WEBVTT 00:00:00.750 --> 00:00:56.313 ..:: Presented by ZarFilm website ::.. ‏.:: www.bolboljan.net ::. 00:01:37.042 --> 00:01:40.583 A FILM IN 12 CHAPTERS, A PROLOGUE AND AN EPILOGUE 00:01:48.893 --> 00:01:52.983 You've been through the epidermis, derma and muscles. 00:01:53.067 --> 00:01:54.566 PROLOGUE 00:01:55.126 --> 00:01:58.333 Julie disappointed herself. This used to be easy. 00:01:59.709 --> 00:02:01.833 She was still among the top students, 00:02:02.126 --> 00:02:03.500 but there were too many 00:02:03.751 --> 00:02:05.666 interruptions, updates, 00:02:06.209 --> 00:02:07.208 feeds, 00:02:07.459 --> 00:02:09.583 unsolvable global problems. 00:02:11.709 --> 00:02:13.500 She sensed 00:02:14.501 --> 00:02:17.458 a gnawing unease she had tried to suppress by cramming 00:02:17.751 --> 00:02:19.958 by drowning it in digital interference. 00:02:23.251 --> 00:02:25.375 This was wrong. This wasn't her. 00:02:26.834 --> 00:02:28.208 She'd chosen medicine 00:02:28.459 --> 00:02:32.291 because it was so hard to gain admission. 00:02:32.792 --> 00:02:35.666 Where her excellent grades actually meant something. 00:02:42.126 --> 00:02:43.958 But then she had a revelation. 00:02:44.542 --> 00:02:46.833 Her passion had always been the soul. 00:02:47.084 --> 00:02:48.916 The mind, not the body. 00:02:49.167 --> 00:02:52.291 Surgery is like, so concrete. 00:02:52.501 --> 00:02:55.666 It's almost like being a carpenter. 00:02:56.334 --> 00:02:57.458 But now... 00:02:57.667 --> 00:03:02.458 My passion has always been what goes on inside - thoughts and feelings. 00:03:02.667 --> 00:03:04.791 It was like a window had opened. 00:03:05.001 --> 00:03:05.958 Not anatomy. 00:03:06.417 --> 00:03:10.583 If psychology will make you happy, then do it. 00:03:11.209 --> 00:03:14.000 I think you're really brave. 00:03:14.251 --> 00:03:17.250 I can't take it anymore. I don't want to. 00:03:17.584 --> 00:03:18.958 She left him. 00:03:19.834 --> 00:03:21.042 Though he was devastated, 00:03:21.126 --> 00:03:25.208 he had to respect the way she took control of her life. 00:03:50.292 --> 00:03:52.583 She observed her fellow students. 00:03:52.834 --> 00:03:54.916 Norway's future spiritual advisers. 00:03:55.167 --> 00:03:58.166 Mostly girls with borderline eating disorders. 00:03:58.792 --> 00:04:00.541 Say you're at a party. 00:04:00.751 --> 00:04:03.083 She still felt trapped in the role of model student. 00:04:03.167 --> 00:04:04.125 All this cramming. 00:04:04.334 --> 00:04:06.916 When was life supposed to start? 00:04:07.126 --> 00:04:08.333 What's your name? 00:04:11.334 --> 00:04:12.333 Julie. 00:04:12.542 --> 00:04:14.541 The person's name is Julie. 00:04:15.167 --> 00:04:17.750 Let's say Julie and I meet at a party, 00:04:17.959 --> 00:04:22.125 and we feel a mutual attraction. 00:04:22.334 --> 00:04:23.500 Hypothetically. 00:04:36.626 --> 00:04:38.791 Actually, she was a visual person. 00:04:40.001 --> 00:04:41.625 Now I know. 00:04:42.584 --> 00:04:44.208 I want to be a photographer. 00:04:44.709 --> 00:04:45.916 A photographer? 00:04:46.709 --> 00:04:47.333 I see. 00:04:47.626 --> 00:04:50.958 Julie spent her student loan on cameras and lenses. 00:04:51.251 --> 00:04:53.001 As long as you're serious about it. 00:04:53.584 --> 00:04:55.916 No safety net. No holding back. 00:04:56.334 --> 00:04:57.167 Need help? 00:04:57.459 --> 00:04:59.209 She took a temp job in a bookstore. 00:05:00.584 --> 00:05:02.458 Started a photography course. 00:05:02.667 --> 00:05:03.500 Super! 00:05:04.001 --> 00:05:05.291 She made new friends. 00:05:06.042 --> 00:05:07.292 It felt like coming home. 00:05:11.209 --> 00:05:13.500 Suddenly Oslo was a different city. 00:05:14.001 --> 00:05:16.083 New places. New faces. 00:05:16.292 --> 00:05:17.166 Hi. Aksel. 00:05:17.376 --> 00:05:18.209 Right... 00:05:18.334 --> 00:05:20.208 You're the comic book artist? 00:05:20.417 --> 00:05:22.666 She'd heard he was the creator of Bobcat. 00:05:30.084 --> 00:05:31.666 Sorry, I'm a wild animal. 00:05:32.251 --> 00:05:33.416 Have you read it? 00:05:33.626 --> 00:05:34.459 Yeah. 00:05:35.042 --> 00:05:35.916 So? 00:05:36.876 --> 00:05:38.708 She pretended she'd read it. 00:05:39.292 --> 00:05:43.125 She only remembered one strip she'd found vaguely sexist. 00:05:59.001 --> 00:06:00.125 I know what you mean. 00:06:00.334 --> 00:06:02.416 Nothing's ever good enough. 00:06:02.626 --> 00:06:05.500 The only thing worse than all the idiots is yourself. 00:06:05.709 --> 00:06:06.542 But... 00:06:07.501 --> 00:06:11.666 If we go on, I'll fall in love with you. Then it'll be too late. 00:06:13.042 --> 00:06:14.833 Maybe we should agree to 00:06:16.209 --> 00:06:17.708 stop seeing each other. 00:06:21.834 --> 00:06:24.583 The problem is our age difference. 00:06:24.792 --> 00:06:28.208 I'm just afraid we'll fall into a vicious circle. 00:06:28.417 --> 00:06:30.500 You're much younger than I am. 00:06:31.417 --> 00:06:34.291 You'll start to question who you are. 00:06:35.376 --> 00:06:38.375 I'm past 40. I've entered a new phase. 00:06:38.584 --> 00:06:41.875 Whereas you still need time to find yourself. 00:06:42.292 --> 00:06:44.625 You don't need me waiting. 00:06:44.834 --> 00:06:47.666 You need to be completely free. 00:06:48.417 --> 00:06:50.666 I'm just afraid we'll hurt each other. 00:06:58.709 --> 00:07:01.291 Later she said that was the precise moment 00:07:01.501 --> 00:07:03.625 she fell in love with him. 00:07:23.167 --> 00:07:25.750 Shall I put your bag in the bedroom? 00:07:26.001 --> 00:07:27.083 Yes, please. 00:07:38.251 --> 00:07:39.791 I have two copies of a book! 00:07:40.501 --> 00:07:41.125 Huh? 00:07:41.376 --> 00:07:42.250 Yeah. 00:07:43.209 --> 00:07:44.416 I'll throw one away. 00:07:44.959 --> 00:07:47.208 Can I have two shelves? 00:07:49.709 --> 00:07:52.083 How many closets do you need? 00:07:53.459 --> 00:07:54.666 How many can I have? 00:07:54.917 --> 00:07:57.750 No, that's not how it works. 00:07:58.292 --> 00:08:01.125 This is antique glass. All wavy and stuff. 00:08:01.376 --> 00:08:03.750 No, don't do that. Not like that. 00:08:04.542 --> 00:08:05.750 No! 00:08:06.209 --> 00:08:07.583 Lift this catch here. 00:08:08.209 --> 00:08:09.916 I'm terrified it'll break. 00:08:10.167 --> 00:08:11.708 I gaze out this window. 00:08:11.959 --> 00:08:13.833 - No way! - I'm not kidding. 00:08:14.084 --> 00:08:16.915 Hey, that's how relationships work. 00:08:18.541 --> 00:08:21.375 She's a bit frosty towards me. That's new. 00:08:22.916 --> 00:08:25.333 Yeah? Why do you think that is? 00:08:25.626 --> 00:08:27.583 It's embarrassing to say. 00:08:27.834 --> 00:08:29.875 We've been single together. 00:08:30.876 --> 00:08:32.750 Lived that life. 00:08:33.001 --> 00:08:35.625 Then suddenly I move in with you. 00:08:36.334 --> 00:08:38.541 - And you're happy? - Yeah. 00:08:39.584 --> 00:08:40.958 No, no, no... 00:08:41.542 --> 00:08:43.416 Did you date this guy? 00:08:43.709 --> 00:08:45.208 Yeah, just a fling. 00:08:46.709 --> 00:08:47.666 Okay. 00:08:48.251 --> 00:08:49.458 Stop! 00:08:52.209 --> 00:08:53.833 You're so predictable! 00:08:54.542 --> 00:08:56.083 Let's just fuck. 00:09:14.626 --> 00:09:15.583 Hello! 00:09:16.667 --> 00:09:20.166 CHAPTER 1 THE OTHERS 00:09:22.834 --> 00:09:25.041 - Happy to see you! - Me, too. 00:09:25.251 --> 00:09:26.666 - Doing good? - Yeah. 00:09:28.042 --> 00:09:28.875 Hi, Martin. 00:09:29.334 --> 00:09:30.041 Welcome. 00:09:30.251 --> 00:09:31.625 Thanks for coming. 00:09:34.959 --> 00:09:36.416 Dad designed it. 00:09:36.667 --> 00:09:40.541 We should renovate, but don't want to change anything. 00:09:40.792 --> 00:09:42.625 It's beautiful. 00:09:43.042 --> 00:09:45.875 Yeah, but there's stuff like that. Damp. 00:09:55.126 --> 00:09:58.458 We get this room because we're childless. 00:09:58.667 --> 00:09:59.916 Dibs on the top bunk. 00:10:01.376 --> 00:10:04.083 I always feel that Tone doesn't like me. 00:10:04.292 --> 00:10:05.833 She's just shy. 00:10:08.251 --> 00:10:10.583 That's what you say about boring people. 00:10:11.626 --> 00:10:13.583 - It's my turn now. - Okay. 00:10:16.917 --> 00:10:17.916 Thank you. 00:10:18.167 --> 00:10:19.208 Vin? 00:10:20.209 --> 00:10:21.125 Vin de blanc? 00:10:21.376 --> 00:10:22.291 Thanks. 00:10:25.001 --> 00:10:28.458 Do you have any friends with kids yet? 00:10:30.126 --> 00:10:32.083 No. Only one. 00:10:32.292 --> 00:10:34.500 Guess this feels unfamiliar. 00:10:36.292 --> 00:10:38.875 - They're very sweet. - Thanks. 00:10:39.126 --> 00:10:41.250 So what are you doing now, Julie? 00:10:41.459 --> 00:10:44.875 Aksel says you've started writing? 00:10:45.334 --> 00:10:48.541 Well, I wouldn't exactly call it writing. 00:10:49.126 --> 00:10:49.959 Being modest? 00:10:50.959 --> 00:10:51.916 No. 00:10:52.167 --> 00:10:53.333 Seems so. 00:10:53.584 --> 00:10:57.833 Is there anything you'd like to do, 00:10:58.334 --> 00:11:00.208 as a career? 00:11:00.459 --> 00:11:02.250 Questions, questions, Karianne. 00:11:02.501 --> 00:11:05.333 That question was vulgar when we were students. 00:11:05.626 --> 00:11:06.208 Lucky you! 00:11:06.459 --> 00:11:07.625 Yeah, we were. 00:11:07.876 --> 00:11:10.083 True, we had a lot of freedom. 00:11:10.584 --> 00:11:12.250 Being young today is different. 00:11:12.876 --> 00:11:14.791 The pressure is heart-breaking. 00:11:15.042 --> 00:11:17.208 There's no time to think. 00:11:17.459 --> 00:11:19.166 Always something on the screen. 