WEBVTT 00:00:00.707 --> 00:00:20.707 ..:: Presented By ZarFilm Website ::.. ‏.:: www.bolboljan.net ::. 00:00:22.731 --> 00:00:24.028 I don't... 00:00:24.191 --> 00:00:25.784 I don't really pray... 00:00:26.068 --> 00:00:28.992 ...but if you could just help me out here... 00:00:29.321 --> 00:00:30.538 ...I promise... 00:00:33.700 --> 00:00:35.293 105. 00:00:35.953 --> 00:00:37.296 105? 00:00:37.621 --> 00:00:39.339 Oh, my God! Okay. 00:00:39.498 --> 00:00:41.421 Okay, run a bath, call the doctor. 00:00:41.708 --> 00:00:44.052 Just run a bath, get her into the bath. 00:00:44.211 --> 00:00:46.384 Dr. Carter, 655-... 00:00:46.630 --> 00:00:48.098 Oh, he won't be there. 00:00:48.257 --> 00:00:49.804 What is a thermometer? Mercury. 00:00:50.717 --> 00:00:53.596 How does it even work? Maybe I can page him. 00:00:53.845 --> 00:00:55.813 Susan. Susie. 00:00:57.307 --> 00:00:58.729 Mommy needs you to get up now. 00:00:58.892 --> 00:01:01.566 - Cold. - I know, I know. 00:01:01.728 --> 00:01:03.230 Okay, hang on. 00:01:03.397 --> 00:01:04.819 Hang on. 00:01:05.232 --> 00:01:06.233 Cold! 00:01:06.400 --> 00:01:09.028 It just feels cold because you're so hot. 00:01:09.194 --> 00:01:12.494 Susan. Susan, stay with me. Susan. 00:01:12.656 --> 00:01:13.748 Susan! 00:01:16.994 --> 00:01:19.042 Has she been disoriented? Confused? 00:01:19.204 --> 00:01:22.674 She said that she saw a man in her bedroom. 00:01:26.169 --> 00:01:27.967 Are you cold? 00:01:30.465 --> 00:01:32.183 Okay, swing it. 00:01:32.384 --> 00:01:34.545 - Move it, people. - Is Room 2 clear? 00:01:34.595 --> 00:01:35.812 Yes, it's clear. 00:01:36.346 --> 00:01:37.689 Get her pressure. 00:01:37.889 --> 00:01:40.530 - Let's give her O2. Ten liters. - Yes, doctor. 00:01:40.601 --> 00:01:42.148 Tap her right away. 00:01:50.360 --> 00:01:52.078 How's her breathing? 00:02:14.593 --> 00:02:16.095 No pulse or rhythm. 00:02:17.429 --> 00:02:19.102 Are you God? 00:02:20.807 --> 00:02:22.309 No. 00:02:22.476 --> 00:02:23.693 My name is Seth. 00:02:24.186 --> 00:02:25.483 Where are we going? 00:02:25.687 --> 00:02:27.234 Home. 00:02:28.482 --> 00:02:29.825 Can Mommy come? 00:02:30.359 --> 00:02:31.781 No. 00:02:40.202 --> 00:02:42.296 She won't understand. 00:02:42.704 --> 00:02:44.331 She will... 00:02:44.498 --> 00:02:46.125 ...someday. 00:02:53.674 --> 00:02:55.722 Can I ask you something? 00:02:56.176 --> 00:02:57.393 Yes. 00:02:58.095 --> 00:03:00.189 What did you like best? 00:03:01.390 --> 00:03:03.188 Pajamas. 00:03:29.292 --> 00:03:32.011 She definitely knew what she liked. 00:03:32.421 --> 00:03:35.721 - Pajamas? - Flannel, with feet. 00:03:35.882 --> 00:03:37.884 Pajamas. 00:03:38.051 --> 00:03:40.554 Excellent choice. What else? 00:03:41.179 --> 00:03:43.728 In the elevator of the Bradbury Building... 00:03:43.890 --> 00:03:47.690 ...a man touched a woman's bare skin by accident... 00:03:47.853 --> 00:03:50.857 ...but it made her turn and look at him in such a way... 00:03:52.441 --> 00:03:54.284 And they...? 00:03:54.443 --> 00:03:56.866 - Yes. - Ah. 00:03:57.028 --> 00:03:58.951 It was a good day. 00:03:59.114 --> 00:04:01.742 Do you ever wonder what that would be like? 00:04:01.908 --> 00:04:03.501 Touch? 00:04:03.994 --> 00:04:05.416 No. 00:04:05.787 --> 00:04:07.539 Yes, you do. 00:04:09.499 --> 00:04:11.627 Occasionally. Yes. 00:04:12.878 --> 00:04:14.380 Touch. 00:04:32.647 --> 00:04:35.526 I'm not asking for it every night. Just twice a week. 00:04:35.776 --> 00:04:38.495 Blue eyes. He's never going to leave her. 00:04:38.737 --> 00:04:42.492 Twenty minutes. Everything in this damn city is 20 minutes. 00:04:42.741 --> 00:04:44.414 It's never 20 minutes. 00:05:06.181 --> 00:05:09.902 My ass on a stool all day. She gets the good chair. 00:05:11.812 --> 00:05:16.534 Six pounds, four ounces. My daughter has a daughter. 00:05:28.662 --> 00:05:30.790 $20,000 at 21 percent. 00:05:31.039 --> 00:05:34.009 Pay it off with another card at 14 percent. 00:05:34.376 --> 00:05:35.423 Oh, shit! 00:05:35.669 --> 00:05:40.095 Federal 595 heavy, slow immediately to match preceding aircraft. Over. 00:05:40.340 --> 00:05:42.308 Jesus, wake up! Wake up! 00:05:57.440 --> 00:06:00.785 The little girl asked me if she could be an angel. 00:06:01.111 --> 00:06:02.909 They all want wings. 00:06:03.071 --> 00:06:05.199 I never know what to say. 00:06:05.365 --> 00:06:07.333 Tell them the truth. 00:06:07.492 --> 00:06:09.369 Angels aren't human. 00:06:09.536 --> 00:06:11.664 We were never human. 00:06:11.830 --> 00:06:15.585 What if I just make her a little pair of wings out of paper? 00:06:15.750 --> 00:06:17.718 Tell her the truth. 00:06:17.878 --> 00:06:19.880 I told her. 00:06:20.046 --> 00:06:21.468 And? 00:06:21.631 --> 00:06:23.474 How did she take it? 00:06:23.967 --> 00:06:28.564 She said, "What good would wings be if you couldn't feel wind on your face?" 00:06:54.497 --> 00:06:57.501 On the 101 through downtown L.A., no delays... 00:06:58.835 --> 00:07:00.553 Shit! Jesus! 00:07:02.714 --> 00:07:04.762 Get to work! 00:08:09.572 --> 00:08:10.915 What do we got? 00:08:11.074 --> 00:08:15.295 50-year-old male had a huge anterior wall MI this morning. Collapsed while jogging. 00:08:15.996 --> 00:08:18.670 Paramedics resuscitated him, but his EKG's pretty ugly. 00:08:19.082 --> 00:08:20.425 He's hypertensive. 00:08:20.625 --> 00:08:21.968 This diagonal looks tight. 00:08:22.961 --> 00:08:24.713 Who cathed him? 00:08:24.879 --> 00:08:26.756 Rosenberg. 00:08:27.590 --> 00:08:30.059 - Be right in. - The patient wants to meet you. 00:08:42.063 --> 00:08:44.782 He's pretty out of it. 00:08:46.901 --> 00:08:48.574 The doctor's here. 00:09:12.135 --> 00:09:15.309 - We're just going to cool to 32 today. - Okay. 00:09:16.097 --> 00:09:17.724 Sucker. 00:09:20.435 --> 00:09:21.857 Jimi. 00:09:37.744 --> 00:09:39.371 Vein. 00:09:53.343 --> 00:09:55.892 Kid started walking. 00:09:56.054 --> 00:09:58.398 Three unassisted steps. 00:09:58.556 --> 00:10:02.231 - Get it on video? - I wasn't even there. 00:10:02.393 --> 00:10:05.613 You failed as a father already. How does that feel? 00:10:09.025 --> 00:10:10.777 Retrograde on. 00:10:14.405 --> 00:10:16.606 Come down to half flow, give me a little volume. 00:10:16.783 --> 00:10:18.463 Down to half flow, here's your volume. 00:10:18.618 --> 00:10:20.245 - Ready to come off? - Ready. 00:10:20.411 --> 00:10:21.503 Let's come off. 00:10:21.663 --> 00:10:22.960 We're coming down. 00:10:23.206 --> 00:10:26.380 We're clamped and off bypass. 00:10:50.608 --> 00:10:51.655 Oh, shit. 00:10:53.194 --> 00:10:54.366 What are you missing? 00:10:54.612 --> 00:10:56.239 Sponge. 00:10:56.906 --> 00:10:58.203 Bummer. 00:11:04.080 --> 00:11:05.206 Got it! 00:11:11.296 --> 00:11:12.718 Thank you, everybody. 00:11:13.089 --> 00:11:14.966 Presbyterian's on Line 2. 00:11:15.133 --> 00:11:17.431 Watch his rhythm. It's gonna be irritable. 00:11:20.430 --> 00:11:24.060 - She's getting good, huh? - She's getting that attitude too. 00:11:24.225 --> 00:11:25.898 Getting an attitude? 00:11:28.313 --> 00:11:29.690 Aw, shit! V-tac! 00:11:29.898 --> 00:11:31.400 Christ! Paddles! 00:11:31.608 --> 00:11:33.451 Kill the music. Get her back in here. 00:11:33.610 --> 00:11:35.954 - Charge to 2. - Charging 200. 00:11:36.154 --> 00:11:38.452 - Go, go, go. - Dr. Rice. 00:11:38.656 --> 00:11:39.657 Two hundred. 00:11:39.824 --> 00:11:42.919 - Ready. - Clear. 00:11:44.913 --> 00:11:46.335 - Ready. - Clear! 00:11:46.497 --> 00:11:47.840 V-fib, no pressure. 