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<i>Oh, God, there must be a better way.</i>

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<i>There must be a better way</i>
<i>to describe things,</i>

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<i>to arrange words in a new way,</i>
<i>to use words,</i>

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<i>to take you to a place beyond words.</i>

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<i>There must be.</i>

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I'm so glad that we could finally
sit down together.

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<i>I know we haven't had a chance</i>
<i>to do that since Sonia retired.</i>

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I know that she is...
She is very sad to go.

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-Understandably, but...
-It's just such a shame.

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Retiring at, what, 70? Why?

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-Well--
-It doesn't make any sense to me.

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Well, I know that...
That her husband obviously hasn't been--

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The husband is ill. The children
are needy. The children are 40.

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But are more needy than ever.
So that's confusing.

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And how long have you been
at the agency?

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I know we've spoken on the phone...

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...for a couple of years.

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Well, I've been...

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I think it's been eight years
I've been at the agency now,

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and I've been assisting Sonia
for the last seven.

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So, actually, I know it may seem
that I'm new, but I've been...

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-Gosh.
-...working on your account

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and working on your sales,

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and I should say that there is
a lot of excitement at the agency

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regarding your new manuscript,

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and without wanting to pry too much,
is there anything you might be able...

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-...to share with us?
-Not really. Not at this point, no.

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I'm sorry to be so blunt, but...

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Sonia never invaded my process
in any way,

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and she always gave me free rein.

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She gave me the dignity
and the respect of complete autonomy.

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-Everyone's very excited. Um...
-Great.

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What do you like about my writing?

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I mean, what pulls you to the material?

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Well, um...

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I have to say, I...

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The first book of yours that I read was
<i>You Always, You Never.</i>

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-And I was--
-Did you read <i>A Function of the Body?</i>

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Was that one of the ones
that you liked?

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That was a much, much better book...
Quite frankly.

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<i>You Always, You Never,</i>
yes, it has a residual impact.

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Uh, it won the Pulitzer, but it's...

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It's a completely different thing
than the Footling Prize.

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Oh, yes, I meant to bring that up,
actually. They are...

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They are asking for an answer.
They're... they're...

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Obviously, they're hoping
that you'll be able to make it, and...

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Do you realize that they don't give the
Footling Prize in fiction every year?

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It's something that other
writers confer on writers.

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-Well--
-I'm so proud, but I just, uh...

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I can't attend. I can't attend.

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It's killing me.

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-But...
-Well--

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I can't fly, you see, so...

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-I can't fly.
-Do--

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-And along with the other things--
-Would you consider...

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I mean, there may be a way for you
to get to the UK without having to fly.

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I mean, there's a crossing.

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There's a ship, the <i>Queen Mary 2,</i>
that goes from New York to Southampton.

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I happen to know the
director of the Cunard Line.

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You know, they have regular crossings
between--

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Transatlantic crossings, and I'm sure...

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I'm sure if I spoke to him, they'd be
willing to to give you a state room

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and whatever you needed.
I mean, in exchange for...

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Perhaps if you did a little talk
on the boat, then...

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-Oh, well, I don't think...
-Then something could be arranged.

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Just hear me out. I think...

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Yes, I think that might be the solution
to be able to get you there,

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because, obviously, this prize
means so much to you, as it should,

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and I know that they'd be thrilled
if you were able to make it.

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And it really is a lovely way to travel.
It's a beautiful ship.

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Could I bring guests?

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-Yes, of course.
-How many?

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And my main feeling is just feeling
like I'm a burden on you, and...

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Just, like, shoving myself
in here when, you know...

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And I appreciate it.
Mika appreciates it.

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You know, I invited you--
May I just remind you?

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I invited you.
I'm your mom. I'm your family.

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What's that for if not to...

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I still don't understand it.

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What... How could...
You did this company together.

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And I don't understand
how he...

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-I think he thinks that I--
-...cut you out. Why he would do that?

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He used the program
that I had developed or I...

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It was my idea. He actually did the...
He was the engineer on it.

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I don't know, honey.
I really don't know.

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I'm clueless, actually, about
what you're going through with this.

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That a friend should do this to you is
kind of outrageous.

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-It's shock... It's...
-It makes me feel violent.

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-Mom.
-It does. Easily.

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Don't let that motherfucker near me.

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Why wouldn't you go on this trip?
I mean, it sounds fascinating.

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Well, Cheryl needs more prep time
before her parole hearing.

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Mom, the hearing
is six months from now.

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-Roberta's going, right?
-Yes, Roberta's definitely going.

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And you haven't heard from Alice
since Dad died.

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And when did you last see
her and Roberta?

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Wow, I don't think we've seen each other
since... Whoa...

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Since we all got together
in San Francisco.

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-That was, like, when was that?
-That was...that was over 30 years ago.

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Well, you got to go.

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You have... I think you have to go,
just to find out why she's reaching out.

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And why you two? Why now?

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-How are you?
-Fine.

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So I am very frustrated right now.

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-Oh, dear.
-I know.

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-I called ahead... Are you Carol?
-No, I am Roberta, as you can see...

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-I do see it now.
-If you have eyeballs.

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I do. Okay, I called ahead
and spoke to someone named Carol.

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Perhaps was your manager, I don't know.
And I don't want to get you in trouble.

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But she did tell me that you have
a peacock blue panty and bra set.

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And that is what I'm here for,
and all I am seeing is teal.

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-So...
-Can I just point out

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that the difference between teal
and peacock is as fine as a hair.

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Maybe to you. I have a highly developed
sense of color. I'm a designer.

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There's too much yellow in this.
Now, let me help you understand.

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Clovis, remember,
I am leaving today for two weeks,

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and I'll be back on the 16th, okay?

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-Wait, you're going away?
-Yeah.

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I told you all this in the email
about three weeks ago.

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-I gave you the whole itinerary.
-I didn't get your email.

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-I think you did.
-I didn't get an email from you.

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-Because I sent it.
-Okay, can you get someone to cover you?

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-'Cause I have you five days next week.
-No, but I think you can.

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Because that's your job as manager.
Bye-bye.

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<i>Who are the other two people</i>
<i>she invited?</i>

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They're her... like, her two
oldest friends from college.

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-Really?
-They've been friends for 50 years.

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-Jesus.
-Just been chillin'.

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Or I guess they haven't seen
each other in a while, I'm not sure.

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I don't know, for our generation,

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what friendship will look like
over a long period of time.

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At least, I've only had friends
for four years at a time,

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and these women have been
friends for 50 years, so--

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Trying to study them and learn. Maybe
I can learn something from it, you know?

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-And, what, she's, like, a TV person?
-No, she's a writer. She's... An author.

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-Do you not know this?
-You didn't tell us anything about this.

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What do you mean? You don't know
who my aunt is? You don't?

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Alice Hughes, <i>You Always, You Never.</i>

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It won the Pulitzer Prize. It's been
turned into a movie and a miniseries

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in the last, I don't know,
15, 20 years or something.

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-You haven't seen it?
-This was years ago? Or this was recent?

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I'm really surprised. It's, like...
Well, you should read it.

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It's an unbelievable book
and a great movie.

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Can you not go? Why would you go?

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-Yeah.
-Aw, thanks.

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No, it's not a "thanks" moment.

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I felt so much love from you
in that moment, so I had to say thanks.

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No, I got to go.
I got to go do, um...

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I just got to go do my thing, you know?
Take care of these lovely old women.

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She desperately wants to accept
the Footling Prize, but she can't fly,

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so I've booked her on the <i>Queen Mary 2</i>
with her two friends and her nephew.

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I'm not... She gets on the boat,
she takes the boat,

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and then you take the boat, too,
for what purpose, exactly?

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For years, she's been hinting to Sonia
she's revisiting one of her characters.

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And we're hoping it's Rowena
from <i>You Always, You Never.</i>

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Then again, whenever anyone mentions
<i>You Always, You Never, </i>she slags it off.

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If she hated that book so much,
why'd she put it out in the first place?

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-It was a long time ago, I understand...
-Know what we're gonna get?

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Our luck, we're gonna get a sequel
to <i>A Function of the Body.</i>

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Well, she did mention she considers
that to be a much better book.

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Oh, my God. Of course she did.
Here's a thought.

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How about a sequel
to <i>You Always, You Never,</i>

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and maybe make it better than the
original? How's that for a bold idea?

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I completely agree, which is why
I think I need to be on that ship.

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It's a big ask. It's not just the cost
of the trip. You'll be out of office.

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-I don't see that there's any other way.
-All right.

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But if this doesn't work out,
you're gonna wear it.

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All right.

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-I feel useful. I feel useful.
-Yeah.

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-It's a wonderful feeling.
-That's a good feeling.

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Sometimes it's a heartbreaking thing
'cause, you know, they won't get parole.

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You've been preparing,
and the parole board just...

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Yes, yes.

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-Anyway, anyway...
-You're fighting the good fight.

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I don't know. I'm trying. I'm trying.

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The main thing is the connection
with the women...

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-Is just such a gift.
-It's everything.

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It's a gift.

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What about you, Bert?
What have you been up to?

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Oh, well...
Not much, really, not much.

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I don't advocate for anybody except...

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I advocate for women's brassieres,
basically. Just...

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-For what, hon?
-I sell lingerie.

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-Your what, honey? You're in what?
-I sell lingerie.

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Tyler, you brought the books.
I've brought you books.

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-Oh, how wonderful.
-So that I hope...

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I hope you'll look at the <i>Realm</i>
<i>of the Owl, </i>which is her seminal work.

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She didn't write very much,
but the work that she did write is...

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Groundbreaking, and I think
it's important that we all somehow...

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share the work before we go
and stand at her... at her grave.

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Thank you.

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So... speaking of writing, I'm just...
I'm just not going to be available.

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I've got a draft of a novel
I'm trying to finish.

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I have, uh...

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This address that's...

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You know, they don't give
this prize every year.

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-But we'll have supper together and--
-Good. Yes.

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You can tell me all the things
that I'm missing out on.

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Here's to picking up the conversation
where we left off.

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You know? And here's to, maybe,

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reconnecting the gang
of three we used to be.

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-Cheers.
-Cheers.

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-Yeah, thank you. Have a good one.
-Good night. Thank you. Good night.

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Hey, Bert, want to go
have a drink later?

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No, I can't.

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<i>Hey, don't freak out.</i>
<i>This is Karen, Alice's agent.</i>

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<i>I'm actually on this ship. Can you meet</i>
<i>me in the Verandah bar in 15 minutes?</i>

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What?

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-Hi. Karen?
-Yeah, hi.

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-Tyler.
-Nice to meet you.

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-Yeah, nice to meet you, too.
-Heard so much about you from Alice.

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-Really?
-Yeah.

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-Cool.
-Would you like a drink?

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-Sure, yeah. What'd you have?
-Vodka soda.

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Okay, so can I have a Margarita?

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-Can you do margarita?
-Yeah, sure.

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Oh, it's amazing. I'm a guest
of a friend who's speaking,

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so I'm very lucky
to get to be on this ship.

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I wouldn't have been able to otherwise,
and it's magnificent.

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Yeah. You know, I was only in the pub.
They have a pub on here.

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I was in the pub, and I actually...
I actually managed to sell...

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You're not supposed to do it,
but I actually managed to sell

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a big quantity of my shoelaces
to a guy in the pub.

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-Yeah, yeah.
-Turned a profit on the ship.

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I have already, yeah. I've done that.
I know.

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We're turning over a lot of money in it.

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How much money would that be?

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-Do you want to know?
-Yeah.

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-I've just met you. I mean...
-I want to know.

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Let me start at the beginning.

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Alice has a manuscript
that's due really soon,

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and everyone at the agency
is getting a bit nervous

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and wondering whether
it's gonna be finished on time,

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whether it's gonna be a sequel
to <i>You Always, You Never, and...</i>

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The problem is nobody there
has seen a manuscript.

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I mean, I haven't seen a manuscript.
Have you seen a manuscript?

00:18:16.854 --> 00:18:19.732
No, I have not seen a manuscript.

00:18:19.899 --> 00:18:22.818
Okay, the thing is...

00:18:22.985 --> 00:18:25.363
I was meant to get some answers
the other day,

00:18:25.529 --> 00:18:32.828
and I didn't get any answers, and
if I don't get any information soon...

00:18:32.995 --> 00:18:37.667
I'm gonna be in deep shit.
So this is... this is really important.

00:18:37.833 --> 00:18:42.296
And I'd really appreciate
it if you could help me out.

00:18:42.463 --> 00:18:45.549
I need... It's a really
delicate situation, and...

00:18:45.716 --> 00:18:48.344
You know, I don't want to approach her
at the wrong time,

00:18:48.511 --> 00:18:52.014
and I can't really get close enough
to see what her frame of mind is.

00:18:52.181 --> 00:18:57.228
And I thought maybe you
could maybe give me a heads-up as to...

00:18:57.395 --> 00:19:03.192
how she is, whether she's okay,
how's she's feeling and, and then...

00:19:03.359 --> 00:19:04.944
-Right.
-Yeah.

00:19:29.677 --> 00:19:31.888
Today won't be any different
than any other day.

00:19:32.054 --> 00:19:33.431
-Okay.
-And that will be...

00:19:33.598 --> 00:19:40.187
I'm going to start work on my manuscript
and then I'm going to swim at 3:00.