00:11:19.376 --> 00:11:21.083 Take William. 00:11:21.292 --> 00:11:25.333 If we don't set limits, he spends his life on screens. 00:11:29.834 --> 00:11:31.250 Nice try. 00:11:31.542 --> 00:11:32.375 Okay. 00:11:33.084 --> 00:11:34.375 No, it's not your turn. 00:11:34.667 --> 00:11:36.666 It's Martin's turn. 00:11:36.959 --> 00:11:39.583 Julie's still the closest. 00:11:48.292 --> 00:11:49.458 Bedtime. 00:11:51.584 --> 00:11:53.125 - She's exhausted. - No! 00:11:53.376 --> 00:11:54.958 No! 00:11:55.167 --> 00:11:56.083 - Yes! - No! 00:11:56.459 --> 00:11:58.625 I don't want to go to bed! 00:11:59.709 --> 00:12:01.833 I don't want to! 00:12:02.084 --> 00:12:05.375 Eva, don't make another scene. Come here! 00:12:05.584 --> 00:12:07.916 No! I don't want to! 00:12:13.042 --> 00:12:14.125 Let go! 00:12:15.417 --> 00:12:18.166 - You silly girl! - I don't want to! 00:12:18.376 --> 00:12:19.875 But I want you to! 00:12:20.084 --> 00:12:21.500 I don't want to! 00:12:28.917 --> 00:12:30.291 Kids can be intense. 00:12:31.126 --> 00:12:32.416 Well, it's okay. 00:12:34.501 --> 00:12:36.291 - Fun with kids. - Yeah. 00:12:39.459 --> 00:12:40.625 Can't we just enjoy it? 00:12:40.834 --> 00:12:43.333 Please. No fights. 00:12:43.542 --> 00:12:46.333 There are kids here, and it's chaos. 00:12:46.542 --> 00:12:47.625 Just try. 00:12:47.834 --> 00:12:50.625 Try playing with them or something, okay? 00:12:51.834 --> 00:12:52.708 Please. 00:12:52.917 --> 00:12:54.375 Spare me the kid talk. 00:12:54.584 --> 00:12:57.708 Sorry, but I wasn't the one who started. 00:12:59.459 --> 00:13:03.500 You're with someone who's younger than you. There's a gap. 00:13:03.917 --> 00:13:07.791 You're almost 30. Not a bad age to have kids. 00:13:09.417 --> 00:13:12.458 I'm 44. I want to go to the next level. With you. 00:13:12.709 --> 00:13:15.958 It has nothing to do with my friends. 00:13:16.709 --> 00:13:20.916 You seem to be waiting for something. I don't know what. 00:13:21.292 --> 00:13:22.125 Hello? 00:13:22.584 --> 00:13:24.250 Jeez. 00:13:24.667 --> 00:13:26.541 I didn't want to get into this. 00:13:27.126 --> 00:13:28.625 Really not. 00:13:31.501 --> 00:13:34.166 Everything's on your terms. 00:13:34.792 --> 00:13:36.742 You have time off, so we're on holiday. 00:13:36.834 --> 00:13:38.000 You agreed. 00:13:38.334 --> 00:13:41.208 After you publish, you get bored. 00:13:41.417 --> 00:13:43.166 And start talking about kids. 00:13:43.376 --> 00:13:47.083 The others here have kids, so it's an issue. 00:13:47.626 --> 00:13:48.625 Not true. 00:13:48.834 --> 00:13:50.416 It is true. 00:13:51.584 --> 00:13:52.708 And then 00:13:52.959 --> 00:13:54.708 you get a new idea at some point, 00:13:54.917 --> 00:13:57.583 and disappear into your drawing board. 00:13:57.792 --> 00:13:59.333 What are you saying? 00:13:59.709 --> 00:14:01.833 Don't start. It's not cool. 00:14:02.042 --> 00:14:03.500 Shut up. Please. 00:14:03.709 --> 00:14:06.833 Of course I'd be there if we had kids. 00:14:07.042 --> 00:14:09.958 You know that. You know I want children. 00:14:10.167 --> 00:14:13.958 Sure, and I'll also want kids at some point. 00:14:14.167 --> 00:14:15.541 But I don't know... 00:14:15.751 --> 00:14:18.250 I have no maternal instinct, right? 00:14:18.584 --> 00:14:21.791 No, you'd make a great mom. 00:14:22.584 --> 00:14:23.417 I'm sure of it. 00:14:23.542 --> 00:14:26.291 I want to have children, too. 00:14:27.042 --> 00:14:28.250 At some point. 00:14:28.667 --> 00:14:32.083 So what are we waiting for? What has to happen first? 00:14:33.834 --> 00:14:36.416 I don't know what exactly. 00:14:39.334 --> 00:14:41.375 I just want to do more first. 00:14:41.584 --> 00:14:43.666 Okay, like what? 00:14:44.209 --> 00:14:45.458 What's the obstacle? 00:14:45.667 --> 00:14:48.083 I don't know! Why do you ask? 00:14:48.292 --> 00:14:50.416 Your concept is flawed. 00:14:51.376 --> 00:14:55.208 Most people have kids without sorting out their life first. 00:14:55.417 --> 00:14:57.791 - They figure it out. - Flawed? 00:14:58.001 --> 00:15:00.375 That's how most people do it. 00:15:00.584 --> 00:15:05.083 But I don't want everything to happen on your terms, 00:15:05.292 --> 00:15:06.458 based on what you want. 00:15:06.667 --> 00:15:09.333 Fine. I got it. But what do you want? 00:15:09.542 --> 00:15:11.666 Oh, please! We have to stop. 00:15:14.584 --> 00:15:17.708 I need sleep to put up with those people. 00:15:49.792 --> 00:15:54.041 I know a guy who has a theory about that. 00:15:55.292 --> 00:15:57.666 He says we have a limited number of sperm. 00:15:58.126 --> 00:16:01.208 Say... three trillion in your lifetime. 00:16:01.417 --> 00:16:02.458 Jerk off too much, 00:16:03.167 --> 00:16:05.208 and you run out. Could be true. 00:16:05.417 --> 00:16:07.416 Easy now, Portnoy. 00:16:07.667 --> 00:16:08.958 How fascinating. 00:16:09.501 --> 00:16:11.250 Personally, I feel like 00:16:11.501 --> 00:16:14.875 I know everything about male problems. 00:16:14.959 --> 00:16:16.416 Erectile dysfunction, 00:16:16.667 --> 00:16:19.583 morning wood, infatuation with young women 00:16:20.459 --> 00:16:21.750 premature ejaculation... 00:16:22.042 --> 00:16:22.916 Nice work, Aksel. 00:16:25.167 --> 00:16:27.041 It's in all the books and movies. 00:16:27.292 --> 00:16:30.208 Where's the menstrual period? 00:16:30.459 --> 00:16:32.791 Female orgasm and desire? Where? 00:16:33.001 --> 00:16:35.902 Good question. Tell us. In juicy detail. 00:16:36.209 --> 00:16:37.291 No, the point is 00:16:37.792 --> 00:16:39.916 it shouldn't be taboo. 00:16:40.126 --> 00:16:43.833 If men had periods, that's all we'd hear about. 00:16:47.001 --> 00:16:48.500 Can you womansplain it 00:16:48.959 --> 00:16:50.041 a bit better? 00:16:50.292 --> 00:16:51.666 What do you mean? 00:16:52.542 --> 00:16:55.499 Like mansplaining, but womansplaining. 00:16:56.375 --> 00:16:57.083 What? 00:16:57.292 --> 00:16:58.666 Mansplaining is... 00:17:00.417 --> 00:17:03.874 When a 45-year-old man explains 00:17:04.334 --> 00:17:06.384 how things really are to a younger woman. 00:17:07.042 --> 00:17:08.166 Nice demonstration! 00:17:08.459 --> 00:17:09.624 My pleasure. 00:17:10.292 --> 00:17:11.125 Ding! Great! 00:17:11.334 --> 00:17:12.749 Whiskey, anyone? 00:17:23.501 --> 00:17:26.875 How's the senior citizen club doing? 00:18:01.459 --> 00:18:02.625 Come on. 00:18:36.917 --> 00:18:39.333 Look who's here! 00:19:02.834 --> 00:19:03.916 Are you okay? 00:19:04.126 --> 00:19:05.333 Not really. 00:19:06.417 --> 00:19:07.583 Show me. 00:19:09.001 --> 00:19:09.834 No! 00:19:10.042 --> 00:19:11.875 Let me see... 00:19:16.792 --> 00:19:20.166 We'll laugh about it later. It's just a scratch. 00:19:20.417 --> 00:19:22.500 Karianne's such a drama queen. 00:19:22.709 --> 00:19:24.250 It's my fault. 00:19:24.459 --> 00:19:26.625 Not at all, Julie. 00:19:27.459 --> 00:19:30.125 It is. I always overdo it. 00:19:30.876 --> 00:19:35.041 I know being here isn't easy for you. 00:19:35.251 --> 00:19:39.833 I'm not into this whole "happy family" thing either. 00:19:41.126 --> 00:19:43.625 I'm glad it turned into a party tonight. 00:19:45.459 --> 00:19:47.125 I hope you had fun! 00:19:47.334 --> 00:19:49.500 What the hell's wrong with you? 00:19:50.834 --> 00:19:53.875 What's wrong with having a little fun? 00:19:54.084 --> 00:19:56.000 I didn't have any fun! 00:19:56.209 --> 00:19:57.750 Sorry that happened. 00:19:57.959 --> 00:20:01.916 You don't care! 00:20:02.126 --> 00:20:04.291 Shut up! Just shut up! 00:20:04.917 --> 00:20:08.416 You don't give a shit about me! 00:20:12.001 --> 00:20:13.708 Shall we make a baby? 00:20:16.292 --> 00:20:17.125 Fuck you. 00:20:30.751 --> 00:20:32.041 - Hi. - Good morning. 00:20:32.251 --> 00:20:34.416 There's coffee. And cups. 00:22:04.251 --> 00:22:07.958 CHAPTER 2 CHEATING 00:22:09.584 --> 00:22:11.125 Sorry, I forgot. 00:22:11.376 --> 00:22:13.041 What's your line of work? 00:22:14.209 --> 00:22:15.750 I work in a bookstore. 00:22:15.959 --> 00:22:17.583 Which one? 00:22:18.459 --> 00:22:20.750 Norli, by the university. 00:22:22.417 --> 00:22:25.000 Could you excuse me for a moment? 00:22:27.959 --> 00:22:29.041 Could you sign? 00:22:29.459 --> 00:22:31.333 Sure, I'll just finish this. 00:22:31.917 --> 00:22:33.750 Any new Bobcat in the pipeline? 00:22:34.584 --> 00:22:36.041 I've moved on. 00:22:36.417 --> 00:22:38.916 Do you work full-time there, 00:22:39.126 --> 00:22:41.916 or are you just temping on weekends? 00:23:00.792 --> 00:23:02.083 - Sorry. - Bye. 00:23:03.459 --> 00:23:06.041 Hey, I think I'll head home. 00:23:06.376 --> 00:23:07.500 Okay. 00:23:08.042 --> 00:23:09.208 - You good? - Yeah. 00:23:09.417 --> 00:23:11.166 - Sure? - Yeah, I'm fine. 00:23:11.709 --> 00:23:14.000 - I can stay if you like. - It's okay. 00:23:14.709 --> 00:23:18.041 - But I have to stay a bit longer. - Of course. 00:23:19.209 --> 00:23:21.166 Okay. See you at home. 00:25:43.376 --> 00:25:45.166 Hi. Can I have a smoke? 00:25:45.376 --> 00:25:46.625 Of course. 00:26:35.209 --> 00:26:38.458 I had my second child ten years later. 00:26:38.667 --> 00:26:42.583 Now we're supposed to introduce solids at 4 months. 00:26:42.792 --> 00:26:47.375 What made the pediatricians change their minds? 00:26:47.584 --> 00:26:50.958 - Do you cuddle your kids? - Sure, a lot. 00:26:51.167 --> 00:26:52.791 They'll be drug addicts. 