:52.791 --> 00:29:54.227
I will keep you up all night.

00:29:54.270 --> 00:29:56.446
Let'’s go, Cougars!
Let'’s go!

00:29:56.490 --> 00:29:59.885
Let'’s go, grandpa.
Come on.

00:29:59.928 --> 00:30:02.191
Let'’s go, Cougars! Let's go!!
Argh!

00:30:02.235 --> 00:30:03.889
All right, show me again.All right, ready?

00:30:03.932 --> 00:30:05.586
Yeah.Watch.

00:30:05.629 --> 00:30:07.675
BOTH:
Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go!

00:30:07.718 --> 00:30:09.416
Argh!Argh!

00:30:09.459 --> 00:30:11.200
[BOTH GROWLING AND LAUGHING]

00:30:17.772 --> 00:30:19.339
Whoo!

00:30:32.613 --> 00:30:34.006
[BREATHING HEAVILY]

00:30:40.012 --> 00:30:42.275
JADIN:
How many yards did you
rush for in last night'’s game?

00:30:42.318 --> 00:30:43.537
CHANCE:
Uh...

00:30:43.580 --> 00:30:45.321
158.

00:30:50.239 --> 00:30:52.851
Is that a lot, or...?

00:30:56.332 --> 00:30:59.074
If you don'’t know,
why are you asking?

00:30:59.118 --> 00:31:01.207
I want to know
about your game.

00:31:01.250 --> 00:31:02.948
[LAUGHS]

00:31:02.991 --> 00:31:05.907
Um...yeah.

00:31:05.951 --> 00:31:08.301
Yeah, I mean,
158'’s pretty good.

00:31:08.344 --> 00:31:11.130
Um, it'’s below my average,
though, but...

00:31:12.914 --> 00:31:15.917
you know, I don'’t need
to be a star or anything.

00:31:15.961 --> 00:31:17.919
I just want to get
into a small program

00:31:17.963 --> 00:31:19.399
and play football
somewhere.

00:31:23.185 --> 00:31:25.187
Like where?

00:31:25.231 --> 00:31:26.754
Um...

00:31:26.797 --> 00:31:28.930
well, I'’m not really,
you know,

00:31:28.974 --> 00:31:30.845
D-1 material.

00:31:30.889 --> 00:31:33.065
[BOTH LAUGH]But I don'’t know.

00:31:33.108 --> 00:31:35.371
Like Portland State,
maybe?

00:31:35.415 --> 00:31:36.807
Maybe Eastern Washington.

00:31:40.550 --> 00:31:44.598
That'’s a long way away
from where I'’ll be.

00:31:44.641 --> 00:31:46.992
Hmm. And where'’s that?

00:31:47.035 --> 00:31:48.210
New York.

00:31:50.996 --> 00:31:52.823
You know there'’s a lot
of colleges in New York.

00:31:58.003 --> 00:31:59.526
And if you wanted to...

00:32:01.484 --> 00:32:02.659
I don'’t know, go east...

00:32:06.098 --> 00:32:08.056
we could go together.

00:32:08.100 --> 00:32:09.797
Or something.

00:32:16.499 --> 00:32:18.414
I don'’t know, Jadin.
That'’s aiming pretty high.

00:32:24.855 --> 00:32:26.161
JADIN:
He, uh...

00:32:27.249 --> 00:32:28.511
he got freaked out.

00:32:31.601 --> 00:32:33.168
He was afraid
that he'’d get kicked out

00:32:33.212 --> 00:32:35.388
if his moron parents knew.

00:32:40.741 --> 00:32:42.961
Romantic relationships
aren'’t everything, Jadin.

00:32:43.004 --> 00:32:45.267
They'’re not the solution
to life.

00:32:45.311 --> 00:32:47.835
It was the solution to my life.

00:32:47.878 --> 00:32:50.751
My life, Dad.
Not yours. Mine.

00:33:22.478 --> 00:33:23.740
[SIGHS]

00:33:28.963 --> 00:33:30.138
Nervous, huh?

00:33:30.182 --> 00:33:32.967
No. Why would I be nervous?

00:33:33.011 --> 00:33:34.751
What if somebody
hits on you?

00:33:34.795 --> 00:33:36.362
Nobody'’s gonna
hit on me.

00:33:36.405 --> 00:33:38.973
It'’s a gay bar, Dad.

00:33:39.017 --> 00:33:40.844
Somebody'’s gonna hit on you.How would you know?

00:33:40.888 --> 00:33:42.237
Ever been to a gay bar?No, but--

00:33:42.281 --> 00:33:43.847
Have you ever been to a bar?JADIN: No.

00:33:43.891 --> 00:33:45.066
Okay, then.

00:33:45.110 --> 00:33:46.546
Also, it'’s drag night,

00:33:46.589 --> 00:33:47.808
so you better dance.

00:33:47.851 --> 00:33:49.418
I don'’t dance.

00:33:49.462 --> 00:33:52.378
I cannot wait to see my dad,
the magnificent Joe Bell,

00:33:52.421 --> 00:33:54.423
working it with some
fierce lady queens.

00:33:54.467 --> 00:33:56.295
That'’s not gonna happen.
You'’re staying here.

00:33:56.338 --> 00:33:57.948
Okay, well, at least say hi
to Cher for me.

00:33:57.992 --> 00:33:59.733
Cher?Mm-hmm. There'’s always a Cher.

00:33:59.776 --> 00:34:01.213
It'’s a given.How would you know?

00:34:01.256 --> 00:34:03.345
JADIN:
Because. It'’s a given.

00:34:03.389 --> 00:34:05.347
And if she flirts with you,
try not to be mean.

00:34:05.391 --> 00:34:07.045
Why would I be mean?

00:34:07.088 --> 00:34:08.872
I mean, who the hell
do you think I am?

00:34:08.916 --> 00:34:10.222
Would you flirt back?

00:34:10.265 --> 00:34:11.875
No, I would not, Jadin.JADIN: Why not?

00:34:11.919 --> 00:34:14.095
Because.Because why?

00:34:14.139 --> 00:34:16.097
Because Cher'’s not my type.

00:34:16.141 --> 00:34:18.056
Now, if Dolly'’s there...JADIN: No.

00:34:18.099 --> 00:34:20.188
...I'’m gonna motorboat
them big-ass titties.

00:34:20.232 --> 00:34:22.060
[LAUGHS]

00:34:22.103 --> 00:34:24.323
You are disgusting.

00:34:24.366 --> 00:34:26.064
[SIGHS]

00:34:26.107 --> 00:34:28.631
Dad...What?

00:34:28.675 --> 00:34:31.156
Relax. You got this.

00:34:31.199 --> 00:34:32.418
[SIGHS]

00:34:32.461 --> 00:34:34.376
You know that'’s my job.

00:34:34.420 --> 00:34:35.725
To reassure you.

00:34:37.597 --> 00:34:39.164
Yeah, I wish I could
go with you.

00:34:39.207 --> 00:34:40.730
Yeah, well, so do I.

00:34:44.343 --> 00:34:45.909
Well, wish me luck.

00:34:45.953 --> 00:34:47.694
Good luck.Give me a hug.

00:34:47.737 --> 00:34:48.912
All right.

00:34:56.224 --> 00:34:58.444
How do I look?

00:34:58.487 --> 00:35:00.098
Pants tight enough
but not too tight?

00:35:00.141 --> 00:35:02.230
Oh, God, Dad!I'’m gonna keep the flaps down.

00:35:02.274 --> 00:35:04.319
Stop buying the time.
Get out of here.

00:35:04.363 --> 00:35:05.581
Go. Good luck.Bye.

00:35:05.625 --> 00:35:06.800
Bye.

00:35:10.934 --> 00:35:13.023
[LOUD MUSIC PLAYING][INDISTINCT CHATTER]

00:35:33.261 --> 00:35:36.046
Our folks are deeply religious.

00:35:36.090 --> 00:35:39.267
I was 15, and I was a deacon
at our church.

00:35:39.311 --> 00:35:42.096
I was sitting at church
with my family,

00:35:42.140 --> 00:35:45.360
and the sermon that day
was on sins against God.

00:35:45.404 --> 00:35:49.495
And when he said,
"gays are going to hell,"

00:35:49.538 --> 00:35:52.193
I couldn'’t take it anymore.

00:35:52.237 --> 00:35:55.762
I got up and I-I-I
went to leave,

00:35:55.805 --> 00:35:57.981
and my mom stopped me and
she said, "Where are you going?"

00:35:58.025 --> 00:36:00.462
And I turned and I said
"To hell, apparently."

00:36:00.506 --> 00:36:01.724
[LAUGHS]

00:36:03.073 --> 00:36:04.466
[CHUCKLING]

00:36:04.510 --> 00:36:06.425
It'’s seems funny now, but--It was funny.

00:36:08.296 --> 00:36:11.212
At the time it was like
an avalanche had hit.

00:36:11.256 --> 00:36:14.650
My entire life was hell.

00:36:17.000 --> 00:36:19.786
It'’s hard to stand strong

00:36:19.829 --> 00:36:23.224
in places where there are more
churches than there are gays.