00:19:40.354 --> 00:19:45.651
Butler will bring-- Pierre will bring me
some sort of lunch, I suppose, at 1:00.

00:19:45.818 --> 00:19:50.907
Then I'll swim, and then I'll come back
and work for two more hours.

00:19:51.073 --> 00:19:52.909
Six o'clock,
I'll start to get ready for dinner.

00:19:53.075 --> 00:19:59.123
Dinner at 7:00 and then back
to work or bed or both.

00:20:00.166 --> 00:20:02.209
I'll probably work in bed.

00:20:02.376 --> 00:20:07.173
And is there anything
you need from me within...

00:20:07.340 --> 00:20:09.759
Working before lunch...

00:20:09.926 --> 00:20:14.013
No, most of what I want you to do
is I just want you to...

00:20:14.180 --> 00:20:17.683
Take care of them.
And make sure that they're happy.

00:20:17.850 --> 00:20:20.978
I just don't know
what's going on with them.

00:20:21.145 --> 00:20:24.649
You know, I tried last night to...
What happened after I left?

00:20:24.815 --> 00:20:27.568
-Did you go out with Roberta and Susan?
-Um, no.

00:20:27.735 --> 00:20:31.155
Did they go out together? Did they
speak to each other? Did they...

00:20:31.322 --> 00:20:35.451
I don't... I don't know.
I was... I just went home.

00:20:35.618 --> 00:20:37.995
-And started writing some stuff down.
-You just went home?

00:20:38.162 --> 00:20:41.499
-Yeah.
-But, Ty...

00:20:43.167 --> 00:20:48.005
Part of what I... I really do want you
to watch out over them.

00:20:48.172 --> 00:20:50.841
'Cause I'm not able to be with them,
and I don't know what they're thinking.

00:20:51.008 --> 00:20:54.720
I don't know what they're saying.
I don't know... I really...

00:20:54.887 --> 00:20:58.933
It's very important to me that I know
something of their state of mind.

00:20:59.100 --> 00:21:03.729
-Okay. Yeah. Absolutely, I'll, um...
-All right?

00:21:03.896 --> 00:21:07.441
-But I just want to...
-That makes me think of something.

00:21:07.608 --> 00:21:11.529
Can you hand me the manuscript
that's over there, on the couch?

00:21:16.951 --> 00:21:20.246
-And a pen. The red pen.
-Yeah.

00:21:20.413 --> 00:21:22.582
Got two pens.

00:21:22.748 --> 00:21:24.792
-Thank you, darling.
-Here you go.

00:21:24.959 --> 00:21:28.921
Is... is this your new book?

00:21:30.464 --> 00:21:33.342
Yeah. This is it.

00:21:34.802 --> 00:21:37.346
What's it about?

00:21:39.640 --> 00:21:44.562
it is about trying to catch
lightning in a bottle

00:21:44.729 --> 00:21:47.398
for a second time.

00:21:50.067 --> 00:21:51.611
Nice.

00:22:05.166 --> 00:22:07.835
<i>She's in her room till 3:00,</i>
<i>then she swims,</i>

00:22:08.002 --> 00:22:12.256
<i>then back in her room,</i>
<i>then dinner at 7:00, then bed.</i>

00:22:13.716 --> 00:22:15.968
<i>Thanks.</i>

00:22:25.603 --> 00:22:28.356
<i>What are you doing after dinner?</i>

00:23:09.814 --> 00:23:12.483
Five. Dealer, 21. Sorry.

00:23:22.952 --> 00:23:28.165
And I'm so curious to talk to you,
Alice and Roberta,

00:23:28.332 --> 00:23:32.003
about what it was like
to come up together

00:23:32.169 --> 00:23:37.383
without any technology,
without... to...

00:23:37.550 --> 00:23:41.262
I can't help but feel like
you have a glimpse

00:23:41.429 --> 00:23:47.143
into the experience
of what it's like to not...

00:23:47.310 --> 00:23:52.064
be obscured by any sort
of false selves

00:23:52.231 --> 00:23:56.319
or to really be intimate
with each other in moments of...

00:23:56.485 --> 00:24:02.617
So I kind of feel like I'm spending time
with three...

00:24:02.783 --> 00:24:06.037
-Almost, like...
-Dinosaurs.

00:24:06.203 --> 00:24:08.456
-No. I was gonna say...
-I'm teasing you.

00:24:08.623 --> 00:24:10.583
-Well, I know...
-I'm teasing you.

00:24:10.750 --> 00:24:15.254
I just think that there's...
It is true that after your generation,

00:24:15.421 --> 00:24:20.509
I don't know who will carry the torch
for...

00:24:20.676 --> 00:24:25.348
What really...
What humanity really is.

00:24:25.514 --> 00:24:28.476
I don't think it's that different,
you know?

00:24:28.643 --> 00:24:34.190
I know it's vastly different
when you look at it from the outside.

00:24:34.357 --> 00:24:37.193
And what's happened
to your generation...

00:24:37.360 --> 00:24:40.655
I mean, since you were two,
you've been typing away,

00:24:40.821 --> 00:24:45.243
and so you've grown up with this thing
like an appendage on you, you know?

00:24:45.409 --> 00:24:47.912
But I think that...

00:24:49.080 --> 00:24:54.126
Depending on what you join up with
on, you know, the computer...

00:24:54.293 --> 00:24:58.339
Facebook or Instagram
or whatever you're joining up with...

00:24:58.506 --> 00:25:00.591
Or not...

00:25:00.758 --> 00:25:05.930
That human communication
is basically the same because

00:25:06.097 --> 00:25:07.974
humans are basically the same.

00:25:42.341 --> 00:25:44.427
So, who should I sign this to?

00:25:44.594 --> 00:25:47.638
Arabella. It'd be very nice.

00:25:47.805 --> 00:25:51.392
-That's my granddaughter.
-Granddaughter?

00:25:51.559 --> 00:25:56.397
-Yeah, she's only about, 15 years old?
-She's seven today. It's her birthday.

00:25:56.564 --> 00:25:58.357
-It's her birthday?
-She's on board, yeah.

00:25:58.524 --> 00:26:01.193
-She's on board? Where is she?
-Oh, yeah, she's by the pool.

00:26:01.360 --> 00:26:03.905
-By the pool?
-Naturally.

00:26:04.071 --> 00:26:08.159
Well, that's... Can she swim?

00:26:14.749 --> 00:26:18.127
Okay, so don't look all
at the same time,

00:26:18.294 --> 00:26:21.672
but does anybody know who that guy is,
sitting behind me to the right?

00:26:21.839 --> 00:26:26.052
He was surrounded by a group
of fans earlier today.

00:26:26.219 --> 00:26:29.513
Oh, I think that's him.

00:26:29.680 --> 00:26:31.474
-I know that's him.
-Who?

00:26:31.641 --> 00:26:35.186
-Who?
-Kelvin Kranz!

00:26:35.353 --> 00:26:37.271
-Who?
-Who is he?

00:26:37.438 --> 00:26:39.982
-He's a writer.
-He's a huge mystery writer.

00:26:40.149 --> 00:26:43.819
-He's written hundreds of books.
-Have you read any of them?

00:26:43.986 --> 00:26:45.655
-Oh, all of them.
-Almost all of them.

00:26:45.821 --> 00:26:50.660
-Every one of them. Some twice.
-Good Lord. How is that possible?

00:26:50.826 --> 00:26:54.664
-How is that possible...
-It's a thrill... He's not like you.

00:26:54.830 --> 00:26:58.501
Nothing like you at all.
He's a thriller, a mystery writer.

00:26:58.668 --> 00:27:01.045
-A thriller writer.
-Yes, I understand.

00:27:01.212 --> 00:27:04.507
What I don't understand...

00:27:04.674 --> 00:27:06.717
is how people...

00:27:06.884 --> 00:27:11.639
How you can read the...
The prose just...

00:27:11.806 --> 00:27:14.517
That kind of writing seems to me like...

00:27:14.684 --> 00:27:17.228
The prose seems like Styrofoam
or something.

00:27:17.395 --> 00:27:21.607
-But it's plot-driven.
-Yes, but the plots are so simplified.

00:27:21.774 --> 00:27:24.402
It's like a jigsaw puzzle. You know,
you match the color and the shape,

00:27:24.569 --> 00:27:27.697
and then you put it all together.
It's all very pat and neat and done.

00:27:27.863 --> 00:27:32.159
And then, you know, it's a picture
that's completely unrelated to life.

00:27:32.326 --> 00:27:34.662
Life is a mystery, a true mystery.

00:27:34.829 --> 00:27:39.333
-It's true.
-Yes. I can't wait for the next one.

00:27:39.500 --> 00:27:42.878
And also, it's like a puzzle
you get to solve.

00:27:43.045 --> 00:27:46.048
-Maybe I'll go over there.
-No, no, don't.

00:27:46.215 --> 00:27:49.010
No, not yet. Don't...

00:27:49.176 --> 00:27:50.887
Wait until later.

00:27:52.555 --> 00:27:54.056
-Thank you.
-Ma'am, pleasure.

00:27:54.223 --> 00:27:57.810
-Why don't we go get a drink tonight?
-Oh, I can't.

00:27:57.977 --> 00:27:59.729
I'm going to the masquerade ball.

00:28:02.690 --> 00:28:05.610
Sounds like fun.

00:28:23.586 --> 00:28:25.880
<i>Can you hang out?</i>

00:28:27.548 --> 00:28:28.925
Fuck, yeah.

00:28:47.026 --> 00:28:50.029
I saw the manuscript.

00:28:50.196 --> 00:28:52.949
Just saw it. I didn't...
I asked her what it was about.

00:28:53.115 --> 00:28:58.704
She was not really interested
in sharing, but she did say that

00:28:58.871 --> 00:29:05.461
it's about... trying to catch lightning
in a bottle for the second time.

00:29:10.841 --> 00:29:14.637
Lightning in a bottle
for the second time, that...

00:29:14.804 --> 00:29:17.890
That could mean a sequel. Right?

00:29:20.977 --> 00:29:24.855
Yeah, I suppose it could.
I think it could mean a lot of things.

00:29:25.022 --> 00:29:27.233
Well, that's pretty exciting.

00:29:51.716 --> 00:29:55.011
I thought that was the direction
I was gonna take my life in,

00:29:55.177 --> 00:30:00.141
and I went to college,
and I sort of... I don't know.

00:30:00.308 --> 00:30:02.101
The more I separated from my dad,

00:30:02.268 --> 00:30:05.897
the more I saw actually
how sketchy of a guy he was.

00:30:06.063 --> 00:30:10.151
He was, like...
kind of an ignorant human being

00:30:10.318 --> 00:30:13.905
in his politics and his...

00:30:14.071 --> 00:30:18.034
Just kind of the way he treated...

00:30:18.200 --> 00:30:22.288
people and specifically,
I think, women.

00:30:22.455 --> 00:30:25.166
And...

00:30:25.333 --> 00:30:28.961
And... Yeah, and then...

00:30:29.128 --> 00:30:35.468
He actually got sent to jail
because he...

00:30:35.635 --> 00:30:41.140
blackmailed some very important people
at the top of these companies

00:30:41.307 --> 00:30:44.518
that... that that he worked for.

00:30:44.685 --> 00:30:48.689
-Yeah.
-I don't know if you heard about that.

00:30:48.856 --> 00:30:52.485
-Yeah, I heard something about that.
-Yeah, that's my dad.

00:30:52.652 --> 00:30:56.030
-Anyway...
-It's okay.

00:30:56.197 --> 00:31:01.702
So... Are you even or odd?
I'm odd.

00:31:01.869 --> 00:31:04.997
-I'm even.
-Okay.

00:31:05.164 --> 00:31:06.666
-All right.
-Good night.

00:31:06.832 --> 00:31:11.337
-Good night. See you tomorrow?
-Yeah, definitely.

00:31:11.504 --> 00:31:13.673
-Okay.
-Okay.

00:31:41.492 --> 00:31:47.999
So it's strange to me the idea
that she would come here and avoid you.

00:31:48.165 --> 00:31:52.295
It's very strange to me. It's strange
because she jumped at the opportunity.

00:31:52.461 --> 00:31:54.755
You know, she jumped at the invitation.

00:31:54.922 --> 00:32:00.761
Susan, it took two weeks for her to make
the arrangements to be able to leave.

00:32:00.928 --> 00:32:05.725
Then maybe she's trying...
She wanted to come here to...

00:32:05.892 --> 00:32:07.935
To make you uneasy.

00:32:09.186 --> 00:32:11.439
Oh, I don't...

00:32:11.606 --> 00:32:13.482
-Or she wanted--
-Do you think she did?

00:32:13.649 --> 00:32:15.318
Well, maybe not as a whole,
but, you know, some...

00:32:15.484 --> 00:32:21.991
Like, when I was a kid, I would get mad
at my parents and yell at them

00:32:22.158 --> 00:32:24.493
to see that they loved me.

00:32:24.660 --> 00:32:26.537
Do you know what I mean?
I would hurt them.

00:32:26.704 --> 00:32:30.374
And when I saw the hurt in their eyes,
that told me they loved me.

00:32:30.541 --> 00:32:33.169
And that was a way
of comforting myself.