00:26:55.001 --> 00:26:57.333 They'll be addicts because I cuddle them? 00:26:57.542 --> 00:27:00.458 Yeah, according to new research. 00:27:00.667 --> 00:27:04.500 New research says you shouldn't cuddle your kids? 00:27:04.709 --> 00:27:09.125 I realize it must be counter-intuitive for a mother. 00:27:09.334 --> 00:27:11.833 But motherhood upsets your limbic system. 00:27:12.042 --> 00:27:14.458 So my kids are going to be drug addicts? 00:27:15.001 --> 00:27:17.125 That's ridiculous. Do you have children? 00:27:17.459 --> 00:27:21.666 No, but I'm a doctor. I have a medical perspective. 00:27:21.876 --> 00:27:26.000 Babies express themselves by crying. 00:27:26.376 --> 00:27:30.625 It's normal for a mother or a father to comfort them. 00:28:06.376 --> 00:28:07.291 Hi. 00:28:11.292 --> 00:28:13.541 Not asking me the usual questions? 00:28:14.459 --> 00:28:16.708 - Which ones? - Who I am, what I do. 00:28:17.709 --> 00:28:19.708 Who are you? What do you do? 00:28:19.917 --> 00:28:22.291 I hate those questions. 00:28:22.501 --> 00:28:25.708 They're especially bad when you're a doctor. 00:28:25.917 --> 00:28:27.125 Are you a doctor? 00:28:27.751 --> 00:28:28.958 No, you are. 00:28:38.959 --> 00:28:40.666 Which questions should I ask? 00:28:46.667 --> 00:28:49.083 Ask me who I know here. 00:28:50.001 --> 00:28:52.583 - Who do you know here? - Nobody. 00:28:53.834 --> 00:28:55.083 I crashed the party. 00:28:55.959 --> 00:28:57.250 You just waltzed in? 00:28:59.917 --> 00:29:00.875 Okay. 00:29:25.292 --> 00:29:26.541 Nothing's gonna happen. 00:29:26.751 --> 00:29:27.791 Of course not. 00:29:28.001 --> 00:29:29.541 I'm with someone I love. 00:29:29.751 --> 00:29:30.708 Me, too. 00:29:31.126 --> 00:29:34.875 And I can't stand cheating. I've been there. Never again. 00:29:35.376 --> 00:29:38.041 - Right, cheating is... - No good. 00:29:46.459 --> 00:29:48.333 But where do you draw the line? 00:29:51.584 --> 00:29:53.000 You can feel it. 00:29:53.209 --> 00:29:54.541 If I do this... 00:29:59.501 --> 00:30:00.791 Is that cheating? 00:30:01.001 --> 00:30:01.958 No. 00:30:06.251 --> 00:30:07.916 What about this? 00:30:14.501 --> 00:30:16.458 - No, that's permissible. - Is it? 00:30:23.917 --> 00:30:26.208 And hurting someone who's not your partner? 00:30:26.417 --> 00:30:28.791 - You hurt your partner? - Is that cheating? 00:30:32.167 --> 00:30:33.291 Did that hurt? 00:30:36.834 --> 00:30:37.833 Did it? 00:30:48.292 --> 00:30:50.208 - Feel good? - Yeah, it did. 00:30:51.542 --> 00:30:52.458 Okay. 00:30:54.626 --> 00:30:55.875 Let me smell your sweat. 00:30:56.084 --> 00:30:57.375 - No. - Yes. 00:30:58.959 --> 00:31:01.541 - Seriously? - Yes, that's allowed. 00:31:09.376 --> 00:31:11.333 - It stinks! - Yes. 00:31:11.917 --> 00:31:14.583 The kind of smell you never forget. 00:31:15.876 --> 00:31:18.500 My turn to smell you. 00:31:20.417 --> 00:31:22.583 No, please. I regret it now. 00:31:22.792 --> 00:31:23.791 Let me smell. 00:31:32.626 --> 00:31:34.250 I think you smell nice. 00:31:52.459 --> 00:31:53.916 I don't know if... 00:31:59.751 --> 00:32:02.166 this is permissible. 00:32:07.042 --> 00:32:08.375 Go ahead. 00:32:08.584 --> 00:32:09.250 Okay. 00:32:09.459 --> 00:32:11.500 You start, then I'll go next. 00:32:12.834 --> 00:32:16.958 I actually think sex is best 00:32:17.251 --> 00:32:19.541 when the dick isn't too hard. 00:32:21.834 --> 00:32:23.208 Because 00:32:23.959 --> 00:32:26.875 in a way, then I'm the one 00:32:27.376 --> 00:32:30.916 who makes it hard, you know? 00:32:34.126 --> 00:32:36.250 My secret will be dumb now. 00:32:37.209 --> 00:32:39.291 I guess I misunderstood. 00:32:41.126 --> 00:32:43.583 I was going to say I like the Barcode Project. 00:32:45.584 --> 00:32:48.375 It looks pretty from the bridge when I go to work. 00:32:48.584 --> 00:32:51.375 I expose my darkest secrets, and you... 00:32:51.584 --> 00:32:54.208 You said "secrets", not "darkest". 00:32:54.417 --> 00:32:55.625 So why is that a secret? 00:32:55.834 --> 00:32:58.708 Because everyone thinks it's ugly. 00:33:07.709 --> 00:33:09.750 Sorry, we're... 00:33:29.917 --> 00:33:31.916 - Can I whisper it? - Okay. 00:33:53.126 --> 00:33:54.166 What? 00:33:58.751 --> 00:34:02.875 Sorry, I seem to be sitting on everything. 00:34:03.209 --> 00:34:04.333 My bad. 00:34:32.042 --> 00:34:33.958 There's nothing sexual about that. 00:34:34.584 --> 00:34:35.666 Not at all. 00:34:40.417 --> 00:34:42.708 Although you do like soft dicks. 00:34:43.167 --> 00:34:44.125 Yeah. 00:34:45.042 --> 00:34:45.916 Okay. Your turn. 00:35:01.667 --> 00:35:02.666 I can't pee. 00:35:02.959 --> 00:35:04.791 Just relax. 00:36:15.542 --> 00:36:16.708 I'm going this way. 00:36:20.542 --> 00:36:21.583 Okay. 00:36:29.042 --> 00:36:30.166 What's your name? 00:36:31.376 --> 00:36:32.375 Julie. 00:36:32.584 --> 00:36:34.484 - I'm Eivind. Eivind... - Don't say it. 00:36:35.751 --> 00:36:36.666 Why not? 00:36:36.917 --> 00:36:39.875 I'll find you on Facebook, and... 00:36:40.167 --> 00:36:41.208 Good thinking. 00:36:43.167 --> 00:36:44.375 Okay. 00:36:45.126 --> 00:36:46.375 - Bye. - Bye. 00:36:47.792 --> 00:36:49.583 - We didn't cheat. - No. 00:36:49.834 --> 00:36:51.000 - Not at all. - No. 00:36:51.292 --> 00:36:52.125 Bye. 00:37:19.876 --> 00:37:25.166 CHAPTER 3 ORAL SEX IN THE AGE OF #METOO 00:37:51.792 --> 00:37:52.833 Aksel? 00:37:55.626 --> 00:37:57.426 Aksel, I need to tell you something. 00:37:57.876 --> 00:37:58.833 Aksel? 00:38:25.626 --> 00:38:28.625 "A friend told me she had sex with a man 00:38:28.917 --> 00:38:32.791 "who pumped his dick into her mouth while he held her head. 00:38:33.334 --> 00:38:36.791 "She was confused because she enjoyed it. 00:38:37.001 --> 00:38:39.000 "It really turned her on. 00:38:39.626 --> 00:38:43.958 "Can you be a feminist and still enjoy being mouth-fucked? 00:38:44.501 --> 00:38:47.666 "Most women I know are ambivalent about performing oral sex. 00:38:47.876 --> 00:38:52.791 "They must act as if they like... the pathetic expectation 00:38:53.001 --> 00:38:55.666 "that it'll turn them on... 00:38:56.334 --> 00:38:58.041 "I like it flaccid. 00:38:58.459 --> 00:38:59.759 "So I create the stiffness 00:39:00.001 --> 00:39:03.041 "instead of having it thrust upon me." 00:39:27.917 --> 00:39:29.208 This is good. 00:39:30.126 --> 00:39:31.708 - Yeah? - It's over the top. 00:39:32.501 --> 00:39:36.208 I don't agree with everything, but it's very well written. 00:39:36.417 --> 00:39:38.583 Original. Very good. 00:39:38.917 --> 00:39:40.458 What will you do with it? 00:39:41.292 --> 00:39:42.500 I don't know. 00:39:45.667 --> 00:39:47.208 You really think it's good? 00:39:47.501 --> 00:39:49.125 Yeah. Absolutely. 00:39:49.876 --> 00:39:51.000 You sure? 00:39:51.251 --> 00:39:52.833 Yeah, I'm not lying. 00:39:53.126 --> 00:39:53.959 No? 00:40:00.917 --> 00:40:02.000 Are you sure? 00:40:02.209 --> 00:40:04.500 Don't you dare doubt it. 00:40:06.167 --> 00:40:08.083 It's pretty cerebral. 00:40:08.876 --> 00:40:12.000 But it turns me on too. 00:40:12.334 --> 00:40:13.708 - Right? - Kinda. 00:40:14.459 --> 00:40:15.750 Is that why you wrote it? 00:40:16.876 --> 00:40:18.000 Intellectual Viagra? 00:40:18.209 --> 00:40:20.458 - Yeah. - It works. 00:40:21.417 --> 00:40:24.750 Her piece "Oral Sex in the Age of #MeToo" 00:40:24.959 --> 00:40:26.500 was published on jubel.no. 00:40:27.084 --> 00:40:30.375 It was widely shared and set off a lively Facebook debate. 00:40:35.584 --> 00:40:39.520 With the strong painkillers I'm on, I can't drive. 00:40:39.604 --> 00:40:41.185 CHAPTER 4 OUR OWN FAMILY 00:40:41.269 --> 00:40:42.869 I understand. 00:40:44.292 --> 00:40:46.125 I hoped I could come, but... 00:40:47.501 --> 00:40:50.583 I can't spend an hour on a bus with this back. 00:40:51.291 --> 00:40:53.291 Don't worry about it. 00:40:53.917 --> 00:40:56.916 Could you come to Hønefoss next weekend? 00:40:57.167 --> 00:40:58.617 So we can celebrate together. 00:40:59.876 --> 00:41:01.750 Nathalie says happy birthday too. 00:41:02.042 --> 00:41:03.708 Say hello from me. 00:41:06.959 --> 00:41:08.750 How nice to see you. 00:41:08.959 --> 00:41:10.791 - It's been too long. - Way too long. 00:41:11.376 --> 00:41:13.833 Anyway, have a nice birthday. 00:41:14.042 --> 00:41:15.125 Thanks. 00:41:15.376 --> 00:41:16.333 Okay. 00:41:17.167 --> 00:41:18.458 I'm too skinny? 00:41:18.709 --> 00:41:20.500 - You work too much. - True. 00:41:20.834 --> 00:41:22.666 We'll talk later. 00:41:24.542 --> 00:41:26.250 Happy birthday! 00:41:28.626 --> 00:41:32.125 - Why do I always have to go see him? - He's not coming? 00:41:33.417 --> 00:41:35.458 Well, he's got a backache. 00:41:35.667 --> 00:41:38.708 There's always something wrong with him. 00:41:39.376 --> 00:41:40.209 Hello! 00:41:41.001 --> 00:41:42.958 So, he's not coming. 00:41:43.542 --> 00:41:44.916 That's not nice. 00:41:45.126 --> 00:41:47.500 He wanted to, but he has a backache. 00:41:50.001 --> 00:41:52.375 Does he realize how it makes you feel? 00:41:53.292 --> 00:41:55.166 - He's... - It's a backache, Mom. 00:41:56.876 --> 00:41:57.709 Sorry. 00:41:58.251 --> 00:41:59.583 Please help yourself. 00:41:59.792 --> 00:42:01.791 Thank you. It looks delicious. 00:42:02.417 --> 00:42:03.625 I hope you like it. 00:42:06.751 --> 00:42:09.416 ♪ Hurray and happy birthday today! ♪ 00:42:09.626 --> 00:42:12.083 ♪ It's time to celebrate you! ♪ 00:42:13.167 --> 00:42:15.916 At 30, Julie's mom, Eva, 00:42:16.209 --> 00:42:19.125 had been divorced for two years. A single mom, 00:42:19.376 --> 00:42:21.666 and accountant in a publishing house. 