00:36:23.268 --> 00:36:25.661
Churches, man.
Don'’t even get me started.

00:36:25.705 --> 00:36:27.881
Jadin went to church with
a friend of his one Sunday.

00:36:27.924 --> 00:36:29.535
I mean, he was hoping
he'’d make some friends

00:36:29.578 --> 00:36:31.319
and find a place where people
would be kind.

00:36:31.363 --> 00:36:33.582
During the service, the pastor
singled him out and said,

00:36:33.626 --> 00:36:35.976
"If you are gay, you must come
up here to the altar

00:36:36.019 --> 00:36:38.544
and repent your sins,
or leave."

00:36:38.587 --> 00:36:41.242
Jaden told us it made him feel
horrible, like he didn'’t belong.

00:36:41.286 --> 00:36:43.723
You got them Catholic Church
taking child molesting priests,

00:36:43.766 --> 00:36:45.638
they move them from one
church to another

00:36:45.681 --> 00:36:47.901
so they can molest other boys,
and they won'’t accept my son

00:36:47.944 --> 00:36:49.729
because he'’s openly gay?
I mean, the idea is

00:36:49.772 --> 00:36:53.036
you'’re supposed to worship
the guy who died to build it,

00:36:53.080 --> 00:36:54.908
not the frigging assholes
in there

00:36:54.951 --> 00:36:56.736
that are judging everybody
doing God knows what

00:36:56.779 --> 00:36:58.999
behind closed doors.WILL: It'’s true.

00:37:00.566 --> 00:37:02.568
People think it'’s easier
these days.

00:37:02.611 --> 00:37:05.266
But everyone in this bar knows
that'’s not necessarily true.

00:37:05.310 --> 00:37:07.355
That'’s why they come here.

00:37:07.399 --> 00:37:10.576
This place is like
a church too.

00:37:10.619 --> 00:37:12.186
I think it'’s amazing.

00:37:12.230 --> 00:37:13.709
Hi, darlings.

00:37:13.753 --> 00:37:15.320
It'’s almost
showtime again.

00:37:15.363 --> 00:37:17.713
Oh, my God, who is this?

00:37:17.757 --> 00:37:19.976
Don'’t make me
introduce myself.

00:37:20.020 --> 00:37:22.109
This is Joe Bell.

00:37:22.152 --> 00:37:25.068
Where have you been
all my life?

00:37:26.505 --> 00:37:27.810
He'’s just visiting.Oh, perfect.

00:37:27.854 --> 00:37:29.725
Well, if you need
a place to crash,

00:37:29.769 --> 00:37:31.379
there'’s room on my couch.

00:37:31.423 --> 00:37:33.860
[LAUGHS]
Or my bed.

00:37:33.903 --> 00:37:36.254
Oh, I'’m, uh...

00:37:36.297 --> 00:37:37.907
I'’m-- I'm-- Well...

00:37:37.951 --> 00:37:41.433
I'’m not-- I mean,
I am a straight guy.

00:37:41.476 --> 00:37:43.130
I didn'’t know if you were
serious or not.

00:37:43.173 --> 00:37:45.263
Joe'’s walking across the country
to raise awareness

00:37:45.306 --> 00:37:48.527
about bullying,
because his son was bullied.

00:37:48.570 --> 00:37:50.311
Well, why didn'’t you
bring him?

00:37:50.355 --> 00:37:53.096
Especially if he'’s as cute
as you are.

00:37:53.140 --> 00:37:55.708
Is he as cute as you, Daddy?

00:37:55.751 --> 00:37:57.275
[LAUGHS]

00:37:58.363 --> 00:38:01.104
Um...my son is dead.

00:38:05.195 --> 00:38:06.371
DRAG QUEEN:
Oh, my God.

00:38:06.414 --> 00:38:08.503
Oh, my God,
I had no idea.

00:38:08.547 --> 00:38:10.636
I'’m-- I'm so sorry.JOE: It'’s all good. Really.

00:38:10.679 --> 00:38:12.681
DRAG QUEEN:
Let me take my foot
out of my mouth.

00:38:12.725 --> 00:38:14.030
I'’m so sorry, I--No, no, no, I...

00:38:14.074 --> 00:38:15.684
I had no idea.It'’s all good.

00:38:15.728 --> 00:38:17.599
DRAG QUEEN:
No, it'’s-- It's not.

00:38:17.643 --> 00:38:20.950
I really didn'’t know, and now
I'’ve got to perform again.

00:38:20.994 --> 00:38:22.909
Hey, hey. I'’m okay.I'’m so sorry.

00:38:22.952 --> 00:38:24.737
[MUSIC PLAYS][APPLAUSE]

00:38:26.478 --> 00:38:29.350
Honey, I'’m gonna grab you
another beer.

00:38:29.394 --> 00:38:33.659
♪ Think of your fellow man
Lend him a helping hand ♪

00:38:33.702 --> 00:38:37.706
♪ Put a little love
In your heart ♪

00:38:37.750 --> 00:38:40.361
♪ You see, it'’s getting late ♪

00:38:40.405 --> 00:38:42.885
♪ Oh, please don'’t hesitate ♪

00:38:42.929 --> 00:38:46.498
♪ Put a little love
In your heart ♪

00:38:46.541 --> 00:38:47.890
♪ And the world

00:38:47.934 --> 00:38:49.718
[♪♪]

00:39:46.514 --> 00:39:48.255
[GRUNTING]

00:40:45.573 --> 00:40:47.662
[PHONE RINGS]

00:40:47.706 --> 00:40:49.098
[SIGHS]

00:40:49.142 --> 00:40:50.796
Hey, honey.

00:40:50.839 --> 00:40:53.494
LOLA [ON PHONE]:
You in Steamboat Springs?

00:40:53.538 --> 00:40:55.714
Oh, my GPS must be
working again.

00:40:55.757 --> 00:40:57.367
[GROANS]

00:40:57.411 --> 00:40:59.500
It'’s been a hell of a walk
through Colorado.

00:40:59.544 --> 00:41:02.721
You gotta call us, you know,

00:41:02.764 --> 00:41:04.853
when you'’re going through
all those storms.

00:41:04.897 --> 00:41:07.334
It'’s crazy.What, are you worried?

00:41:07.377 --> 00:41:09.292
Well, don'’t be.
That storm went way south of me.

00:41:09.336 --> 00:41:10.816
I only caught
the tail end of it.

00:41:10.859 --> 00:41:14.123
Yeah, well,
still just call us.

00:41:14.167 --> 00:41:16.169
Okay. Hey, hold on a second.

00:41:18.301 --> 00:41:19.999
JOSEPH [ON PHONE]: Hey, Dad.Hey, buddy.

00:41:20.042 --> 00:41:21.957
See you got
12,000 followers.

00:41:22.001 --> 00:41:23.437
How'’s the man of the house?

00:41:23.481 --> 00:41:25.395
Good. You know we'’re good.

00:41:25.439 --> 00:41:27.572
Wrestling practice
is really good.

00:41:27.615 --> 00:41:30.488
Coach filmed a few of them.Well, I can'’t wait to see them.

00:41:30.531 --> 00:41:32.751
Yeah, hey, Dad,

00:41:32.794 --> 00:41:36.450
what would you think about me
and Mom coming to visit you?

00:41:36.494 --> 00:41:38.626
Out on the road.
I mean, not on the road,

00:41:38.670 --> 00:41:42.717
but maybe in a motel
or a hotel, even?

00:41:42.761 --> 00:41:45.546
Well, I can'’t think of anything
I'’d like better.

00:41:45.590 --> 00:41:47.548
Your mom okay with it?

00:41:47.592 --> 00:41:49.768
Mom? Yeah.
She'’s okay with it.

00:41:49.811 --> 00:41:51.073
All right.

00:41:51.117 --> 00:41:52.771
Let me talk to your mom.

00:41:52.814 --> 00:41:53.989
Oh, shit.

00:41:59.429 --> 00:42:01.301
LOLA:
Okay, give me the phone back.

00:42:01.344 --> 00:42:02.911
You coming to see me?

00:42:02.955 --> 00:42:04.739
All right, yeah,
we'’ll talk about it.

00:42:04.783 --> 00:42:07.699
All right. Hurry.

00:42:07.742 --> 00:42:09.309
All right. Love you, bye.

00:42:15.794 --> 00:42:17.709
Oh, shit.

00:42:17.752 --> 00:42:19.362
[SIGHS]

00:42:22.191 --> 00:42:23.802
LOLA:
Well, it'’s starting to snow.

00:42:23.845 --> 00:42:25.760
JOSEPH:
Maybe we could, uh,

00:42:25.804 --> 00:42:27.283
get out and do some
snowboarding later.

00:42:27.327 --> 00:42:28.502
LOLA:
There he is.

00:42:32.854 --> 00:42:34.769
Hey, hey!JOSEPH: Hey, Dad.

00:42:34.813 --> 00:42:36.945
My God, son,
it'’s only been a few months.

00:42:36.989 --> 00:42:38.556
You'’re as tall as me
Missed you, buddy.

00:42:38.599 --> 00:42:40.296
I missed you too, Dad.Hey.

00:42:40.340 --> 00:42:42.516
Hi. Saw you spit
that dip out.