00:32:33.336 --> 00:32:36.422
Oh, gosh, well, that's a horrible,
horrible thought.

00:32:36.589 --> 00:32:40.092
I hope that's not... That's true,
and I'm sorry that happened to you.

00:32:40.259 --> 00:32:42.845
Well, I did it, so...

00:32:43.012 --> 00:32:45.431
Yes, but I don't think you...

00:32:45.598 --> 00:32:51.187
I'm sure your mother came through for
you, but I can't imagine that Bud did.

00:32:51.354 --> 00:32:52.730
Right.

00:32:52.897 --> 00:32:58.945
Okay, this is the closest that I've been
able to come to a viable candidate,

00:32:59.111 --> 00:33:01.572
Murray Dix.
He makes shoelaces.

00:33:01.739 --> 00:33:05.826
I wish it were a little more glamorous,
but I think he's got dough.

00:33:05.993 --> 00:33:10.373
I need you to find out
how much dough he really has.

00:33:10.539 --> 00:33:16.295
Is it liquid?
What's his marital history? Was...

00:33:16.462 --> 00:33:22.385
Did he abuse a wife? Did he...
I mean, am I gonna survive if I...

00:33:23.803 --> 00:33:26.681
Are there any red flags?
Did he do time?

00:33:26.847 --> 00:33:31.269
That would not be good
for my reputation, among other things.

00:33:31.435 --> 00:33:34.105
Right. Right.

00:33:34.272 --> 00:33:38.109
-So can you--
-You want me to do a forensic deep dive.

00:33:38.276 --> 00:33:41.153
-Yes, I know you can do that.
-If you will... Yeah, I got you.

00:34:04.468 --> 00:34:06.846
Where is it?

00:34:36.167 --> 00:34:38.586
Oh, my God.

00:34:54.769 --> 00:34:56.687
What?

00:35:02.985 --> 00:35:06.113
Okay, that's a blemish.

00:35:06.280 --> 00:35:10.660
But he was acquitted.
Isn't that the important thing?

00:35:41.148 --> 00:35:43.776
-Hey.
-Hey.

00:35:44.986 --> 00:35:47.572
-How's it going?
-Yeah, good. How are you?

00:35:47.738 --> 00:35:50.366
I'm doing well.

00:35:50.533 --> 00:35:51.993
How you feeling today?

00:35:52.159 --> 00:35:56.956
I hate my life. I loathe my job.

00:35:57.123 --> 00:35:59.083
I...

00:35:59.250 --> 00:36:02.628
I desperately want money.

00:36:02.795 --> 00:36:07.842
I really want money, and I'm not
in a position to meet a guy who has any.

00:36:08.009 --> 00:36:11.721
I mean, I get these old codgers
who come into the store,

00:36:11.888 --> 00:36:14.557
and they want to buy a thong
for their teenage girlfriends,

00:36:14.724 --> 00:36:17.810
while I'm old, rotten meat for them.

00:36:17.977 --> 00:36:19.604
-They're not interested.
-Oh, honey.

00:36:19.770 --> 00:36:21.355
But, um...

00:36:21.522 --> 00:36:27.987
You really do believe that Alice and her
book just determined your whole life?

00:36:29.363 --> 00:36:31.699
Don't you?

00:36:31.866 --> 00:36:38.331
I know I'm not the quickest person
around the place, but...

00:36:38.497 --> 00:36:45.254
I read Alice's book. It never
crossed my mind that it was you.

00:36:45.421 --> 00:36:49.550
It never crossed my mind
that it was Crawford.

00:36:49.717 --> 00:36:55.139
It never crossed my mind
that that mechanic guy...

00:36:55.306 --> 00:36:59.518
had anything to do with Roberta.

00:36:59.685 --> 00:37:02.063
Nothing.
It never crossed my mind.

00:37:02.230 --> 00:37:05.399
Even though the character's
name was Rowena?

00:37:05.566 --> 00:37:07.818
Why would I put that with you?

00:37:07.985 --> 00:37:11.822
Well, it crossed everyone else's mind,
Susan.

00:37:11.989 --> 00:37:14.867
It certainly crossed Crawford's.

00:37:16.494 --> 00:37:20.873
And the judge agreed with him,
so, you know, what...

00:37:21.040 --> 00:37:24.460
-I got nothing.
-Oh, God, that's so awful.

00:37:24.627 --> 00:37:26.712
-Look, he was...
-That's so awful.

00:37:26.879 --> 00:37:31.551
He was a nice man. He was very wealthy.
He took very good care of me.

00:37:32.718 --> 00:37:34.554
-Until...
-He didn't.

00:37:36.931 --> 00:37:39.892
So are you seeing anyone
at the moment?

00:37:40.059 --> 00:37:43.896
No, no one right now.

00:37:44.063 --> 00:37:46.315
I, um...

00:37:46.482 --> 00:37:51.946
Okay, so the weirdest thing happened
this morning. That guy...

00:37:52.113 --> 00:37:56.242
I think, was coming out of Alice's room

00:37:56.409 --> 00:37:59.787
when I went to go see her for breakfast.

00:37:59.954 --> 00:38:01.831
-What?
-Yeah.

00:38:01.998 --> 00:38:04.375
Like, like, he'd stayed the night?

00:38:04.542 --> 00:38:09.338
-Maybe. I don't know. Does that--
-Do you think they're having an affair?

00:38:09.505 --> 00:38:14.010
Again, yeah, I don't know, but it...
I don't know why else...

00:38:14.176 --> 00:38:18.931
he'd be leaving her room
or why she wouldn't tell me, but...

00:38:19.098 --> 00:38:21.559
Maybe she's having a secret affair.
Good for her.

00:38:21.726 --> 00:38:25.438
I know, yeah. Oh, God.

00:38:25.605 --> 00:38:28.399
So I moved out,
and I lived on my own for a bit,

00:38:28.566 --> 00:38:32.528
and then I got introduced
to this guy called Jan,

00:38:32.695 --> 00:38:38.451
who is a hedge fund manager, and he
works between New York and Zurich.

00:38:38.618 --> 00:38:41.370
So we started seeing each other.

00:38:41.537 --> 00:38:44.040
And things seemed
to be going pretty well.

00:38:44.206 --> 00:38:47.043
We moved in together.

00:38:47.209 --> 00:38:51.088
I really felt like I was in a grown-up
relationship for the first time.

00:38:51.255 --> 00:38:54.383
Like, he's quite serious.

00:38:54.550 --> 00:38:57.386
Like, I felt like it was time that I...
that I calmed down.

00:38:57.553 --> 00:39:01.307
Like, I don't know why I thought that,
but in my mind I was like, you know,

00:39:01.474 --> 00:39:04.644
"It's time to grow up."
Like, "This is it. He's the guy."

00:39:04.810 --> 00:39:09.023
"I'm gonna get married.
I'm gonna have kids with him."

00:39:09.190 --> 00:39:14.904
And I'm just... "This is the next phase
of my life." That's what I thought.

00:39:15.071 --> 00:39:17.240
We talked about children,
but he said he wasn't sure

00:39:17.406 --> 00:39:20.034
and he didn't know when he'd be ready,
so, you know...

00:39:20.201 --> 00:39:25.790
He said, why don't I freeze my eggs?
So last year I... I did that.

00:39:28.000 --> 00:39:31.254
Even though, like, I thought
that I'd be ready, like, now.

00:39:31.420 --> 00:39:33.297
I mean, most of my friends
have had kids and...

00:39:33.464 --> 00:39:37.802
-Right.
-You know, they've got families and...

00:39:37.969 --> 00:39:40.429
I don't know, it's funny when
you get to this age as a woman.

00:39:40.596 --> 00:39:44.850
You feel a bit like if you're
not doing that, you're gonna be...

00:39:45.017 --> 00:39:48.479
Well, you're gonna miss your chance
or you're gonna be, like...

00:39:48.646 --> 00:39:50.773
...left behind.

00:39:50.940 --> 00:39:53.359
-Sorry, it's just...
-No, it's all right. Are you all right?

00:39:53.526 --> 00:39:58.614
Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. I'm fine.
I just haven't really talked about this.

00:39:59.657 --> 00:40:02.034
Sorry.

00:40:02.201 --> 00:40:04.870
It's ridiculous, really.

00:40:05.037 --> 00:40:08.291
I don't know.

00:40:08.457 --> 00:40:10.668
It's so crazy, you go through your 20s,
and you're, like,

00:40:10.835 --> 00:40:12.753
"I better not fucking get pregnant
'cause that would be a disaster."

00:40:12.920 --> 00:40:16.173
And then when you hit 35, everyone's
like, "Are you thinking about it?"

00:40:16.340 --> 00:40:18.259
Like, should you...
"Are you gonna have kids?"

00:40:18.426 --> 00:40:21.888
So it all kind of changes so quickly,

00:40:22.054 --> 00:40:25.516
I thought that that was gonna happen,
that Jan and I were gonna get married.

00:40:25.683 --> 00:40:30.521
So it just, like, threw me when,
like two months ago, he...

00:40:30.688 --> 00:40:33.649
Well, he just ended it. And...

00:40:33.816 --> 00:40:38.863
Like, I was basically homeless
'cause it was his place. And...

00:40:40.573 --> 00:40:46.078
Yeah, I'm just... Guess I'm just
still working through all of that.

00:41:01.719 --> 00:41:03.095
-Good afternoon.
-Hello.

00:41:03.262 --> 00:41:09.060
Uh, I was given this gift certificate
for a supreme manicure and pedicure,

00:41:09.227 --> 00:41:12.605
which is very nice, but I don't like
people touching my hands or feet,

00:41:12.772 --> 00:41:15.066
so I would like to redeem it
for cash, please.

00:41:15.233 --> 00:41:19.862
We can't do that, madam, but we can
offer you another treatment instead.

00:41:20.029 --> 00:41:22.990
Uh, could I redeem it...

00:41:23.157 --> 00:41:25.159
Could you put it on my credit card?

00:41:25.326 --> 00:41:27.787
Unfortunately, no,
because it is a complimentary one,

00:41:27.954 --> 00:41:30.706
so we would be able to just transfer it
to a different treatment.

00:41:30.873 --> 00:41:33.042
Let me show you
what we have available.

00:41:33.209 --> 00:41:37.380
For the money that you have,
you can have any of these.

00:41:37.546 --> 00:41:40.591
Do men get massages here, too?

00:41:40.758 --> 00:41:42.802
We do. We do do massages
for everyone, yes.

00:41:42.969 --> 00:41:45.638
Do you have any men getting
a massage at the moment?

00:41:45.805 --> 00:41:49.058
-We do at the moment, yes, madam.
-What kind of massage are they getting?

00:41:49.225 --> 00:41:51.686
They have all sorts of...
All the different types we do.

00:41:51.852 --> 00:41:55.106
At the moment, we have got a gentleman
in. He's having a sports massage.

00:41:55.273 --> 00:41:57.483
Ah, well, I would like
to have the sports massage.

00:41:57.650 --> 00:41:59.068
-The sports massage? Okay.
-Yes, please.

00:42:09.036 --> 00:42:12.081
-They're the same price?
-Same price, yes.

00:42:12.248 --> 00:42:16.043
Let's say we went to the Bordeaux,
just in case.

00:42:16.210 --> 00:42:20.381
He went like this.
Now he's going like this.

00:42:20.548 --> 00:42:24.385
Why don't you go up to him
and, and talk to him?

00:42:24.552 --> 00:42:28.097
-Tyler, I would never do that.
-He really seems...

00:42:28.264 --> 00:42:32.059
Oh, my God. You can't be intimidated
by Kelvin Kra...

00:42:32.226 --> 00:42:34.103
-Kelvin--
-Oh, my God.

00:42:34.270 --> 00:42:38.149
He seemed really nice to all the people
who were going up to him yesterday.

00:42:38.316 --> 00:42:42.111
Really? Oh, I'm not surprised.

00:42:42.278 --> 00:42:44.488
I think he's probably a lovely man.

00:42:44.655 --> 00:42:48.326
Speaking of writing,
how is yours going?

00:42:51.621 --> 00:42:54.916
Thank you for asking me that.

00:42:59.128 --> 00:43:02.882
Well, it's... it's not going, actually.

00:43:03.049 --> 00:43:08.137
It's not going.
I've been whining to Tyler about it.

00:43:08.304 --> 00:43:11.432
I'm sorry for doing that, but I just...

00:43:11.599 --> 00:43:15.144
I've hit a... I've hit a wall.
Sometimes it happens.

00:43:15.311 --> 00:43:19.273
Sometimes you hit... You're blocked.

00:43:19.440 --> 00:43:22.026
Well, maybe you should take
a breather.

00:43:22.193 --> 00:43:25.655
You want to have tea tomorrow?
We could go to the...

00:43:25.821 --> 00:43:27.657
The Chart Room has a nice tea.

00:43:30.910 --> 00:43:32.620
I would love to.

00:43:36.540 --> 00:43:39.293
I didn't know
whether you'd be up for it,

00:43:39.460 --> 00:43:41.128
but have you been
to a planetarium before?

00:43:41.295 --> 00:43:43.673
No. Never.
Or maybe when I was a kid.

00:43:43.839 --> 00:43:48.261
Okay. Do you like stars,
planets, the universe?