00:42:21.959 --> 00:42:24.666 ♪ Let us dance, hop, jump and turn ♪ 00:42:24.917 --> 00:42:27.583 ♪ Wishing you the very happiest returns ♪ 00:42:27.834 --> 00:42:30.916 ♪ For now it's time for celebration! ♪ 00:42:31.209 --> 00:42:32.708 ♪ Congratulations! ♪ 00:42:39.959 --> 00:42:41.250 Thanks. 00:42:41.667 --> 00:42:44.100 Have you read Julie's article? 00:42:44.292 --> 00:42:45.167 Of course. 00:42:45.251 --> 00:42:46.451 - And? - It's great. 00:42:47.459 --> 00:42:49.583 - Have you read it, Mom? - No. 00:42:50.126 --> 00:42:53.333 Julie's article. It's excellent. 00:42:54.417 --> 00:42:57.958 At 30, Julie's grandmother had three children. 00:42:58.209 --> 00:43:01.500 She played Rebecca West in Rosmersholm at the National Theater. 00:43:03.209 --> 00:43:06.166 At 30, Julie's great-grandmother, Astrid, 00:43:06.376 --> 00:43:08.791 was a widow, alone with four children. 00:43:09.876 --> 00:43:13.541 Julie's great-great-grandmother had seven children. 00:43:13.792 --> 00:43:16.166 Two died of tuberculosis. 00:43:16.792 --> 00:43:19.917 Julie's great-great-great-grandmother, Herta, was a merchant's wife 00:43:20.001 --> 00:43:21.916 with six children 00:43:22.167 --> 00:43:24.083 in a loveless marriage. 00:43:24.626 --> 00:43:28.916 Julie's great-great-great-great-grandmother never turned 30. 00:43:29.209 --> 00:43:33.750 The life expectancy for women at the time was 35 years. 00:43:34.959 --> 00:43:38.958 I don't want to bother you with it, but... 00:43:41.417 --> 00:43:45.833 It's getting harder and harder to pee. 00:43:46.709 --> 00:43:49.916 I was scared it was prostate cancer, 00:43:50.209 --> 00:43:51.541 but it wasn't. 00:43:52.251 --> 00:43:54.250 - Well, that's good. - Yeah. 00:43:55.417 --> 00:43:56.583 Still... 00:43:58.459 --> 00:44:00.208 I go to the toilet all the time. 00:44:00.459 --> 00:44:01.375 And 00:44:01.959 --> 00:44:03.000 there's leakage. 00:44:05.876 --> 00:44:08.291 Thanks for the cool jacket. Good timing. 00:44:08.584 --> 00:44:11.333 I want to get into hiking. 00:44:15.876 --> 00:44:17.541 Sorry we're late. 00:44:21.626 --> 00:44:23.416 You didn't make them coffee? 00:44:23.709 --> 00:44:25.083 It's okay. 00:44:25.584 --> 00:44:28.041 I'll fix something. 00:44:28.334 --> 00:44:29.625 - How'd it go? - Great. 00:44:29.917 --> 00:44:31.875 - How many saves? - Lots. 00:44:32.209 --> 00:44:33.042 Good job. 00:44:33.334 --> 00:44:34.875 Happy belated birthday. 00:44:35.167 --> 00:44:36.833 30 is pretty major. 00:44:37.917 --> 00:44:39.750 Too bad we missed it. 00:44:40.042 --> 00:44:41.875 The tournament lasted all day. 00:44:42.292 --> 00:44:43.541 So we couldn't come. 00:44:44.084 --> 00:44:46.583 No problem. That's okay. 00:44:47.001 --> 00:44:49.916 She's the goalkeeper. You should see her play. 00:44:50.334 --> 00:44:52.708 No, she doesn't have to. 00:44:53.959 --> 00:44:55.750 She's awesome. 00:44:56.042 --> 00:44:57.708 I'll let you know next time. 00:44:57.959 --> 00:44:59.500 Yeah, please do. 00:45:00.709 --> 00:45:01.875 Cool. 00:45:04.626 --> 00:45:06.750 Did you get the article I sent you? 00:45:08.084 --> 00:45:12.416 Yeah, I was about to ask you. I couldn't get the link to work. 00:45:13.334 --> 00:45:15.041 My PC acts up. 00:45:16.126 --> 00:45:18.625 Know anything about computers? 00:45:18.834 --> 00:45:21.166 I can take a look. 00:45:22.001 --> 00:45:24.875 But can't she just resend the email? 00:45:25.084 --> 00:45:26.625 Wasn't there a... 00:45:26.834 --> 00:45:28.500 Did she send it in an email? 00:45:28.709 --> 00:45:31.041 An attachment to an email. 00:45:32.251 --> 00:45:35.333 No, I pressed the button on the mouse. 00:45:35.584 --> 00:45:38.625 Then I put the arrow on the square. 00:45:38.876 --> 00:45:41.750 I tried twice, then it vanished. 00:45:42.001 --> 00:45:45.291 It could be my fault. 00:45:45.584 --> 00:45:48.333 Maybe I sent the wrong version. 00:45:48.626 --> 00:45:51.583 We'll fix it. You have to read that article. 00:45:51.792 --> 00:45:53.875 It's really good. 00:45:54.292 --> 00:45:55.375 Very... 00:45:55.667 --> 00:45:58.416 Very well written, and... 00:45:59.626 --> 00:46:01.041 Clever girl. 00:46:03.834 --> 00:46:07.375 When are you coming to see us, Per Harald? 00:46:07.751 --> 00:46:11.041 We'd love it. Come see where your daughter lives. 00:46:11.251 --> 00:46:13.375 Sure, of course. 00:46:14.334 --> 00:46:16.625 But it's hard to park in Central Oslo. 00:46:17.667 --> 00:46:19.208 They've got that 00:46:20.751 --> 00:46:21.875 resident 00:46:22.084 --> 00:46:24.541 resident parking there. 00:46:25.084 --> 00:46:25.917 Yeah. 00:46:26.667 --> 00:46:29.333 It's made it much easier to find a space. 00:46:29.584 --> 00:46:31.250 You just have to pay. 00:46:31.542 --> 00:46:35.250 And move the car every half hour? 00:46:37.501 --> 00:46:41.000 Is that the reason you don't come to see us? 00:46:41.792 --> 00:46:44.125 Because it's hard to drive in town? 00:46:44.417 --> 00:46:45.250 That's not it. 00:46:45.542 --> 00:46:46.625 Then what is it? 00:46:47.042 --> 00:46:49.708 Well, you know 00:46:50.126 --> 00:46:53.625 with my painkillers, I'm not allowed to drive. 00:46:53.917 --> 00:46:55.625 There's that, too. 00:47:02.626 --> 00:47:05.375 The good thing is, he's open about it. 00:47:05.584 --> 00:47:08.750 His pains. His prostate. 00:47:17.459 --> 00:47:19.750 You have to make your own family. 00:47:30.459 --> 00:47:37.000 CHAPTER 5 BAD TIMING 00:48:13.709 --> 00:48:14.708 Excuse me? 00:48:15.209 --> 00:48:16.042 Hi. 00:48:16.167 --> 00:48:17.666 Do you have Green Yoga? 00:48:21.584 --> 00:48:23.083 Let me check. 00:48:23.542 --> 00:48:25.833 - Which book again? - Green Yoga. 00:48:26.376 --> 00:48:27.958 Published last year. 00:48:31.042 --> 00:48:34.750 No, I'll have to order it. It's not in stock. 00:48:35.001 --> 00:48:36.666 How long will it take? 00:48:37.542 --> 00:48:38.666 Two weeks. 00:48:40.292 --> 00:48:41.916 Okay. No thanks. 00:48:43.292 --> 00:48:44.791 They don't have it either. 00:48:45.084 --> 00:48:46.041 Okay. 00:48:46.292 --> 00:48:48.000 We can try at Ark. 00:48:49.001 --> 00:48:49.834 Thank you. 00:49:15.959 --> 00:49:17.659 I told her I forgot my sunglasses. 00:49:17.876 --> 00:49:19.500 I just had to say 00:49:20.334 --> 00:49:21.750 that I know what we said. 00:49:22.292 --> 00:49:24.166 But I think about you a lot. 00:49:25.334 --> 00:49:26.291 And... 00:49:26.834 --> 00:49:29.250 I don't want to bug you if you're happy. 00:49:30.459 --> 00:49:31.416 Are you? 00:49:34.126 --> 00:49:36.250 - I don't know what to say. - Say nothing. 00:49:37.167 --> 00:49:40.041 I'd like to see you again. Just to talk. 00:49:41.792 --> 00:49:44.000 I mean, I'm not going to... 00:49:45.334 --> 00:49:49.750 But I'd like to see you again. Just to... 00:49:50.626 --> 00:49:53.875 I'm at Åpent Bakeri in Barcode nearly every day. 00:49:55.042 --> 00:49:57.375 I work there, I mean. If you want to. 00:50:00.709 --> 00:50:01.750 So... 00:50:05.042 --> 00:50:06.166 - Eivind? - Yes. 00:50:06.792 --> 00:50:07.750 Your glasses. 00:50:07.959 --> 00:50:09.041 Oh, right. Fuck. 00:50:24.042 --> 00:50:28.041 Language opens the door to the subconscious. 00:50:28.251 --> 00:50:29.833 Freud was a great writer. 00:50:30.042 --> 00:50:33.041 He could be self-critical. 00:50:33.251 --> 00:50:36.291 He never hesitated to revise his theories. 00:50:36.501 --> 00:50:40.625 He viewed each individual patient as a research subject. 00:50:40.834 --> 00:50:44.208 Freud didn't distinguish between therapy and research. 00:50:44.459 --> 00:50:47.583 I find that very compelling. 00:50:47.792 --> 00:50:51.291 Especially these days, 00:50:51.501 --> 00:50:55.125 when scientific methodology is applied 00:50:55.459 --> 00:50:57.916 even in the humanities. 00:50:58.126 --> 00:51:00.916 Enough about Freud. How's the movie coming along? 00:51:01.167 --> 00:51:03.333 Isn't it almost done? 00:51:03.626 --> 00:51:05.250 Yeah, I've seen it, but... 00:51:05.459 --> 00:51:06.791 - You have? - Yes. 00:51:07.084 --> 00:51:09.083 It's no longer mine at all. 00:51:09.292 --> 00:51:11.583 Is it as bad as you feared? 00:51:11.792 --> 00:51:15.500 The worst thing is how they've housetrained Bobcat. 00:51:15.709 --> 00:51:19.208 It's all very sanitized and safe. 00:51:19.417 --> 00:51:20.625 I'll show you something. 00:51:22.417 --> 00:51:26.250 A mock-up of the movie poster. 00:51:27.126 --> 00:51:28.291 I have to admit... 00:51:28.584 --> 00:51:31.125 I'm embarrassed my name's on it. 00:51:31.334 --> 00:51:32.167 Shit. 00:51:32.501 --> 00:51:34.000 No! Seriously? 00:51:34.209 --> 00:51:36.333 You must be kidding. No way. 00:51:36.709 --> 00:51:39.541 That's the poster. For real. 00:51:40.501 --> 00:51:42.083 Let's see. 00:51:42.292 --> 00:51:44.166 Looks like Chip and Dale. 00:51:44.376 --> 00:51:45.209 Holy shit. 00:51:45.709 --> 00:51:47.500 Should I laugh or cry? 00:51:48.084 --> 00:51:51.916 Everything was butchered. The story. All the details. 00:51:52.876 --> 00:51:54.666 They removed the starfish. 00:51:54.876 --> 00:51:56.666 Sorry, I'm lost. 00:51:56.876 --> 00:51:58.083 What starfish? 00:51:58.292 --> 00:52:00.125 It's, you know 00:52:00.334 --> 00:52:01.916 the butthole. The anus. 00:52:02.126 --> 00:52:04.208 His butt is smooth in the movie. 