00:42:42.560 --> 00:42:44.387
Oh, no,
that'’s just for walking.

00:42:44.431 --> 00:42:46.520
[LAUGHING] Mm-hmm.You smell so good.

00:42:47.956 --> 00:42:50.089
How are you doing?JOSEPH: So I, uh...

00:42:50.132 --> 00:42:52.570
I brought my wrestling tapes.Good. We'’ll watch them tonight.

00:42:52.613 --> 00:42:54.615
I'’ve booked us a surprise
adventure for the afternoon.

00:42:54.659 --> 00:42:56.225
We have 15 minutes.LOLA: Oh, all right.

00:42:56.269 --> 00:42:57.879
Is it snowboarding?JOE: No, no, no.

00:42:57.923 --> 00:43:00.273
You'’re gonna love it, I promise.
All right?

00:43:00.316 --> 00:43:01.840
All right, I got this.How was the drive?

00:43:01.883 --> 00:43:03.189
LOLA: Not bad.Oh, good.

00:43:03.232 --> 00:43:04.538
Come on.

00:43:04.582 --> 00:43:06.671
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

00:43:09.064 --> 00:43:10.544
[APPLAUSE]

00:43:13.068 --> 00:43:15.941
♪ Waiting on the sunshine

00:43:19.118 --> 00:43:21.468
♪ To come around again

00:43:25.559 --> 00:43:27.909
♪ It'’s been a long time ♪

00:43:32.392 --> 00:43:33.567
♪ Since we let it in

00:43:35.482 --> 00:43:37.049
♪ Take me down

00:43:41.096 --> 00:43:43.142
♪ To the fault line

00:43:47.233 --> 00:43:49.975
♪ Take me down

00:43:52.804 --> 00:43:54.588
♪ Where the river starts

00:44:03.292 --> 00:44:05.251
♪ Take me into your heart

00:44:05.294 --> 00:44:07.427
I gotta take you on a mechanical
bull so you can practice.

00:44:07.470 --> 00:44:09.255
I'’m telling you,
I think you can beat the record.

00:44:12.214 --> 00:44:13.694
Excuse me.

00:44:13.738 --> 00:44:15.565
Excuse me, aren'’t...?

00:44:15.609 --> 00:44:17.524
aren'’t you that fella
that'’s walking across America?

00:44:17.567 --> 00:44:18.743
I am.

00:44:18.786 --> 00:44:20.179
Sir, it is a pleasure
to meet you.

00:44:20.222 --> 00:44:22.094
Dad'’s a celebrity.MAN: This is my wife.

00:44:22.137 --> 00:44:24.836
So nice to meet you.

00:44:24.879 --> 00:44:27.447
Hi, I'’m...I'm his wife.

00:44:27.490 --> 00:44:29.014
And Jadin'’s mom.WOMAN: Nice to meet you.

00:44:29.057 --> 00:44:31.451
And this is our son, Joseph.Hi, I'’m Joseph.

00:44:31.494 --> 00:44:33.801
WOMAN: Hi, Joseph.MAN: I think it'’s incredible

00:44:33.845 --> 00:44:36.412
what you'’re doing for your son.WOMAN: Yes.

00:44:36.456 --> 00:44:38.719
Takes real courage to stick up
for what you believe in.

00:44:38.763 --> 00:44:40.895
Well, it'’s got to be done.
This can'’t go on.

00:44:40.939 --> 00:44:42.680
WOMAN: Yes.MAN: Would you mind

00:44:42.723 --> 00:44:44.638
if we got our picture with you?

00:44:44.682 --> 00:44:47.772
Sure. Absolutely.WOMAN: Yes. Thank you.

00:44:47.815 --> 00:44:49.338
Honey, take the picture.

00:44:49.382 --> 00:44:51.340
Oh. Okay.

00:44:51.384 --> 00:44:52.733
MAN: Thank you.WOMAN: Thank you.

00:44:54.996 --> 00:44:56.868
[CAMERA CLICKS]

00:44:56.911 --> 00:44:59.087
JOE: That'’s real good work.JOSEPH: I'’m getting faster.

00:44:59.131 --> 00:45:00.828
JOE:
You see how much leverage
you got on him?

00:45:00.872 --> 00:45:02.090
He ain'’t going nowhere.

00:45:02.134 --> 00:45:04.049
That'’s good.

00:45:04.092 --> 00:45:05.659
That'’s real good.

00:45:08.096 --> 00:45:11.099
You seen this?Yeah.

00:45:11.143 --> 00:45:12.492
I was there when it happened.

00:45:12.535 --> 00:45:13.972
He'’s got some pretty decent
takedowns,

00:45:14.015 --> 00:45:15.669
but these transitions
are a lot more fluid.

00:45:15.713 --> 00:45:16.931
What'’s coach saying?

00:45:16.975 --> 00:45:18.585
Coach is saying
I'’m doing good.

00:45:18.628 --> 00:45:20.369
You know, he'’s...Well, I'’m seeing right here.

00:45:20.413 --> 00:45:23.024
We'’ve been working out,
but he says I might want

00:45:23.068 --> 00:45:24.809
to look into losing
a few pounds.

00:45:24.852 --> 00:45:27.725
What? This boy'’s just growing.
No, no, no, no, no.

00:45:27.768 --> 00:45:30.466
You go up a couple pounds.
Go up another weight class.

00:45:30.510 --> 00:45:32.425
LOLA: Brush your teeth.Tell the coach what I said.

00:45:32.468 --> 00:45:33.818
All right.Make sure you tell coach.

00:45:33.861 --> 00:45:35.341
We got an early morning
tomorrow, okay?

00:45:35.384 --> 00:45:36.821
Okay.Hey, hey, hey, hey.

00:45:36.864 --> 00:45:38.779
"Hey, hey, hey."[DOOR CLOSES]

00:45:38.823 --> 00:45:41.434
Get him to bed
so I can get you to bed.

00:45:41.477 --> 00:45:43.175
I'’m trying.
You wanna help me?

00:45:43.218 --> 00:45:45.046
I'’m just...

00:45:45.090 --> 00:45:46.918
I can'’t believe how much
he'’s improved.

00:45:46.961 --> 00:45:48.136
LOLA:
I know. Isn'’t it great?

00:45:52.010 --> 00:45:53.315
I found this.

00:45:53.359 --> 00:45:55.187
I thought you might like
to see it.

00:45:55.230 --> 00:45:56.536
What'’s that?

00:45:56.579 --> 00:45:58.233
Uh, well...

00:45:58.277 --> 00:45:59.452
Let me see.

00:46:13.379 --> 00:46:14.597
Where'’d this come from?

00:46:14.641 --> 00:46:17.035
It was on his grave,
in some flowers.

00:46:17.078 --> 00:46:18.863
One of them little shits
that bullied my boy

00:46:18.906 --> 00:46:21.082
into the ground had the nerve
to stand over his grave?

00:46:21.126 --> 00:46:23.128
Well, Joe--Why?

00:46:23.171 --> 00:46:25.217
And now he wants
to apologize?

00:46:25.260 --> 00:46:27.001
Who'’s this for?

00:46:27.045 --> 00:46:28.916
It'’s not for Jadin,
because he'’s dead and buried.

00:46:28.960 --> 00:46:30.178
And not for me.

00:46:30.222 --> 00:46:31.832
What am I supposed to do
with this, Lola?

00:46:31.876 --> 00:46:33.791
I don'’t know I thought
you'’d like to see it, Joe.

00:46:33.834 --> 00:46:36.054
I shouldn'’t have brought it.No, don'’t keep secrets from me.

00:46:36.097 --> 00:46:37.969
Don'’t even threaten that.I'’m not keeping secrets.

00:46:38.012 --> 00:46:39.884
I'’m out here on my own,
no money, alone, all right?

00:46:39.927 --> 00:46:42.538
No, the truth is all I have.
Shit!

00:46:42.582 --> 00:46:44.584
Well...That little son of a bitch.

00:46:44.627 --> 00:46:48.370
...you'’re...you're on a walk
for forgiveness, right?

00:46:48.414 --> 00:46:49.850
For...

00:46:49.894 --> 00:46:51.896
There'’s no apologies
with me, okay?

00:46:51.939 --> 00:46:54.594
There is no forgiveness here.
They buried that with my boy.

00:46:54.637 --> 00:46:56.552
Do you understand that, Lola?

00:46:58.293 --> 00:46:59.729
I should not have
brought that letter.

00:46:59.773 --> 00:47:01.731
Lola...what?

00:47:01.775 --> 00:47:04.169
It'’s all yours, Dad.JOE: Those sons of bitches.

00:47:04.212 --> 00:47:05.997
Fucking kidding me.LOLA: Don'’t worry about it.

00:47:06.040 --> 00:47:07.825
Don'’t think about it then, Joe.

00:47:09.522 --> 00:47:13.091
Son of a bitch, Joseph,
get your ass in here now!

00:47:13.134 --> 00:47:15.484
Did you hear what the fuck
I said? Now!

00:47:15.528 --> 00:47:17.573
You see what you'’ve done? Look!

00:47:17.617 --> 00:47:19.314
How many times
have I told you, huh?