00:43:48.427 --> 00:43:54.058
-Yeah, I love the universe.
-Okay. Hopefully, you should enjoy this.

00:43:54.225 --> 00:43:58.854
<i>The night sky,</i>
<i>both beautiful and mysterious.</i>

00:43:59.021 --> 00:44:01.941
<i>The subject of campfire stories,</i>

00:44:02.108 --> 00:44:04.402
<i>ancient myths, and awe</i>

00:44:04.569 --> 00:44:07.196
<i>for as long as there have been people.</i>

00:44:07.363 --> 00:44:09.657
<i>Living beneath the open, dark sky,</i>

00:44:09.824 --> 00:44:13.619
<i>the earliest humans</i>
<i>were aware of nightly changes</i>

00:44:13.786 --> 00:44:16.330
<i>as planets marched across the sky.</i>

00:44:16.497 --> 00:44:18.374
<i>The moon waxed and waned,</i>

00:44:18.541 --> 00:44:22.587
<i>and occasional meteors flared</i>
<i>across the horizon.</i>

00:44:22.753 --> 00:44:26.048
<i>Slowly, the simple early observations</i>

00:44:26.215 --> 00:44:28.968
<i>revealed patterns</i>
<i>that could be depended upon,</i>

00:44:29.135 --> 00:44:31.804
<i>leading to the first calendars.</i>

00:44:31.971 --> 00:44:34.265
<i>With the yearly cycle mapped out,</i>

00:44:34.432 --> 00:44:37.101
<i>settlements in agriculture</i>
<i>could develop,</i>

00:44:37.268 --> 00:44:40.229
<i>and early civilizations thrived.</i>

00:44:40.396 --> 00:44:43.190
<i>At the same time,</i>
<i>the first maps of the sky</i>

00:44:43.357 --> 00:44:47.278
<i>grouped the brightest stars</i>
<i>into familiar constellations,</i>

00:44:47.445 --> 00:44:51.115
<i>helping to develop</i>
<i>navigational schemes...</i>

00:45:25.191 --> 00:45:27.235
-Good evening, madam.
-Hello.

00:45:27.401 --> 00:45:30.363
How can I help you?
I think you seem to be lost.

00:45:30.529 --> 00:45:32.156
No, I'm not lost. I'm just wandering.

00:45:32.323 --> 00:45:36.077
You're not actually allowed in this
area, this is part of the crew area.

00:45:36.244 --> 00:45:37.954
-Oh, okay.
-And you're not insured.

00:45:38.120 --> 00:45:40.915
-So, if anything does happen...
-Okay, where shall I go?

00:45:41.082 --> 00:45:44.001
So where would you like to go,
and I can escort you, please?

00:45:44.168 --> 00:45:45.544
Okay, no problem.

00:46:37.805 --> 00:46:40.641
Kelvin Kranz is on this ship?

00:46:41.851 --> 00:46:44.645
<i>Wait, is he...</i>
<i>Is that a really big deal?</i>

00:46:44.812 --> 00:46:47.690
-Come on, you have to have heard of him.
-No, I've never heard of him.

00:46:47.857 --> 00:46:50.067
I mean, he's huge.

00:46:50.234 --> 00:46:52.778
Like, the guy's a one-man
publishing industry.

00:46:52.945 --> 00:46:56.949
Every single one of his books gets
adapted into a film, in every language.

00:46:57.116 --> 00:46:59.535
-His books have been translated into.
-Okay, Kelvin.

00:46:59.702 --> 00:47:03.581
He's massive. Like, bigger
than all of them combined, like...

00:47:03.748 --> 00:47:06.042
-Good for... good for Kelvin.
-Yeah.

00:47:06.208 --> 00:47:08.294
Good for that guy.

00:47:08.461 --> 00:47:12.131
So I had a thought that I was...

00:47:12.298 --> 00:47:14.967
Do you... Do you like dancing?

00:47:15.134 --> 00:47:16.719
-Dancing?
-Yeah.

00:47:16.886 --> 00:47:21.349
-Like, just for fun?
-No, there's a dance club on the boat.

00:47:21.515 --> 00:47:23.517
I think it's like a disco-type spot,

00:47:23.684 --> 00:47:27.355
and I figured maybe we could go,
if you were interested.

00:47:28.439 --> 00:47:29.815
Okay.

00:47:47.250 --> 00:47:50.253
Yeah. Thanks for doing that with me.

00:47:50.419 --> 00:47:51.796
-It was fun.
-It was fun. Yeah.

00:47:51.963 --> 00:47:54.257
-Good night.
-Good seeing you.

00:47:54.423 --> 00:47:56.801
-See you.
-All right, have a good one.

00:48:19.782 --> 00:48:22.034
Gosh, I just realized.

00:48:22.201 --> 00:48:25.454
Last night I had a dream.

00:48:25.621 --> 00:48:27.665
I guess...

00:48:29.292 --> 00:48:34.005
Maybe that's why I thought about not...
not losing touch.

00:48:34.171 --> 00:48:40.052
I had a dream that a friend of mine
that is no longer alive

00:48:40.219 --> 00:48:42.305
came to me.

00:48:43.931 --> 00:48:47.435
I was aware that I was dreaming.

00:48:47.602 --> 00:48:50.062
I was aware that...

00:48:52.356 --> 00:48:56.569
This person was saying to me,
"This is how we'll communicate now."

00:48:56.736 --> 00:48:59.906
Oh, no way.

00:49:00.072 --> 00:49:02.658
Oh, my God.

00:49:02.825 --> 00:49:05.703
Yeah.

00:49:05.870 --> 00:49:09.749
Yeah. We never lose...

00:49:09.916 --> 00:49:12.168
Never lose people.

00:49:13.210 --> 00:49:14.587
Gosh.

00:49:20.384 --> 00:49:23.512
-Hey, gorgeous.
-Hey.

00:49:23.679 --> 00:49:26.641
Do you understand this thing?

00:49:28.226 --> 00:49:30.394
Do you know what you're gonna say?

00:49:30.561 --> 00:49:34.440
I'm gonna say that
actions have consequences,

00:49:34.607 --> 00:49:41.405
and the consequences on my life
of her actions were unacceptable.

00:49:41.572 --> 00:49:44.951
And the least she could do
is apologize.

00:49:47.662 --> 00:49:51.374
How do you think she's gonna take that?

00:49:51.540 --> 00:49:53.960
She'll go...

00:49:54.126 --> 00:49:59.257
Well, I... She'll, she'll deny it.
She'll say that... She'll deny it.

00:49:59.423 --> 00:50:04.470
She'll say it was based
on someone entirely different.

00:50:06.973 --> 00:50:09.976
Doesn't that look
like Professor Osbourne?

00:50:10.142 --> 00:50:14.730
-I didn't see him.
-It's a dead ringer for Prof. Osbourne.

00:50:14.897 --> 00:50:17.900
-Remember him?
-I... How...

00:50:18.067 --> 00:50:21.195
If I'd seen him, I wouldn't have reacted
like you are.

00:50:21.362 --> 00:50:24.949
-Oh, my God.
-What went on?

00:50:25.116 --> 00:50:27.910
Nothing, nothing. I'm just...

00:50:28.077 --> 00:50:30.538
I don't think so.

00:50:30.705 --> 00:50:32.623
I had a threesome
with him and his wife.

00:50:32.790 --> 00:50:35.001
Well...

00:50:36.210 --> 00:50:38.546
Well, well, well...

00:50:41.591 --> 00:50:44.886
-Is that all?
-Yeah. It was just a threesome.

00:50:45.052 --> 00:50:48.097
It wasn't a foursome or a fivesome...

00:50:48.264 --> 00:50:50.433
It wasn't an orgy.

00:51:33.559 --> 00:51:36.729
That can't really be your first time...

00:51:37.730 --> 00:51:39.774
Karen.

00:51:42.235 --> 00:51:44.654
Heard a rumor you were on the ship.

00:51:44.820 --> 00:51:46.864
Well, it's no rumor.

00:52:02.088 --> 00:52:05.132
There's a big majority.
I mean, we've got ex-service people.

00:52:05.299 --> 00:52:09.971
We've got guys that have come up
through the self-improvement.

00:52:10.137 --> 00:52:13.140
You know, and those guys are generally
very, very enthusiastic

00:52:13.307 --> 00:52:17.937
'cause they've spent a lot of money
to get to where they are.

00:52:18.104 --> 00:52:21.399
So, you tend to look after them
a little bit more. You know, they'll...

00:52:21.566 --> 00:52:25.444
They tend to want to understand
the market.

00:52:25.611 --> 00:52:28.614
With the ex-service guys,
they're independent.

00:52:28.781 --> 00:52:33.786
You can get them to go out and do a job.
They don't need any support

00:52:33.953 --> 00:52:35.997
from within the company.

00:52:36.163 --> 00:52:39.959
But, you know, my job is
to sort of oversee what's going on

00:52:40.126 --> 00:52:42.670
and count the money as it comes in.

00:52:42.837 --> 00:52:44.672
-That's probably fun.
-Yeah.

00:52:44.839 --> 00:52:48.467
Would you mind if we moved
into the room next door?

00:52:48.634 --> 00:52:50.678
-Not at all, not at all.
-Great. Let's do that.

00:52:50.845 --> 00:52:52.680
-Love to follow you in.
-I'm meeting someone.

00:52:52.847 --> 00:52:57.685
I mean, I like the ambition, truly.
But what is your plan?

00:52:57.852 --> 00:53:03.232
My plan was to approach her
at the right point.

00:53:03.399 --> 00:53:06.527
-You think that's a bad idea?
-I think it's a terrible idea.

00:53:06.694 --> 00:53:09.196
I don't think you can approach her
at all on this boat.

00:53:09.363 --> 00:53:12.575
I think you will scare her away.

00:53:12.742 --> 00:53:19.540
I think that she might appreciate
your tenacity, but really...

00:53:20.625 --> 00:53:25.004
She's gonna decide what she does,
and it's really out of your control.

00:53:25.171 --> 00:53:29.300
-Right, it's what...
-Absolutely. The shine on the tables.

00:53:29.467 --> 00:53:33.721
-The decor is so...
-Yeah. Alice, Alice.

00:53:33.888 --> 00:53:35.848
Oh. Hi.

00:53:36.015 --> 00:53:41.103
Alice... Sorry, this is Alice Hughes.
This is Vernon.

00:53:41.270 --> 00:53:43.314
-Vernon, hello.
-Vernon. Pleased to meet you.

00:53:43.481 --> 00:53:46.359
-Pleasure.
-He's in aviation.

00:53:46.525 --> 00:53:48.819
-Well...
-Would you like to join us?

00:53:48.986 --> 00:53:50.613
Please.

00:53:50.780 --> 00:53:52.865
Oh. No, it's all right.

00:53:53.032 --> 00:54:00.039
I was just wandering around the ship
and passed the florist and thought,

00:54:00.206 --> 00:54:03.251
"Why am I carrying this around
like a fool?"

00:54:03.417 --> 00:54:05.962
Let me, um, set it here.

00:54:06.128 --> 00:54:08.005
Maybe I'll see you at dinner.

00:54:08.172 --> 00:54:10.216
-You... Definitely.
-Nice to meet you.

00:54:10.383 --> 00:54:11.759
-Look forward to it.
-Pleasure.

00:54:11.926 --> 00:54:14.345
-Take care.
-Bye.

00:54:16.931 --> 00:54:20.434
-She seems nice.
-Yeah, she's a very fine writer.

00:54:20.601 --> 00:54:23.271
We went to university together.

00:54:23.437 --> 00:54:28.234
I mean, it's madness, really.
What, you want her to write a...

00:54:28.401 --> 00:54:31.362
-A sequel to... Yeah.
-A sequel to this?

00:54:31.529 --> 00:54:33.322
I mean, everyone wants her
to write a sequel to this.

00:54:33.489 --> 00:54:38.119
Yeah, but she's never gonna do that.
The book's her antichrist.

00:54:38.286 --> 00:54:39.787
Don't you think?

00:54:48.546 --> 00:54:51.173
<i>Tyler, it's Roberta. I need your help.</i>

00:54:55.052 --> 00:54:57.763
Sorry, sometimes it takes a little while
'cause she could be...

00:54:57.930 --> 00:55:00.057
There are two floors,
so she could be upstairs.

00:55:00.224 --> 00:55:03.477
-There... there's two floors?
-Yeah.

00:55:04.520 --> 00:55:07.273
It's a big one. Yeah.

00:55:10.568 --> 00:55:14.113
So, here's the pen and paper.

00:55:14.280 --> 00:55:16.616
Oh, thank you.

00:55:16.782 --> 00:55:18.993
Okay.

00:55:35.259 --> 00:55:38.387
Someday, that book's gonna end.

00:55:49.398 --> 00:55:52.485
I want to lead you today

00:55:52.652 --> 00:55:55.571
on a... on a tour

00:55:55.738 --> 00:56:00.159
through the landscape
of my inspiration.

00:56:00.326 --> 00:56:04.080
Sometimes the sources
that a writer uses

00:56:04.247 --> 00:56:07.625
are very close to home...

00:56:07.792 --> 00:56:12.463
Family, friends, enemies.

00:56:14.131 --> 00:56:17.176
And sometimes
our source is a visitor

00:56:17.343 --> 00:56:21.597
from another time, another universe.