00:52:05.042 --> 00:52:07.375 This thing is gone. 00:52:07.834 --> 00:52:09.708 That's bad in my book. 00:52:09.917 --> 00:52:12.125 In underground comics you shit, 00:52:12.334 --> 00:52:15.791 you puke, you fuck and all that stuff. 00:52:16.001 --> 00:52:21.125 Bobcat is a wild cat in a world of domestic cats. 00:52:21.334 --> 00:52:23.625 He's a rebel against the bourgeoisie. 00:52:23.834 --> 00:52:26.541 One of the most iconic buttholes ever. 00:53:05.459 --> 00:53:06.458 Coffee? 00:53:06.667 --> 00:53:07.500 Yeah. 00:56:39.792 --> 00:56:41.833 I don't know what we should do. 00:57:15.126 --> 00:57:16.541 I have to go. 00:58:32.501 --> 00:58:33.541 Aksel, 00:58:33.959 --> 00:58:35.375 we need to talk. 00:58:37.251 --> 00:58:38.791 Yeah, of course. 00:58:40.167 --> 00:58:41.000 What's wrong? 00:58:41.959 --> 00:58:44.250 Julie said she'd been thinking. 00:58:44.792 --> 00:58:48.000 It wasn't his fault. Nothing he could have changed. 00:58:48.209 --> 00:58:50.458 It's not anything you've done. 00:58:51.042 --> 00:58:53.666 It's not your fault. But I feel... 00:58:53.917 --> 00:58:56.458 It was about all their old arguments. 00:58:57.042 --> 00:58:58.541 Things they both knew. 00:58:58.751 --> 00:59:00.000 It was bad timing. 00:59:00.209 --> 00:59:02.916 They'd met in different phases of life. 00:59:03.126 --> 00:59:05.250 They wanted different things. 00:59:05.459 --> 00:59:07.666 We want different things. 00:59:14.501 --> 00:59:16.375 Are you leaving me? 00:59:17.042 --> 00:59:17.916 Yeah. 00:59:20.834 --> 00:59:22.875 I want it to be over. 00:59:49.459 --> 00:59:53.166 Are you sure you're yourself right now? 00:59:54.001 --> 00:59:55.041 What do you mean? 00:59:55.334 --> 00:59:57.625 Do you realize... 00:59:58.292 --> 01:00:01.250 Do you realize what you're doing? 01:00:01.501 --> 01:00:03.125 What you're destroying? 01:00:03.334 --> 01:00:05.250 Yes, of course. 01:00:06.209 --> 01:00:08.083 That's why it's so hard. 01:00:15.709 --> 01:00:16.833 Where will you live? 01:00:18.584 --> 01:00:19.791 I don't know. 01:00:20.126 --> 01:00:21.291 You don't know? 01:00:22.001 --> 01:00:23.041 No. With Mom. 01:00:28.167 --> 01:00:29.166 Move home to Mom? 01:00:30.167 --> 01:00:32.250 Yeah. Until I find a place. 01:00:34.751 --> 01:00:35.625 Okay. 01:00:41.709 --> 01:00:43.333 No, come on... 01:00:46.042 --> 01:00:47.375 It's over. 01:00:48.834 --> 01:00:51.875 I've had it. What else can I say? 01:00:52.167 --> 01:00:55.958 Is something else bothering you and you're venting on me? 01:00:56.251 --> 01:00:57.084 No. 01:00:57.334 --> 01:00:59.234 I've thought about it for a long time. 01:00:59.959 --> 01:01:01.875 It feels right. 01:01:06.626 --> 01:01:08.083 Have you met someone? 01:01:08.584 --> 01:01:09.541 No. 01:01:16.126 --> 01:01:19.000 I'm so sick of all this, Julie. Dammit. 01:01:19.209 --> 01:01:20.583 Sick to death of it. 01:01:23.626 --> 01:01:25.583 But okay. 01:01:26.042 --> 01:01:28.208 Just leave. If that's what you want. 01:01:31.167 --> 01:01:33.833 I'll take a walk while you pack. 01:02:01.167 --> 01:02:04.541 Julie said he deserved a more grounded woman. 01:02:05.417 --> 01:02:07.000 Ready for children. 01:02:07.459 --> 01:02:08.583 Who was dependable, 01:02:08.792 --> 01:02:11.750 didn't flake out every six months. 01:02:14.292 --> 01:02:16.833 But I like you flaky. 01:02:17.042 --> 01:02:19.041 Aksel said he liked her flaky. 01:02:19.792 --> 01:02:22.458 That he needed someone like that. 01:02:22.876 --> 01:02:25.375 Who could draw him out of his drawing board. 01:02:26.209 --> 01:02:28.875 And as for having kids... 01:02:31.709 --> 01:02:34.458 He said he'd rather be childless with her 01:02:34.667 --> 01:02:36.500 than have kids with anyone else. 01:02:37.251 --> 01:02:39.333 You know that's not the only problem. 01:02:40.001 --> 01:02:41.666 So what is the problem? 01:02:43.542 --> 01:02:47.625 It's a combination of things, not just that. 01:02:48.001 --> 01:02:51.791 I can see you're in a crisis right now. 01:02:52.001 --> 01:02:53.958 I can understand that. 01:02:54.542 --> 01:02:57.250 But if you love me, 01:02:58.376 --> 01:02:59.875 we'll sort it all out. 01:03:00.084 --> 01:03:01.583 Yes, I do love you. 01:03:02.417 --> 01:03:03.958 And I don't love you. 01:03:04.834 --> 01:03:07.208 Julie felt that this sentence, 01:03:07.417 --> 01:03:08.916 the way she said it, 01:03:09.126 --> 01:03:10.542 her emphasis on certain words, 01:03:10.626 --> 01:03:13.708 summed up the impossibility of it all. 01:03:13.917 --> 01:03:16.916 I feel like a spectator in my own life. 01:03:18.626 --> 01:03:21.875 Like I'm playing a supporting role in my own life. 01:03:27.959 --> 01:03:30.041 I get that you feel stuck. 01:03:30.251 --> 01:03:32.958 You need a change. 01:03:33.167 --> 01:03:35.291 But is this the solution? 01:03:36.001 --> 01:03:38.500 This is exactly my point. 01:03:39.042 --> 01:03:41.166 I'm trying to tell you how I feel, 01:03:41.376 --> 01:03:44.625 and you're defining my feelings. 01:03:45.501 --> 01:03:47.208 I see what you're doing. 01:03:47.417 --> 01:03:51.041 What am I doing? Tell me what I'm doing. 01:03:51.167 --> 01:03:53.291 Shut up, and I'll tell you. 01:03:53.792 --> 01:03:58.083 You're acting out the confrontation you never dared have with your father. 01:03:58.376 --> 01:04:02.416 - You're taking it out on me. - Is that so? 01:04:03.126 --> 01:04:05.291 What do you know about it? 01:04:05.626 --> 01:04:08.625 This is the crux of our relationship. 01:04:08.834 --> 01:04:12.041 Everything we feel, we have to put into words. 01:04:12.251 --> 01:04:15.291 Sometimes, I just want to feel things. 01:04:15.542 --> 01:04:18.958 You insist on being so damn strong all the time. 01:04:19.209 --> 01:04:20.125 For you, 01:04:20.334 --> 01:04:22.708 being strong 01:04:22.917 --> 01:04:24.833 is about formulating things. 01:04:25.042 --> 01:04:27.125 If you analyze things 01:04:27.334 --> 01:04:29.666 at every psychological level, 01:04:29.876 --> 01:04:31.375 you think you're strong. 01:04:31.584 --> 01:04:35.416 Because I'm less analytical, you think I'm weaker. 01:04:40.667 --> 01:04:42.750 She said she was terrified of being alone. 01:04:42.959 --> 01:04:44.625 Terrified of living without him. 01:04:44.834 --> 01:04:46.666 That when she left, 01:04:47.042 --> 01:04:49.291 she'd be like Bambi on the ice. 01:04:50.459 --> 01:04:53.916 And that was precisely why she had to do it. 01:04:55.959 --> 01:04:59.625 Aksel mumbled soothing words she didn't hear. 01:04:59.876 --> 01:05:01.666 She was thinking about how, 01:05:01.876 --> 01:05:05.500 at the age of 30, she'd just compared herself to Bambi. 01:05:09.292 --> 01:05:10.125 No. 01:05:11.959 --> 01:05:13.416 I'm pathetic. 01:05:13.626 --> 01:05:14.875 No, you're not. 01:05:29.542 --> 01:05:30.500 Aksel... 01:06:12.376 --> 01:06:13.416 Hey... 01:06:15.834 --> 01:06:17.458 I didn't mean what I said. 01:06:17.751 --> 01:06:18.666 It's okay. 01:06:18.917 --> 01:06:20.500 I said plenty of things, too. 01:06:25.126 --> 01:06:26.333 Stay a little longer. 01:06:31.001 --> 01:06:32.708 You'll regret it. 01:06:35.251 --> 01:06:36.791 I'm sure I will. 01:06:38.251 --> 01:06:39.625 The saddest thing, 01:06:39.876 --> 01:06:43.916 is one day, you'll want kids. 01:06:44.209 --> 01:06:47.166 In any case, you'll have other relationships. 01:06:48.209 --> 01:06:51.958 And you'll realize that what we had was unique. 01:06:52.417 --> 01:06:53.291 I know. 01:06:53.501 --> 01:06:56.708 You don't. But I do. I've had many relationships. 01:06:56.917 --> 01:06:58.416 I know how hard it is. 01:06:59.792 --> 01:07:03.041 Nobody communicates like we do. Laughs like we do. 01:07:13.417 --> 01:07:17.291 Who knows? Maybe we'll get back together someday. 01:07:18.167 --> 01:07:19.791 Then and there 01:07:20.376 --> 01:07:21.500 she meant it. 01:07:22.501 --> 01:07:23.666 I mean it. 01:07:45.292 --> 01:07:48.416 CHAPTER 6 FINNMARK HIGHLANDS 01:07:59.876 --> 01:08:01.375 - Are you cold? - Yeah. 01:08:05.876 --> 01:08:09.750 - It looked easier on YouTube. - I told you we should practice. 01:08:13.126 --> 01:08:13.959 Wait... 01:08:14.126 --> 01:08:15.416 This one first. 01:08:15.626 --> 01:08:17.875 - Are you sure? - Yes, this goes on top. 01:08:18.084 --> 01:08:20.791 Right, but is it first? 01:08:21.709 --> 01:08:23.083 Isn't the other one first? 01:08:23.292 --> 01:08:25.416 - No, that's the top. - Okay. 01:09:07.001 --> 01:09:10.000 Eivind turned it into a funny story he told everyone. 01:09:10.792 --> 01:09:12.791 But it touched something deeper in her. 01:09:14.667 --> 01:09:17.000 Awoke something in her. 01:09:17.292 --> 01:09:18.692 She googled her family name. 01:09:18.876 --> 01:09:21.708 Her grandfather came from the Far North. 01:09:22.959 --> 01:09:27.416 The DNA sample she sent to America confirmed it. 01:09:32.292 --> 01:09:35.666 Eivind didn't see how her newfound identity 01:09:35.876 --> 01:09:37.875 as 3.1% Sami 01:09:38.334 --> 01:09:42.250 connected to mind-expanding substances and unrelated exotic rituals, 01:09:42.584 --> 01:09:45.333 but tried to be supportive. 01:09:47.292 --> 01:09:49.708 As she became increasingly militant, 01:09:49.959 --> 01:09:53.250 she saw how climate change was hurting indigenous people. 01:09:59.126 --> 01:10:01.000 Inuit starving as seals vanish. 01:10:01.417 --> 01:10:04.333 Melting ice ruining reindeer pastures. 01:10:04.542 --> 01:10:07.791 Aborigines dying of skin cancer from the hole in the ozone. 