00:47:19.358 --> 00:47:21.360
How many times to put the seat
up when you take a piss?

00:47:21.403 --> 00:47:23.188
LOLA: Joe!A hundred? A thousand?

00:47:23.231 --> 00:47:25.146
Nobody'’s fucking talking to you.
Shut the fuck up.

00:47:25.190 --> 00:47:26.626
What do you think,
I'’m your maid?

00:47:26.669 --> 00:47:27.932
Hey! Just stop!

00:47:40.901 --> 00:47:42.729
LOLA:
Jesus Christ.

00:47:44.165 --> 00:47:45.732
[SIGHS]

00:48:07.972 --> 00:48:09.538
Hey.

00:48:09.582 --> 00:48:12.585
What I saw in those practice
films was damn good, son.

00:48:12.628 --> 00:48:15.631
You keep it up, you'’ll be state
champ by the time I get back.

00:48:18.199 --> 00:48:19.374
I love you.

00:48:21.768 --> 00:48:22.900
Did you hear me?

00:48:28.122 --> 00:48:31.343
Yeah. Take care, Dad.

00:48:32.605 --> 00:48:33.780
And what else?

00:48:37.001 --> 00:48:38.437
I love you too.

00:48:43.355 --> 00:48:44.965
Hey.Hey.

00:48:45.009 --> 00:48:46.880
So I'’ll see you in Illinois,
or maybe even before.

00:48:48.577 --> 00:48:49.752
Yeah. We'’ll see.

00:48:51.406 --> 00:48:53.495
Well, I thought that was
the plan, Lola.

00:48:55.410 --> 00:48:56.803
We talked about this.
Lola, don'’t--

00:48:56.846 --> 00:48:59.240
Joe, don'’t you. Don't.

00:49:02.765 --> 00:49:04.376
What are you doing
out here?

00:49:04.419 --> 00:49:06.726
Because we'’ve supported you
every step of the way,

00:49:06.769 --> 00:49:08.989
because we know
what'’s right for you.

00:49:09.033 --> 00:49:11.861
But you'’re supposed to be
on some forgiveness walk?

00:49:11.905 --> 00:49:14.473
And you act the way
you acted last night.

00:49:18.825 --> 00:49:22.568
Our son is gone, Joe.
Gone.

00:49:25.832 --> 00:49:28.487
You'’re gonna lose
another one,

00:49:28.530 --> 00:49:30.706
because we'’re not gonna
sit around waiting

00:49:30.750 --> 00:49:32.012
for another one
of your outbursts.

00:49:32.056 --> 00:49:33.274
Lola--It'’s not gonna happen.

00:49:33.318 --> 00:49:34.884
Lola, I--No, no, no, no, no.

00:49:34.928 --> 00:49:38.453
Keep walking. Keep walking.
Don'’t come home.

00:49:38.497 --> 00:49:42.892
Okay? Don'’t come home till you
figure out whatever it is

00:49:42.936 --> 00:49:44.285
that you need
to figure out.

00:49:44.329 --> 00:49:46.418
But I hope that'’s not
you being some

00:49:46.461 --> 00:49:49.377
Facebook celebrity and getting
your pictures taken with people.

00:49:52.380 --> 00:49:54.121
Are you walking
for Jadin, Joe?

00:49:55.775 --> 00:49:57.646
Because if you'’re walking
for Jadin,

00:49:57.690 --> 00:49:59.997
then you let Jadin let you know
when it'’s time to come home.

00:50:03.043 --> 00:50:04.653
I love you, Lola.

00:50:06.046 --> 00:50:08.483
[CAR DOOR CLOSES]

00:50:08.527 --> 00:50:11.138
You guys drive safe, okay?
I love you.

00:50:11.182 --> 00:50:13.358
LOLA:
Be safe.

00:50:17.536 --> 00:50:20.408
[CAR ENGINE STARTS]Be careful, all right?

00:50:26.806 --> 00:50:29.156
♪ Goodbye, darkness

00:50:29.200 --> 00:50:33.508
♪ Oh, to the light

00:50:33.552 --> 00:50:35.597
♪ Every morning

00:50:35.641 --> 00:50:38.470
♪ Is an end to a night

00:50:40.689 --> 00:50:46.043
♪ Every season
Is about to bring a change ♪

00:50:47.957 --> 00:50:53.137
♪ There'’s a new chance given
Every day ♪

00:50:53.180 --> 00:50:56.792
♪ And it brings it back to

00:50:59.839 --> 00:51:04.844
♪ Yeah, it brings it
Back to me ♪

00:51:14.810 --> 00:51:16.290
JOE:
Hey.

00:51:18.075 --> 00:51:19.554
Goddamn it!

00:51:23.645 --> 00:51:25.647
Who in the fuck--?

00:51:25.691 --> 00:51:27.562
Fucking shit!

00:51:48.931 --> 00:51:51.238
♪ Goodbye, evening

00:51:51.282 --> 00:51:54.285
♪ Hello to the night

00:51:56.504 --> 00:52:01.030
♪ I'’m not seeing the wrong
From the right ♪

00:52:03.337 --> 00:52:07.907
♪ Walking blindly
On a path without an end ♪

00:52:10.214 --> 00:52:14.957
♪ In the morning
Come to me yet again ♪

00:52:15.001 --> 00:52:19.658
♪ Then bring it all
Back to me ♪

00:52:22.095 --> 00:52:27.144
♪ Yeah, it brings it
All back to me ♪

00:52:37.458 --> 00:52:38.851
[PHONE RINGS]

00:52:45.292 --> 00:52:46.946
Hello?LOLA [ON PHONE]: Hey.

00:52:46.989 --> 00:52:48.861
Hey.

00:52:48.904 --> 00:52:52.865
So I found something,

00:52:52.908 --> 00:52:55.302
and I want you
to hear it, okay?

00:52:55.346 --> 00:52:58.087
I found it in his backpack,

00:52:58.131 --> 00:52:59.915
and I wanted to--Well, what is it?

00:52:59.959 --> 00:53:01.439
Can you read it to me?

00:53:01.482 --> 00:53:03.092
Yeah. Yeah. It'’s, uh...

00:53:04.485 --> 00:53:08.054
it'’s an essay
that he wrote.

00:53:11.927 --> 00:53:13.407
"It'’s a horrible thing
to be surrounded

00:53:13.451 --> 00:53:16.236
"by people who hate you

00:53:16.280 --> 00:53:18.847
"when they don'’t even know you,

00:53:18.891 --> 00:53:20.849
"for a reason you can'’t change.

00:53:22.416 --> 00:53:24.940
"One they can'’t comprehend
or understand.

00:53:26.899 --> 00:53:28.292
"This is the life I live.

00:53:30.598 --> 00:53:32.252
"Some nights,
I look for the pieces

00:53:32.296 --> 00:53:33.514
"I'’ve dropped along the way.

00:53:35.995 --> 00:53:38.693
"On these nights,
I cry myself to sleep

00:53:38.737 --> 00:53:41.087
"and hope tomorrow
is a better day.

00:53:41.130 --> 00:53:42.436
"But it never is.

00:53:44.395 --> 00:53:46.962
"Every year, I look forward
to school starting again,

00:53:47.006 --> 00:53:50.270
"but it never turns out
the way I expect it to.

00:53:50.314 --> 00:53:54.231
"I pretend not to notice
the looks I'’m given.

00:53:54.274 --> 00:53:58.322
"Avoiding eye contact
with every guy bigger than me.

00:53:58.365 --> 00:54:00.498
"I'’m surrounded by people
who hate me.

00:54:00.541 --> 00:54:02.500
"Who want me dead.

00:54:04.284 --> 00:54:07.156
"I can'’t keep talking myself
out of it.

00:54:07.200 --> 00:54:09.724
"I don'’t know what I'm gonna do
if I don'’t.

00:54:09.768 --> 00:54:14.686
"It'’s only getting worse.
I just want it to be over.

00:54:14.729 --> 00:54:17.254
It will be soon enough."

00:54:18.733 --> 00:54:20.300
[WHISPERS]
Don'’t fucking look at us, fag.

00:54:23.825 --> 00:54:26.524
What are you doing in here?
Girl'’s bathroom's over there.

00:54:26.567 --> 00:54:29.178
Come hang out with us.

00:54:29.222 --> 00:54:31.703
BOY 1:
What the fuck did we say
about looking at us?

00:54:31.746 --> 00:54:33.922
BOY 2:
All he wants to do
is watch us change.

00:54:33.966 --> 00:54:37.274
He'’s shaking,
he wants it so bad.

00:54:37.317 --> 00:54:39.972
BOY 3: Look at him shake.Stop. Stop. Stop.

00:54:40.015 --> 00:54:43.323
It'’s okay. It's okay.
It'’s okay. It's okay.

00:54:43.367 --> 00:54:46.283
Let me ask you something.

00:54:46.326 --> 00:54:49.068
You like dick?[BOYS LAUGH]

00:54:49.111 --> 00:54:50.548
Huh? Answer me.

00:54:50.591 --> 00:54:53.986
BOY: I think he does.You like fucking dicks.