00:56:21.764 --> 00:56:26.519
Blodwen Pugh... was a Welsh writer

00:56:26.686 --> 00:56:30.648
at the turn of the last century,
the end of the 19th century.

00:56:30.815 --> 00:56:34.986
She worked in obscurity,
she was completely unrecognized

00:56:35.152 --> 00:56:37.905
until well after her death.

00:56:38.072 --> 00:56:40.992
And even now,
she's quite unfamiliar,

00:56:41.158 --> 00:56:46.414
even to many in the most
rarefied literary circles. She's...

00:56:46.581 --> 00:56:51.294
She's lost to us, except for those
who stand still enough to listen.

00:56:52.253 --> 00:56:55.631
The writings, her one remain...
her one novel,

00:56:55.798 --> 00:57:01.971
which is called, I think it's
the masterpiece of that... of that era

00:57:02.138 --> 00:57:04.765
is called "Realm of the Owl."

00:57:04.932 --> 00:57:07.518
When I read this novel,

00:57:07.685 --> 00:57:11.063
it's... it's impossible for me

00:57:11.230 --> 00:57:15.526
not to think what a miracle it is
that this universe emerged.

00:57:15.693 --> 00:57:21.866
What a miracle it is
that consciousness emerged.

00:57:22.033 --> 00:57:24.118
You know?

00:57:26.495 --> 00:57:30.833
And what a miracle it is
that Blodwyn Pugh...

00:57:31.000 --> 00:57:34.420
her thoughts and experiences...

00:57:34.587 --> 00:57:38.549
that they could reach across time...

00:57:40.593 --> 00:57:45.097
and reach into my consciousness.

00:57:46.307 --> 00:57:48.726
That's a miracle.

00:57:48.893 --> 00:57:51.103
Any questions?

00:57:53.231 --> 00:57:55.942
Well, I have a question.

00:57:56.108 --> 00:58:00.529
I mean, I don't know, it certainly raise
to Blodwyn Pugh's "Realm of the Owl,"

00:58:00.696 --> 00:58:05.576
but I have a question
about "A Function of the Body",

00:58:05.743 --> 00:58:09.622
and specifically when you
were inspired to write it,

00:58:09.789 --> 00:58:15.670
did you always know you'll gonna insert
Georgia's diaries through the book?

00:58:17.213 --> 00:58:21.217
I thought it was
exquisitely crafted in that way.

00:58:22.260 --> 00:58:25.179
And, I mean, everyone knows
it's a very personal book.

00:58:25.346 --> 00:58:29.058
It's known, so I don't feel
badly saying that.

00:58:29.225 --> 00:58:34.188
I mean, the way you did that with her...
With the loss of her sister,

00:58:34.355 --> 00:58:38.818
the ne'er-do-well brother
who's sort of a psychopath,

00:58:38.985 --> 00:58:44.824
whom you need, you know, whom you need,
and who you're terrified of.

00:58:44.991 --> 00:58:47.493
It... The way those diaries worked

00:58:47.660 --> 00:58:52.790
just raised it to the highest level
of... of literature for me.

00:58:52.957 --> 00:58:56.794
I'm wondering how you...
how you... how you did that.

00:58:56.961 --> 00:58:59.505
-Did you know you were gonna do it or--
-Oh, thank you.

00:58:59.672 --> 00:59:02.216
Thank you very much for that question.

00:59:11.350 --> 00:59:14.145
-My dad, at least.
-Oh, my.

00:59:14.312 --> 00:59:16.564
Oh, my. Oh.

00:59:16.731 --> 00:59:20.443
-Your friends have come.
-My friends, I want you to meet Roberta.

00:59:20.610 --> 00:59:22.111
-Hello.
-What a great pleasure.

00:59:22.278 --> 00:59:24.488
-And Susan.
-What a good pleasure.

00:59:24.655 --> 00:59:27.783
Kelvin Kranz. And my nephew Tyler.

00:59:27.950 --> 00:59:30.328
-Hey, Tyler. Handsome young man.
-Oh, nice to meet you.

00:59:30.494 --> 00:59:33.748
Nice to meet you.
So you all, you're traveling together.

00:59:33.915 --> 00:59:37.418
Yes. You have a table
full of fans here, you know?

00:59:37.585 --> 00:59:43.090
Really? Well, that's fantastic,
you know. Thank you.

00:59:43.257 --> 00:59:47.178
So you must be all going
to "The Toad and the Harrow"...

00:59:47.345 --> 00:59:49.972
-Oh, well, yes...
-Are you taking your friends over?

00:59:50.139 --> 00:59:51.557
-Is that what's happening here?
-Yes.

00:59:51.724 --> 00:59:54.727
But first, we're gonna make
a little pilgrimage

00:59:54.894 --> 00:59:59.148
to Blodwyn Pugh's gravesite
outside Cardiff. The convent.

00:59:59.315 --> 01:00:02.026
-How wonderful. That's special.
-Yeah, yeah, I think...

01:00:02.193 --> 01:00:06.697
I think it'll be sort of special, but...

01:00:06.864 --> 01:00:11.702
I wanted to ask you, how long
does it take you to write one of your...

01:00:11.869 --> 01:00:15.581
-one of your books?
-To write one?

01:00:15.748 --> 01:00:18.751
Well, I spend about, maybe,

01:00:18.918 --> 01:00:25.800
a month outlining it, and then, maybe,
three months writing it,

01:00:25.967 --> 01:00:27.677
so maybe four months...

01:00:27.843 --> 01:00:30.805
At the outside, some of them
maybe four and a half.

01:00:30.972 --> 01:00:34.517
I try to... I've never done
anything faster than three months.

01:00:34.684 --> 01:00:37.478
That's longer than I thought.

01:00:37.645 --> 01:00:39.564
Well...

01:00:39.730 --> 01:00:44.151
That's interesting.
It's a process, isn't it?

01:00:44.318 --> 01:00:48.573
Well, I have a certain process.
It's pretty specific, you know?

01:00:48.739 --> 01:00:51.158
Well, anyway...

01:00:51.325 --> 01:00:54.870
-Congratulations on getting the prize.
-Oh, thank you so much.

01:00:55.037 --> 01:00:57.164
It's a great honor.
I think it's very special.

01:00:57.331 --> 01:01:00.459
-And what a pleasure to meet you all.
-Thank you. You too.

01:01:00.626 --> 01:01:02.795
-Thank you. Thank you.
-I'll see you again, yeah.

01:01:02.962 --> 01:01:05.715
And you. I'll see you again.
Take care, bye-bye.

01:01:05.881 --> 01:01:07.884
-Bye-bye.
-Have a nice supper.

01:01:08.050 --> 01:01:10.052
Thank you. You too.

01:01:12.305 --> 01:01:13.973
What a nice man.

01:01:16.309 --> 01:01:19.979
-What a gent, isn't he?
-What a gentleman. Classy.

01:01:23.608 --> 01:01:26.819
-Missed you today.
-Yes, I know. I'm sorry.

01:01:26.986 --> 01:01:29.363
-Why don't we go now? Have a drink?
-I can't.

01:01:29.530 --> 01:01:31.532
-Why?
-'Cause I'm going to the gala.

01:01:31.699 --> 01:01:33.659
Oh, the gala.

01:01:33.826 --> 01:01:35.912
Okay.

01:01:47.381 --> 01:01:49.425
They're such iconic characters.

01:01:49.592 --> 01:01:53.346
It is perfect for American characters
right now because the border of...

01:01:53.512 --> 01:01:55.473
-Hey.
-Hi.

01:01:55.640 --> 01:01:57.058
-You're here. Great.
-You guys have met, haven't you?

01:01:57.225 --> 01:01:58.809
Yeah.

01:01:58.976 --> 01:02:02.021
-How's it going? Sorry to interrupt.
-No, you're not interrupting at all.

01:02:02.188 --> 01:02:05.441
-We're just finishing. Good to see you.
-Good to see you, man.

01:02:05.608 --> 01:02:08.444
-Leave you to it. To be continued?
-Yes.

01:02:08.611 --> 01:02:11.656
-We'll see each other again soon.
-Yeah.

01:02:11.822 --> 01:02:15.159
-Sorry to run you out of town.
-No, are you kidding?

01:02:15.326 --> 01:02:17.745
Have a good one.

01:02:17.912 --> 01:02:22.375
-How's it going?
-Does he know who you are?

01:02:22.541 --> 01:02:25.461
Oh, yeah. Yeah, he knows, he knows.

01:02:25.628 --> 01:02:27.672
-And that doesn't bother you?
-He's cool. Don't worry.

01:02:27.838 --> 01:02:31.551
No, he... He's not gonna say anything.
Don't worry.

01:02:31.717 --> 01:02:35.179
So you know that him and Alice
are now friends, they're talking.

01:02:35.346 --> 01:02:37.890
Yeah. Yeah, no, I, um...

01:02:38.057 --> 01:02:41.185
Actually, I told him everything and...

01:02:41.352 --> 01:02:45.815
He found the whole thing
quite amusing, actually.

01:02:45.982 --> 01:02:48.359
And he gave me some good advice.
He, uh...

01:02:48.526 --> 01:02:51.237
He told me he thinks it's probably
not gonna be a good idea

01:02:51.404 --> 01:02:57.076
for me to approach Alice on this trip,
so I'm gonna back off, and...

01:02:57.243 --> 01:02:59.203
-Yeah, I think he's right.
-Great.

01:03:42.747 --> 01:03:46.417
Did you get that note, by the way,
that we left in your room?

01:03:46.584 --> 01:03:48.753
What... A note is nothing.

01:03:48.920 --> 01:03:53.466
I mean, she made a date with me,
and, for tea.

01:03:53.633 --> 01:03:56.260
And I went,
and I interrupted my work.

01:03:56.427 --> 01:04:00.223
It's not like I have hours
and hours to wander the ship...

01:04:00.389 --> 01:04:02.266
-Right.
-And, you know, meet men.

01:04:02.433 --> 01:04:05.519
-This is not what I'm here for.
-So you went, and then what happened?

01:04:05.686 --> 01:04:08.814
I went to tea at two o'clock sharp,
and there she was,

01:04:08.981 --> 01:04:13.986
sitting there like a beanbag
next to this dodo who was her date.

01:04:14.153 --> 01:04:17.657
And, clearly, I wasn't, you know...

01:04:17.823 --> 01:04:21.160
So she canceled it? It was canceled.
You didn't meet with her.

01:04:21.327 --> 01:04:25.957
Well, I don't know what we were supposed
to do, have a meeting with a...

01:04:26.123 --> 01:04:29.126
-A dodo?
-A person that... Yes.

01:04:29.293 --> 01:04:34.507
I shouldn't say that. He's probably
a perfectly nice, unsuspecting man,

01:04:34.674 --> 01:04:40.888
who didn't know that he was, you know,
in the talons of a carrion bird.

01:04:41.055 --> 01:04:43.349
But I don't know what...
I don't know what she's...

01:04:43.516 --> 01:04:47.144
I don't know what she wants,
because I just want to reach her.

01:04:47.311 --> 01:04:48.729
Right.

01:04:48.896 --> 01:04:51.691
Do you remember when you and Alice and I
met in San Francisco

01:04:51.857 --> 01:04:53.693
all those years ago?

01:04:53.859 --> 01:04:57.405
That's when it all hit the fan.

01:04:58.573 --> 01:05:03.494
I just was desperate
to confide in someone,

01:05:03.661 --> 01:05:08.541
and the two of you were the closest
I've ever been with, so...

01:05:11.043 --> 01:05:15.047
When we had dinner at the bar afterward,
you went upstairs and went to bed,

01:05:15.214 --> 01:05:18.509
and it was just me and Alice,
and I thought...

01:05:18.676 --> 01:05:23.431
"Well, Alice has always been interested
in other people's lives."

01:05:25.433 --> 01:05:29.520
And then I made the fatal mistake
of telling Alice everything.

01:05:33.482 --> 01:05:36.193
What I realize is...

01:05:36.360 --> 01:05:40.740
if you can't keep a secret yourself...

01:05:40.907 --> 01:05:44.118
You can't ask anyone else
to keep a secret.

01:05:45.494 --> 01:05:47.747
It's true.

01:05:49.373 --> 01:05:51.375
It's true.

01:06:08.601 --> 01:06:12.063
What I'm gonna tell you is this.

01:06:14.273 --> 01:06:18.194
I didn't go upstairs
to sleep that night.

01:06:20.947 --> 01:06:25.201
There was a really...
a really cute waiter,

01:06:25.368 --> 01:06:27.662
and...

01:06:30.289 --> 01:06:32.792
This is a...

01:06:34.293 --> 01:06:37.463
Double letter, triple word.

01:06:38.464 --> 01:06:40.967
-Baby.
-I hate you.

01:06:41.133 --> 01:06:43.970
Bow down, bitch. Bow down.

01:06:44.136 --> 01:06:47.014
They have this incredible night
together. They get really drunk.

01:06:47.181 --> 01:06:49.725
They drink loads of cocktails.

01:06:49.892 --> 01:06:53.271
And, yeah, they just get on really well.
They hook up.

01:06:53.437 --> 01:06:57.775
And she doesn't know that this guy
is actually just a bartender.

01:06:57.942 --> 01:07:01.696
Like, he's not a rich guy
or anything, like...