01:10:10.376 --> 01:10:13.333 Eivind could forget about flying to New York. 01:10:13.834 --> 01:10:16.208 Breathe in. All the way up. 01:10:16.459 --> 01:10:17.875 She made them live 01:10:18.751 --> 01:10:20.166 more sustainably. 01:10:22.292 --> 01:10:24.000 He could always do better. 01:10:24.251 --> 01:10:26.333 Study the ingredients more closely. 01:10:26.542 --> 01:10:29.750 Consider the environmental impact of his purchases. 01:10:29.959 --> 01:10:31.625 Plastic is killing the oceans. 01:10:31.876 --> 01:10:35.000 Norwegian cod was ferried to China and back. 01:10:35.251 --> 01:10:37.625 Cobalt mining was destroying the Congo. 01:10:37.876 --> 01:10:40.041 Batteries had blood on their hands. 01:10:42.584 --> 01:10:46.291 The sum of Western guilt sat beside him on the couch. 01:10:46.584 --> 01:10:48.375 Went to bed with him at night. 01:10:50.876 --> 01:10:53.625 Everything was weighed against the greater cause. 01:11:10.084 --> 01:11:14.250 He felt he was betraying Sunniva. Betraying the Sami people. 01:11:18.834 --> 01:11:23.041 Felt like the world's worst person, but couldn't resist. 01:11:24.917 --> 01:11:27.583 I forgot my sunglasses inside. 01:11:28.251 --> 01:11:29.125 Right. 01:11:29.417 --> 01:11:30.875 Be right back. 01:11:39.334 --> 01:11:41.833 CHAPTER 7 A NEW CHAPTER 01:12:27.751 --> 01:12:29.833 Eivind didn't want kids either. 01:12:30.376 --> 01:12:34.708 Climate researchers foresaw hard times for future generations. 01:12:34.917 --> 01:12:38.541 Overpopulation was the reason everything was falling apart. 01:12:51.167 --> 01:12:54.083 Julie liked how this pessimism added depth 01:12:54.417 --> 01:12:56.041 to his cheerful nature. 01:12:57.792 --> 01:13:01.291 But she could tell he had other reasons too. 01:13:04.792 --> 01:13:06.583 Eivind's father, like Julie's, 01:13:06.792 --> 01:13:08.958 tended to forget birthdays. 01:13:09.167 --> 01:13:10.541 Eivind would often say, 01:13:10.751 --> 01:13:12.651 "According to my father's calendar..." 01:13:12.751 --> 01:13:14.333 I'm 12 years old. 01:13:15.417 --> 01:13:17.875 They're all hard. No ripe ones. 01:13:18.167 --> 01:13:19.542 People die of thirst in Chile 01:13:19.626 --> 01:13:22.916 because avocados need so much water. 01:13:43.042 --> 01:13:45.250 Still following Sunniva on Instagram? 01:13:47.001 --> 01:13:50.791 Yeah, she posts interesting links about the environment. 01:13:52.834 --> 01:13:55.875 We don't message or anything. 01:13:56.167 --> 01:13:58.833 She's got over 30,000 followers. 01:13:59.126 --> 01:14:01.000 For showing off her ass? 01:14:02.709 --> 01:14:05.666 She's not showing off her ass, she's doing yoga. 01:14:06.209 --> 01:14:07.291 It's yoga. 01:14:10.292 --> 01:14:11.750 Okay, she shows it off a bit. 01:14:12.334 --> 01:14:14.375 I don't mind you following her. 01:14:15.126 --> 01:14:16.875 It's not a problem, but... 01:14:18.417 --> 01:14:19.958 I don't want to be 01:14:21.001 --> 01:14:24.500 the sensible choice while she's the sexy one. 01:14:33.126 --> 01:14:35.083 There's nothing sensible about you. 01:14:36.709 --> 01:14:38.166 - I mean... - Yeah. 01:14:39.292 --> 01:14:43.000 - The angle of her pelvis... - It's yoga. 01:14:43.584 --> 01:14:45.208 That's not yoga. 01:14:45.501 --> 01:14:46.334 It is yoga. 01:14:47.001 --> 01:14:48.083 You liked it! 01:14:48.751 --> 01:14:49.875 Oh, my god! 01:14:50.792 --> 01:14:54.291 - That's not cool! - I had to like it! 01:15:02.584 --> 01:15:05.416 That's right. 01:15:06.292 --> 01:15:09.041 So, that's why... 01:15:09.417 --> 01:15:12.708 CHAPTER 8 JULIE'S NARCISSISTIC CIRCUS 01:15:12.917 --> 01:15:14.517 I want people to watch me dance. 01:15:14.667 --> 01:15:16.708 It's annoying as hell. 01:15:16.917 --> 01:15:21.583 You can make a fool of yourself on the dance floor and still be cool. 01:15:22.876 --> 01:15:26.458 So true! I've noticed that. When we dance, 01:15:26.667 --> 01:15:28.166 you take up all the space. 01:15:39.459 --> 01:15:40.750 Yeah, but it's also like, 01:15:40.959 --> 01:15:42.875 "Everyone look at me!" 01:15:43.167 --> 01:15:47.125 Yeah, that's my point. You're always so mysterious. 01:15:53.042 --> 01:15:54.625 You still have your stash? 01:15:56.501 --> 01:15:57.583 What's that? 01:16:02.042 --> 01:16:03.042 Where'd you find it? 01:16:04.376 --> 01:16:05.625 What is it? 01:16:06.251 --> 01:16:07.416 Magic mushrooms. 01:16:15.751 --> 01:16:16.708 Have you tried it? 01:16:18.834 --> 01:16:19.875 Yeah. 01:16:25.709 --> 01:16:26.542 Right. 01:16:28.251 --> 01:16:29.375 Why'd you do that? 01:16:30.917 --> 01:16:31.791 Yuck. 01:16:32.001 --> 01:16:33.208 Tastes like dirt. 01:16:34.626 --> 01:16:35.500 Anyone? 01:17:30.667 --> 01:17:34.083 I don't feel anything. They're probably too old. 01:17:35.501 --> 01:17:36.583 I gotta go. 01:17:36.876 --> 01:17:38.916 Are you sure? Could be risky. 01:17:39.417 --> 01:17:40.625 Come on, man. 01:17:41.084 --> 01:17:42.375 We've done this before. 01:17:42.584 --> 01:17:44.666 - We'll talk tomorrow. - Call me. 01:17:53.751 --> 01:17:54.833 Adil? 01:18:04.876 --> 01:18:06.166 Can you speak? 01:18:15.084 --> 01:18:17.458 It's kicking in for him. 01:18:21.709 --> 01:18:22.542 Julie? 01:18:22.876 --> 01:18:24.291 Is it starting to kick in? 01:18:25.584 --> 01:18:26.500 You need water. 01:18:26.709 --> 01:18:28.041 It's important. 01:18:29.001 --> 01:18:30.791 You have to drink lots of water. 01:18:32.501 --> 01:18:34.125 Here. 01:18:34.501 --> 01:18:35.583 Drink it all. 01:18:35.917 --> 01:18:37.583 You'll be okay. 01:18:38.001 --> 01:18:39.708 You know I'm here for you. 01:18:44.959 --> 01:18:45.958 Julie? 01:18:46.709 --> 01:18:47.833 Drink the water. 01:18:58.584 --> 01:18:59.625 It's okay! I'm here! 01:20:10.959 --> 01:20:13.166 Julie, are you okay? 01:20:18.209 --> 01:20:20.583 I thought I'd make it. 01:20:21.501 --> 01:20:22.334 Are you okay? 01:21:45.084 --> 01:21:47.000 Thought we could use some coffee. 01:21:50.542 --> 01:21:52.541 We won't be doing that again. 01:21:58.334 --> 01:22:00.583 You should take a shower. 01:22:00.792 --> 01:22:02.166 Do I smell bad? 01:22:04.167 --> 01:22:06.291 - Is that... - Oh, my god. 01:22:07.501 --> 01:22:09.375 Oh, my god. I need to take a shower. 01:22:09.626 --> 01:22:12.000 Don't worry, it's not urgent. 01:22:12.209 --> 01:22:13.958 Shall I make breakfast? 01:22:25.584 --> 01:22:27.708 I feel I can be myself with you. 01:22:28.459 --> 01:22:29.750 Completely. 01:22:33.792 --> 01:22:35.666 You weren't yourself before? 01:22:36.126 --> 01:22:37.958 I was, but I felt like... 01:22:38.542 --> 01:22:40.083 I had to be 01:22:41.209 --> 01:22:42.625 a bit 01:22:42.709 --> 01:22:45.333 like I was when we first met. 01:22:58.959 --> 01:23:00.833 Thanks for putting up with me. 01:23:01.126 --> 01:23:02.541 I love you. 01:23:39.126 --> 01:23:42.708 CHAPTER 9 BOBCAT WRECKS XMAS 01:23:52.459 --> 01:23:54.850 BOBCAT WRECKS XMAS 01:24:15.292 --> 01:24:20.208 Have you read your old Bobcat comics since you grew up? 01:24:20.417 --> 01:24:23.458 Because in our day and age, 01:24:23.667 --> 01:24:26.166 they seem so inappropriate and murky 01:24:26.376 --> 01:24:28.583 that we feel almost sick 01:24:28.834 --> 01:24:29.750 reading them. 01:24:30.042 --> 01:24:32.833 It's unpleasant to realize you created a character 01:24:33.126 --> 01:24:36.125 who gained popularity at the expense of women. 01:24:36.417 --> 01:24:37.375 Okay, I get it. 01:24:37.626 --> 01:24:40.208 You're saying art should be pleasant? 01:24:41.292 --> 01:24:43.250 Do you think it's art? 01:24:43.542 --> 01:24:47.833 I brought along some of your early comics. 01:24:48.084 --> 01:24:51.166 Bobcat is one thing, but then there's Dick Wolf Dick, 01:24:51.459 --> 01:24:52.958 Pedo the Parrot... 01:24:53.542 --> 01:24:57.875 Right, I don't really think this is the right medium to 01:24:58.251 --> 01:25:00.125 explain comic book humor. 01:25:00.417 --> 01:25:04.375 Have you ever considered that some of your readers 01:25:04.584 --> 01:25:07.208 may have been victims of incest or rape? 01:25:08.542 --> 01:25:12.541 Do we stop creating because some people might feel bad? 01:25:12.751 --> 01:25:17.833 Artists get killed for drawing things others find offensive. They're shot. 01:25:18.084 --> 01:25:20.875 Are you comparing Mohammed caricatures 01:25:21.126 --> 01:25:23.458 with drawings of women with big tits? 01:25:23.751 --> 01:25:25.166 Or with incest? 01:25:25.376 --> 01:25:26.541 What's your point? 01:25:26.751 --> 01:25:28.541 Well, yes and no. 01:25:28.792 --> 01:25:30.250 It's a bit of a cop-out 01:25:30.542 --> 01:25:33.708 to claim freedom of speech when people criticize you. 01:25:33.917 --> 01:25:36.291 We're discussing your work right now, 01:25:36.501 --> 01:25:39.291 so nobody's censoring you. 01:25:39.667 --> 01:25:42.000 As a woman, I'm upset. 01:25:42.209 --> 01:25:45.666 I'm offended, though we're not supposed to say that. 01:25:46.167 --> 01:25:49.875 You have a choice. You don't have to feel offended. 01:25:50.126 --> 01:25:51.416 It's not a choice. 01:25:51.709 --> 01:25:54.541 This is very generational. 01:25:54.917 --> 01:25:58.166 One author cannot be held solely responsible. 01:25:58.376 --> 01:26:02.541 I think art has to be messy and free. 01:26:02.751 --> 01:26:05.250 It has to be a bit dangerous to be fun. 01:26:05.459 --> 01:26:09.083 I want art to be a form of therapy 01:26:09.334 --> 01:26:12.125 where I can express and work through 01:26:12.417 --> 01:26:14.166 all my unacceptable thoughts, 01:26:14.459 --> 01:26:17.250 all my darkest impulses. 