00:11:47.999 --> 00:11:50.119 - You give him lidocaine? - 100's gone in. 00:11:50.126 --> 00:11:51.548 Buzz him again at 300. 00:11:51.753 --> 00:11:53.721 - Three hundred. - Clear. 00:11:53.880 --> 00:11:55.553 - Nothing. - Start compression. 00:11:55.757 --> 00:11:57.384 Kill the alarm! 00:12:01.596 --> 00:12:03.189 Hold up. It's not working. 00:12:03.389 --> 00:12:05.983 Gotta open him. How long to go back on? 00:12:06.184 --> 00:12:07.606 It'll take me 10 minutes. 00:12:07.810 --> 00:12:09.608 Come on. Nothing. 00:12:09.771 --> 00:12:11.193 Knife. 00:12:19.155 --> 00:12:21.283 Internal paddles. Charge to 20. 00:12:22.033 --> 00:12:23.410 - Ready. - Twenty. 00:12:23.576 --> 00:12:25.123 Hit it. 00:12:25.662 --> 00:12:28.131 - Nada. - Go to 30. 00:12:28.289 --> 00:12:30.007 - Thirty. - Hit it. 00:12:30.166 --> 00:12:31.884 No response. 00:12:32.043 --> 00:12:33.841 Tom, I gotta get back on bypass here. 00:12:34.045 --> 00:12:35.968 Almost there. Give me 7 more minutes. 00:12:36.172 --> 00:12:38.049 Come on. Come on. 00:12:40.009 --> 00:12:41.761 Don't do this. Come on. 00:12:43.137 --> 00:12:44.138 He's going. 00:12:44.806 --> 00:12:46.558 He's not going anywhere. 00:12:55.483 --> 00:12:58.737 Come on, don't do this! Come on. 00:13:00.697 --> 00:13:02.540 Damn it, come on! 00:13:04.158 --> 00:13:05.250 Tom. 00:13:06.953 --> 00:13:10.127 Come on! Come on. 00:13:13.751 --> 00:13:16.595 Tom. Come on. 00:13:31.477 --> 00:13:32.820 Mrs. Balford? 00:13:34.063 --> 00:13:35.315 Where's the doctor? 00:13:36.899 --> 00:13:39.027 - I'm the doctor. - Oh, I'm sorry. 00:13:41.070 --> 00:13:42.367 I operated on your husband. 00:13:42.989 --> 00:13:44.286 How is he? 00:13:46.826 --> 00:13:47.873 He didn't survive. 00:13:51.414 --> 00:13:52.415 What? 00:13:54.834 --> 00:13:57.303 We were able to restore blood flow to the heart... 00:13:57.462 --> 00:14:00.932 ...but he developed a lethal arrhythmia. We were unable to resuscitate him. 00:14:01.090 --> 00:14:04.936 Wait. I'm sorry, I don't understand. A what? 00:14:08.556 --> 00:14:09.603 I'm sorry. 00:14:11.476 --> 00:14:13.854 But.. But... 00:14:14.354 --> 00:14:15.856 Do you...? 00:14:16.022 --> 00:14:17.945 Excuse me. I'm sorry, I'm... 00:14:18.149 --> 00:14:20.368 - What did you say? - He's...? 00:14:23.029 --> 00:14:24.451 What? 00:14:25.531 --> 00:14:27.625 Oh, my God. 00:14:35.875 --> 00:14:38.424 - Oh, God. - Oh, my God. 00:14:56.604 --> 00:14:59.323 On the table, on my table. I'm sorry. 00:14:59.607 --> 00:15:01.109 I'm sorry. 00:15:04.028 --> 00:15:05.951 I'm sorry. What happened? What happened? 00:15:06.114 --> 00:15:09.084 A graft occlusion? What? 00:15:10.451 --> 00:15:13.045 It was textbook. It was textbook. 00:15:19.669 --> 00:15:21.671 I'm so sorry. 00:15:23.965 --> 00:15:25.717 The room got so big. I was so small. 00:15:25.967 --> 00:15:28.061 How did I get so small? 00:15:28.928 --> 00:15:30.601 I should've gone back on. 00:15:30.763 --> 00:15:32.982 I should've massaged longer. 00:15:33.141 --> 00:15:36.236 I should've gone back on. I massaged longer. I lost it. 00:15:38.646 --> 00:15:40.569 I lost it. 00:15:58.958 --> 00:16:01.837 Have you ever been seen, Cassiel? 00:16:02.503 --> 00:16:03.504 You're looking at me. 00:16:04.088 --> 00:16:08.218 No, not by me, and not by the dying or the delirious. 00:16:09.010 --> 00:16:11.183 Have you ever been seen... 00:16:11.679 --> 00:16:13.898 ...like you were a man? 00:16:14.557 --> 00:16:19.063 In a diner once, a blind woman turned to me all of a sudden... 00:16:19.228 --> 00:16:21.731 ...and asked me to pass her the mustard. 00:16:22.190 --> 00:16:26.036 - But she was blind. - But she knew I was there. 00:16:26.402 --> 00:16:29.531 That doctor, in the operating room... 00:16:31.365 --> 00:16:33.493 ...she looked right at me. 00:16:33.659 --> 00:16:36.333 She didn't see you, Seth. She can't see you. 00:16:36.496 --> 00:16:39.500 No one can see you unless you want them to. 00:16:39.665 --> 00:16:41.133 And if I want her to? 00:16:42.543 --> 00:16:43.760 Why do you want her to? 00:16:45.671 --> 00:16:47.344 To help her. 00:16:47.882 --> 00:16:49.008 Open it! 00:16:49.175 --> 00:16:50.597 Open it now! 00:16:51.177 --> 00:16:52.474 Everybody down! 00:16:52.678 --> 00:16:53.725 Get down! 00:16:54.597 --> 00:16:56.349 Do it! Do it! 00:16:56.557 --> 00:16:58.400 Shit! Just give him the money. 00:16:58.726 --> 00:17:01.275 Did I leave the lights on? I left the lights on. 00:17:01.604 --> 00:17:03.447 I should have gone to Raiphs. 00:17:04.190 --> 00:17:06.488 - Do it! - Relax. I'm doing it, okay? 00:17:07.902 --> 00:17:09.745 I never saw the Grand Canyon. 00:17:09.946 --> 00:17:11.539 I'll never see my grandkids again. 00:17:13.366 --> 00:17:15.209 What am I doing? 00:17:15.743 --> 00:17:17.996 Just be cool. Be cool. 00:17:22.333 --> 00:17:23.334 Be cool, man. 00:17:23.918 --> 00:17:25.545 Be cool. 00:17:30.216 --> 00:17:32.014 Holy shit. 00:17:33.928 --> 00:17:35.805 They don't need to see us. 00:17:54.824 --> 00:17:56.872 Hey, you're early. 00:18:29.442 --> 00:18:30.864 What's going on? 00:18:31.027 --> 00:18:33.405 Ferris was looking for you. 00:18:33.654 --> 00:18:35.201 Maggie. 00:18:44.957 --> 00:18:48.302 - What's going on? I have a mitral valve to do. - They canceled it. 00:18:49.378 --> 00:18:51.096 - Who canceled it? - Sheffield. 00:18:51.464 --> 00:18:52.716 Why are you telling me? 00:18:52.923 --> 00:18:53.924 He was busy. 00:18:54.133 --> 00:18:55.476 He was chickenshit. 00:18:55.760 --> 00:18:57.728 - Maggie, you're sick. - I'm not sick. 00:18:57.928 --> 00:18:59.555 You're sick and you can't operate. 00:18:59.764 --> 00:19:02.517 They've rescheduled for Monday. It's elective. No big deal. 00:19:02.683 --> 00:19:07.029 It is unprofessional and it embarrasses me in front of my staff. 00:19:10.524 --> 00:19:13.073 I saw the chart on Balford. 00:19:13.235 --> 00:19:15.658 - What? - I'm on the committee. It's on review. 00:19:16.530 --> 00:19:18.282 - It wasn't your fault. - I know. 00:19:18.491 --> 00:19:19.959 Then what's the problem? 00:19:24.205 --> 00:19:25.457 I don't know. 00:19:25.623 --> 00:19:29.423 Maggie, you put up a terrific fight. 00:19:30.211 --> 00:19:31.713 Yeah. 00:19:31.879 --> 00:19:33.756 We fight for people's lives, right? 00:19:33.964 --> 00:19:35.682 Uh-huh. 00:19:36.592 --> 00:19:39.141 Don't you ever wonder who it is we're fighting with? 00:19:43.849 --> 00:19:47.149 - So I'm crazy and I'm chemically imbalanced. - You're tired. 00:19:48.270 --> 00:19:49.943 You have moments. 00:19:51.732 --> 00:19:52.904 Why didn't you call me? 00:19:55.611 --> 00:19:57.659 Because I never sleep when you stay over. 00:19:57.863 --> 00:19:59.911 You never sleep whether I stay over or not. 00:20:02.326 --> 00:20:03.418 You're good. 00:20:03.577 --> 00:20:04.874 You know it. 00:20:05.287 --> 00:20:07.506 Come back Monday and get back on the horse. 00:20:09.166 --> 00:20:10.167 Doctor? 00:20:16.924 --> 00:20:18.426 I'll see you. 00:20:44.118 --> 00:20:46.319 "... shore of the pond in my shirtsleeves..." 00:20:46.328 --> 00:20:48.751 "... Amazon basin in the north, once an island sea..." 00:20:49.039 --> 00:20:51.667 "The highest truth on the subject remains unsaid... 00:20:51.959 --> 00:20:54.633 ...probably cannot be said." 00:20:56.797 --> 00:20:59.095 "Not knowing how to react to this confinement... 00:20:59.258 --> 00:21:02.512 ...she begins to putt away from the awareness she had once exposed... 00:21:02.678 --> 00:21:05.602 ...through her recognition of external realities." 