00:54:54.029 --> 00:54:55.292
I'’ll give you dick.

00:54:58.207 --> 00:54:59.426
Stop, stop.

00:54:59.470 --> 00:55:01.646
It'’s okay, it's okay.

00:55:03.691 --> 00:55:06.128
Fuck it.
You like fucking dick?

00:55:06.172 --> 00:55:08.696
Fucking dick?
You like fucking dick!

00:55:08.740 --> 00:55:11.046
[ALL SHOUTING]

00:55:13.179 --> 00:55:15.834
You like that?
You like that? Huh?

00:55:15.877 --> 00:55:17.749
[LAUGHS]

00:55:21.230 --> 00:55:23.537
LOLA:
Can we even give you
the names of the boys?

00:55:23.581 --> 00:55:25.713
MRS. SWIFT:
No, no, no, no. No names.

00:55:27.889 --> 00:55:29.326
Have you considered
changing schools?

00:55:32.024 --> 00:55:34.026
JOE:
Yeah. We applied
to another high school.

00:55:34.069 --> 00:55:36.115
We were out of their district,
so they rejected him.

00:55:38.204 --> 00:55:40.380
What about therapy?

00:55:40.424 --> 00:55:45.429
We did, um, a few sessions
of, uh, family therapy.

00:55:45.472 --> 00:55:47.561
And I don'’t need therapy.
They do.

00:55:47.605 --> 00:55:50.912
Jadin, I hear
what you'’re saying.

00:55:52.436 --> 00:55:53.785
You don'’t think
the situation

00:55:53.828 --> 00:55:55.221
might settle itself down
on its own?

00:55:55.264 --> 00:55:56.396
No, I don'’t.

00:55:59.094 --> 00:56:00.748
Okay.

00:56:00.792 --> 00:56:02.402
[SIGHS]
Mr. and Mrs. Bell,

00:56:02.446 --> 00:56:05.013
I'’m not saying it was
acceptable behavior

00:56:05.057 --> 00:56:07.581
on the part of the other
students, because it wasn'’t,

00:56:07.625 --> 00:56:09.670
but we live in
a very small town,

00:56:09.714 --> 00:56:11.019
and the high school
student body

00:56:11.063 --> 00:56:14.109
is a reflection
of our community.

00:56:14.153 --> 00:56:16.677
If you file a formal complaint
against these boys,

00:56:16.721 --> 00:56:19.593
it may very well cause you more
trouble in the long run

00:56:19.637 --> 00:56:20.812
than it'’s worth.

00:56:24.076 --> 00:56:25.512
You don'’t know
what it'’s like...

00:56:27.819 --> 00:56:29.124
to feel like...

00:56:34.565 --> 00:56:36.828
you have to muster up
the courage to ask for help,

00:56:36.871 --> 00:56:39.396
and then only to find out
that the person who can

00:56:39.439 --> 00:56:41.136
just couldn'’t be bothered.

00:56:42.311 --> 00:56:46.272
Son, I am trying
to help you.

00:56:46.315 --> 00:56:49.101
I'’m trying to stop you
from making a mistake.

00:56:57.718 --> 00:56:59.503
[LOLA AND JOE SHOUTING]

00:57:15.562 --> 00:57:17.042
[CELL PHONE BUZZES]

00:57:40.848 --> 00:57:42.720
MARCIE: Hey, it'’s Marcie.[GROANS]

00:57:44.548 --> 00:57:46.027
Hi, Marcie, it'’s me.

00:57:46.071 --> 00:57:48.029
Can you please call me
when you get the chance.

00:57:48.073 --> 00:57:50.771
I just need to talk to you.
Please call me when you can.

00:57:55.559 --> 00:57:57.648
[SIGHS]

00:58:03.305 --> 00:58:05.177
DOLORES:
Remember when we used to take...

00:58:05.220 --> 00:58:06.700
[CELL PHONE RINGS]Oh, just a second.

00:58:06.744 --> 00:58:08.876
Sorry.

00:58:08.920 --> 00:58:10.095
Jadin?

00:58:12.532 --> 00:58:15.274
Hi, it'’s me.
Can you talk for a second?

00:58:15.317 --> 00:58:17.276
DOLORES:
Jadin? Hi, it'’s Dolores.

00:58:17.319 --> 00:58:19.191
Sorry. We'’re in the car.

00:58:19.234 --> 00:58:21.367
Hi, Mrs. Roberts.
I didn'’t know it was you.

00:58:21.410 --> 00:58:24.065
DOLORES:
I'’m taking Colleen
to go see her cousin

00:58:24.109 --> 00:58:25.763
over in Pendleton
for the weekend.

00:58:29.418 --> 00:58:32.987
Okay. Do you think you could
stop by and pick me up?

00:58:33.031 --> 00:58:35.990
We are already out of Le Grande.

00:58:36.034 --> 00:58:37.470
So I'’m sorry.

00:58:37.514 --> 00:58:39.037
[GROANS] But why don'’t you go

00:58:39.080 --> 00:58:41.430
to our house and relax?

00:58:41.474 --> 00:58:43.345
Be alone for a little while.

00:58:43.389 --> 00:58:45.826
I can'’t be alone right now,
okay?

00:58:45.870 --> 00:58:48.046
And I can'’t go home.

00:58:48.089 --> 00:58:49.917
So I need you to please
just come pick me up.

00:58:49.961 --> 00:58:51.571
Mom?

00:58:51.615 --> 00:58:52.790
[WHISPERING]
No.

00:58:55.314 --> 00:58:57.925
DOLORES:
Can it wait until Monday?

00:58:57.969 --> 00:59:01.320
We'’ll be back on Sunday night,
and we'’ll see you on Monday.

00:59:01.363 --> 00:59:03.540
[SNIFFLES] And whatever it is,

00:59:03.583 --> 00:59:05.716
I'’m sure that we can
take care of it then.

00:59:05.759 --> 00:59:09.284
Listen, Jadin, I will call you
first thing Sunday

00:59:09.328 --> 00:59:10.895
when we get back, okay?

00:59:10.938 --> 00:59:13.245
Just--[PHONE BEEPS]

00:59:16.944 --> 00:59:19.556
[SIGHS AND SNIFFLES]

01:00:20.051 --> 01:00:21.269
LOLA:
Come on, Jadin.

01:00:21.313 --> 01:00:23.750
Come on, Jadin!

01:00:23.794 --> 01:00:25.926
[SOBBING]
Come on, Jadin!

01:00:28.581 --> 01:00:30.148
No, no, no.

01:00:30.191 --> 01:00:32.629
Come on, come on, come on.

01:00:34.239 --> 01:00:36.676
[♪♪]

01:00:41.942 --> 01:00:43.683
[SOBBING]

01:01:08.447 --> 01:01:10.579
JIMMY:
Would you mind if I say grace?

01:01:10.623 --> 01:01:12.669
LOLA: Sure.JIMMY: It'’s okay?

01:01:12.712 --> 01:01:14.627
LOLA: No. Go ahead.It'’s okay?

01:01:18.762 --> 01:01:20.589
[JIMMY CLEARS THROAT]

01:01:22.113 --> 01:01:24.332
Our Father,
who art in heaven.

01:01:24.376 --> 01:01:27.161
We come before thee
with heavy hearts.

01:01:28.728 --> 01:01:31.644
We ask that thy loving
kindness be upon us.

01:01:31.688 --> 01:01:32.950
And thy guidance.

01:01:32.993 --> 01:01:34.473
We are indeed thankful
for the gift

01:01:34.516 --> 01:01:36.562
Jadin has been in our lives.

01:01:36.605 --> 01:01:39.478
We'’ll need help
on this new path.

01:01:39.521 --> 01:01:41.567
We are thankful
for this meal before us

01:01:41.610 --> 01:01:44.004
and ask thy blessing upon it.

01:01:44.048 --> 01:01:45.745
In Jesus'’ name, Amen.

01:01:47.660 --> 01:01:49.096
Thank you.

01:02:12.685 --> 01:02:14.861
You gotta get out of this room,
Joe.

01:02:21.825 --> 01:02:23.696
You'’re pale as milk.

01:02:28.832 --> 01:02:33.924
Put some clothes on.
Go outside. Take a walk.

01:02:36.753 --> 01:02:38.232
Pretty sure
it'’ll do you good.

01:02:51.768 --> 01:02:53.726
Joe, I'’m hurting too.

01:03:00.298 --> 01:03:01.778
[RAIN PATTERING]

01:03:33.200 --> 01:03:34.549
What are you doing?

01:03:36.595 --> 01:03:38.466
Just going for a drive.

01:03:41.295 --> 01:03:42.993
Go back inside, Joseph.

01:03:45.822 --> 01:03:49.564
No. Not until you tell me
what'’s going on.

01:03:54.004 --> 01:03:55.614
Get your ass
back in the house.

01:03:57.094 --> 01:03:58.617
I need to go for a drive,

01:03:58.660 --> 01:04:00.837
and you need to get back inside
and get into bed.

01:04:00.880 --> 01:04:02.012
Now.

01:04:29.822 --> 01:04:31.258
[GUN CLICKS]

01:04:36.002 --> 01:04:37.612
Go back inside, Joseph.