01:07:01.862 --> 01:07:06.409
But they fall for each other,
and it's this comedy of errors.

01:07:06.576 --> 01:07:10.371
It's kind of a farce. But they end up
falling for each other,

01:07:10.538 --> 01:07:13.916
despite the fact that they both pretend
to be something that they're not.

01:07:14.083 --> 01:07:16.460
Which is kind of the...
yeah, the whole thing.

01:07:16.627 --> 01:07:20.423
-And do you know who plays the guy?
-He's this... He's this comedian.

01:07:20.590 --> 01:07:25.636
He's funny. He's got this amazing face.
But it's just such a charming film.

01:07:25.803 --> 01:07:28.431
-You have to see it. It's brilliant.
-I want to see it.

01:07:28.598 --> 01:07:31.976
I'm trying to think of, like...
I was actually in a comedy of errors

01:07:32.143 --> 01:07:35.563
when I was in sixth grade,
so when you brought that up...

01:07:40.109 --> 01:07:42.612
Karen?

01:07:42.778 --> 01:07:44.739
Hi.

01:07:45.740 --> 01:07:48.659
And Tyler?

01:07:48.826 --> 01:07:50.995
Hi.

01:07:52.455 --> 01:07:53.831
Wait.

01:08:03.382 --> 01:08:06.761
So you lied for her because...

01:08:08.679 --> 01:08:10.723
you like her.

01:08:18.314 --> 01:08:23.903
That's... that's as good a reason
to lie as any I can think of.

01:08:29.951 --> 01:08:31.994
So...

01:08:38.626 --> 01:08:41.420
You're gonna see her tonight?

01:08:42.505 --> 01:08:44.382
I don't know.

01:08:53.307 --> 01:08:56.936
Who's that man I keep seeing
coming out of your room in the morning?

01:09:02.191 --> 01:09:04.986
Oh, that man.

01:09:11.450 --> 01:09:14.495
That man is...

01:09:14.662 --> 01:09:18.749
probably the one thing
that keeps me going.

01:09:21.586 --> 01:09:24.088
Besides you.

01:09:24.255 --> 01:09:25.631
Thanks.

01:09:25.798 --> 01:09:30.636
They all take ballroom-dancing classes
on this ship.

01:09:30.803 --> 01:09:32.805
So, when they go to the gala,

01:09:32.972 --> 01:09:36.475
they want to show off what they've
learned, and they take it very...

01:09:36.642 --> 01:09:39.729
-Hi.
-Hey. How are you? What a surprise.

01:09:39.896 --> 01:09:42.773
-Fine, fine.
-Very breezy day to have...

01:09:42.940 --> 01:09:46.736
-Yeah, I love the fog.
-...an intimate little discussion.

01:09:46.903 --> 01:09:50.364
-You know, I've been thinking about you.
-Really?

01:09:50.531 --> 01:09:54.952
Well, one of the women that I work with

01:09:55.119 --> 01:09:59.290
poisoned her husband,
who was a batterer,

01:09:59.457 --> 01:10:02.835
and guess where
she got the idea.

01:10:03.002 --> 01:10:05.755
From my first wife, of course.

01:10:05.922 --> 01:10:09.508
-Or maybe my second wife.
-Oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh.

01:10:09.675 --> 01:10:12.803
-No, no, but now I know a lot about you.
-Yes.

01:10:12.970 --> 01:10:16.891
No. From an early
Agatha Christie book.

01:10:17.058 --> 01:10:21.562
<i>-The Murder of Roger Ackroyd.</i>
-Exactly. <i>The Murder of Roger Ackroyd.</i>

01:10:21.729 --> 01:10:24.941
Well, I kept that away from her.

01:10:25.107 --> 01:10:27.026
And that's why you still stand.

01:10:27.193 --> 01:10:31.530
So you've been thinking about poisoning,
but why? I mean, just because...

01:10:31.697 --> 01:10:33.532
Oh, no, because I...

01:10:33.699 --> 01:10:38.496
This woman was incarcerated for trying
to save her child and herself.

01:10:38.663 --> 01:10:41.582
And she didn't want to kill him,
she just wanted to disable him

01:10:41.749 --> 01:10:44.085
so she could stop the violence.

01:10:44.252 --> 01:10:46.629
But he died.

01:10:46.796 --> 01:10:49.840
-I'm so sorry. That's awful.
-Yes, it is awful.

01:10:50.007 --> 01:10:51.384
Do you deal with a lot of people
who poison?

01:10:51.551 --> 01:10:54.762
I do. Oh, no, no. Not so many...

01:10:54.929 --> 01:11:01.352
I mean, they take whatever weapon...
the domes-- Is in the person's hand.

01:11:01.519 --> 01:11:03.896
-And...
-Can I join? Do you mind if I sit down?

01:11:04.063 --> 01:11:05.648
-Of course, sit down.
-No, join us.

01:11:05.815 --> 01:11:08.234
-I've been fascinated by poison lately.
-Why?

01:11:08.401 --> 01:11:12.905
I'm thinking about writing something
about someone who poisons people.

01:11:13.072 --> 01:11:18.452
I think it's... I think,
philosophically, poisoning is a...

01:11:18.619 --> 01:11:22.832
a very intimate way to kill someone,
and it's also very cruel.

01:12:43.788 --> 01:12:45.456
How is that?

01:12:47.917 --> 01:12:50.127
Very compelling.

01:13:10.481 --> 01:13:12.608
-Hey.
-Sorry.

01:13:12.775 --> 01:13:16.028
-Sorry I'm late. Thank you.
-Hello.

01:13:18.114 --> 01:13:20.533
-Everybody well?
-Everybody's well.

01:13:20.700 --> 01:13:25.496
-How is work going?
-Oh, well, not as...

01:13:25.663 --> 01:13:28.165
Not as well as I'd like.

01:13:28.332 --> 01:13:31.711
-Thank you.
-You're welcome.

01:13:32.878 --> 01:13:35.715
Where's Tyler?

01:13:35.881 --> 01:13:37.884
Not coming.

01:13:38.050 --> 01:13:41.095
-No?
-He has a date.

01:13:42.847 --> 01:13:48.603
-Who with?
-Uh, someone he met on the ship.

01:13:49.937 --> 01:13:52.273
So...

01:13:52.440 --> 01:13:55.401
An older woman... Apparently.

01:13:55.568 --> 01:14:00.114
-An older woman? How much older?
-Like, in her 80s?

01:14:02.950 --> 01:14:05.536
I would be surprised
if that were the case.

01:14:05.703 --> 01:14:09.248
-But he probably means 26 or...
-Oh. Oh, right.

01:14:09.415 --> 01:14:11.000
Thirty-six.

01:14:11.167 --> 01:14:15.129
Thirty-six would be
a significant difference.

01:14:15.296 --> 01:14:18.424
-Or more. Who knows?
-Really?

01:14:18.591 --> 01:14:20.718
I can't tell people's ages anymore.

01:14:20.885 --> 01:14:23.471
-No, I can't either.
-I really can't.

01:14:24.972 --> 01:14:27.183
Alice, I don't know
what your schedule is,

01:14:27.350 --> 01:14:30.519
but if you're free tomorrow
before or after you swim,

01:14:30.686 --> 01:14:34.357
maybe we could have a tea
or a drink.

01:14:35.524 --> 01:14:37.693
Well, I...

01:14:39.028 --> 01:14:42.865
I would love to do that, but I actually
have a business meeting tomorrow.

01:14:43.032 --> 01:14:46.661
-Oh, sorry.
-I don't know if I'll get my swim in.

01:14:46.827 --> 01:14:50.790
Who knows how long it'll go on
or what will happen in it?

01:14:50.957 --> 01:14:55.127
-But let's do it another time. Promise?
-Yeah, I'd love to. Great.

01:14:58.589 --> 01:15:02.260
-Quite a day.
-Yeah.

01:15:02.426 --> 01:15:04.387
Shocking.

01:15:05.596 --> 01:15:07.473
Yeah.

01:15:09.100 --> 01:15:10.643
How you feeling?

01:15:12.728 --> 01:15:15.690
I'm feeling okay, actually.
Kind of...

01:15:16.732 --> 01:15:20.152
-A bit relieved, to be honest.
-Yeah.

01:15:21.946 --> 01:15:23.864
I should actually say to you, like...

01:15:28.160 --> 01:15:29.996
Yeah, I feel like
I should apologize a bit.

01:15:30.162 --> 01:15:32.164
I feel bad for dragging you
into this whole thing.

01:15:32.331 --> 01:15:36.877
I know you didn't want to lie to your
aunt, and I slightly twisted your arm

01:15:37.044 --> 01:15:39.255
and I feel bad about that,

01:15:39.422 --> 01:15:42.508
and she clearly thinks
so highly of you.

01:15:42.675 --> 01:15:45.261
She loves you. She thinks,
you know, she thinks the world of you,

01:15:45.428 --> 01:15:50.433
and that was obvious when
I spoke to her today. And I think...

01:15:50.600 --> 01:15:55.605
That was probably part of the reason why
she was so forgiving towards me. So...

01:15:55.771 --> 01:15:59.775
Thank you for... Yeah,
thanks for everything this, this week.

01:15:59.942 --> 01:16:01.736
-Oh, well...
-You've been amazing.

01:16:01.903 --> 01:16:07.325
I know I've completely inappropriately
unloaded a whole load of stuff onto you

01:16:07.491 --> 01:16:11.203
that I probably shouldn't have done,
so I'm sorry about that, and...

01:16:11.370 --> 01:16:14.749
-Yeah, thank you.
-Well, that's... That's sweet of you.

01:16:14.916 --> 01:16:20.296
I appreciate that acknowledgement,
and I...

01:16:21.380 --> 01:16:25.343
It's been... It's so been my
pleasure getting to know you, and...

01:16:25.509 --> 01:16:30.139
I was skeptical at first about
what our relationship would look like.

01:16:30.306 --> 01:16:33.351
And I just felt like...

01:16:33.517 --> 01:16:36.020
I don't know. I just really
wanted to get to know you,

01:16:36.187 --> 01:16:40.566
and I'm excited to hopefully
continue to get to know you. And...

01:16:42.485 --> 01:16:45.071
I don't know, maybe, you know,
what our... what...

01:16:45.238 --> 01:16:50.743
What our life can look like...
moving forward.

01:16:50.910 --> 01:16:53.537
Like, I don't know. There's just...

01:16:53.704 --> 01:16:56.666
Maybe, um...

01:16:56.832 --> 01:17:00.836
It's just been probably
one of the biggest gifts

01:17:01.003 --> 01:17:05.132
of the... the ship for me
has been...

01:17:06.634 --> 01:17:09.470
Getting to know you, so...

01:17:18.312 --> 01:17:22.858
I was, uh, wondering if...

01:17:27.113 --> 01:17:31.075
I know this is kind
of a crazy question, but...

01:17:34.954 --> 01:17:38.124
If maybe you wanted to...

01:17:41.419 --> 01:17:43.212
If...

01:17:43.379 --> 01:17:46.465
You're not gonna ask me out,
are you?

01:17:46.632 --> 01:17:49.010
I'm joking, I'm joking.
You just suddenly looked so awkward.

01:17:49.176 --> 01:17:51.721
Right. Right. I did. I was...

01:17:51.888 --> 01:17:57.685
I was wondering if maybe I could
kiss you at some point soon.

01:18:11.115 --> 01:18:13.409
Fuck.

01:18:17.496 --> 01:18:19.624
Oh, shit.

01:18:43.648 --> 01:18:47.318
I think I...

01:18:47.485 --> 01:18:49.820
made a...

01:18:49.987 --> 01:18:53.366
a bit of a fool of myself.

01:18:58.162 --> 01:19:00.248
In what way?

01:19:00.414 --> 01:19:07.672
I just... I made some kind of an advance
that didn't... That went un...

01:19:07.838 --> 01:19:10.758
Unreciprocated.

01:19:15.763 --> 01:19:17.932
Well, you can't...

01:19:19.350 --> 01:19:22.436
I hope you don't regret that.

01:19:22.603 --> 01:19:27.608
That's... that's... The trying is all.
You know?

01:19:28.901 --> 01:19:32.405
If you don't try, if you don't risk...

01:19:32.572 --> 01:19:34.699
That's good to know.

01:19:37.618 --> 01:19:41.706
I mean, it's... you shouldn't be shy
with this kind of thing,

01:19:41.872 --> 01:19:46.252
this... this attraction to someone.

01:19:46.419 --> 01:19:48.754
I think attraction is...

01:19:48.921 --> 01:19:53.009
It's the animating force
in the universe, really.

01:19:54.051 --> 01:19:56.888
-That's a fact.
-Well, like...

01:19:58.472 --> 01:20:01.893
Gravity or the pull of the poles,

01:20:02.059 --> 01:20:05.730
what pulls
the monarch butterflies...

01:20:07.064 --> 01:20:09.442
to fly across the world.

01:20:09.609 --> 01:20:13.696
If you feel attracted to someone
from your heart,

01:20:13.863 --> 01:20:19.160
you know... and you look at them and
you feel and you can see their soul...

01:20:20.870 --> 01:20:22.580
That's...

01:20:23.789 --> 01:20:25.791
There is...

01:20:27.001 --> 01:20:31.005
There's no bad version of that,

01:20:31.172 --> 01:20:34.175
to want to be a part of that.