00:21:07.516 --> 00:21:09.143 "Commencing search." Searching my soul. 00:21:09.310 --> 00:21:12.359 What happened to the cards? You could touch the cards. 00:21:12.521 --> 00:21:14.740 She's been looking at me for the last half-hour. 00:21:14.940 --> 00:21:16.317 Maybe if I just hang here... 00:21:16.484 --> 00:21:20.864 "This is a delicious evening, when the whole body's one sense..." 00:21:21.030 --> 00:21:25.160 What if I screamed? What if I just screamed right now? 00:21:26.368 --> 00:21:28.496 "When a woman decides to sleep with a man..." 00:21:28.662 --> 00:21:30.585 "I had three chairs in my house..." 00:21:30.748 --> 00:21:33.718 "You knew there would always be a spring... 00:21:33.876 --> 00:21:38.427 ...as you knew the river would flow again after it was frozen. 00:21:38.589 --> 00:21:42.435 When the cold rains kept on and killed the spring... 00:21:42.593 --> 00:21:48.100 ...it was as though a young person had died for no reason." 00:22:23.133 --> 00:22:26.057 All right, they have rescheduled the operation for Monday. 00:22:26.262 --> 00:22:27.605 What happened yesterday? 00:22:27.763 --> 00:22:29.436 They had a golf tournament. 00:22:29.640 --> 00:22:31.233 Who knows with these people? 00:22:31.392 --> 00:22:32.769 Good morning, Mr. Messinger. 00:22:32.935 --> 00:22:36.109 The "G" is soft, like "messenger." 00:22:38.148 --> 00:22:39.149 What is on your lip? 00:22:39.567 --> 00:22:41.990 What? Am I slobbering here? 00:22:47.074 --> 00:22:49.793 - Where did you get that? - What am I, a prisoner? 00:22:49.952 --> 00:22:53.001 You wanna get well or you want Ben & Jerry's? 00:22:53.205 --> 00:22:54.548 This operation is a big deal. 00:22:55.291 --> 00:22:57.510 Continue to eat in this manner... 00:22:57.668 --> 00:23:00.046 ...you might as well skip it. Save the 30 grand. 00:23:00.212 --> 00:23:04.467 If you'd have performed the operation yesterday like you were supposed to... 00:23:04.633 --> 00:23:08.012 ...I'd be sucking carrots through a straw in my arm. What happened? 00:23:08.762 --> 00:23:11.390 Circumstances were not optimal for the procedure. 00:23:11.599 --> 00:23:15.820 Hey, I ain't "the procedure." My name is Nathan Messinger and I'm right here. 00:23:22.484 --> 00:23:25.533 Miss, can you tell me where the bathroom is? 00:23:26.280 --> 00:23:28.157 Okay, to the left? Yeah, okay. 00:24:40.604 --> 00:24:43.073 Hello, hello, hello... 00:24:45.776 --> 00:24:48.575 Floating, floating. Don't pop it. Don't pop it! 00:24:49.488 --> 00:24:51.866 Do you know the Muffin Man 00:24:52.032 --> 00:24:54.205 The Muffin Man, the Muffin Man? 00:25:37.995 --> 00:25:39.542 Maggie. 00:25:40.289 --> 00:25:42.508 - Hi, Anne. - What are you doing here? 00:25:43.167 --> 00:25:44.794 I was on my way up to X-Ray... 00:25:45.085 --> 00:25:47.759 ...and I thought I'd stop in and just... 00:25:48.422 --> 00:25:49.514 ...hide. 00:25:50.382 --> 00:25:51.474 From what? 00:25:53.677 --> 00:25:55.270 I should've gone into pediatrics. 00:25:55.471 --> 00:25:56.893 Oh, no. 00:25:57.056 --> 00:25:59.730 Every guy you meet is either married or a gyno. 00:25:59.892 --> 00:26:03.772 Never date a man who knows more about your vagina than you do. 00:26:05.773 --> 00:26:08.151 Poor little guy. 00:26:09.693 --> 00:26:11.741 Yeah, okay. 00:26:11.904 --> 00:26:13.827 He never stops crying. 00:26:13.989 --> 00:26:16.833 - What's wrong with him? - No insurance. 00:26:17.910 --> 00:26:20.834 Found him in a dumpster behind the House of Pies. 00:26:21.288 --> 00:26:23.290 We worked him up the wazoo for everything... 00:26:23.457 --> 00:26:26.301 ...from drug exposure to diabetes. We got nothing. 00:26:27.503 --> 00:26:28.629 May I? 00:26:30.255 --> 00:26:31.723 Yeah. 00:26:41.642 --> 00:26:42.939 Did you do an ultrasound? 00:26:43.143 --> 00:26:44.861 - You hear a murmur? - Worth a shot. 00:26:45.020 --> 00:26:46.067 Yeah. 00:26:46.230 --> 00:26:49.279 Okay, baby. Yes. 00:26:51.276 --> 00:26:54.029 So, what are you hiding from? 00:26:56.073 --> 00:26:57.871 My patient's wife. 00:26:58.867 --> 00:27:01.871 She wants me to tell her that her husband is gonna be okay... 00:27:02.204 --> 00:27:04.832 ...that I have every confidence... 00:27:05.666 --> 00:27:06.883 ...and I don't. 00:27:07.084 --> 00:27:10.258 And after all this time, and after all this work... 00:27:10.462 --> 00:27:12.840 ...I suddenly have this feeling that... 00:27:14.341 --> 00:27:17.436 ...none of this is in my hands. Nothing. 00:27:18.428 --> 00:27:22.183 And if it isn't... If it isn't, what do I do with that? 00:28:20.991 --> 00:28:22.288 Excuse me. 00:28:30.459 --> 00:28:31.506 Are you a visitor? 00:28:33.253 --> 00:28:34.254 Yes. 00:28:35.297 --> 00:28:38.016 Well, visiting hours have been over since 8:00. 00:28:38.967 --> 00:28:40.594 Why do they have that? 00:28:41.386 --> 00:28:43.809 - What? - Hours. 00:28:44.431 --> 00:28:47.025 Doesn't it help the patient to be visited? 00:28:49.478 --> 00:28:51.276 Who are you visiting? Mr. Messinger? 00:28:51.521 --> 00:28:53.068 Right now? 00:28:53.232 --> 00:28:54.905 Yeah. 00:28:56.985 --> 00:28:58.407 You. 00:29:02.199 --> 00:29:03.576 I don't need a visitor. 00:29:03.825 --> 00:29:04.997 You're not ill? 00:29:05.244 --> 00:29:06.245 No. 00:29:08.372 --> 00:29:10.249 I'm one of the doctors here. 00:29:13.210 --> 00:29:14.632 Are you in despair? 00:29:19.383 --> 00:29:21.511 I lost a patient. 00:29:22.052 --> 00:29:23.895 You did everything you could? 00:29:25.430 --> 00:29:27.899 I was holding his heart in my hand when he died. 00:29:29.476 --> 00:29:30.819 Then he wasn't alone. 00:29:31.019 --> 00:29:32.396 Yes, he was. 00:29:32.604 --> 00:29:33.821 People die. 00:29:34.022 --> 00:29:35.023 Not on my table. 00:29:35.274 --> 00:29:37.868 People die when their bodies give out. 00:29:38.068 --> 00:29:41.618 It's my job to keep their bodies from giving out. Or what am I doing here? 00:29:41.822 --> 00:29:43.745 It wasn't your fault, Maggie. 00:29:43.949 --> 00:29:45.576 I wanted him to live. 00:29:45.784 --> 00:29:47.912 He is living. 00:29:48.078 --> 00:29:49.830 Just not the way you think. 00:29:57.838 --> 00:29:59.511 I don't believe in that. 00:30:00.048 --> 00:30:02.927 Some things are true whether you believe in them or not. 00:30:04.970 --> 00:30:06.187 How did you know my name? 00:30:10.726 --> 00:30:11.727 What's yours? 00:30:14.021 --> 00:30:15.022 Seth. 00:30:17.149 --> 00:30:18.901 Seth. 00:30:23.739 --> 00:30:25.707 You better get out of here, Seth... 00:30:25.866 --> 00:30:28.961 ...or Security's gonna think you're a psych patient. 00:31:40.732 --> 00:31:43.360 - Where are we? - Down a liter. 00:31:44.403 --> 00:31:45.404 Suction. 00:31:46.154 --> 00:31:49.033 I am stuck on Band-Aid brand 00:31:49.199 --> 00:31:51.293 'Cause Band-Aid's stuck on me 00:31:51.785 --> 00:31:56.382 I am stuck on Band-Aid brand 'Cause Band-Aids stuck on me 00:31:57.207 --> 00:32:01.758 No dying now, Mr. Messinger. Not until you give me Seth's phone number. 00:32:03.380 --> 00:32:05.883 I am stuck on Band-Aid brand 00:32:06.049 --> 00:32:07.926 'Cause Band-Aid's stuck on me 00:32:35.745 --> 00:32:38.043 Those eyes. 00:32:38.206 --> 00:32:40.049 The way he looked... 00:32:40.542 --> 00:32:42.761 wright down into me. 00:32:45.088 --> 00:32:46.510 Seth. 00:32:47.466 --> 00:32:50.345 What kind of name is "Seth"? 00:34:49.045 --> 00:34:50.467 Hey. 00:34:51.840 --> 00:34:53.638 I thought you'd be here. 00:34:54.342 --> 00:34:56.015 Salty. 