01:04:40.877 --> 01:04:42.008
Now.

01:04:55.326 --> 01:04:58.416
[INHALES DEEPLY AND SIGHS]

01:05:07.816 --> 01:05:09.731
[♪♪]

01:05:24.355 --> 01:05:25.922
[SOBS SOFTLY]

01:05:47.030 --> 01:05:48.335
[SIZZLING]LOLA: Shit.

01:05:52.296 --> 01:05:53.732
Here you go.

01:05:53.775 --> 01:05:55.081
JOSEPH: Thanks, Mom.MARCIE: Thanks.

01:05:56.604 --> 01:05:58.606
Eat it while it'’s hot.

01:05:58.650 --> 01:06:00.173
JOSEPH:
Can you pass me the syrup?

01:06:00.217 --> 01:06:01.479
Yes.LOLA: I have some bacon too.

01:06:01.522 --> 01:06:03.916
JOSEPH: It may seem...[DOOR CLOSES]

01:06:03.960 --> 01:06:05.613
...people are just
going after each other,

01:06:05.657 --> 01:06:08.181
but it requires a lot of skill.

01:06:08.225 --> 01:06:11.010
Whoa! You'’re up.

01:06:11.054 --> 01:06:12.794
Hi.

01:06:14.144 --> 01:06:15.580
Lola, I got something
to tell you.

01:06:15.623 --> 01:06:17.712
LOLA: Okay.Could you give me a few minutes?

01:06:17.756 --> 01:06:20.193
Yes, Joe.

01:06:20.237 --> 01:06:22.195
What is it?

01:06:22.239 --> 01:06:26.808
I'’ve decided to walk
across America to New York City.

01:06:28.332 --> 01:06:29.550
What?

01:06:29.594 --> 01:06:30.987
Did you hear what I said?

01:06:31.030 --> 01:06:32.205
LOLA [LAUGHS]:
Yeah.

01:06:32.249 --> 01:06:33.467
When did you decide that?

01:06:33.511 --> 01:06:35.165
Well, just earlier this morning.

01:06:35.208 --> 01:06:38.342
When I told you to take a walk,
I meant around the block.

01:06:38.385 --> 01:06:39.865
Not to New York City.Lola,

01:06:39.908 --> 01:06:42.128
I'’ll talk to everybody
along the way.

01:06:42.172 --> 01:06:44.609
Anybody who will listen.
About bullying.

01:06:44.652 --> 01:06:47.046
About the damage it does.
About what it did to our boy.

01:06:47.090 --> 01:06:49.831
I'’m doing this for Jadin, Lola.
It'’s what he wants.

01:06:49.875 --> 01:06:51.877
It'’s what he'd want me to do,
I know it is.

01:06:51.920 --> 01:06:55.576
I mean, he told us he wanted to
live there someday, remember?

01:06:55.620 --> 01:06:58.318
Yeah. Yeah.

01:06:58.362 --> 01:07:00.842
Uh, I don'’t know.

01:07:00.886 --> 01:07:03.541
How do you--? How do you--?
How do you pay for it?

01:07:03.584 --> 01:07:06.326
Well, I'’ll-- I'll get the money.
I can fundraise.

01:07:06.370 --> 01:07:08.241
I mean, everybody'’s against
bullying, aren'’t they?

01:07:08.285 --> 01:07:12.506
No. If they were,
this wouldn'’t have happened.

01:07:15.553 --> 01:07:17.903
Let me get you something to eat
before you head on the highway.

01:07:17.946 --> 01:07:20.079
So nice that you'’re
back up again.

01:07:20.123 --> 01:07:21.776
Can I get some coffee, Marcie?MARCIE: Yeah.

01:07:24.692 --> 01:07:26.999
Hey. You didn'’t tell your mama
about last night, did you?

01:07:27.043 --> 01:07:28.479
No, sir.

01:07:28.522 --> 01:07:31.177
Come here.
I love you, buddy.

01:07:31.221 --> 01:07:32.744
Hey. I love you so much.

01:07:32.787 --> 01:07:34.398
This is gonna be
something great, all right?

01:07:34.441 --> 01:07:36.313
You'’ll see. I promise.Yeah.

01:07:36.356 --> 01:07:38.141
[TRUCK HORN BLARES]

01:07:49.500 --> 01:07:50.675
[SIGHS]

01:07:55.245 --> 01:07:57.203
[PHONE LINE RINGS]

01:08:02.469 --> 01:08:03.688
LOLA [ON PHONE]:
Joe?

01:08:05.994 --> 01:08:07.213
Joe?

01:08:07.257 --> 01:08:08.432
Lola.

01:08:11.783 --> 01:08:13.611
Joe, say something.
Why are you not talking?

01:08:13.654 --> 01:08:15.352
You'’re scaring me.

01:08:15.395 --> 01:08:18.355
I don'’t-- I don't think
I can keep going.

01:08:18.398 --> 01:08:22.010
Joe...come on.

01:08:22.054 --> 01:08:24.796
You gotta keep going.I just wanna come home.

01:08:24.839 --> 01:08:27.842
Oh, Joe, you can'’t come home.
Come on.

01:08:29.583 --> 01:08:31.716
You'’re doing it
for Jadin, remember?

01:08:31.759 --> 01:08:35.154
Yeah. For Jadin.
I remember.

01:08:35.198 --> 01:08:36.634
Yeah. And for us.

01:08:38.201 --> 01:08:40.116
Do you want to talk to Joseph?

01:08:40.159 --> 01:08:42.074
Is he there? Yeah.

01:08:42.118 --> 01:08:43.989
Yeah, he'’s getting ready
for his wrestling match.

01:08:44.032 --> 01:08:45.599
We'’re late.

01:08:45.643 --> 01:08:47.166
I know he'’d love
to talk to you, though.

01:08:47.210 --> 01:08:48.820
Not like this.

01:08:48.863 --> 01:08:50.952
Just...just tell him...

01:08:52.780 --> 01:08:55.305
tell him I'’ll call--
I'’ll call him later.

01:08:57.089 --> 01:08:59.047
Okay, okay. I'’ll tell him.

01:09:01.224 --> 01:09:02.399
Lola?

01:09:04.705 --> 01:09:06.838
I saw him.

01:09:06.881 --> 01:09:08.448
He was right there
in front of me.

01:09:10.102 --> 01:09:12.496
And he just kept leading me
for miles, and...

01:09:14.237 --> 01:09:16.108
I followed him all the way,
and then...

01:09:19.851 --> 01:09:21.331
he just disappeared.

01:09:25.639 --> 01:09:27.075
JOSEPH:
Mom! We'’re late!

01:09:28.599 --> 01:09:29.774
LOLA:
Joe.

01:09:31.210 --> 01:09:32.646
JOSEPH:
Mom, did you pack the shoes?

01:09:32.690 --> 01:09:34.431
LOLA:
Yeah. Everything'’s in there.

01:09:34.474 --> 01:09:37.085
Okay. All right.

01:09:37.129 --> 01:09:38.261
I love you.

01:09:39.610 --> 01:09:40.785
I love you.

01:09:43.527 --> 01:09:45.181
[SNIFFLES]

01:09:55.930 --> 01:09:57.758
Kindness. And respect.

01:09:57.802 --> 01:10:00.108
Kindness is the most important
quality a human being can have,

01:10:00.152 --> 01:10:01.893
or that a parent can have.

01:10:01.936 --> 01:10:04.156
Shit, when I was walking and
talking these past six months,

01:10:04.200 --> 01:10:06.289
you never know how long you have
the people that you love

01:10:06.332 --> 01:10:07.986
and that love you,

01:10:08.029 --> 01:10:11.076
so you damn well
better love now, all right?

01:10:11.119 --> 01:10:12.904
No matter how confused
or misguided or messed up

01:10:12.947 --> 01:10:14.253
you think they are.

01:10:14.297 --> 01:10:15.820
Because it'’s probably
a good chance

01:10:15.863 --> 01:10:17.648
that you'’re just as messed up
as they are.

01:10:17.691 --> 01:10:20.259
You gotta look in the mirror,
and gotta have accountability.

01:10:20.303 --> 01:10:21.434
All right?

01:10:27.962 --> 01:10:29.137
[SIGHS]

01:10:39.844 --> 01:10:41.976
[COUNTRY MUSIC PLAYS
OVER RADIO]

01:10:45.719 --> 01:10:47.982
MAN:
Hey, there. You'’re Joe Bell?

01:10:48.026 --> 01:10:49.288
That I am. Yes.

01:10:49.332 --> 01:10:50.550
MAN:
I'’ve got something for you.

01:10:52.248 --> 01:10:53.379
Oh!

01:10:54.772 --> 01:10:56.034
Holy shit!

01:10:58.036 --> 01:11:00.168
Come here!

01:11:00.212 --> 01:11:01.866
So we got Coke in here,
and some ice.

01:11:01.909 --> 01:11:03.781
We got water over here
in this one.

01:11:03.824 --> 01:11:05.391
That'’s a solar panel.

01:11:05.435 --> 01:11:08.264
We'’ll pay you for this.
You'’re a good man, Jim.