01:20:34.342 --> 01:20:37.595
And we should...

01:20:37.762 --> 01:20:41.891
Oh, God... treasure it.
It's, it's...

01:20:42.058 --> 01:20:44.810
We're lucky to have that feeling.

01:20:44.977 --> 01:20:51.359
It's the greatest, it's the fullest...
expression of what it is to be alive.

01:20:51.525 --> 01:20:53.444
So...

01:20:54.779 --> 01:20:57.323
Do you think you'll, you'll...

01:20:57.490 --> 01:21:01.494
How did it end?
I mean, do you think you'll try again?

01:21:01.661 --> 01:21:03.371
-No.
-No?

01:21:03.537 --> 01:21:06.707
No. No.

01:21:08.376 --> 01:21:12.129
You know, Suze, I am convinced

01:21:12.296 --> 01:21:17.802
she asked me on this trip to find out
what happened to me after my divorce.

01:21:17.969 --> 01:21:23.266
She wants to write about it
as a sequel to her fucking book.

01:21:23.432 --> 01:21:24.934
-I know it.
-No.

01:21:25.101 --> 01:21:27.603
-I know it.
-No. You've got to ask her.

01:21:27.770 --> 01:21:31.023
-No.
-You have to be direct and ask her.

01:21:31.190 --> 01:21:34.777
You know, you heard those things
she said during that talk.

01:21:34.944 --> 01:21:38.823
She uses things
and people from her life.

01:21:38.990 --> 01:21:43.077
-Well, I'm... I'm one of those people.
-I know you are. I know you are.

01:21:43.244 --> 01:21:47.790
But that's what writers do, and she
never meant to hurt you, I promise you.

01:21:47.957 --> 01:21:49.959
-She never meant to hurt you.
-She doesn't care, Susan.

01:21:50.126 --> 01:21:52.962
I think she does care.
She cares about you.

01:21:53.129 --> 01:21:55.423
And why would she be writing
about you again?

01:21:55.590 --> 01:21:58.050
She loves you.
She's obsessed with you.

01:21:58.217 --> 01:22:01.762
She said she uses people
from her life,

01:22:01.929 --> 01:22:04.765
and she is going to use me
in this sequel.

01:22:04.932 --> 01:22:07.310
I don't believe that, dear.
I really don't.

01:22:07.476 --> 01:22:11.314
I know it could seem that way
if you twist it.

01:22:11.480 --> 01:22:14.191
If you twist it the other way,

01:22:14.358 --> 01:22:18.654
you know, she has the same memories
we do of our days together.

01:22:18.821 --> 01:22:20.740
-They're sacred.
-Yeah.

01:22:20.907 --> 01:22:25.161
Maybe not sacred.
That's a little pompous.

01:22:25.328 --> 01:22:28.706
But you know what I mean, what we
were talking about the other day.

01:22:28.873 --> 01:22:32.418
-She has those, too.
-Yeah, but she's very different now.

01:22:32.585 --> 01:22:35.129
I know she is.
She really has changed.

01:22:35.296 --> 01:22:37.298
She's changed so much.

01:22:37.465 --> 01:22:39.675
-Did she always talk like that?
-No.

01:22:39.842 --> 01:22:41.552
-She didn't?
-Did not.

01:22:41.719 --> 01:22:46.057
-I wonder why she talks like that.
-I know.

01:22:56.275 --> 01:23:00.154
Just so you know, she's invited me
to dinner with all of you.

01:23:01.280 --> 01:23:03.574
Oh, fuck.

01:23:03.741 --> 01:23:07.036
Karen's very hopeful about
the publishing business, actually.

01:23:07.203 --> 01:23:12.416
I mean, against all reason, in my
opinion, but if you could talk a little

01:23:12.583 --> 01:23:16.504
about what the agency
is going to do now and in the future.

01:23:16.671 --> 01:23:19.882
The old dead wood
has been moved aside.

01:23:20.049 --> 01:23:21.926
It's been an interesting time.

01:23:22.093 --> 01:23:23.678
There have been quite
a few changes at the agency,

01:23:23.844 --> 01:23:28.224
but I feel very optimistic about what
we're going to be doing going forward.

01:23:28.391 --> 01:23:31.602
And I... We've got
exciting plans for Alice.

01:23:31.769 --> 01:23:35.565
You know, Sonia did tell me that Alice
was quite secretive about her work.

01:23:35.731 --> 01:23:39.777
-But I had no idea how secretive.
-Well, I...

01:23:39.944 --> 01:23:42.154
I mean, I still haven't been able
to deduce

01:23:42.321 --> 01:23:47.159
which of your literary characters
that you are reviving.

01:23:47.326 --> 01:23:49.954
I do hope it's Rowena
from <i>You Always, You Never.</i>

01:23:50.121 --> 01:23:56.210
Yes, I would love to know what Rowena
has been up to the last 35 years.

01:23:56.377 --> 01:23:58.713
Oh, dear, you know...

01:23:58.879 --> 01:24:00.381
Let me just say.

01:24:00.548 --> 01:24:04.218
-On this subject...
-I think everyone cares. Rowena...

01:24:04.385 --> 01:24:06.012
I don't think anybody really cares.

01:24:06.178 --> 01:24:09.724
What became of Rowena
after her disastrous marriage?

01:24:09.891 --> 01:24:13.603
Did she find love again?
Did she get another career?

01:24:13.769 --> 01:24:15.479
Did she have a child?

01:24:15.646 --> 01:24:19.859
Rowena is a beloved literary character.
What, what...

01:24:20.026 --> 01:24:22.153
-She is. She is.
-Bert, Bert.

01:24:22.320 --> 01:24:25.781
What I want to say about this... And...

01:24:25.948 --> 01:24:28.492
I should clarify for you

01:24:28.659 --> 01:24:32.663
that whatever character I write about,
is essentially about me.

01:24:32.830 --> 01:24:35.708
I mean, honestly,
that's what authors do. Don't they?

01:24:35.875 --> 01:24:39.045
-Let me... Just... I don't think...
-And another thing...

01:24:39.211 --> 01:24:45.218
...I have ever been at a table
with two more self-obsessed people.

01:24:45.384 --> 01:24:49.597
I don't think I ever have.
This is a first. This is a first.

01:24:52.099 --> 01:24:55.311
We care for each other. Do we?

01:24:55.478 --> 01:24:58.314
-Do we care for each other?
-Yes, of course.

01:24:58.481 --> 01:25:03.569
Yes. We do care for each other.
This happened in your youth.

01:25:03.736 --> 01:25:07.365
This happened so long...
In your youth.

01:25:07.531 --> 01:25:14.038
And today, this very day,
we have lived most of our lives.

01:25:14.205 --> 01:25:20.378
Right? Are you gonna continue
this ancient battle

01:25:20.544 --> 01:25:24.423
for the little time that remains to us?

01:25:24.590 --> 01:25:27.051
Do you even know
what happened yesterday

01:25:27.218 --> 01:25:30.054
when we were out of communication
with the world?

01:25:30.221 --> 01:25:32.056
Do you know what happened?

01:25:32.223 --> 01:25:34.058
You don't know what happened.
Do you know what happened?

01:25:34.225 --> 01:25:36.269
-Does anyone know what happened?
-I was working, so I wasn't...

01:25:36.435 --> 01:25:38.980
Well, of course you were working.
You're always working.

01:25:39.146 --> 01:25:40.565
Yes.

01:25:41.691 --> 01:25:44.110
Elon Musk...

01:25:45.319 --> 01:25:50.408
sent many, many telecom satellites
into the sky

01:25:51.701 --> 01:25:54.996
that look exactly like stars,

01:25:55.162 --> 01:25:56.664
exactly like stars.

01:25:56.831 --> 01:26:00.876
So now when humans gaze
at the night sky,

01:26:01.043 --> 01:26:06.966
they won't know if they're gazing
at a star or at a machine.

01:26:08.467 --> 01:26:14.098
And we at this table,
at this little table,

01:26:14.265 --> 01:26:19.103
we are among the last, the very last,

01:26:19.270 --> 01:26:21.772
ever, ever,

01:26:21.939 --> 01:26:26.068
to have seen the actual, real,

01:26:26.235 --> 01:26:31.824
the honest, truthful night sky
from the ocean.

01:26:31.991 --> 01:26:35.036
We saw stars...

01:26:35.202 --> 01:26:37.788
Just stars.

01:27:13.366 --> 01:27:17.036
-Are you packed?
-I'm killing it.

01:27:17.203 --> 01:27:21.249
-Yeah? Killing it with the bags?
-No.

01:27:24.794 --> 01:27:27.755
No, my book.

01:27:32.635 --> 01:27:36.639
I deleted it...
from my computer.

01:27:36.806 --> 01:27:39.141
I deleted it all.

01:27:40.726 --> 01:27:44.480
And I threw the hard copy
in the recycling.

01:27:44.647 --> 01:27:46.816
Why?

01:27:46.983 --> 01:27:49.026
It's...

01:27:54.073 --> 01:27:59.036
You know what? It's like polishing
the vase when the house is falling down.

01:28:05.167 --> 01:28:07.628
You don't know.

01:28:07.795 --> 01:28:09.755
You don't know
what I'm talking about.

01:28:11.340 --> 01:28:14.135
Anyway, I'm gonna...

01:28:14.302 --> 01:28:18.639
ask you to bring the bigger bags
down for me, okay?

01:30:40.573 --> 01:30:44.201
I think the words matter.
I do think they matter.

01:30:45.244 --> 01:30:50.625
Which ones you choose to describe
something or to express something.

01:30:50.791 --> 01:30:55.504
It takes time to worry those
into existence,

01:30:55.671 --> 01:30:59.884
the right one, the right one.
There's only one that's right.

01:31:01.886 --> 01:31:05.932
I lament... You know, sometimes I wait,
I wait for a word to come to me.

01:31:06.098 --> 01:31:09.143
I wait... I'll wait a week.

01:31:09.310 --> 01:31:12.772
No, but it amused me on the ship

01:31:12.939 --> 01:31:18.653
how they were so eager that we not use
the word "boat" to describe the ship

01:31:18.819 --> 01:31:22.615
because "boat" is
sort of a diminutive...

01:31:22.782 --> 01:31:26.661
Or when they would say
don't call it "a cruise."

01:31:26.827 --> 01:31:29.956
It's not a cruise. It's a crossing.

01:31:34.001 --> 01:31:39.590
And it is a crossing. You're crossing
time zones. You feel them.

01:31:39.757 --> 01:31:43.928
-Yes, you do.
-Crossing into something unknown.

01:31:44.095 --> 01:31:48.099
I mean, it's... The cruise
just seems meandering and...

01:31:48.266 --> 01:31:50.059
And silly.

01:31:53.854 --> 01:31:55.523
Alice...

01:31:56.649 --> 01:31:59.944
What I'm trying to reconcile is

01:32:00.111 --> 01:32:03.281
who is the real you?

01:32:05.491 --> 01:32:08.286
I just...

01:32:09.412 --> 01:32:12.540
I just don't know
who you are anymore.

01:32:12.707 --> 01:32:16.961
I mean, does...
Does anybody trust you anymore?

01:32:17.128 --> 01:32:20.298
And is that hard for you? I mean...

01:32:20.464 --> 01:32:24.093
Are you okay with that?
You seem to be okay with that.

01:32:26.178 --> 01:32:30.600
What do you mean?
Because I write from my life and from...

01:32:30.766 --> 01:32:34.604
Oh, yeah, you write from your life,
but you write from others,

01:32:34.770 --> 01:32:41.319
and those others experience it
as a kind of betrayal.

01:32:42.361 --> 01:32:45.197
-You obviously...
-Well, you know, you...

01:32:46.616 --> 01:32:48.492
Betrayal.

01:32:48.659 --> 01:32:54.540
I think that you perhaps betray
the people that you love the most...

01:32:54.707 --> 01:33:00.087
Because you know that you have
the expectation of forgiveness.

01:33:00.254 --> 01:33:03.049
The people that you don't know
very well,

01:33:03.215 --> 01:33:05.843
trying to seduce or impress,

01:33:06.010 --> 01:33:09.889
you treat them much more tenderly.
That's my experience.

01:33:10.056 --> 01:33:13.976
But it's harder to forgive

01:33:14.143 --> 01:33:18.105
when you're wallowing

01:33:18.272 --> 01:33:21.609
in the middle of the debris
of what your life used to be.

01:33:22.693 --> 01:33:27.698
It requires a greater expanse of spirit

01:33:27.865 --> 01:33:31.452
than I think most people have.

01:33:31.619 --> 01:33:35.831
Did you come on this trip to, to...

01:33:38.876 --> 01:33:43.256
berate me or to forgive me or to...

01:33:45.216 --> 01:33:47.593
extract something else?

01:33:47.760 --> 01:33:49.929
An apology or...

01:33:50.096 --> 01:33:55.560
to reconnect, maybe, our friendship?

01:33:55.726 --> 01:33:59.021
Why did you say yes?

01:34:01.941 --> 01:34:04.902
I wanted an apology.

01:34:05.069 --> 01:34:09.782
I wanted you to at least acknowledge

01:34:09.949 --> 01:34:12.618
the damage that you caused in my life.