00:34:56.177 --> 00:34:58.930 My transplant tanked at 2 a.m. 00:35:00.056 --> 00:35:01.399 You okay? 00:35:01.558 --> 00:35:02.605 Yeah. 00:35:08.398 --> 00:35:10.571 You might wanna return this. 00:35:14.070 --> 00:35:18.576 That part about the spring? “You knew there'd always be a spring." 00:35:18.742 --> 00:35:20.585 How did you know that...? 00:35:20.785 --> 00:35:23.664 What are you talking about? I didn't give you this book. 00:35:27.083 --> 00:35:28.084 You didn't? 00:35:28.585 --> 00:35:29.928 Where'd you get it? 00:35:41.765 --> 00:35:45.019 Hi. I'm a physician and I think a patient left that in my office. 00:35:45.268 --> 00:35:48.272 - Can you tell me who checked it out? - I can't tell you who. 00:35:48.521 --> 00:35:50.489 I can tell you when. 00:35:51.608 --> 00:35:54.236 - Okay. - All right, give me 5 minutes. 00:36:25.809 --> 00:36:27.686 Hello, Maggie. 00:36:29.771 --> 00:36:31.364 It's nice to see you again. 00:36:31.981 --> 00:36:33.528 It's weird to see you again. 00:36:34.609 --> 00:36:36.577 Weird is nice. 00:36:39.572 --> 00:36:41.199 You like Hemingway? 00:36:41.366 --> 00:36:44.336 Yeah. Yeah, I'm starting to. 00:36:49.749 --> 00:36:51.467 - May I? - Yeah. 00:36:53.336 --> 00:36:56.590 "As I ate the oysters with their strong taste of the sea... 00:36:56.798 --> 00:36:58.926 ...and their faint metallic taste... 00:36:59.467 --> 00:37:01.811 ...as I drank their cold liquid from each shell... 00:37:02.053 --> 00:37:05.102 ...and washed it down with the crisp taste of the wine... 00:37:05.306 --> 00:37:07.274 ...I lost the empty feeling... 00:37:07.475 --> 00:37:09.443 ...and began to be happy." 00:37:10.270 --> 00:37:12.773 He never forgets to describe how things taste. 00:37:14.274 --> 00:37:16.117 I like that. 00:37:18.278 --> 00:37:20.246 Do you come here a lot? 00:37:20.905 --> 00:37:22.202 I live here. 00:37:23.742 --> 00:37:25.244 What do you do? 00:37:25.535 --> 00:37:26.536 Read. 00:37:26.745 --> 00:37:29.043 No, I mean, ha, ha, your work. 00:37:30.373 --> 00:37:31.750 I'm a messenger. 00:37:33.918 --> 00:37:36.012 What kind of messenger? A bike messenger? 00:37:36.463 --> 00:37:38.886 No, I'm a messenger of God. 00:37:41.009 --> 00:37:42.226 Got a message for me? 00:37:43.303 --> 00:37:44.805 I already gave it to you. 00:37:45.013 --> 00:37:49.109 Did you use my pager? I usually don't get my messages unless you beep me. 00:37:50.226 --> 00:37:53.480 You've definitely been beeped. 00:37:55.774 --> 00:37:57.902 - How is Messinger? - He's good. 00:37:58.109 --> 00:38:00.032 The operation went really well. 00:38:00.570 --> 00:38:02.789 - It was a good day. - It was. 00:38:02.989 --> 00:38:05.333 Yeah, I didn't kill anybody today. 00:38:05.909 --> 00:38:09.413 - You're an excellent doctor. - How do you know? 00:38:09.579 --> 00:38:10.705 I have a feeling. 00:38:11.080 --> 00:38:13.253 That's pretty flimsy evidence. 00:38:14.167 --> 00:38:15.259 Close your eyes. 00:38:18.171 --> 00:38:19.639 It's just for a moment. 00:38:40.026 --> 00:38:41.949 What am I doing? 00:38:43.571 --> 00:38:45.915 You're touching me. 00:38:46.825 --> 00:38:48.498 Touch. 00:38:49.828 --> 00:38:51.626 How do you know? 00:38:52.664 --> 00:38:54.382 Because I feel it. 00:39:03.258 --> 00:39:05.352 You should trust that. 00:39:05.510 --> 00:39:07.763 You don't trust it enough. 00:39:19.983 --> 00:39:22.577 - Let's go somewhere. - Where? 00:39:22.735 --> 00:39:23.736 I don't care. 00:39:24.904 --> 00:39:26.201 What do you want to do? 00:39:26.990 --> 00:39:28.537 Anything. 00:40:14.037 --> 00:40:15.664 What's that like? 00:40:18.458 --> 00:40:20.426 What's it taste like? 00:40:20.585 --> 00:40:22.258 Describe it. Like Hemingway. 00:40:24.464 --> 00:40:26.967 Well, it tastes like, um... 00:40:27.675 --> 00:40:28.892 ...a pear. 00:40:29.594 --> 00:40:32.188 You don't know what a pear tastes like? 00:40:32.555 --> 00:40:34.978 I don't know what a pear tastes like to you. 00:40:41.230 --> 00:40:42.823 Sweet... 00:40:42.982 --> 00:40:44.780 ...juicy. 00:40:45.902 --> 00:40:48.951 Soft on your tongue. Grainy... 00:40:49.155 --> 00:40:52.409 ...like sugary sand that dissolves in your mouth. 00:40:56.079 --> 00:40:57.706 How's that? 00:41:00.375 --> 00:41:02.469 It's perfect. 00:41:19.268 --> 00:41:21.270 The first time I looked in a microscope... 00:41:21.437 --> 00:41:24.065 ...that's when I knew I wanted to be a doctor. 00:41:27.193 --> 00:41:29.116 Okay, let me have your hand. 00:41:29.737 --> 00:41:30.989 What for? 00:41:31.197 --> 00:41:32.949 We'll take a look at your blood. 00:41:33.992 --> 00:41:35.744 Not a possibility. 00:41:36.786 --> 00:41:40.290 Oh. Ha, ha. Men. 00:41:40.540 --> 00:41:42.884 I suppose you know a woman's threshold of pain... 00:41:43.126 --> 00:41:45.345 ...is nine times higher than a man's. 00:41:53.886 --> 00:41:55.638 Okay, take a... 00:41:56.139 --> 00:41:58.141 Take a look at that. 00:42:01.310 --> 00:42:03.404 That's bright. 00:42:08.568 --> 00:42:10.366 That's me. 00:42:11.154 --> 00:42:12.155 All those cells. 00:42:13.573 --> 00:42:15.371 That's all you are. 00:42:17.577 --> 00:42:19.921 That and all the space in between. 00:42:21.164 --> 00:42:23.258 If this is all you are... 00:42:23.499 --> 00:42:25.251 ...these cells... 00:42:26.169 --> 00:42:28.422 ...then when they die, that's the end. 00:42:29.714 --> 00:42:31.967 I don't know. I think so. 00:42:33.676 --> 00:42:35.474 How do you explain it? 00:42:35.636 --> 00:42:37.058 What? 00:42:38.222 --> 00:42:40.395 The enduring myth of heaven. 00:42:45.480 --> 00:42:47.858 I used to think that I had it all figured out. 00:42:48.107 --> 00:42:49.233 But you didn't? 00:42:49.650 --> 00:42:50.742 No. 00:42:52.820 --> 00:42:54.242 No. 00:42:56.157 --> 00:43:00.128 Because something happened. Something happened in my OR and I got... 00:43:00.620 --> 00:43:04.124 ...this jolt. I got this feeling that there's something... 00:43:04.582 --> 00:43:08.132 ...bigger out there. Something bigger than me, bigger than you, and it... 00:43:09.754 --> 00:43:12.052 Does that sound crazy? 00:43:12.215 --> 00:43:13.512 No. 00:43:14.675 --> 00:43:17.394 Because I couldn't fix him. I did everything right... 00:43:17.637 --> 00:43:19.890 ...and I couldn't fix him. 00:43:20.556 --> 00:43:22.854 That's not supposed to happen. 00:43:25.103 --> 00:43:26.480 And I... 00:43:27.105 --> 00:43:28.607 And you cried. 00:43:31.692 --> 00:43:33.114 Yeah. 00:43:34.904 --> 00:43:37.999 - Why do people cry? - What do you mean? 00:43:38.699 --> 00:43:41.202 I mean, what happens physically? 00:43:42.078 --> 00:43:44.831 Well, um... 00:43:44.997 --> 00:43:48.592 Tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye. 00:43:48.835 --> 00:43:52.135 When you have an emotion, they overact and create tears. 00:43:52.380 --> 00:43:55.099 Why? Why do they overact? 00:43:57.176 --> 00:43:58.553 I don't know. 00:43:59.428 --> 00:44:00.850 Maybe... 00:44:01.305 --> 00:44:03.307 Maybe emotion becomes so intense... 00:44:03.558 --> 00:44:05.435 ...your body just can't contain it. 00:44:05.685 --> 00:44:09.360 Your mind and your feelings become too powerful. 00:44:09.605 --> 00:44:11.482 Your body weeps. 00:44:17.572 --> 00:44:18.664 I have to go. 00:44:18.865 --> 00:44:21.334 I gotta go. Stay right here. 00:44:21.492 --> 00:44:23.085 Don't go anywhere. 00:44:23.286 --> 00:44:25.380 Stay right there. 00:44:45.683 --> 00:44:47.356 - Get the tube out. - He can't breathe. 00:44:47.602 --> 00:44:49.445 It's because the tube is blocked. 00:45:01.574 --> 00:45:03.372 How you feeling? 