01:11:08.307 --> 01:11:10.788
Thank you so much.
Thank you.

01:11:10.831 --> 01:11:13.138
♪ Beyond the things you do

01:11:13.181 --> 01:11:14.618
[CAR HORN HONKS]

01:11:17.011 --> 01:11:20.450
♪ What became of all those
Mountains ♪

01:11:22.974 --> 01:11:25.411
♪ We found so hard to climb

01:11:27.195 --> 01:11:30.460
♪ We'’ll take the high road ♪

01:11:32.244 --> 01:11:35.073
♪ Don'’t leave your side ♪

01:11:35.116 --> 01:11:37.336
♪ Till you see it shine

01:11:39.382 --> 01:11:44.343
♪ We'’ll take the high road ♪

01:11:44.387 --> 01:11:46.563
♪ Baby, here it comes

01:11:46.606 --> 01:11:49.914
♪ Don'’t you close your eyes ♪

01:12:00.011 --> 01:12:01.578
Yeah, I...

01:12:01.621 --> 01:12:03.362
You know, last night,
I had a corral

01:12:03.406 --> 01:12:05.843
a bunch of strangers up the
street to come and hear me talk.

01:12:05.886 --> 01:12:09.150
Shit. I gotta go.

01:12:09.194 --> 01:12:11.762
Time for me to explain myself
to another lawman.

01:12:19.552 --> 01:12:21.337
[TRUCK DOOR CLOSES]

01:12:21.380 --> 01:12:22.555
Howdy, sir.

01:12:22.599 --> 01:12:24.296
Hi.

01:12:24.340 --> 01:12:26.385
While you'’re taking your hands
out of your pockets,

01:12:26.429 --> 01:12:28.692
why don'’t you tell me
where you'’re headed.

01:12:28.735 --> 01:12:30.302
New York City.

01:12:32.130 --> 01:12:33.436
Looking for a ride
out here then?

01:12:33.479 --> 01:12:34.959
No. I'’m walking.

01:12:35.002 --> 01:12:36.656
Walking all the way to New York?

01:12:38.658 --> 01:12:40.399
Joe Bell.

01:12:40.443 --> 01:12:41.922
Yeah.

01:12:41.966 --> 01:12:43.576
Well, what'’s your mission,
Mr. Bell?

01:12:43.620 --> 01:12:45.578
Well, like it says there
on my card,

01:12:45.622 --> 01:12:47.232
I talk to people
about bullying.

01:12:47.275 --> 01:12:48.886
About how it'’s not okay
to torment somebody

01:12:48.929 --> 01:12:50.366
because they'’re different
from you.

01:12:50.409 --> 01:12:51.802
Different how?

01:12:53.151 --> 01:12:55.936
Like my son Jadin.
He was gay.

01:12:55.980 --> 01:12:58.199
He was bullied so bad in school,
he couldn'’t take it anymore.

01:13:02.116 --> 01:13:03.596
You been on the road
six months?

01:13:03.640 --> 01:13:04.858
Yeah.

01:13:04.902 --> 01:13:06.991
I started out
in La Grande, Oregon.

01:13:10.298 --> 01:13:12.431
When was the last time
you had a warm meal?

01:13:17.436 --> 01:13:20.657
Sam, meet my new friend,
Joe Bell.

01:13:20.700 --> 01:13:22.963
Joe, Sam.

01:13:23.007 --> 01:13:26.402
Sam'’s my girl of all work,
and our dispatcher.

01:13:26.445 --> 01:13:27.881
Have a seat.

01:13:29.622 --> 01:13:30.841
Nice to meet you, ma'’am.

01:13:30.884 --> 01:13:32.408
It'’s a pleasure, Joe.

01:13:32.451 --> 01:13:35.367
I called the chaplain
like you asked, Sheriff.

01:13:35.411 --> 01:13:37.108
He says once you give him
the green light,

01:13:37.151 --> 01:13:39.153
he'’ll announce a youth meeting
with Joe as the speaker

01:13:39.197 --> 01:13:41.242
here at the high school
this afternoon.

01:13:42.330 --> 01:13:43.723
Joe?

01:13:43.767 --> 01:13:45.159
Yeah, as long as you'’re sure

01:13:45.203 --> 01:13:46.813
you can drop me off
where you picked me up,

01:13:46.857 --> 01:13:48.859
because I intend to walk every
single step of the way.

01:13:48.902 --> 01:13:50.077
Then let'’s get you fed.

01:13:52.950 --> 01:13:56.693
Lunch here is usually
last night'’s leftovers.

01:13:56.736 --> 01:13:58.564
I'’m a sorry cook,
but I'’ve learned the basics

01:13:58.608 --> 01:13:59.783
of a microwave.

01:14:03.656 --> 01:14:06.398
That'’s my son, William.

01:14:08.705 --> 01:14:11.490
He wasn'’t your typical
teenage boy.

01:14:11.534 --> 01:14:13.840
He didn'’t have that
"girl crazy" attitude

01:14:13.884 --> 01:14:15.929
that we had when we
were his age.

01:14:19.933 --> 01:14:22.458
Janine'’s pinto beans are even
better the next day.

01:14:22.501 --> 01:14:23.807
Hmm. Yeah.

01:14:23.850 --> 01:14:25.504
And the day after that.

01:14:25.548 --> 01:14:27.332
I haven'’t had beans this good
since I left home.

01:14:27.375 --> 01:14:28.725
[CHUCKLES]

01:14:28.768 --> 01:14:30.814
The stove is strictly
Janine'’s domain.

01:14:30.857 --> 01:14:32.903
I barely know
how to boil water.

01:14:32.946 --> 01:14:34.121
She'’s a keeper.

01:14:37.516 --> 01:14:41.651
I was on the family computer
one day, and I...

01:14:41.694 --> 01:14:43.174
I saw that Will
had been searching

01:14:43.217 --> 01:14:44.741
what it meant to be gay.

01:14:54.011 --> 01:14:56.187
I have to admit, at first, I...

01:14:58.145 --> 01:15:01.409
I worried that I'’d been
too tough on him growing up.

01:15:01.453 --> 01:15:03.411
We were raised Christians,
after all.

01:15:06.023 --> 01:15:08.460
I wondered if he might have
told me sooner himself

01:15:08.504 --> 01:15:12.551
if I hadn'’t been
such a hard-core lawman.

01:15:12.595 --> 01:15:15.685
I thought about
that same thing.

01:15:15.728 --> 01:15:18.165
About whether I was
too hard on my boy.

01:15:18.209 --> 01:15:21.038
Well, if Jadin knew
before he died

01:15:21.081 --> 01:15:25.216
that you loved him
and accepted him, that'’s what...

01:15:25.259 --> 01:15:27.697
that'’s what matters,
isn'’t it?

01:15:27.740 --> 01:15:29.437
I want to believe
that that'’s the way it was,

01:15:29.481 --> 01:15:32.919
but I don'’t know if it was.

01:15:32.963 --> 01:15:34.791
[SIGHS]

01:15:36.619 --> 01:15:38.969
When I broke the news
to my dad

01:15:39.012 --> 01:15:42.146
that his oldest grandson
was gay, he surprised me.

01:15:42.189 --> 01:15:44.365
He'’s a Marine.

01:15:44.409 --> 01:15:46.324
And he was a lot more
accepting

01:15:46.367 --> 01:15:48.369
of William being gay
than I was.

01:15:51.503 --> 01:15:54.158
And that made me take a long,
hard look at myself.

01:15:57.640 --> 01:15:59.946
My father
didn'’t understand.

01:15:59.990 --> 01:16:02.340
Still doesn'’t to this day,
even with Jadin being gone.

01:16:04.342 --> 01:16:06.910
You know a lot of folks believe
that being gay is a choice?

01:16:08.520 --> 01:16:09.956
All things being equal,

01:16:10.000 --> 01:16:12.219
Jadin would have never
chosen to be bullied.

01:16:12.263 --> 01:16:13.656
With all things being equal,

01:16:13.699 --> 01:16:15.832
he would have never chosen
the way he died.

01:16:17.921 --> 01:16:19.096
You know, Ben...

01:16:20.967 --> 01:16:22.534
when I started out walking...

01:16:24.144 --> 01:16:26.494
I didn'’t know
what I was doing, really.

01:16:26.538 --> 01:16:30.063
I thought I just wanted
to make Jadin'’s life...

01:16:31.935 --> 01:16:33.980
and his death
matter somehow.

01:16:37.157 --> 01:16:38.332
But what I come to know...

01:16:40.378 --> 01:16:42.075
is I'’ve been walking
and trying to figure out

01:16:42.119 --> 01:16:43.773
why my son did what he did.

01:16:47.341 --> 01:16:49.256
And make sense out
of the part that I played

01:16:49.300 --> 01:16:50.954
in his decision
to end his life.

01:16:53.696 --> 01:16:56.655
I mean, I was too caught up
in my own feelings

01:16:56.699 --> 01:16:58.091
about what other people
would think

01:16:58.135 --> 01:17:00.920
to see how alone
my own son must have felt.

01:17:00.964 --> 01:17:03.140
I should'’ve known how bad
it was for him.