01:26:17.501 --> 01:26:21.250 But you're using your male privilege 01:26:21.501 --> 01:26:23.666 to mock people weaker than you. 01:26:23.876 --> 01:26:26.250 It's hardly art, or even humor. 01:26:26.459 --> 01:26:28.750 Sorry, it's not smart enough to be satire. 01:26:29.001 --> 01:26:30.201 But this isn't about me. 01:26:30.376 --> 01:26:33.375 Like, when I create something, 01:26:33.709 --> 01:26:35.625 it's not just me talking. 01:26:35.917 --> 01:26:37.541 - I know that much. - Do you? 01:26:38.376 --> 01:26:42.208 Let's say I draw this interview as a cartoon. 01:26:42.417 --> 01:26:46.458 The comic version of me might call you a whore. 01:26:47.084 --> 01:26:50.041 It doesn't mean I think that. 01:26:50.292 --> 01:26:51.916 It could be 01:26:52.167 --> 01:26:54.833 a parody of a certain type of insecure male... 01:26:55.667 --> 01:26:57.208 You used the word "whore"? 01:26:58.251 --> 01:26:59.875 Yes, I said "whore". 01:27:00.334 --> 01:27:02.291 You're not interested in what I mean. 01:27:02.542 --> 01:27:05.125 Can't you see that's crass sexualization? 01:27:05.334 --> 01:27:08.208 I think we're on a slippery slope here. 01:27:08.459 --> 01:27:12.500 All you post-feminists are so fucking self-righteous! 01:27:14.001 --> 01:27:16.916 Thank you, Marthe Refstad and Aksel Willmann. 01:27:17.251 --> 01:27:19.791 The term is "sex worker" now, by the way. 01:27:26.292 --> 01:27:29.708 CHAPTER 10 FIRST PERSON SINGULAR 01:27:34.042 --> 01:27:36.000 I'm happy to help! 01:27:58.792 --> 01:27:59.750 Long time no see! 01:27:59.959 --> 01:28:02.291 - Yeah. - How are you? 01:28:02.501 --> 01:28:04.208 Okay. And you? 01:28:04.501 --> 01:28:05.916 I'm good. 01:28:07.417 --> 01:28:10.041 Do you ever talk to Aksel? 01:28:10.251 --> 01:28:11.458 Is he okay? 01:28:12.001 --> 01:28:12.834 Yeah, well... 01:28:13.417 --> 01:28:16.125 I heard the radio interview. 01:28:16.334 --> 01:28:17.208 Yeah. 01:28:17.876 --> 01:28:19.333 He went a bit far. 01:28:25.126 --> 01:28:26.833 He's not doing that well. 01:28:28.126 --> 01:28:30.041 Did you know he's sick? 01:28:31.876 --> 01:28:32.709 Aksel? 01:28:32.917 --> 01:28:34.125 Haven't you heard? 01:28:34.334 --> 01:28:35.625 He has cancer. 01:28:37.084 --> 01:28:39.500 Sorry, I thought you knew. 01:28:40.542 --> 01:28:42.125 It spread quickly. 01:28:42.334 --> 01:28:44.791 They discovered it too late. 01:28:45.001 --> 01:28:45.834 Cancer? 01:28:46.292 --> 01:28:48.333 Pancreatic. 01:28:54.042 --> 01:28:55.208 But... 01:29:00.001 --> 01:29:01.666 How is he coping? 01:29:02.042 --> 01:29:04.666 Pretty well, under the circumstances. 01:29:04.876 --> 01:29:06.250 But it's hard. 01:29:06.709 --> 01:29:08.333 The prognosis 01:29:09.542 --> 01:29:11.416 is not good. 01:29:11.626 --> 01:29:12.833 It's incurable. 01:29:25.709 --> 01:29:27.541 Thanks for letting me know. 01:29:27.751 --> 01:29:29.875 I thought you knew. 01:29:30.959 --> 01:29:32.750 No, I hadn't heard anything. 01:29:34.209 --> 01:29:35.333 It's just... 01:29:37.209 --> 01:29:38.958 I didn't know. 01:30:22.376 --> 01:30:23.666 When did you write this? 01:30:25.584 --> 01:30:26.750 Have you read it? 01:30:27.001 --> 01:30:29.625 I was moving it to paper recycling. 01:30:31.209 --> 01:30:32.291 It's very good. 01:30:33.959 --> 01:30:35.083 You think? 01:30:35.584 --> 01:30:36.984 Yeah, it sucked me right in. 01:30:37.584 --> 01:30:39.541 It's really, really great. 01:30:40.042 --> 01:30:42.125 I mean... 01:30:43.834 --> 01:30:44.875 It's like... 01:30:46.917 --> 01:30:47.541 What? 01:30:47.792 --> 01:30:49.083 Well... 01:30:53.084 --> 01:30:54.541 I have to say, 01:30:54.792 --> 01:30:56.875 it's really nice to read about you. 01:30:58.334 --> 01:31:00.166 But it's not about me. 01:31:01.209 --> 01:31:04.750 But the Christmas scene is your family, right? 01:31:06.167 --> 01:31:08.791 Yeah, but it's fiction. You didn't get that? 01:31:09.042 --> 01:31:10.208 I made it up. 01:31:10.417 --> 01:31:12.583 Okay, it's fiction. In any case... 01:31:15.626 --> 01:31:18.291 - It's good. - Because it's me? 01:31:18.501 --> 01:31:21.291 No, because it's nice. 01:31:21.501 --> 01:31:22.541 "Nice"? 01:31:24.792 --> 01:31:27.250 Yeah, nice. Good. Well written. 01:31:27.751 --> 01:31:31.375 The way you write is really great. 01:31:33.209 --> 01:31:34.416 Like here: 01:31:34.709 --> 01:31:39.333 "Too many memories overlapping, blending into a blur." 01:31:39.626 --> 01:31:43.916 That resonates with me. It's well written. Truly good. 01:31:44.876 --> 01:31:46.250 It's not well written. 01:31:48.876 --> 01:31:49.750 What's wrong? 01:31:49.959 --> 01:31:53.333 Suddenly you're into literature? 01:31:54.876 --> 01:31:57.166 What was the last book you read? 01:32:00.334 --> 01:32:02.500 - Are you okay? What's up? - Why? 01:32:03.376 --> 01:32:06.041 You criticize everything I do these days. 01:32:06.334 --> 01:32:10.041 Sorry, but going through my trash is pretty invasive. 01:32:11.834 --> 01:32:13.875 - Can't you see that? - Relax. 01:32:14.126 --> 01:32:15.458 - "Relax"? - Calm down. 01:32:15.751 --> 01:32:17.666 Relaxing is your specialty! 01:32:17.959 --> 01:32:20.750 You don't mind serving coffee till you're 50. 01:32:21.042 --> 01:32:22.083 But I want more! 01:32:32.126 --> 01:32:34.666 That's hurtful. I don't know what to say. 01:33:00.542 --> 01:33:04.750 CHAPTER 11 POSITIVE 01:33:31.959 --> 01:33:33.083 Hello? 01:33:45.126 --> 01:33:46.083 Hey... 01:33:51.626 --> 01:33:52.750 Have you eaten? 01:33:52.959 --> 01:33:55.625 Yeah, but I can make pasta if you like. 01:33:55.834 --> 01:33:58.250 No, I don't need any if you've eaten. 01:35:41.751 --> 01:35:42.833 Oops, sorry. 01:35:58.042 --> 01:35:59.875 It started with a backache. 01:36:00.959 --> 01:36:03.625 I've had backaches before. I didn't worry. 01:36:04.626 --> 01:36:08.083 Then my skin turned almost golden. 01:36:10.501 --> 01:36:11.701 I thought I looked good. 01:36:13.251 --> 01:36:15.041 It turned out to be jaundice. 01:36:18.334 --> 01:36:22.125 Mom said I was born jaundiced. They put me in a light box. 01:36:23.542 --> 01:36:24.416 Is it painful? 01:36:25.417 --> 01:36:26.666 No, not really. 01:36:26.959 --> 01:36:28.291 It's okay. 01:36:29.167 --> 01:36:33.083 They block selected neural pathways with Botox. 01:36:34.417 --> 01:36:35.250 That's good. 01:36:35.501 --> 01:36:39.333 Yeah, it keeps me from taking too many painkillers. 01:36:45.084 --> 01:36:46.833 How's your family doing? 01:36:47.626 --> 01:36:48.791 Fine, I guess. 01:36:49.209 --> 01:36:51.125 Mom still follows your every move. 01:36:53.501 --> 01:36:54.625 And your dad? 01:36:57.501 --> 01:36:59.375 I've basically cut him off. 01:36:59.709 --> 01:37:00.666 Good. 01:37:02.084 --> 01:37:04.041 He can chase me if he likes. 01:37:04.292 --> 01:37:05.291 Does he? 01:37:05.542 --> 01:37:07.333 No, not really. 01:37:08.501 --> 01:37:09.416 Two coffees. 01:37:10.667 --> 01:37:12.875 They thought it was hilarious. 01:37:13.126 --> 01:37:15.375 In some circumstances, 01:37:15.626 --> 01:37:18.324 morbid humour can be funny. 01:37:18.626 --> 01:37:20.860 Even anal sex at a bar mitzvah? 01:37:21.167 --> 01:37:24.250 It makes me laugh. But I'm an old guy now. 01:37:24.501 --> 01:37:25.500 No. 01:37:25.792 --> 01:37:27.208 Well, you know... 01:37:27.834 --> 01:37:29.458 I kind of expected this. 01:37:29.667 --> 01:37:32.833 I'd given up long before I got sick. 01:37:34.417 --> 01:37:38.791 Really. I just watch my favourite old movies over and over. 01:37:39.042 --> 01:37:43.125 Lynch, The Godfather Part II... 01:37:43.376 --> 01:37:45.000 How many times can you watch 01:37:45.667 --> 01:37:47.083 Dog Day Afternoon? 01:37:47.292 --> 01:37:48.416 Many times! 01:37:51.792 --> 01:37:52.708 You should. 01:37:53.459 --> 01:37:54.458 Absolutely. 01:37:57.667 --> 01:37:59.916 Sometimes I listen to music... 01:38:00.709 --> 01:38:02.125 I haven't heard before. 01:38:02.834 --> 01:38:04.166 But... 01:38:05.042 --> 01:38:06.875 It's old as well. 01:38:08.292 --> 01:38:12.250 Music I didn't know about, but from when I grew up. 01:38:13.251 --> 01:38:15.958 It felt as though I'd already given up. 01:38:18.084 --> 01:38:22.541 I grew up in an age without Internet and mobile phones. 01:38:24.834 --> 01:38:27.166 No, but honestly... 01:38:27.709 --> 01:38:30.875 I sound like an old fart. But I think about it a lot. 01:38:31.917 --> 01:38:35.083 The world that I knew 01:38:36.209 --> 01:38:37.958 has disappeared. 01:38:38.167 --> 01:38:41.375 For me it was all about going to stores. 01:38:42.001 --> 01:38:45.250 Record stores. 01:38:47.667 --> 01:38:50.417 I'd take the tram to Voices record store in Grünerløkka. 01:38:50.751 --> 01:38:53.375 Leaf through used comics at Pretty Price. 01:38:53.626 --> 01:38:57.625 I can close my eyes and see the aisles at Video Nova in Majorstua. 01:38:59.209 --> 01:39:01.791 I grew up in a time 01:39:02.001 --> 01:39:05.333 when culture was passed along through objects. 01:39:07.042 --> 01:39:10.000 They were interesting because 01:39:11.751 --> 01:39:14.083 we could live among them. 01:39:14.292 --> 01:39:17.250 We could pick them up. Hold them in our hands. 01:39:17.792 --> 01:39:19.125 Compare them. 01:39:19.334 --> 01:39:20.875 A bit like books? 01:39:22.167 --> 01:39:23.750 Yeah, a bit like books. 01:39:27.001 --> 01:39:31.333 That's all I have. I spent my life doing that. 01:39:33.209 --> 01:39:38.125 Collecting all that stuff, comics, books... 