00:45:03.534 --> 00:45:05.377 Ready to hit the waves. 00:45:05.536 --> 00:45:08.540 Well, I'm afraid your bodysurfing days are over. 00:45:10.666 --> 00:45:13.385 You got a mean tattoo going there. 00:45:14.045 --> 00:45:15.797 What does your wife think of that? 00:45:15.963 --> 00:45:17.761 That is my wife. 00:45:24.305 --> 00:45:25.431 Okay. 00:45:26.849 --> 00:45:29.602 Check his vitals every 15. 00:45:46.452 --> 00:45:49.205 I can't see you, but I know you're there. 00:45:56.087 --> 00:45:58.089 Go back and tell them that I'm not going. 00:45:59.757 --> 00:46:01.851 Not yet. 00:46:30.371 --> 00:46:31.714 Where have you been? 00:46:32.415 --> 00:46:34.793 Oh, shit. I totally forgot dinner. 00:46:35.001 --> 00:46:36.298 Dinner? 00:46:37.044 --> 00:46:39.593 - With who? - Well, he's a... 00:46:40.131 --> 00:46:41.678 Uh... 00:46:41.841 --> 00:46:44.720 A guy I met. I bumped into him and we got something to eat. 00:46:44.969 --> 00:46:47.063 Did you pack my backpack? 00:46:47.638 --> 00:46:48.764 What else? 00:46:48.931 --> 00:46:51.650 Well, we talked... 00:46:51.809 --> 00:46:53.811 ...and then I got beeped and he disappeared. 00:46:53.978 --> 00:46:55.355 Why did you pack my backpack? 00:46:55.771 --> 00:46:57.489 Earl, what are you doing? 00:46:57.732 --> 00:47:00.485 I thought we'd fly up to Tahoe, use your uncle's cabin... 00:47:00.693 --> 00:47:01.990 ...maybe do a little hiking. 00:47:03.612 --> 00:47:04.704 What? 00:47:07.533 --> 00:47:09.535 God. Is it...? 00:47:09.744 --> 00:47:10.996 Maggie, it's just a tick. 00:47:11.454 --> 00:47:14.333 - Get a match. - We're not going to burn him, Jordan. 00:47:14.582 --> 00:47:16.550 It'll have to back out. Can't leave the head in. 00:47:16.751 --> 00:47:19.846 - We can't just be burning tick heads. - Then get some alcohol. 00:47:20.004 --> 00:47:21.096 I don't have any. 00:47:21.255 --> 00:47:23.599 - You don't have any alcohol? - I don't operate here. 00:47:23.758 --> 00:47:25.476 Well, how about some olive oil? 00:47:25.634 --> 00:47:27.807 Okay. All right. 00:47:28.012 --> 00:47:29.685 Which kind? Jalapefio or rosemary? 00:47:30.473 --> 00:47:31.895 Rosemary. 00:47:33.142 --> 00:47:36.897 So, what did you and your friend...? What did you say his name was? 00:47:38.564 --> 00:47:39.565 Seth. 00:47:39.815 --> 00:47:42.409 What did you two talk about? 00:47:43.402 --> 00:47:44.699 Dying. 00:47:47.073 --> 00:47:50.873 Come on, we deal with life and death every day. Why can't we talk about it? 00:47:51.077 --> 00:47:54.877 I hope you're not gonna become one of those surgeons who prays in the OR. 00:48:02.713 --> 00:48:04.181 Can we talk for a minute? 00:48:04.382 --> 00:48:05.679 We'll talk while camping. 00:48:05.883 --> 00:48:08.306 No, Jordan, I can't go camping now. 00:48:08.511 --> 00:48:10.263 We need to spend some time together. 00:48:10.471 --> 00:48:14.021 Okay. All right, let's see if we can just spend five minutes. 00:48:14.266 --> 00:48:17.486 Let's see if we can just stand still for five minutes and be together. 00:48:18.354 --> 00:48:19.355 Doing what? 00:48:19.730 --> 00:48:21.858 Just being here. 00:48:22.942 --> 00:48:25.036 - I'll get the trail map. - No. No, no. 00:48:25.194 --> 00:48:26.320 No, I mean it. 00:48:26.779 --> 00:48:28.156 Nothing but us. 00:48:31.534 --> 00:48:32.831 What am I supposed to do? 00:48:34.286 --> 00:48:35.708 Just look at me. 00:48:47.800 --> 00:48:48.926 You can't do it. 00:48:50.845 --> 00:48:52.518 You can't do it. 00:48:52.763 --> 00:48:55.391 - You flinched. You lose! - You cheat. 00:49:09.864 --> 00:49:12.993 That old black magic called 00:49:13.242 --> 00:49:15.085 Love 00:49:15.578 --> 00:49:17.205 Thank you very much. 00:49:17.455 --> 00:49:21.210 Welcome back. We've been talking to mothers who are members of the KKK. 00:49:23.419 --> 00:49:25.092 You want to watch anything? 00:49:28.799 --> 00:49:30.176 Me neither. 00:49:38.642 --> 00:49:40.565 How do you know when I'm here? 00:49:46.275 --> 00:49:47.572 I know. 00:49:49.778 --> 00:49:51.405 Jeez, you look good. 00:49:52.531 --> 00:49:56.286 I forgot how good everybody looked. 00:49:58.537 --> 00:50:00.631 Thirty years of silence. 00:50:00.873 --> 00:50:04.628 You got guts, kid, showing yourself like that. I appreciate that. I do. 00:50:04.877 --> 00:50:06.299 It's gonna make it easier. 00:50:07.630 --> 00:50:09.928 I gotta tell you, I feel fine. 00:50:10.174 --> 00:50:14.145 You might want to check your orders because I sure don't feel like I'm dying. 00:50:14.345 --> 00:50:15.642 You're not dying. 00:50:15.846 --> 00:50:19.271 Oh, right. Then how come you're hanging around my room all the time? 00:50:19.517 --> 00:50:22.020 I'm the only one with his ass hanging out of his dress. 00:50:23.312 --> 00:50:24.814 Unless... 00:50:28.317 --> 00:50:29.990 Could it be... 00:50:31.070 --> 00:50:32.367 ...the doctor? 00:50:33.906 --> 00:50:35.283 Sure. 00:50:35.533 --> 00:50:37.080 The doctor. 00:50:37.826 --> 00:50:39.669 Oh, she's pretty. 00:50:39.912 --> 00:50:41.505 A little flat-chested... 00:50:41.747 --> 00:50:43.590 ...but all you need's a handful. 00:50:43.791 --> 00:50:45.964 - Who are you? - This is good. 00:50:46.335 --> 00:50:48.463 This is what they call... 00:50:48.712 --> 00:50:50.885 ..."serendipitous." 00:50:51.131 --> 00:50:54.601 Look that up in the dictionary, you'll see a picture of you and me. 00:50:54.802 --> 00:50:57.772 Thank you. Thank you, okay? 00:51:00.516 --> 00:51:01.938 Okay. 00:51:03.018 --> 00:51:04.770 You ready to deal? 00:51:05.271 --> 00:51:08.115 Because I can answer all your questions, friend. 00:51:18.033 --> 00:51:19.706 How's the French toast this evening? 00:51:19.868 --> 00:51:20.869 Fabulous. 00:51:21.036 --> 00:51:22.253 Well, set me up. 00:51:30.796 --> 00:51:32.890 Guess I should introduce myself. 00:51:33.549 --> 00:51:35.051 Come on, give me your hand. 00:51:36.844 --> 00:51:39.222 Put it in mine. There you go. 00:51:39.430 --> 00:51:41.432 A little tighter. Tighter. There you go. 00:51:41.682 --> 00:51:43.229 No, that's too much. 00:51:43.434 --> 00:51:45.653 There you go. Good grip. 00:51:46.687 --> 00:51:48.109 Nathaniel Messinger. 00:51:48.355 --> 00:51:50.153 Glutton, hedonist... 00:51:50.399 --> 00:51:54.745 ...former celestial body, recent addition to the human race. 00:51:58.616 --> 00:52:00.289 I don't believe you. 00:52:00.534 --> 00:52:01.831 You want proof? 00:52:02.328 --> 00:52:04.171 You hang out at a library. 00:52:04.413 --> 00:52:06.211 You can speak every language. 00:52:06.415 --> 00:52:08.383 You travel with the speed of thought. 00:52:08.626 --> 00:52:10.628 And you're reading my mind right now. 00:52:11.045 --> 00:52:12.046 Stop that. 00:52:12.338 --> 00:52:13.464 You're doing it. 00:52:15.215 --> 00:52:16.387 It's impossible. 00:52:16.800 --> 00:52:19.849 "Some things are true whether you believe them or not." 00:52:22.389 --> 00:52:24.107 How? 00:52:24.266 --> 00:52:25.563 - You choose. - Choose? 00:52:25.809 --> 00:52:27.436 To fall to Earth. 00:52:27.686 --> 00:52:30.656 You take the plunge, the tumble, the dive. 00:52:30.898 --> 00:52:32.946 You jump off a bridge. Leap out a window. 00:52:33.192 --> 00:52:36.116 You just make up your mind to do it and you do it. 00:52:39.239 --> 00:52:42.368 You wake up all smelly and aching from head to toe... 00:52:42.576 --> 00:52:44.419 ...and hungrier than you've ever been... 00:52:44.578 --> 00:52:48.128 ...only you have no idea what hunger is or any of that stuff... 00:52:48.374 --> 00:52:52.379 ...so it's all real confusing and painful, but very, very good. 00:52:55.339 --> 00:52:56.761 Human. 