01:17:03.183 --> 01:17:05.621
I...I should'’ve known
all along.

01:17:05.664 --> 01:17:06.926
But instead I just...

01:17:08.841 --> 01:17:10.626
[SIGHS]

01:17:10.669 --> 01:17:13.759
I just made Jadin'’s being gay
all about Joe Bell.

01:17:15.674 --> 01:17:16.806
About me.

01:17:18.155 --> 01:17:19.373
Not about my boy.

01:17:27.338 --> 01:17:28.513
Joe...

01:17:31.734 --> 01:17:34.432
I think you made me
realize something.

01:17:38.697 --> 01:17:41.178
It never crossed my mind until
this very moment that...

01:17:43.180 --> 01:17:46.487
William might have considered
taking his own life.

01:17:53.756 --> 01:17:56.367
I don'’t think I could've
carried on if he had.

01:18:08.814 --> 01:18:10.555
I never let him know
it was okay.

01:18:12.165 --> 01:18:13.601
And I gotta live with that.

01:18:16.909 --> 01:18:19.216
Don'’t make that same mistake,
Ben.

01:18:19.259 --> 01:18:21.348
Don'’t do that to your son
or yourself.

01:18:24.787 --> 01:18:26.440
[SIGHS]

01:18:44.763 --> 01:18:47.200
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

01:19:07.177 --> 01:19:09.222
[♪♪]

01:19:25.064 --> 01:19:26.239
Um...

01:19:30.853 --> 01:19:31.984
CROWD:
Shh!

01:19:35.596 --> 01:19:37.337
Uh...

01:19:37.381 --> 01:19:39.165
thanks for having me
here today.

01:19:39.209 --> 01:19:41.820
Uh, my name is Joe Bell.

01:19:41.864 --> 01:19:44.867
I'’m really honored to be here
to speak with you today

01:19:44.910 --> 01:19:47.217
about something that I feel
is very, very important

01:19:47.260 --> 01:19:50.089
not only to myself,
but to all of you.

01:19:56.269 --> 01:19:58.271
[♪♪]

01:20:38.659 --> 01:20:40.444
I think you and I
are a lot more alike

01:20:40.487 --> 01:20:42.359
than you'’d want
to admit, Dad.

01:20:47.494 --> 01:20:52.195
It took me 13 years

01:20:52.238 --> 01:20:57.983
to realize that living a lie
wasn'’t really living at all.

01:20:59.202 --> 01:21:00.943
It only took you six months.

01:21:02.161 --> 01:21:03.336
No, son.

01:21:05.948 --> 01:21:08.341
It took me 45 years
and six months.

01:21:10.039 --> 01:21:11.605
I'’m sorry, Jadin.

01:21:11.649 --> 01:21:13.259
I'’m so sorry.

01:21:20.745 --> 01:21:24.053
I never meant for you to feel
that I didn'’t love you.

01:21:26.838 --> 01:21:28.231
No, son. I never felt that.

01:21:31.408 --> 01:21:32.975
And I always knew
you loved me.

01:21:35.238 --> 01:21:36.456
Everything just...

01:21:37.980 --> 01:21:39.329
hurt so much.

01:21:42.898 --> 01:21:44.987
But deep down,
I always knew.

01:21:47.728 --> 01:21:49.252
That means the world to me,
son.

01:21:51.036 --> 01:21:52.646
The whole breathing world.

01:21:54.083 --> 01:21:55.649
[SNIFFLES]

01:22:14.059 --> 01:22:15.234
Dad?

01:22:20.283 --> 01:22:21.458
I love you.

01:22:25.418 --> 01:22:27.551
I know. I know.

01:22:30.336 --> 01:22:31.816
[SIGHS]

01:22:33.122 --> 01:22:34.340
[WHISPERING]
I love you, buddy.

01:22:36.603 --> 01:22:37.822
[SNIFFLING]

01:22:45.438 --> 01:22:48.006
JOE:
Hey, Lola, honey. It'’s me.

01:22:48.050 --> 01:22:50.878
The reason I'’m calling is
to tell you that I love you.

01:22:50.922 --> 01:22:52.054
You and Joseph.

01:22:55.057 --> 01:22:57.624
Thanks for putting up with me
all these years.

01:22:57.668 --> 01:22:59.278
I don'’t know what would've
happened to me

01:22:59.322 --> 01:23:00.932
if you hadn'’t come along
and taken me in.

01:23:00.976 --> 01:23:03.674
I'’m just truly lucky
to have my family.

01:23:06.111 --> 01:23:08.592
There'’s a lot of things
I'’ve learned out here,

01:23:08.635 --> 01:23:10.376
with nobody but me for company.

01:23:12.074 --> 01:23:13.640
Some of it'’s been hard
to come to know.

01:23:15.338 --> 01:23:17.601
Real hard.

01:23:17.644 --> 01:23:19.864
I know I'’ve still got
a long road ahead of me.

01:23:19.907 --> 01:23:21.997
And I'’ll be better about
staying in touch from now on.

01:23:22.040 --> 01:23:23.172
You'’ll see.

01:23:24.564 --> 01:23:26.479
You give my love to our boy.

01:23:26.523 --> 01:23:27.828
I love you.

01:23:38.361 --> 01:23:39.840
[CELL PHONE BUZZES]

01:23:42.495 --> 01:23:44.671
Sheriff Westin.

01:23:44.715 --> 01:23:46.847
PATROLMAN [ON PHONE]:
Sheriff, you'’re requested
on scene.

01:23:46.891 --> 01:23:48.284
U.S. 40 just west
of Wild Horse,

01:23:48.327 --> 01:23:50.590
a pedestrian was struck.

01:23:53.463 --> 01:23:55.987
DISPATCHER:
10-50 you call investigations.

01:23:56.031 --> 01:23:58.511
Lincoln County Sheriff
arriving on scene.

01:23:59.817 --> 01:24:01.645
[INDISTINCT RADIO CHATTER]

01:24:40.162 --> 01:24:42.077
Hurry to Jadin, Joe.

01:24:46.124 --> 01:24:48.213
[♪♪]

01:25:25.337 --> 01:25:27.383
[♪♪]

01:26:04.637 --> 01:26:06.944
[BRANDI CARLILE'’S
"THE JOKE" PLAYING]

01:26:17.998 --> 01:26:21.350
♪ You'’re feeling nervous
Aren'’t you, boy? ♪

01:26:22.655 --> 01:26:24.962
♪ With your quiet voice

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♪ And impeccable style

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♪ Don'’t ever let them
Steal your joy ♪

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♪ And your gentle ways

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♪ To keep '’em
From running wild ♪

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♪ They can kick dirt
In your face ♪

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♪ Dress you down and tell you

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♪ That your place
Is in the middle ♪

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♪ When they hate
The way you shine ♪

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♪ I see you tugging
On your shirt ♪

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JOE:
Okay, boys, mama...

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Thank you!JOE: You guys get together.

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ALL:
Happy Easter!

01:27:05.089 --> 01:27:06.438
JOE:
Okay, I want to tell you guys.

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Look at me.

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Look at the camera.

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I love you guys so much,
with all my heart.

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You guys are such great kids
and mamas.

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♪ Let '’em spin ♪

01:27:17.841 --> 01:27:23.977
♪ Let '’em scatter in the wind ♪

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♪ I have been to the movies

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♪ I have seen how it ends

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♪ And the joke'’s on them ♪

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♪ You get discouraged
Don'’t you, girl? ♪

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♪ It'’s your brother's world
For awhile longer ♪

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♪ You gotta dance
With the devil ♪

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♪ On a river
To beat the stream ♪

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♪ Call it living the dream

01:28:08.457 --> 01:28:10.894
♪ Call it kicking the ladder

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♪ They come to kick dirt
In your face ♪

01:28:16.160 --> 01:28:19.032
♪ To call you weak
And then displace you ♪

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♪ After carrying your baby
On your back ♪

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♪ Across the desert

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♪ I saw your eyes
Behind your hair ♪

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♪ And you'’re looking tired ♪

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♪ But you don'’t look scared ♪

01:28:37.224 --> 01:28:40.010
♪ Let '’em laugh ♪

01:28:40.053 --> 01:28:42.882
♪ While they can

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♪ Let '’em spin ♪

01:28:46.625 --> 01:28:52.849
♪ Let '’em scatter in the wind ♪

01:28:52.892 --> 01:28:55.417
♪ I have been to the movies

01:28:55.460 --> 01:28:59.551
♪ And I'’ve seen how it ends ♪

01:28:59.595 --> 01:29:05.688
♪ And the joke'’s on them ♪

01:29:15.698 --> 01:29:21.878
♪ Let '’em laugh
While they can ♪

01:29:21.921 --> 01:29:24.881
♪ Let '’em spin ♪

01:29:24.924 --> 01:29:30.408
♪ Let '’em scatter in the wind ♪

01:29:30.452 --> 01:29:33.629
♪ I have been to the movies

01:29:33.672 --> 01:29:37.023
♪ I have seen how it ends

01:29:38.285 --> 01:29:43.682
♪ And the joke'’s on ♪

01:29:44.944 --> 01:29:47.991
♪ Them

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♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh

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♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh

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