01:39:39.876 --> 01:39:41.083 And... 01:39:43.167 --> 01:39:47.166 I just continued, even when it stopped giving me 01:39:48.292 --> 01:39:50.250 the powerful emotions 01:39:50.459 --> 01:39:53.458 I felt in my early 20s. 01:39:56.084 --> 01:39:57.916 I continued anyway. 01:39:58.459 --> 01:39:59.416 And 01:40:01.001 --> 01:40:02.291 now it's all I have left. 01:40:02.501 --> 01:40:07.083 Knowledge and memories of stupid, futile things 01:40:07.292 --> 01:40:10.166 nobody cares about. 01:40:10.376 --> 01:40:11.875 Don't say that. 01:40:12.084 --> 01:40:14.250 You've got the comics you created. 01:40:15.084 --> 01:40:18.250 I wish I'd had what you had. 01:40:18.459 --> 01:40:20.416 To be able to draw 01:40:20.626 --> 01:40:24.583 without doubting that you're doing what you're supposed to do. 01:40:26.459 --> 01:40:29.291 I really wish I had that. 01:40:29.834 --> 01:40:30.875 Yeah, but... 01:40:31.209 --> 01:40:33.083 I've got cancer. I'm dying. 01:40:33.292 --> 01:40:35.791 Of course I'm being retrospective. 01:40:37.417 --> 01:40:40.041 You said you've done that for ages. 01:40:40.251 --> 01:40:42.166 Not for that long. 01:40:43.417 --> 01:40:48.041 In recent years. I reached a point in life when suddenly... 01:40:48.251 --> 01:40:49.833 It just happened. 01:40:51.459 --> 01:40:53.041 When... 01:40:55.876 --> 01:40:58.250 I began to worship what had been. 01:41:01.001 --> 01:41:05.125 And now I have nothing else. I have no future. 01:41:07.251 --> 01:41:09.500 I can only look back. 01:41:13.001 --> 01:41:14.333 And... 01:41:14.584 --> 01:41:17.083 It's not even nostalgia. It's 01:41:17.834 --> 01:41:19.250 fear of death. 01:41:19.459 --> 01:41:21.541 It's because I'm scared. 01:41:28.667 --> 01:41:31.166 It has nothing to do with art. 01:41:31.917 --> 01:41:33.833 I'm just trying to process... 01:41:45.917 --> 01:41:48.458 I have surgery tomorrow at 9. 01:41:49.876 --> 01:41:53.291 I felt I could tell you anything. 01:41:54.542 --> 01:41:56.000 You wouldn't judge me. 01:41:56.376 --> 01:41:59.375 You're the least judgemental person I know. 01:42:02.584 --> 01:42:04.500 I don't have anyone I can talk to 01:42:06.001 --> 01:42:08.375 the way we used to talk. 01:42:20.959 --> 01:42:24.375 Can you tell me what you used to tell me? 01:42:25.209 --> 01:42:28.375 I hated hearing it at the time, but can you tell me... 01:42:29.167 --> 01:42:31.208 I'll be a good mother? 01:42:34.667 --> 01:42:35.577 Are you pregnant? 01:42:45.292 --> 01:42:46.875 Congratulations? 01:42:49.459 --> 01:42:51.166 How do you feel? Good or bad? 01:42:51.376 --> 01:42:52.625 I don't know. 01:42:54.126 --> 01:42:55.583 I'm not sure. 01:42:57.917 --> 01:42:59.541 It was an accident. 01:42:59.751 --> 01:43:03.000 I must've been careless. I mean, clearly I was. 01:43:18.542 --> 01:43:20.666 Were you really sure? 01:43:22.626 --> 01:43:24.375 Sure you wanted kids? 01:43:30.584 --> 01:43:34.750 I was scared, too. I had doubts, of course. 01:43:36.334 --> 01:43:40.208 But I didn't want to show them, to keep you from... 01:43:41.792 --> 01:43:45.041 I never doubted you'd make a good mother. 01:43:45.792 --> 01:43:49.250 I saw that you doubted it. 01:43:50.167 --> 01:43:53.958 If I regret one thing, it's that I never managed... 01:43:56.376 --> 01:44:00.791 to make you see how wonderful you are. 01:44:21.542 --> 01:44:22.708 What are you thinking? 01:44:26.334 --> 01:44:28.541 This is hard to hear. 01:44:34.709 --> 01:44:37.541 But... will you keep it? 01:44:39.459 --> 01:44:41.000 I don't know. 01:44:49.792 --> 01:44:52.916 I wasted so much time 01:44:53.834 --> 01:44:55.791 worrying about what could go wrong. 01:44:56.001 --> 01:44:59.958 But what did go wrong, was never the things I worried about. 01:45:02.459 --> 01:45:06.208 If he's a kind man, then go for it. 01:45:07.084 --> 01:45:11.208 With a kind father, and you as the mother, 01:45:12.167 --> 01:45:13.583 everything will be fine. 01:45:27.292 --> 01:45:29.625 Your voice has stayed in my head. 01:45:29.917 --> 01:45:32.750 We still have great conversations. 01:45:33.042 --> 01:45:33.875 No way? 01:45:35.959 --> 01:45:37.125 About what? 01:45:38.626 --> 01:45:41.125 Mostly about comics. 01:45:43.334 --> 01:45:45.166 Eclectic tastes. 01:45:54.667 --> 01:45:56.041 Same here. 01:45:56.334 --> 01:45:58.708 I have imaginary conversations with you. 01:46:13.417 --> 01:46:18.041 I'm sure I remember things about you that you've forgotten. 01:46:20.126 --> 01:46:21.416 And the other way round. 01:46:22.376 --> 01:46:24.250 Yeah, maybe. 01:46:29.084 --> 01:46:30.916 When I'm gone, 01:46:31.751 --> 01:46:34.250 all that stuff about you will go with me. 01:46:45.751 --> 01:46:47.458 May I ask you a question? 01:46:49.376 --> 01:46:53.541 Had you already met him when you broke up with me? 01:46:59.667 --> 01:47:00.666 Yeah. 01:47:04.126 --> 01:47:05.708 Why didn't you tell me? 01:47:13.751 --> 01:47:15.041 I don't know. 01:47:16.459 --> 01:47:17.750 I didn't dare. 01:47:24.709 --> 01:47:27.000 And now you're breaking up with him? 01:47:27.709 --> 01:47:29.375 No, why do you say that? 01:47:31.042 --> 01:47:34.666 Maybe because you don't seem happy about the baby. 01:47:38.001 --> 01:47:41.250 And that's what you do when things get tough. 01:47:49.292 --> 01:47:50.958 I'm glad I'm pregnant. 01:47:59.376 --> 01:48:00.541 I'm sorry. 01:48:06.834 --> 01:48:07.875 It's alright. 01:48:32.876 --> 01:48:35.426 You were the most important relationship in my life. 01:48:38.584 --> 01:48:40.750 You don't have to say anything. 01:48:41.417 --> 01:48:44.500 I know it's not the same for you. 01:48:45.459 --> 01:48:49.000 That's normal. You have many years left to live. 01:48:51.751 --> 01:48:53.208 But I know, I feel it. 01:48:56.042 --> 01:48:57.791 And I want you to know. 01:49:02.376 --> 01:49:04.625 You were the love of my life. 01:49:20.334 --> 01:49:21.791 You're a damn good person. 01:50:01.084 --> 01:50:02.500 I should've told you before. 01:50:03.251 --> 01:50:04.583 But I couldn't. 01:50:06.917 --> 01:50:08.291 I'm pregnant. 01:50:15.459 --> 01:50:17.166 How long have you known? 01:50:18.917 --> 01:50:20.875 I know we don't want kids. 01:50:21.459 --> 01:50:22.541 No... 01:50:22.751 --> 01:50:25.458 I don't know if I do. 01:50:27.751 --> 01:50:31.250 I feel like I never see anything through. 01:50:31.459 --> 01:50:34.958 I go from one thing to another. 01:50:43.584 --> 01:50:45.958 I need time 01:50:47.167 --> 01:50:48.541 to think about all this. 01:50:49.084 --> 01:50:50.375 About us. 01:51:11.417 --> 01:51:12.791 It's okay. 01:51:24.084 --> 01:51:28.416 CHAPTER 12 EVERYTHING COMES TO AN END 01:51:39.959 --> 01:51:41.083 That's where I lived. 01:51:44.584 --> 01:51:46.333 We moved there when I was 8. 01:51:48.501 --> 01:51:49.791 Shall we knock? 01:51:50.376 --> 01:51:51.916 No. I don't think so. 01:52:18.167 --> 01:52:21.083 What do you remember from here? 01:52:30.167 --> 01:52:32.250 I remember these colours. 01:52:38.459 --> 01:52:40.958 They were always my reference 01:52:41.334 --> 01:52:43.041 when I drew my comics. 01:52:43.792 --> 01:52:45.250 These colours. 01:52:51.834 --> 01:52:53.416 And I remember 01:52:54.376 --> 01:52:57.583 the local drunk, who was super nice. 01:53:42.751 --> 01:53:45.625 I'm so tired of pretending everything is okay. 01:53:57.334 --> 01:54:00.458 It sucks being in so much pain. It sucks. 01:54:01.251 --> 01:54:02.958 Everything sucks. 01:54:05.417 --> 01:54:06.250 And... 01:54:08.542 --> 01:54:11.375 I don't want to be a memory for you. 01:54:12.542 --> 01:54:15.250 I don't want to be a voice in your head. 01:54:16.667 --> 01:54:19.750 I don't want to live on through my art. 01:54:26.376 --> 01:54:28.750 I want to live in my flat. 01:54:30.917 --> 01:54:32.000 I want to live... 01:54:36.376 --> 01:54:38.583 I want to live in my flat with you. 01:54:39.542 --> 01:54:41.125 I want to be happy together. 01:55:26.959 --> 01:55:27.958 Bye. 01:55:28.501 --> 01:55:29.625 Bye. 01:55:29.917 --> 01:55:31.000 Hi, Julie. 01:55:31.584 --> 01:55:34.458 Aksel's condition has suddenly worsened. 01:55:35.167 --> 01:55:38.416 He's too ill for his planned treatment. 01:55:38.709 --> 01:55:41.791 He may not make it through the night. 01:55:42.459 --> 01:55:46.166 His family is with him, but I thought you should know. 01:58:33.542 --> 01:58:37.125 EPILOGUE 01:58:37.542 --> 01:58:39.125 There's nothing more to say. 01:59:00.626 --> 01:59:01.459 Cut! 01:59:01.876 --> 01:59:02.709 One more. 01:59:02.876 --> 01:59:05.875 One more quick take. Slight adjustment. 01:59:06.542 --> 01:59:07.708 Be sadder. 01:59:07.917 --> 01:59:08.833 Okay. 01:59:09.042 --> 01:59:10.791 But he gets up so quickly. 01:59:11.126 --> 01:59:12.333 Hey! 01:59:13.334 --> 01:59:15.666 Okay, camera ready. 01:59:17.376 --> 01:59:18.375 Action! 01:59:18.626 --> 01:59:20.026 There's nothing more to say. 01:59:38.917 --> 01:59:40.541 Cut! Great. 01:59:41.167 --> 01:59:42.083 Let's move on. 01:59:43.167 --> 01:59:44.375 Right, stills. 01:59:48.834 --> 01:59:50.875 Sorry, I need some shots of you. 01:59:52.917 --> 01:59:54.208 - Sure. Here? - Yeah. 01:59:59.876 --> 02:00:01.708 - Are you okay? - Yeah. 02:00:05.084 --> 02:00:07.291 But I think I was pretty terrible. 02:00:09.459 --> 02:00:12.208 Then use that. Hold on to that feeling. 02:00:12.834 --> 02:01:15.250 Telegram Channel and Instagram Page .:: @bollbolljan_com ::.