00:52:58.258 --> 00:52:59.510 Listen, kid: 00:53:00.969 --> 00:53:04.064 He gave these bozos the greatest gift in the universe. 00:53:04.306 --> 00:53:06.559 You think he didn't give it to us too? 00:53:06.767 --> 00:53:07.768 Which gift? 00:53:08.352 --> 00:53:09.979 Free will, brother. 00:53:11.188 --> 00:53:12.815 Free will. 00:53:40.342 --> 00:53:41.935 Couldn't get a job. 00:53:42.469 --> 00:53:44.346 No past, no training. 00:53:44.596 --> 00:53:46.098 No ID. 00:53:46.890 --> 00:53:50.269 Then one day, I was walking past a building site. 00:53:50.519 --> 00:53:51.941 A skyscraper. 00:53:52.187 --> 00:53:54.815 And I thought, "I could do that." 00:53:55.065 --> 00:53:56.988 You see, these people down here... 00:53:57.234 --> 00:54:00.283 ...a lot of them are afraid of heights, you know what I'm saying? 00:54:00.529 --> 00:54:03.749 That makes me uniquely qualified. 00:54:04.324 --> 00:54:08.079 And besides, it feels like a little bit of home up here. 00:54:08.328 --> 00:54:09.705 And I like what I do. 00:54:09.913 --> 00:54:11.130 I'm good at it. 00:54:13.667 --> 00:54:15.886 These things'll kill you. 00:54:17.671 --> 00:54:19.014 Are there others? 00:54:19.715 --> 00:54:21.308 Others like you? 00:54:21.675 --> 00:54:23.177 Yeah, they're out there. 00:54:23.635 --> 00:54:27.560 You see them, but most of the time you just walk on by. 00:54:27.973 --> 00:54:31.773 Nobody likes to think of the old life. You know, what they gave up. 00:54:32.352 --> 00:54:34.025 Then why'd you do it? 00:54:43.405 --> 00:54:45.032 My daughter, Ruth... 00:54:45.282 --> 00:54:47.159 ...her stupid husband, Frank... 00:54:47.743 --> 00:54:49.211 ...and my grandkids. 00:54:49.453 --> 00:54:51.956 Petie's 4, Hannah's 6. 00:54:55.292 --> 00:54:58.512 And this is my wife, Teresa. 00:55:01.215 --> 00:55:02.558 Did you... 00:55:03.509 --> 00:55:05.182 ...tell her who you were? 00:55:06.178 --> 00:55:08.772 I started to try once or twice. 00:55:09.181 --> 00:55:11.104 Then I thought, "Why do that to her?" 00:55:11.350 --> 00:55:12.647 Do what? 00:55:13.227 --> 00:55:15.025 It's too much for them. 00:55:16.313 --> 00:55:18.736 People don't believe in us anymore. 00:55:28.242 --> 00:55:30.540 Do they still gather together at sunrise? 00:55:31.078 --> 00:55:33.001 And sunset, yes. 00:55:34.456 --> 00:55:36.254 Take me there? 00:55:47.219 --> 00:55:49.142 Can you hear it? 00:55:59.690 --> 00:56:00.691 No. 00:56:19.710 --> 00:56:21.303 I can't hear that! 00:56:21.503 --> 00:56:23.926 But you can't feel this! 00:56:24.423 --> 00:56:25.766 Nathan! 00:56:32.931 --> 00:56:34.228 You have to go back. 00:56:34.474 --> 00:56:36.602 Not until I catch the big wave. 00:56:40.939 --> 00:56:42.566 Wait. 00:56:42.774 --> 00:56:43.900 Wait. 00:56:44.151 --> 00:56:45.619 Wait for what? 00:56:46.778 --> 00:56:47.904 Swim! 00:57:23.690 --> 00:57:25.692 And then you just... 00:57:26.151 --> 00:57:27.277 ...fall. 00:57:27.861 --> 00:57:29.408 - Fall? - Dive. 00:57:30.447 --> 00:57:32.495 You make up your mind to do it... 00:57:33.492 --> 00:57:34.960 ...and you do it. 00:57:35.494 --> 00:57:37.792 And when you wake up, you're...? 00:57:38.455 --> 00:57:39.832 Yes. 00:57:42.125 --> 00:57:44.002 To smell the air. 00:57:44.461 --> 00:57:45.963 Taste water. 00:57:46.213 --> 00:57:47.430 Read a newspaper. 00:57:47.631 --> 00:57:50.054 - To lie. - Through your teeth. 00:57:50.717 --> 00:57:51.718 To feed the dog. 00:57:54.638 --> 00:57:55.981 Touch her hair. 00:57:58.517 --> 00:58:00.485 What are you waiting for? 00:58:05.649 --> 00:58:08.323 There is so much beauty up here. 00:58:10.028 --> 00:58:11.530 Yes. 00:58:36.430 --> 00:58:37.647 Here you are again. 00:58:39.224 --> 00:58:41.101 We're releasing your friend tomorrow. 00:58:41.268 --> 00:58:42.520 That's good. 00:58:42.769 --> 00:58:46.148 His family's having a kind of a welcome-home party. 00:58:46.606 --> 00:58:48.028 Are you...? 00:58:49.276 --> 00:58:50.869 Will you be going? 00:58:51.278 --> 00:58:52.746 Will you be going? 00:58:55.574 --> 00:58:56.575 This is Earl. 00:58:56.742 --> 00:58:58.119 He told me. 00:58:59.244 --> 00:59:00.496 What else does he tell you? 00:59:00.704 --> 00:59:04.675 He worries that you never sleep. And he loves to see you smile. 00:59:05.417 --> 00:59:08.466 Sometimes I think Earl's the only one who understands me. 00:59:08.712 --> 00:59:09.952 What about your boyfriend? 00:59:10.380 --> 00:59:11.723 Do you love him? 00:59:14.718 --> 00:59:16.061 Love? I don't know. 00:59:16.303 --> 00:59:17.646 What does that mean? 00:59:18.555 --> 00:59:20.649 I was hoping you could tell me. 00:59:21.600 --> 00:59:23.728 Well, it's a word... 00:59:23.977 --> 00:59:26.651 ...that describes a chemical react... 00:59:28.231 --> 00:59:30.905 It's just crap. I'm full of crap. 00:59:32.819 --> 00:59:36.198 I wait all day, just hoping for one more minute with you... 00:59:36.448 --> 00:59:38.121 ...and I don't even know you. 00:59:38.617 --> 00:59:40.369 What do you want to know? 00:59:42.370 --> 00:59:44.338 Why you wear the same clothes all the time? 00:59:44.498 --> 00:59:46.546 Why won't you give me your phone number? 00:59:47.626 --> 00:59:48.798 Are you married? 00:59:49.503 --> 00:59:50.550 No. 00:59:51.421 --> 00:59:52.422 Are you homeless? 00:59:54.007 --> 00:59:55.179 No. 00:59:56.218 --> 00:59:57.390 Are you a drummer? 01:00:02.307 --> 01:00:04.309 Why don't you ever touch me? 01:00:08.271 --> 01:00:10.399 I don't want to hurt you. 01:00:12.484 --> 01:00:14.407 You won't hurt me. 01:00:39.010 --> 01:00:40.387 Did you feel that? 01:00:53.859 --> 01:00:56.203 If I could make you understand... 01:00:59.406 --> 01:01:00.908 I understand. 01:01:05.704 --> 01:01:07.206 I'll see you around. 01:02:12.270 --> 01:02:13.692 Hey, doc! 01:02:16.233 --> 01:02:19.703 No, give me the whole package. Come here. 01:02:19.903 --> 01:02:21.405 - Hi. - Thanks for coming. 01:02:21.655 --> 01:02:22.998 You look great. 01:02:24.824 --> 01:02:25.825 Is this heaven? 01:02:26.159 --> 01:02:27.752 Look at this. 01:02:31.998 --> 01:02:33.796 Come on, let's meet some people. 01:02:34.209 --> 01:02:35.677 You got an appetite? 01:02:40.257 --> 01:02:41.679 Have a beer, Seth. 01:02:42.509 --> 01:02:43.510 Where you from? 01:02:44.761 --> 01:02:45.762 Up. 01:02:45.929 --> 01:02:48.603 - North. Uh, ahem, Canada. - Oh, yeah? 01:02:55.313 --> 01:02:56.860 Listen. Can you hear? 01:02:57.816 --> 01:02:59.284 I'm growing. 01:02:59.985 --> 01:03:00.986 Smile, Hannah. 01:03:04.239 --> 01:03:06.492 Oh, how cute. 01:03:10.662 --> 01:03:12.039 How long have you known Seth? 01:03:14.040 --> 01:03:15.337 Not very long. 01:03:16.835 --> 01:03:19.133 But I feel like I've known him forever. 01:03:20.213 --> 01:03:22.215 Honey, that hurts. 01:03:24.342 --> 01:03:26.060 You're just like Grandpa. 01:03:28.138 --> 01:03:29.310 Come on. 01:03:29.973 --> 01:03:31.566 Let's see if the cookies are done. 01:03:31.808 --> 01:03:32.855 Come on, Seth. 01:03:33.101 --> 01:03:35.320 - Can I help you? - Yeah, great. 01:03:40.692 --> 01:03:41.989 How did you two meet? 01:03:43.695 --> 01:03:46.494 He works with me over at the site. Construction work. 01:03:47.449 --> 01:03:48.792 I thought he was a messenger. 01:03:49.868 --> 01:03:51.916 Yeah, he's one of those... 01:03:52.162 --> 01:03:53.163 ..."hyphenates." 