01:34:16.247 --> 01:34:18.749
And...

01:34:18.916 --> 01:34:22.878
And I wanted to extract...

01:34:25.047 --> 01:34:28.092
a little compensation for it.

01:34:31.679 --> 01:34:37.602
Because if you
were going to write a sequel,

01:34:38.895 --> 01:34:43.691
I would tell you everything
about the last 35 years.

01:34:43.858 --> 01:34:48.154
I would give you all the sordid,
squalid details.

01:34:48.321 --> 01:34:50.781
You would have...

01:34:50.948 --> 01:34:54.911
You would have a great book.

01:34:55.077 --> 01:34:57.580
And all I want...

01:34:59.123 --> 01:35:01.792
is 30% of the profits.

01:35:01.959 --> 01:35:06.756
Wait. What did you...
What did you just say?

01:35:06.923 --> 01:35:10.009
Well, I think you heard me.

01:35:10.176 --> 01:35:13.054
And I think it's fair.

01:35:15.223 --> 01:35:17.600
Oh, my God.

01:35:21.270 --> 01:35:24.106
Oh, my God. I just...

01:35:26.567 --> 01:35:30.988
I realize what this is about.
This is not about...

01:35:31.155 --> 01:35:34.492
This is not about love.
This is about money.

01:35:34.659 --> 01:35:37.954
I'm so sorry. I didn't realize that.

01:35:40.581 --> 01:35:42.833
I'll give you a check.

01:35:49.298 --> 01:35:53.094
-We really lost each other, you know?
-Yeah, we did.

01:35:55.763 --> 01:35:58.724
I loved you when you were Al.

01:36:09.360 --> 01:36:12.321
Well, I'll see you tomorrow.

01:38:02.765 --> 01:38:05.184
-Excuse me, Tyler...
-Hey.

01:38:05.351 --> 01:38:09.397
I'm Dr. Mitchell. I'm Alice's physician.
Come in, please.

01:38:09.564 --> 01:38:13.150
What's happening? Is she sleeping?

01:38:13.317 --> 01:38:16.612
I'm very sorry to inform you,

01:38:16.779 --> 01:38:21.117
but your aunt passed away
in the middle of the night.

01:38:21.284 --> 01:38:23.578
Oh, no.

01:38:24.662 --> 01:38:28.624
-Alice had a serious condition called...
-Fuck.

01:38:28.791 --> 01:38:32.003
...deep vein thrombosis,
and it's a blood clot

01:38:32.169 --> 01:38:36.048
which can travel up to the lungs,
the heart, or the brain.

01:38:36.215 --> 01:38:40.803
Right now we're not sure which
until we get a coroner's report.

01:38:40.970 --> 01:38:43.222
I'm very sorry.

01:38:44.891 --> 01:38:49.478
The coroner as well as the police
are headed here.

01:38:49.645 --> 01:38:52.940
If you'd like some time
to spend with her before they get here.

01:38:53.107 --> 01:38:56.193
-Yeah. That would be great.
-Okay, I'll be right outside.

01:38:56.360 --> 01:38:58.029
-Thank you.
-You're welcome.

01:38:58.195 --> 01:39:00.072
Yeah.

01:39:41.113 --> 01:39:44.951
She had told me of her
wanting to go to England

01:39:45.117 --> 01:39:48.120
to pick up the Footling Prize,

01:39:48.287 --> 01:39:50.957
see Blodwyn Pugh's gravesite,

01:39:51.123 --> 01:39:54.710
and also discuss her
at the awards ceremony.

01:39:54.877 --> 01:39:58.339
She had at one point intended to fly.

01:39:58.506 --> 01:40:02.593
I certainly said that that would not be
a good idea to travel by plane.

01:40:02.760 --> 01:40:04.512
It wouldn't be a good idea
to travel at all.

01:40:04.679 --> 01:40:06.973
I strongly advised her
to stay in New York,

01:40:07.139 --> 01:40:11.435
but as you all know, Alice is Alice.

01:40:11.602 --> 01:40:16.440
And she's very strong-willed,
and, ultimately, she wanted to go.

01:40:16.607 --> 01:40:20.736
So, I then discussed with her perhaps
I should come along with her

01:40:20.903 --> 01:40:22.863
to help her with the medication.

01:40:23.030 --> 01:40:26.117
The medication that we typically use
in this situation is a blood thinner,

01:40:26.284 --> 01:40:28.494
but it needed to be injected.

01:40:28.661 --> 01:40:31.289
I would give the injections
in the morning and in the evening.

01:40:31.455 --> 01:40:35.668
Could I just interrupt to ask
if it could have been brought on

01:40:35.835 --> 01:40:39.422
by an emotional discussion,

01:40:39.589 --> 01:40:43.259
an emotional encounter?

01:40:43.426 --> 01:40:49.181
Most likely not. These things are,
as I said, unpredictable in nature,

01:40:49.348 --> 01:40:52.727
and they can happen
and it doesn't have anything to do

01:40:52.894 --> 01:40:55.980
with what's going on
in someone's personal life.

01:40:56.147 --> 01:40:57.565
So, no.

01:41:03.988 --> 01:41:08.034
Shall I go rebook our flights now?

01:41:08.200 --> 01:41:11.662
-Oh, my goodness sake.
<i>-Well...</i>

01:41:11.829 --> 01:41:14.081
-We've got to...
-To when?

01:41:14.248 --> 01:41:17.209
-Tomorrow?
-Maybe the next day.

01:41:17.376 --> 01:41:22.214
We've got to pack Alice's stuff
and then pack all our stuff.

01:41:24.717 --> 01:41:27.887
I don't know.
I was... I was sort of...

01:41:28.054 --> 01:41:31.807
It doesn't feel right to me to leave

01:41:31.974 --> 01:41:35.937
or to book the flight right now.
I feel like we got to...

01:41:36.103 --> 01:41:38.648
The trip isn't over. Like, the...

01:41:38.814 --> 01:41:44.153
We should visit Blodwyn's grave,
like Alice wanted us to.

01:41:45.238 --> 01:41:49.075
She brought us here. She chose us.

01:41:49.242 --> 01:41:51.827
The three... Just us three.

01:41:51.994 --> 01:41:56.123
Personally, for me, I... My life...

01:41:57.333 --> 01:42:03.673
I... Everything that's good in my life
feels related to Alice in so many ways.

01:42:03.839 --> 01:42:08.302
I've been so ashamed
of the family that I come from,

01:42:08.469 --> 01:42:12.098
for so long, until I met Alice.

01:42:13.599 --> 01:42:16.018
And...

01:42:16.185 --> 01:42:21.232
I can't leave here without going
to that gravesite. I'm just...

01:42:21.399 --> 01:42:24.569
It would feel like...
It would make me sick.

01:43:41.979 --> 01:43:45.399
Does anybody want to say anything?

01:43:45.566 --> 01:43:48.236
Tyler, I don't even know the woman.

01:43:48.402 --> 01:43:51.322
I don't even like her writing.

01:43:52.907 --> 01:43:55.660
This is for Alice.

01:44:07.046 --> 01:44:09.298
I guess we should go, then.

01:44:13.094 --> 01:44:14.762
I need a drink.

01:44:32.321 --> 01:44:35.533
Isn't there an editor
or a fellow writer,

01:44:35.700 --> 01:44:38.077
someone who could do
something with it?

01:44:38.244 --> 01:44:40.037
<i>Honestly, it's...</i>

01:44:40.204 --> 01:44:43.291
I don't know what it is
or what could be done with it.

01:44:43.457 --> 01:44:46.460
I guess you could call it
experimental.

01:44:46.627 --> 01:44:50.673
We could post it online
and charge people to read it.

01:44:50.840 --> 01:44:54.886
I personally wouldn't feel
comfortable doing that.

01:44:55.052 --> 01:44:59.432
Look, whatever this is, it's clearly
in a very embryonic stage,

01:44:59.599 --> 01:45:01.601
and it's not meant to be published.

01:45:01.767 --> 01:45:04.270
She was trying something out,
and she didn't get to see it through.

01:45:04.437 --> 01:45:06.981
<i>Yeah, but people</i>
<i>might find that interesting.</i>

01:45:07.148 --> 01:45:10.902
Her readers, literary scholars.

01:45:11.068 --> 01:45:14.322
Look, maybe someone else
can help you.

01:45:14.488 --> 01:45:17.783
You said she gave it to you.
You can take it wherever you want.

01:45:17.950 --> 01:45:20.703
<i>You don't need me, not for that.</i>

01:45:20.870 --> 01:45:25.291
-Roberta, we need you on the floor.
-Yeah, I'm coming, Clovis.

01:45:25.458 --> 01:45:29.378
I'll be right there. I'm coming.

01:45:29.545 --> 01:45:32.632
-Yeah, Mom...
<i>-Should I send it back to you?</i>

01:45:32.798 --> 01:45:35.301
I'm coming. What?

01:45:35.468 --> 01:45:38.512
No, no, no. Keep it.

01:45:38.679 --> 01:45:41.432
Give it to Tyler.

01:45:41.599 --> 01:45:46.437
How about... how about this?
How about a sequel?

01:45:46.604 --> 01:45:50.191
A sequel with real people,
real people's names,

01:45:50.358 --> 01:45:53.903
<i>places, about what happened</i>
<i>in my life</i>

01:45:54.070 --> 01:45:57.823
<i>after the publication</i>
of You Always, You Never?

01:45:57.990 --> 01:46:00.076
<i>How about that?</i>

01:46:00.243 --> 01:46:04.121
Roberta, if you were ever
to write that book,

01:46:04.288 --> 01:46:06.123
I'd love to see it.

01:46:06.290 --> 01:46:10.461
I just don't understand
the whole agent thing,

01:46:10.628 --> 01:46:13.089
but I spoke to Karen

01:46:13.256 --> 01:46:16.717
and she said that, because
she represents you now,

01:46:16.884 --> 01:46:18.719
she couldn't represent me.

01:46:18.886 --> 01:46:20.888
-No, no, no, no.
-Yeah.

01:46:21.055 --> 01:46:23.558
-Okay, but she can find you an--
-It's a conflict.

01:46:23.724 --> 01:46:27.895
Okay, but she can find you
an agent and a lawyer, but...

01:46:28.062 --> 01:46:31.691
You should use my old agent. That's
perfect. He'd love to represent you.

01:46:31.857 --> 01:46:33.985
-Okay.
-He should be so lucky.

01:46:34.151 --> 01:46:37.113
Because the deal's 50-50.
We're just gonna split it 50-50, right?

01:46:37.280 --> 01:46:39.490
-That doesn't make any sense at all.
-Why?

01:46:39.657 --> 01:46:43.661
-You are the writer. It's not 50-50.
-Well, yes, it is.

01:46:43.828 --> 01:46:45.913
I mean, unless you want more.
I mean...

01:46:46.080 --> 01:46:48.791
-Don't be absurd.
-You don't need an agent.

01:46:50.334 --> 01:46:54.880
You're better than your agent.
Look, I am so happy to be doing this.

01:46:55.047 --> 01:46:59.468
This is my idea.
We're splitting it 50-50. That's done.

01:46:59.635 --> 01:47:02.471
Forget it.
Let's just move on and try to start.

01:47:02.638 --> 01:47:05.641
-Do you have some--
-This might be interesting.

01:47:05.808 --> 01:47:12.064
But it turns out the main ingredient
in antifreeze is ethylene glycol.

01:47:12.231 --> 01:47:15.067
-In antifreeze?
-In antifreeze. Wait, now...

01:47:15.234 --> 01:47:19.989
Which is not only incredibly toxic
but also very sweet.

01:47:21.240 --> 01:47:26.203
So that, people, when they want
to poison someone, have used it a lot.

01:47:26.370 --> 01:47:31.626
And now 17 states require
the manufacturer

01:47:31.792 --> 01:47:35.129
to add something
to make it taste very bitter.

01:47:36.422 --> 01:47:39.008
Which leaves 33 states
where they don't.

01:47:39.175 --> 01:47:40.551
-Exactly.
-If my math...

01:47:40.718 --> 01:47:43.804
So I was thinking maybe
as part of her plan,

01:47:43.971 --> 01:47:47.600
she either lives in a state
that doesn't have the law...

01:47:47.767 --> 01:47:50.436
-Or moves to one.
-And then moves to one.

01:47:50.603 --> 01:47:53.022
And then moves to one.

01:49:23.446 --> 01:49:25.698
<i>When I read this novel,</i>

01:49:25.865 --> 01:49:29.076
<i>it's... it's impossible for me</i>

01:49:29.243 --> 01:49:33.623
<i>not to think what a miracle it is</i>
<i>that this universe emerged,</i>

01:49:33.789 --> 01:49:39.921
<i>what a miracle it is</i>
<i>that consciousness emerged...</i>

01:49:40.796 --> 01:49:44.550
<i>And what a miracle it is</i>
<i>that Blodwyn Pugh,</i>

01:49:44.717 --> 01:49:47.720
<i>her thoughts and experiences,</i>

01:49:47.887 --> 01:49:52.350
<i>that they could reach across time</i>

01:49:52.516 --> 01:49:56.604
<i>and reach into my consciousness.</i>

01:49:57.563 --> 01:49:58.940
<i>That's a miracle.</i>

01:50:17.907 --> 01:50:22.907
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