01:03:54.039 --> 01:03:55.757 I'll be right back. 01:04:12.390 --> 01:04:14.392 Seth, Seth. 01:04:15.310 --> 01:04:16.732 Hey. 01:04:35.121 --> 01:04:37.294 Here, can you cut this up? 01:04:44.589 --> 01:04:47.058 So in what province is it in Canada were you born? 01:04:48.093 --> 01:04:49.891 I wasn't born in Canada. 01:04:54.516 --> 01:04:55.859 What are your parents' names? 01:05:04.359 --> 01:05:06.032 No parents. 01:05:13.076 --> 01:05:15.955 You have very delicate hands for a construction worker. 01:05:16.162 --> 01:05:17.709 I'm not a construction worker. 01:05:17.997 --> 01:05:20.216 Very pale hands. Let me see. 01:05:24.170 --> 01:05:26.548 - Why did you do that? - Let me see your hand. 01:05:26.756 --> 01:05:27.757 No. 01:05:29.843 --> 01:05:30.844 What's your last name? 01:05:31.052 --> 01:05:32.269 You know my last name. 01:05:32.470 --> 01:05:33.722 No, I don't. 01:05:36.015 --> 01:05:37.062 Plate. 01:05:37.892 --> 01:05:38.939 Seth Plate? 01:05:45.692 --> 01:05:47.660 I cut you. 01:05:49.195 --> 01:05:51.072 I cut you. 01:05:52.824 --> 01:05:56.795 I cut you with that knife. I felt it go in. You felt it. 01:05:57.787 --> 01:05:59.130 Not the way you do. 01:06:00.707 --> 01:06:02.254 The way I do? What does that mean? 01:06:02.542 --> 01:06:06.137 You mean the way a doctor does? The way a woman does? What? 01:06:06.337 --> 01:06:07.759 The way... 01:06:09.048 --> 01:06:10.049 ...a human does. 01:06:12.552 --> 01:06:13.974 I have no sense of touch. 01:06:15.221 --> 01:06:16.222 You feel that? 01:06:16.389 --> 01:06:18.187 You don't have to be frightened. 01:06:18.349 --> 01:06:19.726 You freak! 01:06:19.893 --> 01:06:21.145 You liar! 01:06:21.728 --> 01:06:23.605 Who... What are you? 01:06:23.813 --> 01:06:25.406 I came to take Mr. Balford... 01:06:26.774 --> 01:06:28.697 ...and I saw you. 01:06:30.361 --> 01:06:32.614 I couldn't take my eyes off you. 01:06:33.448 --> 01:06:35.291 How you fought for him. 01:06:37.368 --> 01:06:39.291 And you looked right at me... 01:06:39.913 --> 01:06:41.631 ...like I was a man. 01:06:42.207 --> 01:06:45.086 - "To take Mr. Balford"? - I was there. 01:06:45.376 --> 01:06:49.301 - We're always there in every room. - What are you talking about? 01:06:49.797 --> 01:06:51.765 I was there in the stairwell... 01:06:52.217 --> 01:06:54.436 ...when you cried for your patient. 01:06:54.594 --> 01:06:57.598 And I touched you. Remember? 01:06:59.098 --> 01:07:00.645 Why are you doing this? 01:07:02.060 --> 01:07:04.358 Because I'm in love with you. 01:07:11.819 --> 01:07:13.913 I don't believe you. 01:07:14.322 --> 01:07:15.915 Do you feel that? 01:07:18.618 --> 01:07:20.086 You don't want to believe me. 01:07:20.745 --> 01:07:22.713 I cannot conceive of it! 01:07:24.123 --> 01:07:26.125 - Maggie. - Just get out! 01:07:27.293 --> 01:07:29.387 Get out! 01:08:18.886 --> 01:08:20.433 Doctor? 01:08:22.974 --> 01:08:24.772 Doctor? 01:09:11.105 --> 01:09:12.527 Hello? 01:09:19.197 --> 01:09:20.619 Seth? 01:09:23.951 --> 01:09:25.578 Are you here? 01:10:22.093 --> 01:10:24.095 I wanna see you. 01:10:26.514 --> 01:10:28.642 Let me see you. 01:10:57.920 --> 01:10:59.763 Just stay. 01:11:02.300 --> 01:11:04.644 Just stay until I fall asleep. 01:11:41.714 --> 01:11:43.887 Oh, yes! 01:11:46.385 --> 01:11:48.137 Thank you. 01:12:07.406 --> 01:12:09.124 - Maggie. - Hey. 01:12:09.283 --> 01:12:11.206 - The baby can't sleep. - What? 01:12:11.911 --> 01:12:13.754 Has anyone ever seen the baby sleep? 01:12:13.913 --> 01:12:16.712 I don't know. Let's check him out. 01:12:20.461 --> 01:12:22.008 - Okay. - Hey. 01:12:25.883 --> 01:12:27.055 Choanal atresia. 01:12:27.301 --> 01:12:29.770 There's hardly any air getting through. 01:12:30.388 --> 01:12:31.389 How did you know? 01:12:33.391 --> 01:12:35.234 I just... 01:12:36.602 --> 01:12:38.195 ...knew! 01:13:03.588 --> 01:13:05.135 Maggie? 01:13:05.298 --> 01:13:06.424 Yeah. 01:13:06.591 --> 01:13:08.218 Are you alone? 01:13:08.593 --> 01:13:10.015 Yeah. 01:13:13.681 --> 01:13:16.309 Pretty intuitive call on the baby. 01:13:16.475 --> 01:13:18.022 Think so? 01:13:19.145 --> 01:13:21.022 I couldn't have done it better. 01:13:21.731 --> 01:13:24.029 Well, that's a compliment. 01:13:38.289 --> 01:13:39.836 What are you doing? 01:13:40.166 --> 01:13:41.634 I'm spending time with you. 01:13:44.503 --> 01:13:46.801 Will you marry me? 01:13:46.964 --> 01:13:48.887 We can finally get up to Tahoe. 01:13:49.091 --> 01:13:50.638 Get married on the Nevada side... 01:13:50.968 --> 01:13:53.141 ...honeymoon and be back before we miss a case. 01:13:55.264 --> 01:13:58.268 What do you want me to do? Get down on my knees? 01:13:58.434 --> 01:13:59.731 What do you want me to say? 01:14:00.686 --> 01:14:02.780 We belong together. 01:14:02.939 --> 01:14:04.612 We're the same species. 01:14:06.317 --> 01:14:08.240 - Jordan... - I'm not... 01:14:11.197 --> 01:14:15.122 I'm not very good at matters of the heart. I mean... 01:14:15.284 --> 01:14:17.707 ...the proverbial heart. 01:14:20.331 --> 01:14:21.878 Please be my wife. 01:14:23.000 --> 01:14:24.593 Just... 01:14:26.379 --> 01:14:27.596 Just think about it. 01:14:43.521 --> 01:14:45.148 Breathe in. 01:14:48.401 --> 01:14:50.199 Breathe in. 01:15:03.040 --> 01:15:04.792 I'm good. 01:15:12.049 --> 01:15:17.101 I don't understand a God who would let us meet, if we could never be together. 01:15:20.349 --> 01:15:21.441 He didn't tell you. 01:15:25.646 --> 01:15:26.647 Tell me what? 01:15:27.273 --> 01:15:28.570 Maybe you should ask him. 01:15:29.316 --> 01:15:31.489 No, I'm asking you. 01:15:42.538 --> 01:15:44.461 Seth knows no fear... 01:15:44.623 --> 01:15:46.000 ...no pain... 01:15:46.167 --> 01:15:47.714 ...no hunger. 01:15:48.878 --> 01:15:51.757 He hears music in the sunrise. 01:15:53.591 --> 01:15:55.514 But he'd give it all up. 01:15:55.676 --> 01:15:57.178 He loves you that much. 01:15:59.930 --> 01:16:01.932 I don't understand. 01:16:04.727 --> 01:16:06.729 He can fall. 01:16:06.896 --> 01:16:09.695 He can give up his existence as he knows it. 01:16:09.857 --> 01:16:13.031 He can give up eternity and become... 01:16:13.194 --> 01:16:14.366 ...one of us. 01:16:15.196 --> 01:16:17.324 It's up to you. 01:16:18.491 --> 01:16:20.459 How do you know this? 01:16:25.998 --> 01:16:28.046 Because I did it. 01:16:48.604 --> 01:16:50.026 Seth? 01:16:55.653 --> 01:16:57.075 Seth? 01:16:59.490 --> 01:17:00.912 Seth? 01:17:05.121 --> 01:17:07.590 Seth, I need to talk to you. 01:17:11.502 --> 01:17:13.630 Seth, please. 01:17:16.507 --> 01:17:18.430 Please be here. 01:17:19.927 --> 01:17:22.271 Oh, God, help me through this. 01:17:33.232 --> 01:17:35.655 You are so beautiful. 01:17:37.611 --> 01:17:39.989 You'll always be that way. 01:17:42.908 --> 01:17:44.831 Jordan asked me to go away with him... 01:17:45.035 --> 01:17:47.037 ...and get married. 01:17:49.331 --> 01:17:51.299 He knows me. 01:17:52.126 --> 01:17:54.174 He knows the demands of my work. 01:17:54.712 --> 01:17:56.806 You don't love him. 01:17:57.673 --> 01:17:59.425 He and I are the same. 01:18:01.886 --> 01:18:03.888 And I want that. 01:18:07.057 --> 01:18:10.903 And I want somebody who can feel my hand when I touch him. 01:18:12.646 --> 01:18:14.273 But you can feel me. 01:18:14.565 --> 01:18:16.283 You felt me. 01:18:17.985 --> 01:18:20.204 I want to say goodbye. 01:18:21.989 --> 01:18:23.957 I don't want to see you again. 01:22:07.840 --> 01:22:09.387 Yoo-hoo! 01:22:25.149 --> 01:22:27.368 Hey. Hey, buddy. 01:22:27.651 --> 01:22:29.119 You can't be in here. 01:22:29.987 --> 01:22:30.988 Do you see me? 01:22:32.906 --> 01:22:34.749 Do you see me? 01:22:34.908 --> 01:22:36.330 Can you see me? 01:22:36.535 --> 01:22:37.752 Oh, yeah. We can see you. 01:22:37.953 --> 01:22:39.546 Your invisible drug wore off. 01:22:39.705 --> 01:22:41.252 Is this blood? 01:22:41.415 --> 01:22:42.416 This is blood! 01:22:42.708 --> 01:22:43.834 Is it red? 01:22:44.418 --> 01:22:45.635 Red? 01:22:45.794 --> 01:22:47.546 Is it red? 01:22:48.422 --> 01:22:49.969 Color. 01:22:50.174 --> 01:22:52.552 What color were the drugs you took? 01:22:53.594 --> 01:22:55.141 Better get your butt out of here. 01:22:55.846 --> 01:22:56.972 You got somewhere to go? 01:23:00.934 --> 01:23:02.686 Maggie. 01:23:06.648 --> 01:23:08.195 Maggie. 01:23:14.364 --> 01:23:17.208 Down and down and down I go 01:23:17.493 --> 01:23:19.712 Round and round and round I go 01:23:20.454 --> 01:23:22.081 Round and spin 01:23:22.372 --> 01:23:24.500 Loving the spin Pm in 01:23:24.833 --> 01:23:27.336 Loving that old black magic 01:23:27.628 --> 01:23:29.596 Called love 01:23:31.089 --> 01:23:32.966 Love! 01:23:34.301 --> 01:23:35.473 Hi! 01:23:38.764 --> 01:23:40.186 Hello. 01:23:45.437 --> 01:23:48.237 I was wondering if you could tell me how to get to the county hospital? 01:24:32.901 --> 01:24:34.073 Can I help you, sir? 01:24:34.319 --> 01:24:37.118 I'll just take a moment to catch my breath. 01:24:38.156 --> 01:24:39.703 Breath! 01:24:42.494 --> 01:24:43.541 Maggie Rice. 01:24:45.289 --> 01:24:46.506 Are you a patient? 01:24:46.873 --> 01:24:48.546 No. I just need to find her, please. 01:24:48.875 --> 01:24:51.594 You'll have to call her office. Someone there can help you. 01:24:51.878 --> 01:24:53.095 Do you know where she is? 01:24:53.880 --> 01:24:55.848 No, sir, I do not know where she is. 01:24:59.177 --> 01:25:00.804 You have this computer... 01:25:02.055 --> 01:25:04.353 ...and all this technology. Can't you look her up? 01:25:05.225 --> 01:25:06.272 Anne! 01:25:08.103 --> 01:25:09.605 Where's Maggie? 01:25:14.693 --> 01:25:16.991 So you're a friend of Maggie's? 01:25:18.530 --> 01:25:19.782 What happened to you? 01:25:20.115 --> 01:25:21.116 Sorry. 01:25:21.533 --> 01:25:22.659 It's okay. 01:25:25.787 --> 01:25:27.004 I fell. 01:25:27.497 --> 01:25:30.171 Evidently. Off a train? 01:25:31.126 --> 01:25:32.719 I fell in love. 01:25:36.757 --> 01:25:38.475 Anne? 01:25:40.093 --> 01:25:41.686 Please help me find her. 01:25:46.892 --> 01:25:50.271 She went to Lake Tahoe. Her uncle has a cabin on the Nevada side. 01:25:50.479 --> 01:25:51.571 Wait! 01:26:23.178 --> 01:26:24.851 Cassiel. 01:26:25.347 --> 01:26:27.065 Are you there? 01:26:35.565 --> 01:26:36.817 Hello. 01:27:31.705 --> 01:27:33.457 Where you headed? 01:27:34.666 --> 01:27:35.667 Tahoe! 01:27:36.960 --> 01:27:38.177 Reno! 01:27:38.503 --> 01:27:39.595 Tahoe! 01:27:40.255 --> 01:27:41.632 I'm going to Reno. 01:27:41.840 --> 01:27:43.387 I'm going to Tahoe. 01:27:43.925 --> 01:27:46.303 Hop in. We'll figure it out when we get there. 01:29:04.673 --> 01:29:06.141 Earl? 01:30:03.607 --> 01:30:05.655 Am I too late? 01:30:06.902 --> 01:30:07.903 Too late? 01:30:08.820 --> 01:30:09.946 Jordan? 01:30:14.367 --> 01:30:16.836 I couldn't marry Jordan. 01:30:19.456 --> 01:30:21.675 I'm in love with you. 01:30:29.299 --> 01:30:31.142 What happened? 01:30:34.095 --> 01:30:35.938 Free will. 01:30:50.654 --> 01:30:52.656 I feel you. 01:32:11.234 --> 01:32:12.907 Do you feel that? 01:32:13.069 --> 01:32:14.571 Yes. 01:32:16.156 --> 01:32:17.908 And that? 01:32:21.536 --> 01:32:24.915 How's it feel? Tell me what it feels like. 01:32:25.373 --> 01:32:27.091 I can't. 01:32:28.752 --> 01:32:30.220 Try. 01:32:31.588 --> 01:32:33.135 Warm. 01:32:38.219 --> 01:32:40.096 Aching. 01:32:57.655 --> 01:32:59.328 It's okay. 01:33:01.743 --> 01:33:03.040 We fit together. 01:33:03.203 --> 01:33:04.830 I know. 01:33:05.080 --> 01:33:07.629 We were made to fit together. 01:33:28.686 --> 01:33:31.690 I always asked the dying what they liked best about living. 01:33:34.400 --> 01:33:36.494 Wrote it down in my book. 01:33:38.696 --> 01:33:40.289 This is it. 01:33:41.491 --> 01:33:43.619 This is what I like best. 01:33:44.202 --> 01:33:46.705 You haven't even started yet. 01:33:47.122 --> 01:33:49.716 We have our whole lives together. 01:33:49.874 --> 01:33:51.171 You and me. 01:33:51.334 --> 01:33:53.587 Mr. and Mrs. Plate. 01:35:31.392 --> 01:35:33.110 Hey. 01:39:26.210 --> 01:39:27.632 Maggie. 01:39:28.588 --> 01:39:29.680 Seth. 01:39:29.839 --> 01:39:31.807 - I'll get help. - You're here. 01:39:32.508 --> 01:39:34.010 - Stay. - I should get help. 01:39:34.260 --> 01:39:36.308 Don't go. The driver went. 01:39:36.512 --> 01:39:37.855 Please stay. 01:39:38.181 --> 01:39:40.684 Please stay with me. 01:39:40.850 --> 01:39:42.318 I'm scared. 01:39:47.023 --> 01:39:49.526 - I screwed up. - No. 01:39:49.942 --> 01:39:51.819 I wanted to show you everything. 01:39:52.278 --> 01:39:53.495 You will. 01:39:57.158 --> 01:40:00.662 You came all this way. 01:40:01.245 --> 01:40:03.043 I'm sorry. 01:40:03.831 --> 01:40:05.799 Oh, God, no, Maggie. 01:40:06.876 --> 01:40:08.298 To touch you... 01:40:08.461 --> 01:40:09.633 ...and to feel you. 01:40:10.588 --> 01:40:13.842 To be able to hold your hand right now. 01:40:14.008 --> 01:40:15.225 You know what that means? 01:40:15.426 --> 01:40:18.680 Do you know how much I love you? 01:40:22.642 --> 01:40:24.986 Keep looking at me, okay? 01:40:26.354 --> 01:40:28.106 Look right in my eyes. 01:40:30.066 --> 01:40:32.910 - Someone's out there. - Maggie. 01:40:33.778 --> 01:40:37.282 Don't look at them. Please, Maggie, no, don't you look at them. 01:40:37.448 --> 01:40:39.826 Is this what happens? 01:40:46.123 --> 01:40:47.466 Yes. 01:40:53.631 --> 01:40:56.134 This is what happens. 01:40:59.804 --> 01:41:01.852 I'm not afraid. 01:41:05.685 --> 01:41:07.813 When they ask me... 01:41:09.522 --> 01:41:11.365 ...what I liked the best... 01:41:13.150 --> 01:41:14.493 ...I'll tell them... 01:41:14.652 --> 01:41:16.654 ...it was you. 01:41:46.267 --> 01:41:47.940 God! 01:43:50.933 --> 01:43:53.903 I can't see you, but I know you're there. 01:43:55.980 --> 01:43:57.903 I'm sorry. 01:44:00.943 --> 01:44:02.490 Get out. 01:44:03.070 --> 01:44:04.617 Seth. 01:44:04.780 --> 01:44:07.408 Was it you? Were you the one? Were you there? 01:44:07.950 --> 01:44:09.372 No. 01:44:10.119 --> 01:44:11.371 Why did he do this? 01:44:11.579 --> 01:44:12.671 I don't know. 01:44:12.872 --> 01:44:14.089 Because her number was up? 01:44:15.249 --> 01:44:17.001 What do you want me to say? 01:44:24.633 --> 01:44:28.137 - Am I being punished? - You know better than that. 01:44:29.472 --> 01:44:31.190 That's life. 01:44:32.892 --> 01:44:34.690 You're living now. 01:44:35.978 --> 01:44:37.480 And one day... 01:44:37.646 --> 01:44:39.273 ...you'll be dying. 01:44:45.780 --> 01:44:46.827 What's it like? 01:44:48.157 --> 01:44:49.374 What? 01:44:50.201 --> 01:44:51.202 Warmth. 01:44:53.496 --> 01:44:55.339 It's wonderful. 01:44:56.999 --> 01:44:59.718 If you'd known this was going to happen... 01:45:00.878 --> 01:45:02.221 ...would you have done it? 01:45:08.302 --> 01:45:10.851 I would rather have had... 01:45:11.847 --> 01:45:14.396 ...one breath of her hair... 01:45:16.227 --> 01:45:19.857 ...one kiss of her mouth... 01:45:22.566 --> 01:45:25.035 ...one touch of her hand... 01:45:26.695 --> 01:45:29.414 ...than an eternity without it. 01:45:31.867 --> 01:45:33.414 One. 01:45:33.438 --> 01:45:53.438 Telegram Channel and Instagram Page .:: @bollbolljan_com ::.